Emma

He wouldn’t play God. I know he wouldn’t, but the thought of it! God just the thought of it! How would you even consider…?

Because Shalimar, a sane Shalimar, would kill herself before she would even think about killing Jesse. Before she even thought about hurting him or any of us. Shalimar is the kindest, most tenderhearted person I know next to Jess. She… she cares deeply for everyone… well, almost anyone. Heaven can’t save you if you hurt her family. She would tear anyone and anything apart, move heaven, hell, and earth to save one of us. And for Jesse, for Jesse she would tear time and space apart if she could to save him….

And what did Jesse think that he could accomplish, locking himself in there with her?

“No one can take a beating like me Em;” he said that to me once.

He said it with a smile and a shrug. It was right after my first mission in the filed… I had watched some one hurl him into a cinderblock wall and then proceed to beat him, and I was sure he was going to be dead. But he took it, the beating, and waited for an opportunity and attacked.

“No one can take a beating like me, Em.”

Damn it Jesse! You’re not invincible! There are others who care about you! Bren is there watching you die!

Don’t think it, don’t even… He’s going to be fine.

She’s going to be fine. They’ll both be fine. You’re not going to lose your family, not like this.

God, I hope you’re right Jesse. I really hope you’re right. You better not die, you better be ok. Because if you die, there’s no point to saving Shalimar. She’ll end up killing herself. Damn it Jesse, you better be alright, and you better make sure Shalimar is alright.

The hanger is coming into view now. I’m not a good pilot, not like Brennan or Shalimar. Hell, even Jesse is better at this then I am. I hope I can hold the Helix steady enough…God I hope I don’t crash.

I’m so not prepared for all of this… Brennan’s fear and heartache… while we were at the lab he had too sit there and watch… he… Jesse’s getting desperate. His bodies growing weaker…he’s exhausted… There is no Shalimar…none that I can sense, or have ever sense before… there is a rather large and rabid animal however… Adam’s anxiety is sky high…how do you chose? How do you play God with your children?

Don’t think it, don’t even think it! Land the damn plan Emma and get to the lab. Just shut up, buck up, and get it done…

But God, I wasn’t prepared for this….