First day of school

“Nooooooooo. Oh my god. Your not seriously considering wearing that ,are you ?

I said starring at Claire in disbelief.

The outfit she thought was appropriate for school ,consisted of green cargo pants and a purple marsh mellow jacket. Was she serious?

“What's wrong with this out fit, I wore it to school just last week” she said arguing her point. But not making her case.

“Oh and you think that makes the outfit any better. Seriously I would rather my dad die , than see you have to wear that outfit to school. Just shocking” I said holding bean tightly

There was an awkward silence. They had been occurring more frequently ,the longer we stayed here.

“Massie ” Claire said in disbelief.

“RELAX CLAIRE I'm joking” I said annoyed at her reaction. Even though she was right

“I don't think you should joke about things like that ” she said

I understood what she was saying .She was right I should not have said what I said. But it slipped out. Cant take back what's already been said.

After getting to know Claire over the weekend I realised I hated her. She was so different to my friends. She didn't know upper east side language and she dressed worse than a blind old man .But the worst thing that I hated about her was that , she expected us to be best friends .Straight of the bat.

No that's never going to happen, Because Claire is so out of my vocabulary. So out of my life .Well until i find a new room to sleep in

“See this is the type of out fit you should be wearing. You need to learn how to shop” I said showing her my black mini skirt , Swede blue jacket and my new YSL pumps.

“This is how any girl should dress, especially you” I said coldly staring in her direction

“You know what Massie, I'm sick and tired of you judging me because of what I wear. Just because I don't know what Prada means or what FYI means ,doesn't mean I don't know everything in the whole entire world. The world doesn't revolve around Goochie and designer handbags. I'm me and you cant change me” she said very quickly and hesitantly.

“Wow CLAIRE , that's the most I've heard you talk since iv been here. Seriously you should take a breather. I don't want to be a witness to your death. Those cases can get messy ,not that my lawyer cant handle it ,but you know what I mean!” I said putting some nude coloured lipstick on.

“Can you STOP TALKING ABOUT DEATH your mother just died ” She screamed,

Silence filled the room once again.

She said it so loudly I could of sworn I felt the whole room shake.

“I'm sorry Massie ,I shouldn't have said that” She said apologetically

“No your right. I should stop talking about death especially since my mother just died and I've moved to this totally ugly house THAT I HATE !I should stop talking about death ,but what if death doesn't upset me .What if I'm not effected by my mothers death. WHAT if i haven't even cried. Does that mean I don't care that she's dead? Obviously if you don't cry when someone dies your not upset Right? ”I yelled

“Massie I don't know. I'm sorry” She said looking down

“DONT BE, you shouldn't be sorry you didn't do anything. Did you kill her ,is that why your saying sorry. DID YOU KILL HER ? .No one can take back what happened so DON'T just DON'T say your sorry. I'm sick of people being sorry all the time, YOU DID'NT DO IT so stop”

I starred at Claire and I could see tears rushing down her pale face.

“Why are you crying? ,I haven't even cried and my mothers DEAD.” I yelled then ran out of the room.

Lunch time at school

After this mornings argument with Claire I felt a little lighter. I felt like I had some weight lifted of my shoulders, even though I hurt someone in the process. I honestly felt bad about the things I had said and I knew I needed to apologise. But in the mean time I was just trying to survive school. This new school was horrible .The kids were horrible and the food was horrible.

The kids looked at me like I was some rich spoilt Brat. The rich part was true , but Brat? I don't think so. I am not a Brat!

I searched the cafeteria looking for a spare table. With kids running around everywhere it was hard to tell where to sit. Standing there in the middle ,with a tray in my arms , it was as if I was the new, weird girl in a movie. If I was at my old school I would have been seated down right now eating with my girlfriends.

But I was here now and I couldn't do anything about it. Especially since my dad looked like he was getting better.

“Do you want to sit with me”Claire showed up beside me.

“Oh my god you scared me Claire.”I said truthfully shocked.

“Look .I'm sorry about this morning ,obviously you were a bit upset and I ,made it worse.” Claire said

“No I'm sorry. I shouldn't have yelled at you like that. You obviously have some fashion no no's and I should have just minded my own business.” I said starring at her tray. All I could see was carbs

“What ? Your apologising about that. Massie I'm apologising for your loss. Your obviously mourning over it and I didn't help any further than I should have, by saying what I said.

“What do you mean mourning ? I'm not mourning I haven't even cried, and what did I say about saying sorry.” I said sitting down at the nearest table.

