|She Loves Me, She Loves Me Not
Author: coachmurray PM
Brandon gets a job opportunity that sends him back to L.A., where he has to confront the reason why he chose to leave L.A. in the first place.Rated: Fiction T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Brandon W. & Kelly T. - Chapters: 43 - Words: 173,799 - Reviews: 244 - Favs: 23 - Follows: 29 - Updated: 02-25-13 - Published: 05-17-10 - id: 5978482
|A+ A- Full 3/4 1/2 Expand Tighten|
Hi, I wrote this fanfic in early 2009, shortly after the premiere of the 90210 spinoff. I never posted it because of the mixed reviews I got from my friends. I had forgotten about it until now. I ended up using the same plot line in a novel I wrote with all different characters and settings. I'm currently trying to get a book deal with a publisher. But the fanfic you're about to read is the original BH90210 version in a non-scripted format. The original was scripted. All 35 chapters of this story are practically done. However, I may extend the story depending on your responses. Since I value your feedback, PLEASE write a review. Whether you love it or hate it, please tell me why. Thanks!
Please note that this is primary a Brandon & Kelly fanfic but other characters from the old show may be included as needed. As a warning, even though there may be other couples involved, unless you are a fan of Brandon & Kelly, this may not be the fanfic for you. Also, unlike many BH90210 fanfics you may have read, you may soon find out why mine is very different.
Also, if you want me to take out the "said.." after each line, please tell me. Enjoy!
Chapter 1- "Call Me Anytime."
It's past midnight and Kelly Taylor is in bed talking to Dylan on the phone.
"It's nice to finally hear from you," said Kelly.
"It would nicer if we can see each other," replied Dylan.
"Well, you know where I'm at. Your son misses you too," said Kelly.
"I know. And I want to be more a part of his life….and your life. I'm just very busy here. I have an opportunity to make a difference in so many people's lives here, Kel. I just wish you can come here and see what I mean," argued Dylan.
"I know. I just wish you can make a difference in your son's life; give him a chance to be with this dad," said Kelly.
"Please don't start that with me, Kel," pleaded Dylan.
"I didn't start anything, Dylan. I'm not the one who left just because he was ready to stay put and settle down....and start a family," replied Kelly.
"Hey, I'm trying the best I can!" yelled Dylan.
"Well, try a little harder!" said Kelly as she yelled back.
Kelly was so mad that she hanged up the phone on Dylan. She sat there for a few moments wondering what has happened to her life. She began asking herself, "Why is this happening to me?" "What did I do to deserve this?"
It wasn't always like this. Back in high school and college, Kelly had many friends who she can talk to and console her about her problems. After college, things began to unravel when her friends started to move on with their lives one by one. One of her close friends move across the country to pursue a career as a professional writer, while some move across the globe for stardom and recognition, and some simply got married and had kids. While Kelly was now a mother, she felt that something was missing in her life. Nevertheless, she loved living in Beverly Hills. Her life was here. That's one of the reasons why she refused to move from place to place with Dylan. She had thought that Dylan was ready to settle down and start a family but realized change isn't for everybody. Still she would like to travel every now and then. But she wasn't ready to risk leaving her family just for some fun. Kelly knew that Dylan was the adventurous type. That's one of the reasons why she fell in love with him. But lately she felt as if he was living his life without her. In her mind, Kelly knew that she was lonely and was trying her best to hold on to Dylan.
Kelly's phone suddenly rang again. She did not want to argue with Dylan. But after several rings, she gives in and answers the phone anyway.
"Ugh, stop calling! I don't want to talk to you now!," yelled Kelly.
"Kel, I'm sorry. You never complained before when I call you this late. I didn't know you mind," yelled a familiar voice.
Kelly realizes that it wasn't Dylan calling him. She has a confused look on her face but eventually figures out whose voice it was.
"Brandon?" asked Kelly.
"Yes, it's Brandon," replied Brandon.
"Brandon, hi. I'm sorry. I didn't mean to yell at you like that. I thought you were someone else," Kelly apologized.
"It's ok. Is this a bad time? I can always call later," said Brandon.
"No, it's been a while. It's good to hear from you," said Kelly as she smiles.
"Same here," replied Brandon.
"Where are you?" asked Kelly.
"I'm in Belize," replied Brandon.
"Still? That was like three months ago," inquired Kelly.
"Oh, no. After we talked last time, I went to Maui, Peru, and France. I just came back to Belize to cover an annual fair....Hold on, I got something for ya," explained Brandon.
Brandon attaches a photo of him in Maui and sends it to Kelly. Kelly sees the photo and starts laughing.
"Look at you, Mister World Traveler. I'm glad that you get to live your dream," smiled Kelly.
