|I find myself fallingAgain
Author: MadameDegrassi96 PM
Well i love Degrassi, so i thought about writing a fanfic. not real good with summaries w/out giving away too much! promise, its worth it tho! ;Rated: Fiction M - English - Friendship/Romance - Eli G. & Clare E. - Chapters: 27 - Words: 38,238 - Reviews: 114 - Favs: 52 - Follows: 37 - Updated: 09-07-10 - Published: 08-10-10 - Status: Complete - id: 6224082
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Okay, well this is my very first fanfiction ever! probably not that great but i just started so give me some credit! R&R! I changed a lot about what ACTUALLY happened. but hey thats why its a fanfic!
DISCLAIMER: i dont own nothing from degrassi.
After we got back to lunch, Alli wouldn't leave me alone about liking this boy who I only once and had no idea who he was, hell I didn't even know his name. Of course the more I denied it the more Alli swore I was lying, the truth was I really had no idea. Yea he was cute, but I don't know him to like him. My thoughts were cut off by the lunch bell. To get away from Alli I took the long way around the school to get to English class. But by the time I got there, there was only one seat left; it was the one behind the boy who ran over my glasses. I looked over to where Alli was sitting; her expression couldn't have been any smugger. I sighed and took my seat just as the final bell rang and Ms. Doss came strolling in the class with a clip board in her hands. It took everything I had not to stare at the back of his head just wondering who he was and what he could be thinking of. I was brought back to reality as I heard
"… And Clare, Then Alli and Drew."
Whatever she was talking about had Alli grinning from ear to ear. Everyone started getting up and moving except me I was looking around trying to figure out what was going on.
"So English partner, what should we write about?"
I sighed now I realized why Alli grinned and everyone moved. I felt stupid because he looked at me waiting for an answer when I was dead silent just staring into his eyes. I finally decided to open my mouth so I didn't look so dumb.
"Um, I kinda, sorta, wasn't really paying attention. At all"
He looked at me with this smirk on his face, and I wasn't sure yet if it embarrassed me or annoyed me.
"Well she said that we had to be English partners for the year, 'no if's ands' or buts'.'"
He said the last part mocking her.
"And she said we had to choose a topic that was personal to write about, each of us and had to edit each other's work, or we could choose a topic together."
As he said this that annoying smirk came back to his face.
"So do you want to do the separate one or the other one?" I asked him. He thought about it for a minute, I was sure he had his mind up because he did it the way people did on cartoons that was too obvious, like the 'hmm' or the hands on the chin and looking up I just waited patiently
"Well what do you want to do?" Of course he would answer my question with a question.
"Honestly, it doesn't matter to me." Even though I couldn't get the thought of us spending time together out of my head. He just did that smirk thing again
"Well then partner where should we go to write this paper?"
"How 'bout the dot?" he said okay and we went to his Hearse, it was kind of shocking but I tried my best not to say anything it was going good until my phone went off. I checked it; it was a text from Alli
CLARE! DID YOU JUST LEAVE SCHOOL WITH ELI! OH CALL ME NOW! I KNEW YOU LIKED HIM CLARE-BEAR!
As we parked and he walked inside I told him to give me a minute, when he walked away and I was sure he was out of hearing distance I called her.
"Clare? Where are you? I'm coming wait no I'm not, I'll give you alone time I can't believe this! Clare and Eli!-"I cut her off.
"Alli relax. Breathe. And shush. Yes this is Clare who else would it be? I'm at the dot- Yes, With Eli? - yes.-"I heard her squeal "Alli! Stop, I'm not done yet, don't get your hopes up this is definitely not a date, were working on our English assignment, and before you squeal again no it's not code. Were really just working on our English assignment, gosh, if you like him so much you ask him out!" And before I could tell her I have to go she cut in.
"Clare stop denying it, go with the flow. I love you. Bye."
"Love you too, don't worry I'll call you when I get home. Now I have to go okay, when I hang up I expect you won't be hyperventilating, right?" She sighed.
"Fine but I expect full blown details!"
"Okay now I really, really have to go. Love you, bye" As I shut my phone and turned around he was standing there, I blushed wondering how much he heard.
"Paranoid boyfriend?" He suggested with a smirk. I couldn't help but go three shades redder.
"Actually, paranoid best friend, I don't have a boyfriend." Of course I wouldn't tell him how much of a coincidence it was that I didn't have a boyfriend because of my old best friend. *sigh*
As we were sitting on the bench while reviewed the text book. I was so confused on what to write about. Eli looked at me with those eyes that would melt me. As I sat there not really caring if I stared, I was remembering our first encounter. Where he told me I had pretty eyes. As I came back to reality I blushed realizing that we were still staring at each other.
"So what are you going to write about?" he asked me. I honestly wasn't even sure yet, so I shrugged and sighed at the same time and then put my head in my hands.
