Summary: What's good what's bad? Is it a cover when it's all you got? Is it still an alias if your real life is dead? Julia or Sydney, lines are crossed when reality is fading. In the end is a tornmenting decision. S/V and Sarkney.

This is my first Alias fic. I have two other fics for Instant Star, so I don't know how often I'll be able to update. But I just had to get this out. I hope you like it, be nice :) and review! Please. Reviews totally make my day and increase my update-speed. It's post season two. There's gonna be Sarkney but also Syd and Vaughn.

I'm sorry if I have overlooked some language mistakes, because I'm sure there gonna be many, but I'm trying to improve with every chapter... :D

Enjoy reading!

Chapter 1 – The Assignment

“Julia Thorne was just asking for entrance. Should we stop her or something?” A guy said to his supervisor.

“No, let her in like always. No need to scare her or something. Send her to my office when she’s here.” The man said and walked away.

“Alright, whatever you say Mr. Farrell. “ The guy replied, knowing very well that Mr. Farrell couldn’t hear him. He was curious what his supervisor wanted from Julia, after all it didn’t happen everyday that the boss of the whole Rom office and a very important person in the covenant waited especially for a normal agent. He was just the security guy, so he wasn’t a field agent and he hadn’t paid much attention to Julia Thorne, an operative who had been transferred to this office two month ago. Maybe he should start now.

Julia, formerly known as Sydney, walks into the office. She nods to the security guy and waits slightly impatient when he motions for her to hold on.

“Miss Thorne, Mr. Farrell wanted to talk to you, in his office.” The guy said to Julia with curiosity in his voice. He hadn’t noticed her before but she was pretty beautiful. Maybe it was because she hadn’t been in that often.

“Of course, thanks, I’ll go right there.” Julia said with a business polite smile. She nods good-bye and goes to said office. She knew that the security guy was looking after her, but she didn’t care. She was used to male attention and she used it to her advances. It wasn’t her fault if men didn’t thought very well with some beauty near them. Julia wondered what Farrell wanted from her, she didn’t had much to do with her supervisor and she hadn’t done anything wrong or something like that as far as she knew. But although she had no idea what was awaiting her Julia didn’t hesitate one moment or showed any sign of nervousness. She knocked shortly and strode in confidently, that’s the way Julia was. She never backed down for anything and she was always ready for everything.

“Miss Thorne, good to see you.” Farrell greeted her, motioning for her to sit down on the only chair in front of his desk. The room was large, but it wasn’t decorated very much. A desk, a few certificates and other things at the walls and two shelves. On the desk were many papers, computer and some picture frames, but those were situated so well that whoever visited the office couldn’t see what was on them.

“Good to see you too, Mr. Farrell. I was told you wanted to talk to me?” Julia replied sweetly. She saw in Farrell’s look, that that guy wanted more from her than just conversation. But she wouldn’t give him what he wanted, and he seemed to know that. Farrell was good looking and in a high rank inside the Covenant, but Julia had a certain reputation, she only dated the best. Her men needed to be dangerous and they had to win her. Nothing of that seemed to fit with Farrell, from what Julia had heard about that guy, he was sneaky and smart and fake through and through and most of all a coward. Not her type, definitely.

“Yeah. Let’s get straight to business then. It seems like our leaders have pretty much faith in you and your… abilities. There’s a new job that need to be done and it’s important and not that easy. The best needs to do this job and the Covenant thinks that you’re the right one to do it. So are you ready to go on to the next mission? I heard the last one went a little bit rough, but this needs to be done pretty soon, so…” Farrell asked politely, but his tone lead on that Julia didn’t have that much of a choice.

“I’m ready for everything. As long as it’s paid good enough.”

“Well then I’d suggest that you go home and pack your stuff because your flight to Frankfurt, Germany, is going in four hours. The assignment and everything else you need is gonna be given to you on he plane.” Farrell explained, turning his attention to his computer, a clear sign that he was done with the conversation.

“Ok. So I’ll see you when I get back I assume.” Julia said, stood up and walked to the door.

“Oh, Miss Thorne?” Farrell asked without looking at her.

“Yeah?” Julia replied while turning around.

“This is important. So if you fail there gonna be consequences. This mission should better go as planned. If you’re successful you might even get some days off.”

“So it’s gonna be some time till I see you again I guess, you know I think I won’t come home after the mission and go straight for the holidays, if that’s ok?” Julia asked innocently. Farrell laughed in an uncomfortable way; it was so fake that it hurt in Julia’s ears.

“Miss Thorne, don’t be too excited. First you gotta be successful and get this job done alive.” Farrell said arrogantly.

“Well Mr. Farrell, you don’t know me very well. If you did, you’d know that I’m always successful.” Julia said confidently but with a daring tone, she stressed the word “always” because she wanted to warn the guy, no one messes with Julia Thorne. Then she left the office and let the door nearly slam shut behind her. It was just the way Julia was, she didn’t back down or get intimidated by some guy who thought she couldn’t accomplish a mission. Julia had no fears. Sydney did, but Sydney wasn’t important now, not while she was in the Covenants office.

Sydney was heartbroken because she just saw the love of her life kissing his new girlfriend two days ago. Sydney was dying inside and Sydney was hating her CIA handler Kendall for telling her that she couldn’t go back to her normal life. But Sydney wasn’t important, not for the next few days anyway. After all Julia had a mission do handle and Sydney was dead. Because the only way to really die beside the biological way was to be erased of the minds of the one who were close, and that seemed to have happened to everyone Sydney had loved. Sydney was dead and Julia was alive.

In the end that’s what counts. Because if I’m not Julia, what’s left of me? Sydney’s dead and there’s no going back. Because there’s no life for me to get back to, everybody moved on and so should I. So will I.