Claire followed

“Massie crying is not the only form of mourning. I know this doesn't compare to your loss but when my dog died I didn't even cry and I had him for 6 years. In stead of crying I just didn't talk” She said trying to make me feel better

“Your right your loss does not compare.” I laughed

“Yeah ,i know ”she laughed with me.

“You must be really hungry” I said while watching her unwrap her chicken burger.

“ Kinda, but its really yummy .So umm me and a couple of friends are meeting up after school. I would love to introduce you to them, since where starting fresh and all ! You want to come ?

where did starting “fresh” come from.

“Sure , I guess” I replied ,wondering what I was getting myself into.

2 hours later

I was glad the first day of school was finally over. Now I was getting ready to meet up with some of Claire's friends. Besides her fashion sense, Claire was kinda nice, when she wasn't wearing a totally deficient outfit. But then again she was just like everyone else here. She obviously got it from them.

“Hey you ready to go.” Claire said walking into the room with a smile on her face.

“Where leaving in 5...HOLY HELL” Claire stopped in the middle of her sentence. Starring at my outfit in total shock.

“What ,what's wrong ?”I asked stunned

“Umm Massie where going to get a pizza , not going to the VMA'S. You need to dress more casual”

“What's wrong with this outfit? Its a skirt and heels ,to me this is casual”I defended my outfit and Mark Jacob's.

“ Massie how do you expect to make any friends when you dress like a doll all the time ? You dress like your from the upper east side. No one dresses like that down here. If you tried to dress a little different, mayby people wouldn't be so intimidated and maybe they would approach you.” Claire said

“But I am from the upper east side. And I don't care . I don't plan on making friends down here.”I said not caring

“Okay you can dress how you like. But not tonight. You can't wear that.”

Claire directed me towards her wardrobe which consisted of few essentials. Jumper ,Jacket ,Jeans and a few tops. To me this was a total nightmare

“So firstly a black mini skirt and heals are way to dressy for pizza. A white blouse is sure to be ruined my tomato and cheese topping and HOW much jewellery do you have to wear ?. HAHA oh my god this is hilarious” She said laughing so hard I though she was going to explode.

“I don't see anything wrong with this outfit” ,I defended myself while laughing with her.

“Here put this on. Jeans and a shirt , classic and simple , don't forget comfy. ”She said handing it over.

“OH MY GOD times 6, my friends would kill me if they saw me in this.”I said cringing at the outfit

“Trust me its comfy, you'll love it .And its not like your friends are going to see ”she said pushing me into the bathroom so I could go and change.

After I put on the outfit, I checked my self out in the mirror.

“WOW hahaha oh my god times 3 .I look like you. Your right it is comfy though.”I said staring at the jeans

“So ,what did I tell you”Claire said while letting her hair out of her pony tail.

“Thanks. Claire .Really I mean it.”I said smiling

“There just jeans Massie” she laughed

“No ,not for that, for everything”I said embarrassed

“What are friends for ”she grabbed my arm and we were off.

Friends....if you said it a couple of times. It sounded okay.

When we got to the pizza parlour I met all of Claire's close friends. They were so nice. Like friends out of a movie. They didn't care about looks or what you wore. They cared about you as a person. They immediately liked me ,which was good. Considering I hadn't made any new friends yet.

When we got home I went to check my email and I was Immediately excited to see an email from Dylan

Email from Dylan

Hello stranger. Miss you so much it hurts. School is lame without you and Oh My God times 10 Chris asked about you, saying how sorry he is for your loss. Anywayzz how is it there? ,are they nice or are they snobby ? Anyone there that knows the meaning of Goochie. If not , I FEEL SORRY FOR YOU :(

Now I know you probably don't want to know this but I HAVE to tell you. Because your my best friend and I cant lie. I think Alicia is hanging out with Chris ABIT too much. She meets up with him for hot chocolate like every night and I could of sworn I saw in her diary the words C +L= 4eva. I'm really sorry Massie.

Any ways I got's to go

Later Chika xoxox

p.s Alicia doesn't know that I told you so lets keep it quiet.

OH MY GOD TIMES A MILLION. ALEISHA IS DATING CHRIS

Hey guys me again...gonna be uploading more chapters everyday now, because EXAMS are ova. So I have plenty of time.

Really hope you enjoy this chapter , you get to see Massie's dark side and her alternate side. So have fun and please REVIEW...I LOVE TO KNOW WHAT YOU GUYS ARE THINKING.

Enjoy :)

xoxox Sera