Chapter 91 Let me see him

Rory could not stop looking at her newborn son. He was so small in her arms. She watched him as she fed him and tried to smile. Joseph. Yeah, Jess was right. He really was Joseph. Rory heard the door open and looked up. She saw her mother walked in the room. She saw her forced a smile.

“Hey.” Lorelai greeted her daughter. “How are you feeling?”

“Is that a question?” Rory’s voice cracked. She bit her lower lip not to cry. She had cried a lot these two days.

“Your children were here to see their new brother.” Lorelai sat close to Rory’s bed. “I took them to see him and then they came here to see you. You were sleeping.” Lorelai looked at her carefully. “Ayn asked me where her father is and…”

“You told her?” Rory held back a moan. She could imagine what pain that had cause to her daughter.

“Yeah and we took her to see him.” Lorelai touched Rory’s shoulder. “Luke had to take care of her. The little ones didn’t know anything.”

“I wanna see him.” Rory placed Joseph head on her shoulder and rubbed his small back.

“No.” Lorelai shook her head. “I’m not sure that this is a good idea. It’s not good for you.”

“I wanna see my husband, mom!” Rory snapped and Joseph cried on her shoulder. She cuddled him and then looked back at her mother. “I wanna see Jess!”

“Rory… you were through a lot these days. You lost a lot of blood during the labor…” Lorelai frowned. “You have to lie down and rest.”

“You think that I could rest now?” Rory snapped. “He is there and he is bad! I have to lie down here and do nothing? I want to see him mom!”

“You have to listen to your mother, Rory.” They heard Mel’s voice and saw her walked in the room. “You have been through a lot and I don’t recommend you…”

“I don’t care!” Rory hissed. “I want to see my husband! Now!”

“I’m sorry!” Mel shook her head. “I can’t allow you that!”

“Fine!” Rory shifted her head and kissed her son’s temple. She refused to talk anymore but she already had a plan in her head. If they did not let her than she could do it on her own. No one could stop her from seeing Jess.

Lorelai had to leave few hours later. The visit hours were over and she tried to talk with her daughter, but Rory refused to even look at her. She fed her son for the last time through the day and lay on her bed. When the nurse came to see her, Rory closed her eyes and the nurse thought that she slept.

It took her one more hour until she was sure that the hallway before her room was quiet. She carefully sat on her bed and then hung her legs over the edge of it. She almost cried out from pain when she stepped on the cold floor. It took her a minute until she put some slippers and tried to walk. It was painful but she bit her lower lip and opened the door. She sneaked through the corridor to the elevator and pushed the right button. Rory knew the number of Jess’ room. She had heard her mother and Luke mention it while they thought that she slept.

The elevator doors opened slowly and Rory looked around the empty hallway. She sneaked to Jess’ room. It took her even more time, because she was careful with her steps now. Her legs and her belly hurt but she suppressed that pain. The only thing led her now was to see Jess. She had to see him no matter of the cause.

She reached his door and looked around before she could enter in. Then she saw him.

Jess was lying on his bed. He had a respirator on his face and some machine followed his heartbeats. He looked so helpless and so pale that she could not stop her cry. All the strength led her to him was gone now. Rory felt weak in her knees and sat close to his bed. He took his hand and placed a short kiss on his fingers. He was warm.

“What have you done, Jess?” Rory whispered through tears. “What have you done?”

He did not answer her. His face was calm and pale. She leaned and kissed his forehead.

“Our son is okay. You should see him. I named him Joseph like you wanted to.” Her fingers slid on his face. “But I miss you and I need you beside me. You know how much I love you, right? You know that you can’t just leave me in this way! It’s not fair!” She cried quietly. “It’s so not fair!”

Rory stood beside his bed almost whole night. She could not leave him. She could not find the strength in herself for that. And he did not even move. Her eyes were sore from staring. She watched him carefully. She hoped for a miracle, but it did not happen. Jess was lying on his bed and the sound of the monitor, following his heartbeats, was the only other sound in the room.

“Mrs. Mariano!” Rory heard the voice of the nurse taking care of her and sighed tiredly. “What are you doing here? We thought…”

“I’m with my husband.” Rory did not even look at her. “He needs me!”

“Your son needs you too.” The nurse said carefully. Rory heard small cry and turned around. The nurse was holding her son in her arms.

“Give me him!” Rory reached out her hands.

“But you have to…”

“Give me my son!” Rory insisted.

The nurse sighed and placed the baby in his mother’s arms. Rory took him and started to feed him. She caressed his face and looked at his father.

“You have to wake up and see him, Jess.” She whispered. “You have to wake up for us, please!”