A/N: Padmé watches Anakin with Ryn. Companion piece go Freefall and Gravity, set much later in the story cycle.

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I Want to Hate Her

You say something and she laughs, leaning into you and smiling into your bright eyes, and jealousy stabs me in the gut, making my stomach turn.

I know you're not like that with her; you wouldn't and she wouldn't. I know you love me in a way you've never felt for her.

But she gets to see you when I can't.

She gets to bandage your wounds after a fight, and comfort you when you lose a friend on the line.

She gets to watch your back.

I want to hate her, but I can't. You love her too much.