|Role Play Gets Screwed
Author: SarahShalomDavid PM
My dream of roleplay and real life getting mixed up! Dont moan at me for posting this, but to be true i just had to write it somewhere! in order to try and understand it myself ! so please be nice, and review !Rated: Fiction T - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Chapters: 5 - Words: 7,992 - Reviews: 9 - Updated: 11-11-09 - Published: 11-07-09 - Status: Complete - id: 5496042
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This was actually a very bizarre dream that I had! And that I have had three times in a row! I want to know how it ends ! But people keep waking me up! Evil people ! Basically I role play Sarah David on Bebo, and this dream is a drastic mix of real life and role play ! Names are changed for *ahem* certain reasons, although the name 'Sarah' stays ! The names that have been changed, have been randomised! Meaning the names chosen as replacements don't represent anything etc! Well, technically my sister chose the names cause I kept asking her for a random name ….. she thinks I have lost the plot now …oh well ! Maybe I have ? Who knows? I admit some parts you may say is out of character but I think I did a pretty good job at keeping people in character :/ well I hope so =S
Also I know not everyone is in here but I can't help it! I didn't dream of every person sorry L
A seventeen year old girl lay in a hospital in Belfast, her entire body battered and bruised, her lip split and a bruise above her right eye. She was unconscious, and hooked up to various machines. She had been in a coma for a week.
Her name wasn't written on the white board that was placed above her bed, because she had been moved to Belfast after her father had attacked her in Kerry. Social Services had had her moved in order to keep her safe, and she was due to be put into the Irish care system as soon as she was fully recovered and discharged.
She awoke up, dazed and confused, Where the hell am I? Owww my head hurts, damn and every other part of me, damn! Why did he have to hit so hard she blinked a few times and sat up, she looked around, and rubbed her eyes, as a nurse came over, "Where am I?"
The nurse smiled, "Your in hospital" Well, durr a bloody idiot could have told me that !
The girl looked at her and then looked around her, something was different, something sounded different, and then she realised the accents were different, "Which hospital am I in?"
The nurse smiled, "Belfast"
She frowned and looked around, "What the hell am I doing here?" she said confused I swear I was in Kerry last time I looked, oh well, never been to Belfast before, this should be errrm different
The nurse watched her, "Social services moved you here, to make sure you were safe"
She sighed and nodded, "okay" I don't care anymore, I want to go to sleep
The nurse smiled, "My names Marie, now I know it's going to be strange for you but we can't call you by your name because of safety reasons, so what would you like us to call you?"
She smiled, cause now she would be able to change her name, and hopefully never go back there again, "Sarah. Sarah David" she said without even a single thought
Marie smiled, "Okay then, I'll write that on the board, so that they know your name"
Sarah nodded, and smiled as Marie wrote her name on the board above her head. Cool, I was thinking of changing my name to that anyways, although Belfast was not in my plans!
Marie smiled, "You should get some rest. Would you like a drink?"
Sarah shook her head, "I can do it myself" she said sitting up, hiding the pain
Marie noticed and tried to help her, making Sarah glare at her, "I said I can do it ! Will you just leave me alone"
The sound of laughter came from beside them, "You can't make her let you help her, It doesn't work like that, she won't even trust you" a soft voice said
The nurse nodded, "I'll be at the nurses station if you need me"
Sarah rolled her eyes, "Well, I don't need you now or ever, so leave me alone" she said with a sigh
The woman beside her, smiled, "You okay?"
Sarah nodded, and watched her curiously.
The woman smiled, "I'm Kate, I'm a police officer, I need you to tell me what happened"
Sarah raised an eyebrow, Okay, this is weird, I recognise her, but from where? I swear she looks familiar, Nah she can't be who I think she is, can she?
Kate smiled, "It's okay, take your time.." she paused to look up at the board, wondering what name the young girl had chosen, and raised her eyebrows
Sarah frowned, "What's wrong?"
Kate shook her head, "Nothing, it's just I recognise the name, how comes you chose that?"
Sarah smiled, unsure whether or not to say it, "I role play her, and I've always thought of changing my name to it"
Kate raised an eyebrow, as Sarah continued, "Zara?" she said softly, questioning if it were her, as she was sure that this was the person who role played Zara, she was going to say Ima, which meant mother in Hebrew but she thought it would be slightly strange to say that face to face, and she wasn't sure how Kate would react.
Kate nodded, "Yeah"
Sarah threw caution to the wind and hugged her lightly, only to be shocked when she was hugged back, but smiled brightly.
Kate smiled, "So, you going to tell me what happened?"