"It's fun but it gets lonely after a while," said Brandon.
"Still, you get to travel for free and meet exciting people from all over the world," said Kelly.
"Kel, it's not that exciting. You're not missing much," explained Brandon.
"Thanks. At least I know one of my world travelers isn't letting the fame get to his head," said Kelly.
"If you're referring to Dylan, you should know that I spoke to him a few weeks ago" said Brandon.
"Oh, what did you two talk about?" asked Kelly.
"The usual. We compare our trips and the people we meet," replied Brandon.
"And the women?" attentively asked Kelly.
"If it helps, he didn't meet anybody that could compare to you," replied Brandon.
"And yourself?" asked Kelly smiling.
"Struck out. Otherwise I would be calling her at one in the morning instead of you," replied Brandon.
"Gee, I'm glad that you only consider me as a backup," sarcastically asked Kelly.
"You were never a backup, Kel. I love having a friend who I can just talk to and be honest with," explained Brandon.
"Well, I love our late night chats too. I always look forward to them even though I never know when's the next time you're gonna call," said Kelly.
"Well then, we got to fix that. How about, I call you (checks his calendar) Friday at midnight?," said Brandon.
"Oh, you don't have to do that. I'm not that needy," explained Kelly.
"It's ok. I want to. As I said, it's nice to have a friend," told Brandon.
"Well since you put it that way, I'll be here," said Kelly.
"So, it's settled, this Friday at midnight," confirmed Brandon.
"It's a date," said Kelly.
"Ok, I'll talk to you soon. Good night," said Brandon.
"Good night, Brandon," replied Kelly.
Brandon and Kelly hang up their phones. Kelly turns off her lamp and smiles as she goes to sleep.
It's early in the morning in Belize. Brandon Walsh just got back to Belize after covering several major events around the world. His suitcase is opened and some of his clothes is scattered on the floor. He had always had dreams of becoming a professional writer for a major metropolitan newspaper. He had several chances to pursue his dream immediately college but turned it down because he felt that he was pursuing something more important; love. But when things fell apart a year after college, he felt like his life was getting nowhere. Then when Brandon was offered a job of a lifetime to work for the Washington D.C. Bureau of The New York Chronicle, he knew his decision of whether to stay or go relied soley on the answer from one person. When Brandon got the answer that she wanted him to go, he knew that he had to put his career on top of everything else and move on. For over ten years, Brandon was able to do that. Nevertheless, being so lonely that he's always traveling alone, he continuously yearns for that special someone to bring him back to the world he once knew and loved.
Brandon is still sleeping in bed in his hotel room. He is startled as he hear his phone rings.
"Hello?" asked Brandon.
"Hey Bran, it's Dylan," said Dylan.
"Hey D. Good morning, man," replied Brandon.
"Not here. It's dinner time here in Sweden," corrected Dylan.
"I always wanna go there. Maybe I'll get lucky one day," claimed Brandon.
"You can't depend on luck, man. You just gotta go for it," said Dylan.
"Thanks, but I'd rather keep my job," said Brandon.
"Well, that's the difference between you and me. I'm my own boss," said Dylan.
"Speaking of being a boss. How's Sammy doing?" asked Brandon.
"Kel says he's fine," said Dylan.
"Yeah, I spoke to her last night," said Brandon.
"Me too. But I got the feeling that she didn't want to talk to me," said Dylan.
Brandon then realizes it was Dylan who Kelly was yelling at before he called.
"If you show up at her door, she wouldn't have a choice," said Brandon.
"I dunno, man. It's always difficult with Kel. I don't wanna be around whenever she's in one of her moods," explained Dylan.
"Moods or no moods, isn't it about time you go and see your son?" asked Brandon.
"What are you? My conscience?" asked Dylan.
"Hey man, I'm just speaking my mind," argued Brandon.
"Well, sounds like your speaking from Kelly's mind," said Dylan.
"Close enough," said Brandon.
"Hey B, if you ever want to write an article about a guy doing a whole lot of good all over the world, give me a call," said Dylan.
"Why, who do you know?" said Brandon sarcastically.
"Very funny, B," laughed Dylan.
"Alright, I'll keep you in mind," said Brandon.
"Thanks. We'll talk later. Bye Bran," said Dylan.
"Have a good one, D," said Brandon.
It's Friday night at Kelly's house. She is flipping through a magazine when her half-sister, Erin "Silver" walks past her door.
"Hey Silver. Don't stay out too late," said Kelly.
Silver comes back and stays near Kelly's bedroom door as they continue talking.
"Don't worry sis. I'll be at Annie's. Her dad will drive me home," explained Silver.
