Hey guys, well this is my first fan fic, and i hope you like it. ill be putting a lot of horse terminology into this story, so if there's something you don't understand just ask. reviews are welcome :)

Summery: Bella swan is abused, has an abusive father and her best friend is her horse. when the Cullen's arrive will they help BElla understand that they can be trusted. can Bella let go of her dear of her father and live the life she wants to live??

I hope you like it, its going to be a lot of fun writing it, that's for sure :) suttlingSurvivor- New life

i had everything a young girl could want. I had a family. I had a mum, a dad and a little dog called toots. What more could a girl want. On that terrible day i lost something that i treasured very dearly. I lost my mother.

My mother was the international show jumper in the horse industry. She was always on the front of the horse magazines or on the TV for all the shows she did. She was brilliant! Everyone was so proud of her. I adored her. On that unforgivable day, coming up to the last fence, she had a brilliant score, not one single bar knocked down and marmalade mountain was in excellent form and they we both looking great. From the second last fence Marmalade Mountain took of but landed on the other side funny and she collapsed. My mother landed on the floor. She died instantly. My name is Bella swan, i'm 17, have an abusive father, and the only reason of my existence is my horse music who will help me make my mother proud.

i parked my rusty, loud ancient truck into the stables car park. some of the horses looked up snorting at me as i got out of the car. i went over to jazzes stable box as she looked over the car park. she seemed happy to see me, letting me rub her nose. she was beautiful. she was a screwball horse. 18 hands with her black markings shining in there full glory. i carried my gear with me. my hat and gloves were in my left hand while my crop/whip was in the other. i did this every morning. wake up absurdly early to come to the stables. This is my home. i feel at peace here. Its strange most people would still be tucked up in bed with a comfy house to live in, with a loving family which praise them and care for them. whereas me, poor little unloved Bella has and abusive father who is the chief of police and i wouldn't dare to tell anyone about what happens! But that's life. no reason to live, no reason to love or feel happy, just live life day to day, wishing charlie would just put you out of your misery and just end it. He never does. just beats me till i ache and hurt everywhere and just expects me to love him and care for him ! HA! what a great life i live.

i was wearing my gear. i had my harry hall boots on with my black chaps. i was wearing a skin tight pair of jodphus which gave me the proper horse rider look. i had a baggy blue polo top on which said rayne riding centre in the left hand corner. i loved being in my gear. i dunno why but it made me feel that i was well on my way to making my mum proud, sad i know, but a girl can dream.

i finally made it to my destination. there she was. my beautiful baby girl was sticking her head out over her door waiting to see me coming. she neighed her hello when she sore me and she was pleased to see me. i could see it in her eyes. she was my one true friend. we have been through everything. she helped me get through my mothers passing and my grief. she helps me get through the beating i get everyday. she lets me talk about all the bullies at school like Jessica Stanley or Lauren Malory. in one word she is my savour.

" Hey music, how have you been" i said trying to sound happy. she snorted her response. eyes looking right into me, she knew it had happend again last night.
" i know what your getting at and yes, he beat me again." i looked down at my feet. "its getting worst music, he hears me screaming, begging him to stop, but he doesn't listen. he just laughs at me telling me that I'm worth less, and that i would never been like mum, does he want to kill my hopes and dreams" i hadent realised that silent tears had started to fall over onto my cheeks. AGH! I'm such a silly girl, I'm crying over nothing. this is my life, i should just except it. its strange that i can poor my heart out to a horse, but not to someone else. reason I'm so close to music. i could tell her everything and i would know she would understand. According to my only friend Carolyn who runs the stables, me and music share a very rare and brilliant connection that hardly any horse and rider can achieve. she said something like, music can sense your emotions and feel them too. your both so attuned to each other that you both have built up this brilliant relationship that no one can understand but you both rely on each others strengths and you pull through every situation. i believe this to be true. i feel this strong force pulling me to music. i know when shes in pain and she knows when im in pain. i never thought that my best friend could be my horse.

The day passed pretty quickly, i had to help out in the first lesson running next to a young rider who was learning to ride, so i had to lead her round the indoor school making sure the horse would behave. come lunch time i was shattered. i had been up since 4 so what do you expect. i asked Carolyn if i could spend the afternoon with music and she said i had been a great help, so she let me go.

i put musics headcoller on and i lead her into the sunshine. we hardly ever got sun in rainy old forks so i thought she would enjoy the sun. i tighed her up so she was facing the wall. the lead rope was lose enough so she could move her head around, but also so she could move around if she wanted.

i had brushed musics Mayne and forelock. i had brushed her tail and her coat this morning and she seemed to enjoy the quality time i was spending with her. i was picking out her front right hoof when i heard a very high pitched melody voice specking to me

"excuse me " she said
" hang on, one sec, Ive almost finished" i said, picking out the final section of mud on the inside of music hoof. i stood up with a smile on my face when i saw 5 very beautiful people looking at me.

The one who had said my name was very pretty, she was very petite, about 5 foot if she was lucky. she was thin to the extreme, with small features. she had gorgeous hair, a deep black cropped short and pointing in every . she was in a pair of skinny jeans with pretty pink pumps on her feet. she had a long black cardigan on with a white top underneath. she was not dressed for the stables i could give you that.