Sarah sighed, "I don't remember much", she looked down, she wanted to tell her, she trusted her but she genuinely couldn't remember
She smiled and nodded, reassuringly, "Okay, tell me what you do remember"
Sarah nodded, "I remember going out with friends, I was pretty out of it, It must have been late cause they were kicking everyone out the bar, we were stood outside, and then he came up to me and was shouting and then I ran, I was going to run to my step mom's but then he chased me, and when I tripped, I could feel his fist and then nothing, and I woke up here" she said still looking down, her emotions hidden by a well practised barrier.
Kate embraced Sarah, trying to ignore the fact that the child had been drunk, because she seemed so lost and broken, "It's okay, he won't hurt you again, I promise"
The social worker came up behind her, "You shouldn't make promises you can't keep, it's not your job to protect her, she is in the care of the state now"
Kate glared at her, "You can't stop me protecting her" she said determined, cutting herself off before she called Sarah her daughter, she was so used to it during role play that it almost slipped into real like, not knowing Sarah was having trouble, trying not to call her mom, or Ima.
Social Worker ignored her, and looked at Sarah, "You will be discharged later, and you will be coming with me, there is a space at the care home for you"
Sarah looked down, she wished that she could be Sarah for real, at least she wouldn't have to go into care, her emotions were heavily guarded, although inside she was breaking down, she was terrified of going into care, she didn't understand why she couldn't be loved, but her mind taunted her, telling her that she wasn't made to be loved, and that fairytales would never come true, however much she wished they would.
In role play she had a mother who loved her, a husband who meant the world to her, a daughter that she adored, and even a sister-in-law that she was close to, like a sister of her own, but in the real world, she was just another seventeen year old girl, due to be lost in the care system, with no mother that loved her, no husband that meant anything to her, no child she adored, nor a sister-in-law she was close to. She had nothing.
Kate watched Sarah's reaction, and wished she could protect her, and requested the social worker go with her, so she could talk to her properly, "Can I foster her?"
The social worker nodded, "Of course, I have forms you can fill in, and when she is discharged you can take her home, your profession makes it easier and we will be inspecting tomorrow"
Kate nodded with a smile, as she spoke to the social worker and signed the papers.
Sarah lay there, watching with curiosity, silently wishing Zara would walk through the door, and take her home, she felt a stabbing pain in her heart at the thought that it would never happen, and that it was only role play, meaning it made her wonder if Kate would love her, in the way that she role played Zara. Sarah sighed, her mind taunting her, at how stupid she was being and how it would never come true.
Kate came back to her, as the social worker left, "You okay?"
Sarah nodded, she looked scared, as her shield begun to fall
Kate sat down, "Don't worry, you can come home with me, when your discharged, is that okay?"
Sarah nodded, and hugged her, "Thank you"
Kate smiled, "It's no problem, I couldn't let them take you" she said as she hugged her
She smiled, as she hugged her, "Can I call you Ima?" she asked nervously
Kate smiled and nodded, "Of course"
Sarah smiled, happiness shining in her hazel eyes.
(it skips a bit of time frame sorry but dreams don't exactly stay in a proper timeline!)
Two weeks later, the inspections had been passed and Sarah loved having a family, but her heart was having issues of it's own. She was sat next to the man who had role played her husband; Tim. She had role played for so long that her emotions had got caught up, when she saw him she couldn't help but flash to their conversations, and seeing as they all still role played, it made it harder for her to differentiate between the real world and role play, but her heart told her she was falling head over heals in love with the man beside her. This thought alone terrified her, she was only just learning what love was, he and Kate had taught her love and taught her how to smile, not just in the two weeks she had been with them but also during the time they had role played.
The TV was flickering in the background, as they watched another movie. Kate was at work, she was working late tonight, and before Sarah knew what was happening she realised her head was on his shoulder, and his arms were securely wrapped around her, as hers were around him, she realised how they were positioned and smiled, because he had hugged her back, although she had no idea who had initiated the contact, she closed her eyes revelling in the feeling of being so safe, and dare she say, loved.
As the movie finishes, she slightly awkwardly sits up, but instead of making it over to remove the dvd she feels his lips upon hers, again not sure who initiated it, but she finds herself kissing him, and him kissing her back, the way his hands roam over her, makes her moan softly………
(I *ahem* had to skip this part, due to the fact I thought it slightly inappropriate to post it seeing as I dreamt it *laughs, slightly embarrassed* only one person will ever find out what is meant to be written here! So, dream on if you wanna know ;) )
The following morning, Sarah awoke in his arms, and tried to ease her way out of his arms, without waking him, she quickly redressed, accidentally waking him, she leant over him and kissed him softly, as she whispered "I have to go get changed before Kate realises what happened last night"
He nodded, pulling her down on top of him, "She would go mad if she realised", Sarah continued in a whisper, although reluctant to move from the bed, and from him.
