|Anyone else, but you
Author: Sincerely-a-Girl PM
Bella why can't you just admit that we might actually have a chance at this. At being together" Edward asked. "Because I'm terrified, Edward." Bella yelled. "I'm terrified of losing you," she whispered. A love story. AHRated: Fiction T - English - Romance/Friendship - Bella & Edward - Chapters: 7 - Words: 12,120 - Reviews: 51 - Favs: 35 - Follows: 33 - Updated: 03-18-11 - Published: 04-12-10 - id: 5892477
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A/N: First off I would like to thank everyone who reviewed and favorite and added me on alert and favorite author. I am completely blown away by the feedback and I hope you'll continue to do so.
Love you all, honestly.
I go straight to the nurse's office claiming that I have horrible cramps. She didn't think twice when she told me to lay down offering me a heating pad, which I accepted to play the part. I wrapped my arms around myself on the small little cot in the back of the nurses office, and cried freely. It was pretty obvious that Edward didn't like me anymore. I kept on trying to figure out if he actually liked me or not and the answer is painfully clear. My last few periods came and went, and I stayed in the nurses office all the way until the last period bell rang, signaling it was the end of the school day. I waited an extra five minutes so that I wouldn't risk running into to Edward or anybody really. I quickly walked out of the school doors and stopped when I noticed Edward and Alice having a heated dissciousn. Risking not being seen, I wait a little longer in hopes of their discussion coming to an end. Edward threw his hands up in frustration and walked away from Alice. Alice just shook her head and walked in the opposite direction. It was then that I realized that Alice and I came together. I quickly ran after her grabbing her arm to stop her from going any further.
"Bella! I thought you left school early" She puts her hands on my cheeks. "Edward had said you went to the nurse's office" My stomach clenched and out of nowhere my eyes began to water. Alice's eye widen as she looked me over. "Are you okay?" She whispered.
I shake my head. "No. Not really" I choke out.
"Oh. Bella" Alice sighs cradling my head in the crook of her neck. "C'mon let's go" She tugs on my hand and I follow Alice towards her car.
As we drive towards my house I can sense that Alice wants to know what happened but I wasn't ready to talk about it. Not yet. Maybe never.
"Do.. you want to talk about it?"
"No" I say firmly. Alice gets it and doesn't bring it up again.
She pulls up in front of my house and gets out as I do. I open the door and is hit with the smell that instantly brings my spirits up. I follow the scent and it leads me to my mother , who's in the kitchen hovering over the stove.
"Mom?" She turns around and smiles widely.
"Oh! Bella I was just finishing up dinner. Your favorite. Chicken Parmesaun." Not knowing what to say, I just walk over to my mom and squeeze her tightly. She gently pats my head and kisses the side of my head. She looks behind me and notices Alice standing by the doorway. "Alice would you like to stay over for dinner?"
Alice smiles brightly before eagerly agreeing. Mom's cell phone rings and she excuses herself to answer it.
"Bella? Are you mad at me?" Alice asks softly.
"No. I'm not mad at you, Alice." I say softly. "I just had a rough day."
"I'm not trying to pry or anything . . " She trails off and I smirk at her because she totally is. But she's my best friend and I need someone to share all secrets with.
I sigh heavily pulling out the chair to the kitchen table and taking a seat. I motion with my hand for Alice to sit and she does.
"Well. Today started off fine until Bio came around" I started. "Edward was acting really weird. He kept giving me these looks. . I confronted him during lunch and he. . basically called me a slut" I finish looking down at the old rusted kitchen table. Alice eyes bugged out of her head as she covers her mouth.
"And then . . well I-I kind of slapped him" I say. "Like really hard because my hand is still hurting"
"Oh my God! That's why he had a huge hand print on the side of his face the last time I saw him" She says.
"Yeah. So . . why were you and Edward arguing after school?" I ask.
"Um. Yeah. He basically told me -" The door bell rang and suddenly my mom reappeared, ushering me out of my chair and to the front door.
"Why don't you get that sweetheart?" Mom insisted.
"Okay. . ." I say unsure. I walk to the door and slowly open it scared of what might be behind it. I open it and look to see who it was. It was Phil.
"Surprise!" He yells. I look at him and blink rapidly. Um. So yeah. What was so special about Phil being here. No offense to Phil of course.
"Um. . ."
"Well aren't you gonna invite me in?" He asks. I nod moving out of the way so he could come in. That's when I noticed he was carrying a rather big box. Oh! It must've been the printer my mom said he was gonna set up for me.
"Oh. Thank you so much Phil" I say referring to him setting up my printer.
"You saw your new printer I set up, huh?" He says smiling widely. Huh?
"Set up? Isn't that box you just set down my new printer" I ask, completely confused.
"Oh no, honey. Phil came by earlier today to set up your printer" My mom says quickly.
"But. . . you said he'd come at . . " I start. "Wait. You stayed home today?"
My mom nods before clapping her hands together. "Um. Shall we see what's in the box?" She smoothes down her skirt and walks over to kneel beside the box.
