Chapter 20

Brick

Berserk was still in love with me. There was nothing that I could really do about that. She has always had a strong relationship with me. She has never really taken a break up very well but some how she made it through. Now she has to make a scene to get the wanted and needed attention.

She has held on to the damned things we did at night. If I could erase all the things I did then I would. If I could just start my life over then I would do that too. I have made so many mistakes that are hard to cover up with a small sheet of forgiveness. I can’t let it show but I can’t completely throw it away.

Blossom knows that I did things that I am to ashamed of to admit to anyone’s face but hers. It was true before I knew her I was evil. I was made to be this way but there has got to be a way to overcome it. If I can overcome a world then I can do this. No longer will I treat people as servants from now on I will promise to keep them all safe and protected. If there was one thing that I was jealous of it was that of Blossoms will. She was brilliant at having the will to change and become what she knew she had to. That inside her makes me feel like I made her that way but I didn’t. She reflects off of me but she managed to make her own mirror. The will to do that was outstanding another reason I loved her.

“So Bricky sweetie, Blossom, has to go on a little trip with me for a long time. Again she chose to leave you. How sad you know if we were together I would never do a shitty thing like that.”

“You’re not taking her anywhere,” I affirmed.

“Yes, Brick, she is,” Blossom came from behind.

“I told you that-”

“You told me that you can’t lose me and you will not I promise.”

“If you had to say, how much percent can you promise really?” I questioned.

“Remember what you said about trust? You will just have to trust me with your life.”

“MORE LIKE YOUR LIFE!!”

I can’t let her. I have said this a million times to her and made it clear. Why would she even want to do it? She has been doing this long enough! But if it would make her pleased then I will let her. Man I have turned into a big suck up for love.

“Come no we really must get a move on if we want to be there by 5:00. Sorry Brick but we are going now,” Berserk retorted.

Blossom came up to me. She had another tear coming down. I looked at her then took her in my arms and she told me, “no matter what happens I will always love you.” I kissed the top of her head. She held my arm and slowly pushed me away.

She walked over to her and they left. The door closed behind them. I sat back down on the bed and saw where Blossom had been sleeping. I lied down there and almost cried myself. She was in a deep bound of trouble. If there was one thing I could do I would do it. I had nothing to go by other then following them and that was something I could do, but that was something I wasn’t so sure about. Boomer and Butch can’t handle my job forever maybe the best thing to do is just go back to Townsville.

It was a hard thing to get the idea that finally after all the things you've done you can’t do anything this time.

Blossom

You never really notice something until it hits you. You never really realize it either until it hits you in the face. You never really ever get jealous until you understand why you should be. Berserk was Bricks long lost girl friend and they have never bothered me before but she does. She was the opposite but the same as me meaning that if I was to be replaced she would be the one to do it.

She was beautiful and she was prettier than me. She was suppose to be prettier than me though because she is wicked. But what makes her so much better than me? Nothing really at least not that I should be ashamed of. She had pink eyes like me and long red hair. We are really the same but there was one thing that made the men draw to her.

Her glow and that she was a model. She weighs a buck o’5 and she is 5’5 tall. She was closer to Brick than I was. They were really the ones that were the same but now Brick loves me so I am not jealous if I think about it. Brick hates her now. He shivers every time I say his name and I do the same with him.

I’m not jealous at all, no I am not! I can make him happy and he can do the same all I have to do is put her to sleep meaning sleep in hot ashes. Hell will not freeze over as long as she is there.

I kept going in her same line as she got on the air plane. It was nice and airy. I had my feet on the ground but we were going into the sky. What if I fail and fall along the way and there is no way to undo it. The world was counting on me if I don’t do this then there is a life of unwanted hate and tortured. I stand alone this time. I have to do exactly what she says at first then I roll the dice.