He nodded, and kissed him lovingly, and she tried to get up again, but failed when he pulled her back down, "If I didn't tell you before, I love you" he whispered
She smiled, "Yes you did tell me, quite a few times if I remember rightly, and I love you too " she replied in a whisper, as he let her get up, and watched her sneak from the room, and go into her own and quickly change, showering and doing her make-up, before going into the kitchen for breakfast, finding that he was already dressed and getting breakfast sorted.
She smiled at him, her eyes shining with love as she reached up and started sorting out her breakfast, his hands travelled to her hips from behind and she smiled, as she whispered, "you'll get us both in trouble if you start that in the kitchen, Kate will be awake soon" she whispered.
"Kate is already awake", someone said from the doorway behind them
Sarah spun quickly, as Jack covered it up by moving her so he could get to the fridge, and pulled out the juice, finishing off sorting out his breakfast.
Sarah smiled at her adoptive mother, "Morning, Ima, did you sleep well?"
Kate nodded, "Yes, I did, pumpkin, did you?" she asked, with something in her eyes that Sarah had never seen before and couldn't quite recognise what it was
Sarah nodded, "Yes, I did, I slept very well, I missed you though" she said softly
Kate nodded, "Oh I'm sure you had plenty of things to do" she said slightly firmer than she ever spoke
James tried not to laugh as he ate his breakfast, and covered it up by drinking his juice.
Sarah nodded, "Yes, we watched a movie but it wasn't the same" she said, picking up on the fact that Kate obviously knew something, but Sarah just wasn't sure on how much she knew.
Kate sighed, "Sarah, I know what happened, I heard you sneaking into your bedroom this morning, also I saw you were not in your bed last night, I was worried, I was going to ask James, and when I went to his room, you were asleep, and practically on top of him!" she said, her voice getting louder, "This will not happen again, promise me Sarah, otherwise they could put you back into care"
Sarah bit her lip, she was terrified of being put into care, she looked at James, an apology in her eyes, as Kate started arguing with him. Sarah interrupted them, by saying, "I'm sorry Ima, I understand, It won't happen again" she said softly, although not happy with the agreement, she knows it is the only way she'll be able to stay there, she was worried that social services would be called, and knew she would have to wait almost a year till she was eighteen and then the social services couldn't touch her.
(Again! Time skipped in my dream sorry! Set roughly two months later!)
Sarah is sat in her bedroom, a pregnancy test sat in front of her, screaming at her that it was positive, she touched her stomach, genuinely scared, how would she tell Kate? Her PE teacher had asked her a few days ago if she were pregnant, and Sarah had denied it but a few tests later and it still kept telling her she was. It scared her, she was not only pregnant but she was about to be a mother, and even worse she wasn't allowed to be with the man she loved, the father of her unborn child.
She quickly hid the test beneath her pillow as Kate opened the door, and Sarah smiled brightly at her, covering up her fear.
Kate smiled, "The woman from social services is here, she wants to talk to us all"
Sarah nodded, "Do we have to talk to her? Can't we just climb out the window or something?"
Kate laughed, and shook her head, "No, we cannot, pumpkin, we must talk to her"
Sarah nodded, and walked out with her, and sat down, James was sat in an armchair, the social service woman in the chair opposite and Sarah and Kate sat on the sofa.
The woman smiled, "Right now I have you all here, I will get on with what I have to say, I had an alert from your school, Sarah"
Sarah looked down, knowing she was going to tell them about the baby, Kate gripped her hand, "Hey, it will be okay, you haven't been skiving or anything and you have been doing your homework, so there is nothing to worry about right?"
The woman shook her head, "Actually it's neither of those things, we have been told that Sarah is pregnant, her PE teacher noticed a difference in her, and when we asked a few of her friends they confirmed it"
Sarah kept looking down, as Kate cupped her cheek and forced her to look up, "Is this true ?"
Sarah nodded, "I was going to tell you tonight but well she already has"
Kate nodded, as the social worker continued, "You do understand that unless you have a termination then you will have to be put back into the system, meaning we will have to find you another foster placement"
Sarah put her hand over her stomach, "So, what your saying is, that I have to chose between losing my mother and killing my own child!" she shook her head, standing up, "That is absurd!"
The social worker sighed, "Then we will have a placement for you and, you will be staying in a young mother institute until we find you a placement"
Sarah glared, "Then I warn you, if you think your going to put me in care, then you won't find me here in the morning!" she stormed off to her bedroom, collapsing on the bed in tears
Kate glared, "You can't make her have an abortion, and you can't take her away if I adopt her"
She nodded, "That is true, but you haven't so we can take her, we have a question, do you know who the father might be?"