"Well if you could change anything in the whole world what would it be?" I knew immediately
"My parents, they are fighting a lot lately." He gave me an apologetic smile
"So write about that" he said it like it was simple. Like it didn't matter and it was just a story.
"I can't that's TOO personal! "He looked at me for a minute
"You know what your problem is? Your too afraid of what people think." He looked at me.
"No I'm not!" He did that stupid smirk thing again yet how much I actually liked it.
"Prove it." It took those two simple words to put me in such a trance. I just wanted to crawl into a tiny corner of my head and never come out. This reminded me too much of the incident that happened with KC, not only the total embarrassment. But the fact that I was totally in love with him during that point of my life. And it brought back feelings I didn't want to feel, like: hurt, sadness, but most of all bitterness and regret for ever feeling that way towards someone that just took my heart and tore in shreds. A simple tear, just one stranded tear that was left behind from the night I cried to sleep over KC. That one tear that was stranded when all the rest freely escaped. That one simple little small tear, was probably the most potent tear of all the rest. The one that meant the most to me, the one that made me now realize I really was going to get over him, that tear let me know that there would be no more left to come from my eyes for KC. Before I could snap back to reality I felt his finger gently wipe away that precious tear from my cheek. I looked up at him finally out of my daze.
"Is everything okay?" he asked me with a really concerned look on his face, and right when he asked me that, I realized what was up with me, everything was finally okay.
I looked up and smiled reassuringly "yes everything is fine." I got up really quick, I needed coffee. I was afraid he probably thought I was psycho. Then he got up with me.
"Where are you going?"
"Oh, I was going to get a coffee." I looked at him unsure then he just fallowed me when I got to the counter, I realized that Spinner was there. It had been so long since I've been to the Dot.
"HEY! Its baby Edwards! Long time no see" he reached in for a hug, I hugged him back.
"So how's it going, are you finally over that douche of a boyfriend?" I sighed
"Yea everything's good now, how have you been?"
"I've been good; i haven't talked to Darcy in a while how is she? Still as beautiful as ever huh? How is she getting along with the whole peter deal?" I mentally rolled my eyes, all people ever cared about was Darcy.
"She's great she's over him now all her attention is on the people she's helping. Knowing her she probably already has a new boyfriend, so unless she was involved in some accident I'm sure she's even more beautiful."
"That's good for her, so what can I get- Who's this?" He asked finally paying more attention.
"This is Eli. Eli-Spinner. I'll have coffee. "He gave me my coffee and I hurried back outside away from his questions. I really did like Spinner he is a good guy, I can't blaming him for being like everyone else. Always caring for the beautiful one more. Eli noticed I was deep in thought.
"Hey what's wrong?" I looked up at him probably on the verge of tears.
"Oh nothing." He wasn't fooled
"you're a horrible liar."
" It's just people always, without a doubt care about Darcy more, I mean I understand she's gone and they miss her but even before she left, everyone always knew me as Darcy's smart little sister. I'm the smart one, and she's the beautiful one." He looked at me in thought for a minute.
"Clare. You are definitely not just the smart one, don't let that get to you because you're definitely beautiful." He looked away blushing.
"No, that's definitely not the case. Let's get back to work." As I thought if I were so beautiful, I wouldn't have only attracted one person when Darcy attracted by many more.
"Do you honestly believe that?" he obviously wasn't going to drop this. I sighed
"Yes I honestly KNOW this." He continued.
"Tsk. Tsk. Tsk." I couldn't help but laugh "So you had a bad break up?" I definitely did NOT want to have this conversation.
"That I believe is none of your business." He got that little, adorable, se- stop yourself Clare.
"We ARE English partners, so I think it's fair that we share some secrets." He looked at me like I was really going to tell him. Those damn eyes. Sigh
"Well I used to like this guy, and I thought he was really nice and sweet but than a certain best friend of mine decided that she liked him and he cheated on me with her and broke up with me over it. But I'm over him now so it's not that big of a deal."
"Who was it?" I really didn't want to tell him
"Who? The guy or the friend?"
"Both" I turned my head
"Nope, not telling you!" and I started to get my stuff together and leave. He grabbed my arm gently,
"What are you doing?" He asked
"I'm leaving we have been here almost 2 hours."
"But we didn't get any work done?"
"Oh well that's YOUR fault I happened to be actually doing my work"
He laughed "lemme see that! I have a feeling your lying to me!"
I started to run down the street playfully laughing the whole time until he backed me up in a corner, I stopped laughing as did he. I could feel his breath on my neck I couldn't resist looking at his eyes and his lips. As I realized what I really wanted was for him to kiss me. I leaned my head in a little closer, then he moved his head in too. We were this close to kissing!
"Clare?" We both jumped back to see who it was. I couldn't believe my eyes as I saw…
I KNOW! CLIFF HANGER! i cant believe i did that considering i've read atleast a million and 2 of these and hate them! but i do know it will keep you on your toes ;)