|Letters Written With My Unshed Tears
Author: A x Stupid x Lamb PM
Edward wrote letters to his mother during a trip to her grave and many after that. He poured his heart into them and asks questions that will never recieve answers. This is what he wrote on them many occasions. No longer a one shot :Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Family/Hurt/Comfort - Edward & Elizabeth - Chapters: 3 - Words: 2,527 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 7 - Updated: 04-23-10 - Published: 02-18-10 - Status: Complete - id: 5757662
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This is the end.
Finally, after so many years, here it is.
At last, my happy ending. Have I finally done something right to deserve release from this so-called existence?
But the price I had to pay shatters my heart. Bella has left this life too, which in a way makes me happy for I have come to believe that life is for those who have committed treachery and sins beyond forgiveness, being kept from heaven and all who reside there. She doesn't deserve that. However we have eternally been parted from each other, never to see that chocolate gaze lift my spirit again. Never to see them cheeks turn rose as she blushes.
The killing me part is that I caused her inevitable demise because I left her; she took her own life out of pure misery and betrayal just because I was foolish and selfish enough not to change her.
So why is this my death?
Because I cannot, and will not, live without her to put the stars in the sky at night. You know that feeling when you just have nothing left in you to fight for? Did you feel that in the final stages of the influenza? The pain, violence and sorrow of the disease wracked your poor form and instead of enduring a single moment longer you just simply… gave up. The fight left you and you embraced death with open arms. Is that how it went?
I seek death in any form it may be. The Volturi may grant me my final request of destruction.
I sob for hours on end, yet, as many times before, nothing falls. I doubt anything would anyway; I would have no tears in me left to shed. And I now realise happiness is just an illusion. There is no happiness in life, it all ends in heartache. It is full of deception, I'm glad you didn't have the chance to experience the bitter after effects of love. So get ready to greet me in heaven, Mother, and tell Father I shall arrive as well.
I will go to heaven won't I?
I must be where Bella is and in no way would she be banished to the fiery pits of hell.
How will god punish me for everything I have done? Whatever is decided to be done with me I will accept it and not retaliate for I am a monster and should be treated as such.
So it is settled, I must guarantee my death. So what if they refuse to kill me. Carlisle told me Aro, the leader, was a collector of powers… mine may come in handy to him, which means he wouldn't willingly tear me apart. I need a backup plan. The only thing the Volturi will kill over, the one crime among us vampires, is exposure and being too conspicuous, the one thing that means certain death. So I shall step into the sun, and the bystanders can watch as I reveal my skin designed for the hunt and luring prey. It will all be over in seconds; I probably wont feel a thing.
So I write one final letter before I head to Italy and I will keep it in my breast pocket, right by my heart, until the very end and the sun causes my downfall. How ironic. A vampire, meeting the sun, and will die from it. It appears the myths are true.
I will see you soon,
Your heartbroken son,
I shoved the letter into my tattered shirt pocket, just like I said I would, and booked the next flight to Italy. This was the end of Edward Cullen. I will make sure of it. No, this is not Edward, he was lost when she left this world, I will make sure of the death of this thing I have become. And my mother would help me see it through. Carlisle… I'm sorry; you didn't deserve me as a burden. I will make it up to you now.
I then set out to meet my destiny.
Hey, I literally wrote this chapter within the last 45 minutes so I hope it is what you're looking for. It's a bit shorter then the rest but hopefully it's quality not quantity right? lol Please review!