Kate quickly realised who it was and shook her head, "No, I'm sorry I couldn't tell you"
She nodded, "Then, I will collect her in the morning if that is okay with you"
Kate shook her head, "No it isn't, if you have the papers on you, I will sign them now, I'm sure you have at least one copy in that briefcase of yours"
James stays silent, shocked to learn that Sarah is pregnant, wondering if there is a possibility of it not being his which shows in his features. The doubt.
She nodded, and passed them to her, as Kate signed them and thrust them back at her, "You are not taking my daughter away from me" she said defiantly
(Sorry, my dream skipped again! Four moths later - roughly =S )
Sarah sat on her bed, with a friend of hers; Zoe, "Sooooo, you gonna tell me who the dad is?"
Sarah shook her head, her hand over her unborn child, "I can't sorry"
Zoe sighed, "Oh come on! Everyone has a bet at school to find out who it is, I mean come on! Your not dating anyone are you?"
Sarah rolled her eyes, "Thank you so much of reminding me of that fact Zoe"
Zoe shook her head, "Well, tell me and I will stop bugging you"
Sarah shook her head, "Nope I can't"
Zoe looked at her, "What do you mean you can't?"
Sarah sighed, her hand still on her bump, "Because he is older than I am, and I'm not allowed to be with him"
Zoe smiled, finally getting the gossip she wanted, "So, do you love him?"
Sarah nodded, and without hesitation, "Yeah I do, more than anything, and I always will"
Zoe nodded, "Does he know?"
(flashback to the day Kate and James found out)
James pulled Sarah to the side and out of ear shot, "Is it mine?"
Sarah nodded, "Of course it's yours, funnily enough you're the only person I've been with" she said glaring at him for even asking that
James nodded, but didn't say anything.
Sarah shook her head, and stepped back, "Forget about it, I'll be fine. We will be fine" she said as she touched her stomach and stormed off
(end of flashback)
Sarah nodded, "Yeah he knows"
Zoe raised an eyebrow, "So, what are you going to do?"
Sarah sighed and ran a hand through her hair, "I don't know, I love him so much, but I can't be with him, and it hurts so much"
Zoe shook her head, "I really don't understand you, I mean if you love him then just tell him, just go up to him and kiss him, who cares if someone tells you your not allowed to! Your having his baby for crying out loud!"
Sarah laughed at her friends outburst and shook her head sadly, "Fairytales don't come true Zoe, even I know that"
They carried on talking, not knowing Kate had heard every word.
Kate walked into the front room to where James was sat, "Do you love her?" she demanded
James nodded, "Of course, but we can't be together because you told her we couldn't, she respects your decision Kate, she isn't going to go against what you told her" he said rather annoyed
Kate sighed, "Well, it's pointless trying to stop you two being together, she is pregnant with your child, and I overheard her telling Zoe how much she loves you, I hate to see you both in pain, so I changed my mind, I give you my blessing"
James grinned and hugged his sister, "Thank you Kate"
Kate smiled, "It's okay but I would wait till Zoe's gone, I'm sure Social services would have a field day with this"
James nodded, after all she did have a point, as the baby would be born after just her eighteenth birthday.
Later that night, once Zoe had gone home, Sarah was getting herself something to eat, and James came up behind her, his arms wrapping around her, "Kate said you still loved me"
Sarah closed her eyes, revelling in his touch, she leant into his arms, "Of course I still love you, It's not exactly something I can just stop feeling, I will always love you"
James nodded against her, his hands covering their unborn child, protectively, "And I love you too"
Sarah sighed, "Why did she say that when she won't let us be together, I can't do this James, not if she doesn't approve, I am sorry" she said softly, moving out of his embrace, and wiping a stray tear from her cheek
James pulled her into his arms, and held her, "She just gave me her blessing so that we can be together"
She smiled, "Really? Or is this just your way of getting me back into bed?" she asked, jokingly, with amusement and love in her eyes
James grinned and kissed her, joining in, as they messed around, "Would that be such a bad thing, Miss David?"
Sarah shook her head, as his hands roamed her body, "I don't think it would be James"
James grinned, kissing her, his hands over her stomach and their unborn child……………
(errrm well that is where it ended so errrm I will add an extra bit on the end, cause it doesn't seemed quite finished to me :/ )
Sarah sat in hospital after giving birth to her first born daughter, as James sat with them, his arms around them, and Kate sat in the chair beside them, holding her daughter's hand. All smiling. Sarah knew it would be okay, because she had a mother that loved her, a boyfriend that mean the world to her, and a daughter who she adored. She had learnt to love and learnt to smile.
Want me to continue?
If I do I will have to make it up or add other dreams in here cause I'm afraid that this one ended
Well truth be told this was like three different dreams combined