She was quit deceiving. This will be a hard job but when it is done it will be well deserving. I will find that it is three times as nice as not doing anything at all. How does it feel? I don’t know I think I am blocking half of my feeling but I would have to say I feel needed for once. I don’t think I fit in her but I will make it a tight squeeze. In my head was a view of a light. It flickered and raged. The light was wild and crazy it went all over the place. It was a white candle sorrowed by dark. It was me. I was the candle and I was about to go out but I have to be stronger than that. I have to be the one to turn the lights on.

We landed at 5:13. It was dark but I saw the sun coming up. As soon as there was enough brightness I saw the valley. It was blue. We were standing on a cliff and it was a very long drop. There was a thick layer of fog and dust particles.

When it cleared up a little I could see there was a river that flowed down there. Mountains were in the very distance and barley visible but enough to tell that the peek was very high. The soft sent of dew filled the light thin air. Was it a sin that I loved this spot or...was it ok? I turned to Berserk. “Why are we here?”

“Because, I wanted to show you this place, I figured that you would like it.”

“I love it, it is a beautiful sight,” I remarked smiling.

“Good because this is where we take place. All the things you see here will be nothing more than guns and bullets. A factory will take up third of this and rest will be training up hill. Practice spots so learn how to shoot.”

I was still. She was going to turn this place into a war stable. All the beauty of the world was going to be gone as well. No, this was impossible to picture unless I thought of a horror movie. I have seen things like this and new that it was just made up but this was all too real.

Why my nightmares seem to come true is beyond this galaxy. Even beyond the Pink Star.

“Take a good look Blossy we start it here. Everything starts here and nothing more than good to come. Just think that in about 15 years from now we will look back and think of this place and the success that it made for us.”

“Yes um but why did you make it here why not in a place like the desert!”

“We need the hills to hid from invaders and plus they have to train up there and get their weak asses moving.”

“Oh well then do you have a drawing a picture of what it will look like?”

She snapped her finger and a man came from the plane. She asked to see that plans and he handed her a large piece of paper. He laid out a table and a paper weight. He put them on all the sides and then went back in.

Berserk pointed to a building. She then began to speak, “This is it. The name will be Berserk Incorporated. INC in other words. We will only carry the best of the best. Yes of course we will still carry pistols, hand guns, and rifles. The workers are only professionals, duh.”

I stated that she must have already hired them and that they most know her and have worked with her before. Assuming that these people must know her ideas and what is about to happen. Fear is only a feeling and they must not concept it. Knowing that she would not just get anyone to do this kind of job they must be loyal and worthy of this position. All of them are sacrificing themselves for her. With no innocence and that word is not even in there vocabulary. But in ways unknown it still lies in their own eyes. It still has them but they just never admit it because they have a reputation. Now they can’t even trust themselves anymore.

“Now for the time we have all been waiting for. We must get to L.A. It is a little out of down town. This is where we shall release the new terminators. We are about to be expected so we must hurry. I just wanted to show you the place of our dreams. The sweetest nightmare is not a dream and the worst dream is not a nightmare. Don’t ever get those confused.”

It was falling all around me. Again we landed and again I got off worried. There was ware house the size of an air field. That was where they were. All they need was a awaking by a small button that was easily pushed. Just hit of it can do a so much. The smallest thing ever can do so much so much more than imagined.

“What do you think?”

“I think that you are out of your own mind,” I claimed.

“Then that means that it went just as planned. I will give you the honor of starting a first step to victory. Let this day be known as the day the world came into war. Forever starts now and the biggest war known to man will now be this one. After this the RowdyRuff’s take over will be forgotten.”

We are cut into two pieces. I have two options I can kill her now or wait until I have to beat every single terminator in there. She was right the worst dream is not a nightmare it’s only a bad picture. With every force that was counted in this horrible place I threw my fist at her. She knocked clear off the building and into the concert bottom. Her bodyguards came from behind me but I flipped them over to land right by her. She got up and I saw that there was a crack in the pavement.

She was wobbling and wasn’t straight. Then I saw her looking up at me. She flew to face me and then barked, “wrong move. Don’t forget about your dreams.”