This chapter is kind of dark (i think) I hope you like this story.

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Chapter One

Not Gonna Write You A Love Song

"Mom!" I yelled through the house looking for my mother's repond but didn't get it.

"Miriam!" I yelled again still no reponds.I walking into the trophy room and see her laying across the couch asleep.

'That's just nice' I said to myself and rolled my eyes.

I left my drunk mother in the room and walked back upstairs,went to my room and took some money out of the top dresser for lunch.

I couldn't wait until I moved out of this house,they really don't care about me.I ranaway two years ago and left for two weeks and they haven't even looked for me,when I got home they were doing the same thing they always sit on the couch looking at T.V. and Miriam lays around and sleep and make smoothies,I bet if I die they wouldn't care.

The only thing they care about is Olga,I don't it's because she the first child or she just much better at everything I life sucks right now.

"Hegla!" my dad yelled as I put up my backpack up from the floor next to my bed.

"What!" I yelled back at him.

"Where is my keys!"

"I don't know!" I walked over to the mirror and start brushing my hair.

My hair was down and wavy,I got my unibrow waxed,and lost that stupid pink bow.I'm still the mean,bully girl that everybody is scared of,but i'm not the same girl that is crazy in love with the spikey,blonde haired boy that is sweet to me even when i'm mean to .

I guess i was getting tired of trying to win his heart that I gave up.I was tired of writing stupid poems of him,making status of him,and keeping a locket with his picture in wasn't like I had a chance with so why should I keep going crazy over him,I finally realized that when I turn thirdteen,I threw all my status away,burnt my poems,and threw my locket in the lake.

Now I can stop trying to mess up Arnold relationship with a girl he with Lila now and i'm happy for them,they started going out in the 8th grade.

"I can't find them!" Bob yelled.

I sighed and slamed the brush down on the dresser then walked out of my room then down the stairs to my dad looking in the hall closet.

"I don't think the keys are in the closet" I said rolling my eyes.

"Well where do you think they are?" he said.

I noticed something shiny from Bob's back was his keys,I reached to them and pulled them out,he turned around and was surprised.

"In your back pocket" I jingle them in the air.

He took them out of my hand then stormed out the door without saying bye.

I never really liked my was like we were stanagers living in the same house,when I was little I was trying to have a father and daughter relationship but he kept pushing me away,I just gave up.I wanted to have a relationship like my parents had with Olga.

Right when I was about to leave I heared somebody calling my name again."Helga"

I turned around and see my mother standing in the hallway rubbing sleep out of her eyes.

"What Miriam?" I said angrily with my hands on my hip.

"You going to school?"she asked.

"Yeah there nowhere else to go"

"Oh yeah it's thursday,well bye" she walked back in the trophy room.I rolled my eyes then turn back around and went out the left the hell house,I be so happy when I leave my house from my parents anf family.

I got off the bus in front of my school and saw Phoebe standing at the bottom stairs waiting for me as usual.

She wore a bob hairstyled with a yellow headband on it,blue V-shirt,dark blue skirt, and black shoes.

I wore a pink shirt,rip jeans,white with pink sneakers,and black wristbands on my right arm.

"Hey Phoe" I said walking to her.

"Hi Helga,did you do your homework last night?" she asked.

"Shoot I forgot" I said slapping my hand against my head.

Phoebe sighed knowing what i'm about to say to her.

"You can copy my homework." she said.

"Thanks Phoebe"

"You welcome" she rolled her eyes.

Don't blame her I would be annoyed if somebody keeps asking me to do copy their homework everytime they forget.I be feeling bad for taking advenage of her sometimes,she be a good friend to me and I just boss her around I want to do something good for her but,right now I have to give this paper to so I can't get a F.

Before we walked into the school I heared somebody calling out to a name that I do not want to hear anymore.I turn my head and see the blonde now combed back haired boy who was walking with his best friend.I turn my head back around and kept walking.

"Helga what's wrong?" Phoebe asked me.

I shook my head."Nothing" we walked through the crowd hallway to our class.

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