Author: JamesRamsey PM
Suddenly I realized the family had it wrong. I had it wrong. Jasper was not attacking me and Edward was not protecting me. AU OOC Rated M to be safe - My first story - WINNER of two 'Everything's Bigger In Texas' AwardsRated: Fiction M - English - Romance/Drama - Bella & Jasper - Chapters: 40 - Words: 212,188 - Reviews: 5,586 - Favs: 3,956 - Follows: 1,949 - Updated: 09-03-10 - Published: 09-24-09 - Status: Complete - id: 5398826
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A/N: As usual Twilight and all its characters do not belong to me they belong to the talented Stephenie Meyer – thank you for allowing me to play in your world
~ As the M rating suggests - if you are under 18 you shouldn't be reading this fic. It contains dark themes and sexual material. ~
"Ouch, paper cut" I looked down at my finger and saw the crimson liquid welling up. Suddenly I could hear the terrifying sound of a growl coming from across the room before all hell broke loose.
I could feel myself flying backwards, pain ripping through my back and arm; hear a crash and the sound of glass breaking as my body was thrown through a table and to the floor. Several things happened simultaneously. I could feel Edwards breath on my neck. I could see the look of desperation on Jasper's face across the room, as Emmett and Rosalie tried to wrestle him away from me, and the temptation that my blood presented. The next thing I realized was that the family had it wrong. I had it wrong. Jasper wasn't attacking me and Edward wasn't protecting me.
They say that when you are faced with your own death that your life flashes before your eyes. I didn't see that. I guess I was right when I told Edward that my brain didn't work right. Time seemed to slow down. I saw the room as if I was separate from it. Like an unseen person standing in the corner.
There was Jasper, trying franticly to get to me through the maze of arms that were restraining him; Emmett and Rose trying to drag him from the house with the help of Carlisle. Esme and Alice looking on in horror and disappointment. Why was no one concerned with Edward and I?
Oh right, Edward always protected me. And to be fair it really did look like he was shielding me with his body. What they didn't see, was his teeth securely fastened to my throat as he slowly drained the life from my body.
"EDWARD NO!!!!" Jasper started screaming. I guess he realized that they weren't going to let him go, and this was the only way he would be able to bring attention to the situation. The family swung towards us in shock. Esme being the closest to us, blurred into action. She tried to grab at Edward, he released me only to spin and throw Esme across the room, where she hit the wall and almost went right through it.
The roar that came out of his mouth was inhuman and nothing like the Edward that I knew and loved.
Emmett and Rose dropped Jasper and ran at Edward. He must have read their intent from their minds. Rose was faster so he grabbed her first and swung her into Emmett, hard enough that the two of them crashed through the living room window and out into the yard. By now Carlisle was advancing on us. Jasper grabbed him by the shoulder to hold him back. "No Carlisle, he's protecting his kill, look at him."
I could hear the growls rumbling up through Edward as he crouched over top of me. I felt something dripping on my chest and realized that it was my blood running from his mouth down his chin and dripping on to me. I should have felt sick but I could feel the fire starting to spread through my neck. I remembered it from the last time that I felt it when James had bitten me in Phoenix. Jasper must have been trying to calm Edward down because Edward started to speak.
"Mine, her blood is mine! I will not be denied again. I will finish it this time. It's not enough." His voice was rough and almost slurred. I felt more liquid hit my chest. Venom was running out of his mouth and hitting me, mixing with my blood.
"Edward you don't want to do this. You love Bella. You sucked the venom out of her last time and you were able to stop. You don't want to kill her now." I could hear Carlisle trying to reason with Edward, trying to bring him back to himself.
"His venom was foul, tainting the sweetness of her blood. Now it is pure. Now it is mine. I have denied myself long enough. Sitting there day after day, smelling the bouquet that is her blood; listened to it as it pumped through her veins. She taunted me day after day with her blush. I had to keep it close to me. I had to make sure no one else got to drink it. Spending time with a human was a small price to pay to enjoy the sweetness of its blood." He was savage as he talked about me as if I was a thing; something to keep possession of, not someone that he professed to love.