" sorry about that" i said motioning towards music " how can i help" and in that instant this little pixie little girl was clinging onto me. i winced as she clung onto my shoulder which had a massive bruise for last nights beating. she pulled away and she smiled at me

"im alice, i can tell where going to be great friends" she said in her angel like voice. i could tell she was pleased to meet me. her excitement was evident in her voice and her facial expressions

"hey erm, well im Bella, and this" i said pointing towards music " this is my horse music"

" shes beautiful" said i girl with straight blond hair. she was drop dead gorgeous. she would give any model a run for her money. she was very tall and was rather statuesque. she had a beautiful figure. she was the kind that made every girl around her take a hit on her self-esteem. she had golden , gently waving hair waving to the middle of her back. she too was wearing skinny jeans, but she was wearing black converses, and a deep read tank top with a leather jacket. i was rather envious. i bet she was the type of girl who could pull of any style and look as beautiful doing what ever she liked.

i had to agree with what she was saying though. music really was a very attractive horse. she was a screwball too, but she was brown instead. she had brown patches all over her. she had a brown back which travelled up her neak, and disappeared in to her Mayne. she had a white back side and a blond tail. her Mayne was blond too. her face was adorable. she had a brown mask which travelled from her ears down her face to her nose. she had a white nose. she really was beautiful and i loved her for it!

i smiled at her comment and i thanked her.

" let me introduce you to my family, these are my adopted siblings" she pointed to the blond woman again and to the body builder man next to her. "this is Rosalie hale, and Emmet Cullen, there together." Emmet was like a serious weight lifter, with dark curly brown hair. her was wearing jeans and a tight fitting black top which was tucked into his jeans with a belt.

alice continued and pointing to another taller,leaner, but still muscular bloke, with honey blond hair. he was wearing jeans with a cartoon top on, saying "sex,drugs and sausage rolls" he was kind acute, but i diminished this thought when Alice said he was her boyfriend. however i had to do a double take when she mentioned the next guy. he was like a Greek god. he was rather lanky, less bulky with untidy bronze hair. he had a face of an angel. he had brilliant green eyes which i could get lost in for hours. he was wearing a brown jumper which fitted him perfectly. the sleeves came up to his arms. he was wearing baggy faded jeans which also suited him great. he was wearing walking boots of some sort. he was called Edward. that's when he smiled at me and spoke in a beautiful voice.

"Hey Bella, how long have you had music" he said with a smile

i smiled back at him, there's no point being rude. " erm Ive had her since she was too" music now decided to put her head over my shoulder, trying to be part of the conversation. we all laughed together. i was stroking her nose while we spoke.

" how long have you had her ? " said jasper with curiosity in his voice.

"she 14" i said with a smile " and im never going to lose her " i said in a proud voice looking at her and stroking her face

" youve had her for 12 years, thats a hell of a long time" said emmet, he had a very booming laugh, it scared me a little

" i have indeed and she still very young" i saw the shocked expressions on these beautiful peoples faces.

"unhum, horses have the same life expectancy of about 30 years. so hopefully i will have her for most of my life." i could see Edward wanted to stroke her, so i asked him if he want to, and he eagerly agreed. music moved back slightly, curious about Edward and weather he should be trusted, but i talked to her soothingly and told her he wouldn't hurt her. she moved into his hand and i could tell they both enjoyed the new encounter. they would get on brilliantly .... i hoped.

can these people be trusted. after everything that has happened to me, am i willing to let these people into my life. i had no family and no friends. is this the chance Ive been given to change my life. has god finally excepted my prays. they seem to get along with me fine, always smiling and being kind. music had also taken a liking to them. they have to be good people. for the first time in 12 years i felt happy. truly happy, i felt hope, but i couldn't ignore the under current of my emotions. i still doubted them. i couldn't just accept them like that, there complete strangers. maybe somewhere in the near future they will be able to earn my trust. and maybe just maybe, they will be able to turn my sad little life around into a life everyone would dream about.

" she really is beautiful" rosalie said

"thank you " i said generally smiling " i bet shes loving all these compliments. shes like my family, we've pulled through everything that's been pushed into our paths so" i said hinting alittle bit about my life, then Edward said the unexpected

" i can see in her eyes that she really does dot on you and adore you"

"she really does" Alice agreed

"thanks guys, we really appriceate it" i said smiling " so how can i help you? were you inquiring over lessons or horses in general

The Cullen's looked down at there feet embarrassed, Edward moved behind musics shoulder so i couldn't see him.

"we erh, we kinda erm got lost" Alice said embarrassed

" your new around here then" i said trying not embarrass them any further.

" how did you guess" Edward said while moving back into my view.

" so what school are you going too ?"

they all seemed to perk up abit and jasper answered my question

"we will be attending forks high"

"that's so cool, that's where i go!" i was shocked, how could these 5 beautiful people attend such a run down school.

Alice squealed " this is going to be soo much fun" she said this while jumping up and down and bounding over towards me for a hug. Music snorted a bit startled by the sudden outburst, and started to move back, i calmed her down and she seemed abit nervous of alice, who wouldn't. i small pixie like girl jumping towards you making high pitched noises. i tell you i was scared.

" so what are you going to do with her know?" Rosalie asked nodding her head towards music

" well i was kinda , erm kinda gunna ride her" i said while rubbing the back of my neck.

" do you mind if we watch " Edward asked

"id like that! I'm sure music would love to show of for you " i said smiling a smile which reached her eyes.

did you like it ??? i hope you did! I'm not sure if i have involved the beatings very much, but don't worry its coming, i hope you read the next chapter too, we have the jumping show coming up :) yay !

Reviews are welcome, even if you didnt like it !

See you next time

Suttling xxx