"Okay." I agree eyeing my mom then Phil who was currently looking at his shoes. Interesting.
I kneel beside my mom and Alice follows. My mom waits for me to open it so I open the flap and out comes a cute little puppy bulldog. He waddled out and started sniffing the ground then came over to me, licking my hand.
"Aw he's so adoreable" Alice exclaims holding her arms out so the pup would come to her next. He licked my hand once more before waddling toward Alice. She quickly scoops him up in her arms and rocks him from side to side.
"What are you gonna name him?" She asked.
"Um. . I don't know" I say trying to think of a good name for this cute little fellow. "Well it's a boy right?" I look up at Phil and he nods his head.
"What about Dee-oh-gee. Get it. It's like the pronunciation of the word dog. D-O-G." Alice suggest. Mom, Phil and I laugh hysterically. Only Alice would come up with that.
"How about not. What about . . .Benji?" I suggest. I like that name. Benji. "Come here Benji" I test holding out my arms. He squirms out of Alice's hand and jumps on me, licking the side of my face. Gross but oddly adorable.
"I like that name and apparently so does he?" Mom says. I smile up at her and mouth a "thank you". I get up holding Benji and walk over to Phil to give him a hug. "Thanks, Phil"
He hugs me back then ruffles my hair. "No problem, squirt."
"Okay. Everybody it's time to eat" Mom calls. Me and Alice rush to the kitchen with Benji trying to keep up with our speed.
We ate dinner together laughing at Phil's insane stories about his childhood. It was around 8 when Alice had to leave. She hugs me goodbye and bend down to scratch Benji's head as a farewell. I put Benji in the kitchen blocking the entreeway so he wouldn't be able to get out and walked Alice to her car. It was pretty dark out but the street lights made it bearable. I waved at Alice once more time before making my way up the porch steps. When I hit the last step I stop breathing. Edward is sitting on my porch swing, rocking back and forth gently. I continued to stare at him unable to move or say anything. He pats the seat next to him and waits for me to do so. Without any control over my body, I began to walk towards him sinking down on the swing placing myself as far away from him as possible. We sit there staring straight ahead for awhile not speaking.
"What are you doing here?" I asked softly.
"I came here to see you" He sighs running his fingers through his hair. "I came here to apologize and explain myself"
"Well it's a little late for that. You made it pretty clear how you felt about me" I say starting to get up but Edward's hand touches my arm and pulls me into his side. He fully faces me looking directly into my eyes.
"Bella, I'm really sorry for being an ass to you earlier. I was just really jealous of all the attention you were getting . . from guys"
"Jealous? I don't get it." I say scratching the back of my head.
"I was jealous of all those guys talking to you. Looking at you. I-I wanted that to be me. Only me. Not anyone else." My eyes widen when I realize what he's saying but I wanted to actually hear those words. He abruptly gets up and walk over to my balcony rubbing the back of his neck.
"I'm freaking you out aren't I?" He says softly plunging his hands into his pockets avoiding eye contact. I slowly get up and walk over until i'm standing directly in front of him. I hesitantly put my hand on his shoulder. At first he tenses but then he loosens up and looks up into my eyes.
"You're not freaking me out" I say slowly slidly my fingers up his neck and into his hair feeling the soft locks benath my hand. He takes my hand away from his hair and brings it up to his mouth placing gentle kisses on the palm of my hand. I shiver slightly. Our eyes connect and we slowly began to lean in toward one another. When our lips are inches apart I say "I don't want it to be anyone else, but you" He smiles and moves forward capturing my lips with his. His mouth is warm and soft and it gives me butterflies in my stomach. I wrap my arms around his neck bringing him closer to me as he lets his hands slide down to my waist. I tell him through my kisses that I want him and not anyone else. Only him it will ever be. He puts his forehead against mine breathing as hard as I am. I try and catch my breath because all I want to do is kiss him over and over again. I pull away from him and grab his hand.
"Do you want to come in?" I ask shyly. He brings one of his hands up and caress my cheek. I smile into his hand turning my head to the side to kiss his palm. " I would love to but I have to get home . . . and pack"
And just like that the spell was broken. I pull away from him folding my arms across my chest. "Oh. Right. You're leaving"
"Don't say it like that" He sighs. "I really wanna stay here but - " I hold up my hand to stop him. I run my fingers through my hair.
"No. I get it. It's . . . Okay" I sigh. "I should probably get inside. My mom is probably worried."
"Oh. . um yeah. I should probably leave " He says staring at me for long time before shaking his head and walking toward the steps. I watch him go two steps down before abruptly turning around and climbing back up the steps until he is right back in front of me.
"Hi" He says.
I laugh softly. "Hi"
He pulls me toward him and kisses me deeply. "Goodnight" He says.
"Goodnight" I sigh leaning on my my door.
And so they FINALLY kiss. So I set up my phone so that whenever I get an alert regarding my story I'll receive it via e-mail. You have no idea how many time my phone buzzed today. I loved every minute of it. *smooch*