"You don't mean that Edward. You are not yourself. You love Bella." Esme seemed to almost plead with Edward and the pain on her face was heartbreaking. She had never seen her son look like this.
"Love a human?" He cocked his head to the side in confusion.
"I have had women by the thousands throw themselves at me and I never allowed them near me. I have had beautiful vampire women offer to share my bed and I have never taken them up on it. What would make you think that one small, plain girl would inspire me to love where all others failed. It has always been about her blood and the peace and quiet that her mind offered me. Don't you see? She is truly our prey. My prey. Predators take out the weak and the sick; her clumsiness is a clear indication that, even for a human, she is inferior. She needs to be culled." Edwards snarling words hurt me more than the burn that was slowly spreading through my body.
I could see the effect that his words had on the family in the room. Carlisle looked like he was going to be sick if he had been able. Alice looked confused and horror struck holding up Esme, who looked ready to collapse from her heart break. She wanted to come to me and I watched her eyes dart back and forth between Edward and I.
Jasper, Jasper had the darkest look I had ever seen in his eyes. He looked every inch the warrior – expressionless, with eyes that promised a dark and merciless punishment for any that went against him. I suddenly felt overwhelmed with lethargy and saw Edward waiver on his feet and shake his head.
Again the room exploded into action. Emmett and Rosalie sailed through the window and collided with Edward. The three of them went tumbling across the room and landed with Edward snarling and thrashing, pinned to the floor, held down by Emmett's bulk and Rosalie's fury. Alice hurried over to help drag him out of the house.
As Rose wrestled with Edward she looked right at me, "It's not true" she said.
As the convulsions started to take over my body I looked up to see Jasper holding me to his chest.
"Carlisle, it's too late to suck the venom out. The change has already started." Jaspers face looked conflicted and guilty.
I could hear someone screaming and realized that it was me. It felt like someone had replaced my blood with molten lava. I tried to stop my screams knowing that it wouldn't do any good. He looked down at me and I felt the calm that he was trying to push on me.
Carlisle took my hand, "Bella, we can't stop it this time, but I am worried that not enough venom has been put in your system. If we don't push more the change will take way longer, and I don't want you to go through the pain for longer than necessary."
I tried to tell him that it was ok. That I understood. He would have to bite me again. I knew that he loved me like his own; you could see the pain written on his face at the thought that he would have to bite me, and continue the pain that his favored son had inflicted. I loved this kind and compassionate man even more. I could hear Esme sobbing over my head and felt her fingers smoothing back my hair.
My eyes connected again with Jasper and he raised my hand that was closest to his chest up to his mouth. I could see my arm shaking with the force of the tremors that were wracking my body. Jasper softly pressed a kiss into the palm of my hand, and then sunk his teeth into my wrist.
Quicker than Carlisle's cry of alarm, Jasper pushed his venom into my wrist and then sealed the wound with his tongue.
"Jasper!" Esme looked at him with worry and a trace of pride.
"We don't have time for this Esme; I have to push more into her system. We can talk later." I could hear the command in his voice as he shifted me in his arms and reached for my other wrist where he repeated the procedure. He then ripped open my shirt and bit me right over my heart.
"That's enough Son. You pushed an astonishing amount of venom into her system in a short amount of time. The change will happen quickly now."
I felt the prick of a needle as Carlisle injected something into me. "Morphine Bella. I am hoping that it will numb some of the burning."
I felt my jaw threatening to crack as my teeth were clamped together to try to hold back my screams. The agony was a thousand times worse than any injury I had ever received. Even when James had bitten me it hadn't prepared me to feel the flames running through my entire body. I could feel myself being lifted and carried. I looked up into Jasper's eyes for the last time before I closed my eyes and the pain took me.
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