"Ok. Be safe," warned Kelly.
"I will," replied Silver.
Silver comes into Kelly's room.
"So, what are your plans for tonight?" asked Silver.
"Nothing. I'm going to give Sammy a bath, take a hot shower, and go to bed," replied Kelly.
"You know Kel, if you need me to watch Sammy sometime, I'll be happy to," said Silver.
"Why? It's no problem," said Kelly.
"I know. I just think you should get out more....C'mon. Why don't you come with me and Annie tonight. We can have a girls night out," said Silver.
"Silver, that's sweet of you but I'm fine here tonight," said Kelly.
"I don't get what's so fine about wasting a Friday night inside. We can leave Sammy with the neighbors," said Silver.
"Silver, no. I'm fine. I have plans," claimed Kelly.
"Some plans. You give Sammy a bath every night. Then you take a shower and go to bed," said Silver.
"If you must know, I'm waiting for a very important call," explained Kelly.
Silver sees Kelly's phone on her bed. She gets a confused look on her face.
"Well I see you have all the necessary accessories. Kel, that's why they make cells phones portable...it's so that you can receive calls anywhere," sarcastically said Silver.
"No, I want to have a peaceful and quiet conversation with my friend," said Kelly.
"I don't get it. You never make plans just to talk to Dylan on the phone," said Silver.
"For your information, it's not Dylan," explained Kelly.
"Then who is it? Mr. Matthews?" asked Silver.
"No, it's not Ryan. It's just an old friend who's calling me long distance. And I don't want him to call when I'm not ready to give him my full and undivided attention," said Kelly.
Silver has a confused look on her face again. Then she gets a grin on her face and starts to laugh a little.
"What? What's so funny?" asked Kelly.
"Kel, I'm sorry. I should've known," grinned Silver.
"Known what?" asked Kelly.
"I mean...you got your nightie on and the phone.....You're right; looks like you're gonna have more fun staying in. Just don't wear out the batteries with your "friend"", laughed Silver.
Kelly gets mad and playfully grabs a pillow and throws it at Silver who is laughing and trying to leave. Kelly knew that her talk with Brandon would be nothing more than a good conversation between friends. Even though it was a simply a phone call that she was waiting for, she seemed very anxious and excited about it. She was glad that she and Brandon still kept in touch after being apart for so long. Kelly had not seen Brandon for several years but she still felt as if they still know each very well inside and out. She enjoyed the fact that they can catch up on each other's lives without focusing too much on the past.
After Silver left, Kelly got up and gave her son, Sammy a bath. She loves spending time with him. Kelly loves that Sammy was still at an age of innocence and was still young enough to enjoy the simple life. From Kelly's eyes, Sammy had little worries and fears. Kelly smiled every time Sammy would giggle and laugh. However, she would get worried whenever Sammy asks about his father and why isn't he here living with them. But for the time being, Kelly seems to be having a good time with her son. After giving Sammy a bath, Kelly tucked Sammy to bed. She grabs one of Sammy's books from his shelf and began to read to him. Kelly knew his son well and that he would fall asleep by the fourth page. This time was no exception. She looked up after reading the third page and Sammy was fast asleep. Kelly smiles and kisses Sammy good night.
Kelly goes back to her room. She sees that the time is 10:30pm and decides to read for a while. She looks up from time to time at the clock to make sure she doesn't miss Brandon's call (even though it's obvious that her phone would ring when Brandon calls).
It's a quarter to midnight and Kelly is holding her phone waiting for Brandon's call. She had given up trying to do anything else but wait. The phone rings and Kelly picks it up immediately.
"Hello?" asked Kelly.
"Hey Kel. I hope I didn't wake you. I'm going to stay at Annie's tonight. Is that ok?" asked Silver.
"Yeah. Are her parents home?" asked Kelly.
"Of course. How did your call go?" asked Silver.
"Fine. Good night" said Kelly quickly as she tries to get Silver off the phone before Brandon calls.
"Ok, Good night" said Silver.
Kelly and Silver hang up the phone. Kelly checks the time and it's two minutes to midnight. She hopes that Brandon didn't try to call while she was talking with Silver. She checks her voicemail; it's empty and Kelly is relieved.
It's 12:05am and Kelly is still sitting on the bed waiting impatiently. At 12:10am, she gets the feeling that she's been stood up. She knew that Brandon was probably busy and maybe out late working. But since he had specifically made the appointment of calling her at midnight, she continued to wait. At 12:20am, she gives up and decides to call it a night. Kelly looked extremely disappointed but realized that if Brandon wanted to call, he would have called. As she reached over to place her phone on her nightstand, it rang. She quickly answers it.
