Beyond This Life

Suzaku took off his mask. It still seemed bizarre to him to be wearing Zero’s mask. It still had Lelouch’s smell.

He threw himself in bed, closed his eyes and recalled memories.

--

Lelouch lavender eyes lit up and a genuine smile appeared in his lips. “I was waiting for you.”

Suzaku looked around Lelouch’s room. It was the first time he had entered. “Why did you call me?”

“We need to talk.”

“About what?”

Lelouch smiled mischievously. “About this…” he said and then walked towards Suzaku and kissed his lips. “I love you.”

For some seconds, Suzaku didn’t move. He didn’t know how to react to such confession. All he did was step backward. “You what?”

“I love you.”

--

Suzaku sighted as he placed a pillow over his head.

--

“Suzaku!!” Lelouch screamed.

He didn’t want to see him. Not now. Suzaku was afraid of his own feelings. Afraid of what he might do if he confronted them. He had never felt like this before.

“Suzaku!!!” Lelouch called again.

Not sure what else to do, he decided to hide behind the door, so when Lelouch opened it the classroom would seem empty. Obviously, Suzaku knew that the chanced of Lelouch falling for this were scarce, but he still tried. He didn’t want to see him.

The plan was executed.

“Are you hiding from me?” Lelouch’s soft voice asked.

Suzaku looked up and saw the boy staring straight at him with disappointment. “You? No…”

“Then who are you hiding from?”

“Arthur?”

Lelouch rolled his eyes. “You are an idiot Suzaku!” he screamed and tried to runaway but before he could exit, Suzaku grabbed his wrist.

“I’m sorry, it’s just that…”

“It's okay if you don’t like me back,” Lelouch interrupted. “But at least I expected you to have the balls to tell me that.”

“Lelouch…”

Lelouch looked at him. “What?!”

“I think I might like you too…”

--

A tear rolled down his cheek. “Did you know you were going to end up dead back then?”

--

“You think…?” Lelouch asked, looking down at Suzaku who had now released his wrist.

“I’m really confused Lelouch,” Suzaku said. “I don’t know what to think anymore.”

“Suzaku…”

“Look, just give me some time to clear my thoughts,” Suzaku intervened.

“How long?”

Suzaku pondered for a bit. “I’ll see you tonight in the rooftop.”

Lelouch smiled.

--

Suzaku stood up and walked towards an open window. The wind smelled like rain.

--

“Lelouch!!” Suzaku called from the door that led to the rooftop. “It’s pouring! What the hell are you doing there?!”

“I was waiting for you!” Lelouch screamed.

Suzaku quickly ran to meet him, instantly getting wet.”Are you crazy? You are going to get sick.”

“I don’t care, it was worth the wait.”

“You are crazy!”

“I love you,” Lelouch repeated. “But I still don’t know how you feel.”

“You idiot,” Suzaku said. “I wouldn’t come here if I didn’t.”

--

A tear slid down his cheek as rain began falling. That had been the best night of his life.

--

“Do you think Nunnally heard us come in?” Suzaku asked as he sat on Lelouch’s floor to remove his shoes. Both boys were soaking wet.

“No, she always goes to sleep early,” he answered, doing the same as Suzaku.

Silent hit the room.

“Lelouch, you should change your clothes or you’ll get pneumonia,” Suzaku suggested.

“I could say the same for you,” he replied.

Their eyes met. Lelouch moved closer to Suzaku and kissed his lips. This time, he responded eagerly, running a hand through Lelouch’s damp black hair. “I love you,” he slurred.

Lelouch smiled as he removed his uniform’s shirt and then his pants along with his boxers. “I love you too.”

Suzaku blushed at the sight of Lelouch’s naked body. Lelouch crawled over Suzaku, pushing him softly to the carpet and starting kissing him. “We are going to ruin the carpet,” Suzaku managed to say.

“Who cares?”

Lelouch continued kissing him and rubbing his body against Suzaku. The latter couldn’t control himself anymore and began running his hands through Lelouch’s sides. Lelouch smiled, nipping Suzaku’s neck.

Without warning, the Britannian unzipped Suzaku’s pants and moved his face downward to lick the erection. If possible, Suzaku became even redder as he felt Lelouch’s hot tongue moving up and down.

“Aagghhh… Lelouch…”

--

Just from the memory, Suzaku had become hard. He moved back to his bed and hid under the sheets.

--

Lelouch moved back to Suzaku’s mouth and kissed him some more. The knight decided to kiss Lelouch’s neck, causing him to moan softly.

Suddenly Lelouch kneeled, his legs on each of Suzaku’s side and looked him straight into his green eyes. He pressed his entrance slowly on Suzaku’s erection and then pushed himself in, screaming as he did so.

He rode Suzaku with vigor, screaming his name every time he reached the bottom. Suzaku could barely see Lelouch’s figure since his view was blurry from such pleasure. He grabbed his lover’s hips tightly as he continued to move.

--

Suzaku touched himself, trying to relive the memory, but after he came he knew nothing would ever compare. No one would ever even come close to the way Lelouch made him feel. He cleaned himself and once again, pressed his face against the pillow.

--

This time, Lelouch laid in bed and Suzaku positioned himself in front of his entrance. Lelouch looked at him blushing and with lust in his eyes. “What are you waiting for?”

Suzaku managed to smile as he moved to his face. “I’m sorry, your face distracts me,” he said seductively accompanied by a long passionate kiss.

Then he proceeded with his work and assumed the position again, this time thrusting inside Lelouch and earning a powerful scream from him. Suzaku managed to silence him with his mouth as he continued his job; he didn’t want Nunnally to hear them.

“Lelouch…” Suzaku moaned, thrusting even faster now.

Lelouch couldn’t say anything, he couldn’t move, he couldn’t see. He could only grab on his bed sheets and moan continuously. “Aagghhh… Su... aah!”

--

Suzaku stood up and walked outside. He had to stop remembering the past. Lelouch was gone; he had to learn how to cope with that. Remembering was no good.

--

Lelouch cuddled in Suzaku’s chest with a smile on his face. “I love you so much.”

Suzaku tenderly caressed Lelouch’s face. “Are you sure this is alright?”

“Yes,” he answered. “Ever since we were kids, I have always loved you and I’m sure that I will forever.”

--

But Suzaku was now addicted to memories. It seemed that he could only be happy when he remembered Lelouch or when he was asleep and dreaming of him.

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This is a request for my lovely friend Chococoluv. I don’t know why but I love writing depressing stories. Well, I hope you enjoy and drop some lovely feedback.

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