"Hello?" asked Kelly.
"Hey Kel. I'm sorry I'm late. I hope you weren't up waiting for me," said Brandon.
"No, I wasn't waiting," lied Kelly.
"Were you asleep? Did I wake you?" asked Brandon.
"No, I was just reading. What happened?" asked Kelly.
"This cab driver decided to take a detour and I end up taking the long way back to my hotel," explained Brandon.
"Are you ok?" asked Kelly.
"Yeah, I'm fine. Thanks for asking. But enough about me. I believe we didn't get to talk about you last time," said Brandon.
"What would you like to know?" asked Kelly smiling.
"How are you? How's Sammy?" asked Brandon.
"Sammy's good. He's starting Kindergarten this fall," told Kelly.
"Wow, they do grow up fast, don't they?" asked Brandon.
"They sure do. I always complain that he was such a handful when he was a baby but now, I kinda miss those days where I'm all he's got," said Kelly.
"Don't get ahead of yourself, Kel. You're still his world," said Brandon.
"I don't know about that. I guess that's why I enjoy these precious moments while he still needs me," said Kelly.
"He's always gonna need you. Now as I was asking, how are YOU doing?" asked Brandon.
"Sorry, I've been dodging that question. My days seemed so boring compared to yours," said Kelly grinning.
"I'm sure it's not that bad," said Brandon.
"Well, let's see. I wake up every morning at seven. I make breakfast for myself, Sammy, and Silver. Then I go to work. After work, I pick up Sammy and the three of us have dinner. Finally, I shower and go to bed. Boring isn't it?" asked Kelly.
"It's a routine but at least you got something to look forward to when you come home every night," said Brandon.
"Yeah but I just wish I can go somewhere exciting and have some time to myself," said Kelly.
"Well, you're entitled to that," said Brandon.
"But the problem is how do I get it?" asked Kelly.
"I can help you out with that. How about you come with me on my next business trip?" asked Brandon.
"Thanks Brandon but I can't," replied Kelly.
"Why not?" asked Brandon disappointingly.
"You think you're the first person to offer to take me on a trip? If I can't go with Dylan, what makes you think I can go with you? I got responsibilities, Brandon. Sammy and Silver need me right now. I just can't abandon them," replied Kelly.
"I'm not telling you to abandon anyone. Bring 'em," argued Brandon.
"What? You can do that?" asked Kelly surprised.
"Sure. I've been the only writer traveling alone for the past eight years. I'm sure they'll let me take a few extra passengers with me," explained Brandon.
"Brandon, that's really sweet of you but I got my job and Silver's got school," explained Kelly.
"I'm not asking you to go this minute. Just let me know when you're ready to go and I'll make the arrangements," explained Brandon.
"Wow. Thanks. I'll think about it," said Kelly.
"Please do," said Brandon.
"Thanks Brandon. If anyone can save me from this rut, it's you," said Kelly sweetly.
"Whoa..if I knew that you were that desperate, I would've ask you sooner," joked Brandon.
"At least I'm not desperate for companionship," laughed Kelly.
"Who says I am? Believe me Kel, you need my trip more than I need your companionship," joked Brandon.
"Oh is that so? Well, if I needed to go to on a trip so badly, I would've had no problem choosing Dylan over you in college," joked Kelly.
Brandon looked defeated and doesn't answer. Kelly realized what she just said. Even though she was clearly joking, she knew that Brandon had always been hurt over Kelly's decision to not marry him when he proposed in college. She knew she shouldn't had brought that up.
"Brandon, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to bring that up," argued Kelly.
"It's ok. It's no big deal," said Brandon.
"Seriously Brandon, I didn't mean it like that. I was just joking. I would never make a decision like that based on a trip. Please don't be mad at me," pleaded Kelly.
"Kelly, it's ok. I'm not mad. I'm not blaming you for anything," said Brandon.
"You sure?" asked Kelly.
"I'm sure. Look, I'm pretty tired. We'll talk later," said Brandon.
"Ok. Good night, Brandon," said Kelly disappointed.
"Good night," said Brandon.
Brandon hangs up the phone first. Kelly hangs up the phone and feels guilty. She wanted to call him back and apologize some more. But she was afraid that Brandon would get even more mad. She turns off her light and tries to go to sleep. But instead, she lies on her bed with her eyes open.
After a few moments, Kelly's phone suddenly lights up. She quickly grabs the phone and checks it is Brandon. She sees a text message. But it's not from Brandon.
"Stayin the weekend at Annie's. Be bk Sun night. GN-Silver," texted Silver.
Kelly closes her phone disappointed and goes to sleep.
Coming Next - Brandon gets a job promotion that will change his life.