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Chapter 1

I was walking down the hallway with Bobby to our next class. He had his arm around me telling me something about how Storm wasn't letting them have a snow day right before exams, but I wasn't really paying attention I kept feeling like I didn't belong here since I don't have any powers. Even though Strom and Logan insisted that I still stay. I think Logan was the one who wanted me to stay the most. He was like the father I always needed, but sometimes not what I wanted.

"Rouge, hey are you ok I asked you a question and you're not responding." He half laughed. I hadn't even realized that he had asked me something.

"Sorry Bobby, I-I um what was the question again?" I said a little disconnected.

He had a concerned look on his face. "What's the matter something has been on your mind lately and you're not telling me."

I put on a forced smile "Nothing I promise." The truth was I had been feeling like there has been this wall between us and with the feeling of being unwanted here had been tearing me apart. I don't know why I had that feeling I mean no one was treating me badly because I wasn't a mutant any more everything had been the same except for the fact that I could touch people without killing them. I guess I just felt like I didn't belong in their world any more.

"Your such a liar come on." He grabbed my hand and dragged me in to a supply closet nearby and closed the door. I scrambled to find a light somewhere finally I found it I clicked it on and it let out a very dim light barely enough to see the entire small room.

"Now tell me what's bugging you you've been kind of distant lately." He said while wrapping his arms around my waist.

"I just don't feel like I should still be here I feel like I don't belong." I said laying my head against his chest and wrapping my arms around his torso.

He sighed "Rouge I thought we've been through this conversation before you do belong here where else would you go. Besides I want you to stay here I wouldn't want you to leave this place." He tilted my head up and leaned in for a kiss I met him half way. This is definitely one of the better parts of not having my powers. After a few minutes we heard the bell ring and we pulled away from each other to catch our breath.

Bobby laughed "You want to ditch the rest of school today."

I smiled "Just as long as Logan doesn't catch us again." I smiled.

Then from behind Bobby we heard someone giggle. "Well I guess I will go tell Storm that you two are sick or something."

It was Kitty. Bobby let me go as quickly as he could and turned around. "Oh hey Kitty what's up?" He said nervously.

Was that all he was going to say 'What's up' she just saw us making out and failed to inform us until we made plans for something else. But of course that was all he was going to say I knew he had feelings for her what kind they were I wasn't for sure, but I knew they were strong. They started to get into their own little conversation in a supply closet of all places when I finally spoke up.

"Kitty what are you doing in here." I said a little bitter.

She turned to me and smiled. "When Logan didn't see you going to class he asked me to go looking for you two."

I rolled my eyes "Well great you found us now you can go back to class Kitty." I didn't try to hide the irritation I was having with her this time I was trying to make her take the hint.

She just giggled "Oh Ro-Ro your funny come on lets all go back to class." She said happily.

I despised that nickname and I have told her to quit calling me that, but she just won't stop. Not to mention it's hard to hate her even if she was stealing my boyfriend I mean it's not like she is trying to move in on my guy he just happened to like her, and I have moments with her to where sometimes I would consider her a good friend.

Bobby smiled "Yes I'd love to. Well we both would."

My heart started to sink as they started to get into another conversation. I opened the door and slid out. They didn't even notice I wasn't there until I got three fourths of away down the hall. Bobby came sprinting up to me.

"Rouge where are you going?" He asked a little out of breath.

"Where do you think to? Class." I said flatly

"Rouge wait." He grabbed my bare arm.

I looked at him. His face looked like it was in pain not emotional pain, but physical he went pale white and fell to the ground.

"Bobby!" I screamed. Kitty came running in as I sat down next to him. I put my hand on the ground and my other on his neck trying to feel a pulse. He screamed when I touched him I quickly pulled my hand away. I started having a panic attack. My breath became short and shallow and my hear t was breaking in to pieces and splintering my chest open. The longer he lay there the tighter my heart became causing it to splinter right though my chest. Kitty just stood there not knowing what to do.

I looked at her and yelled "Go get help!"

Her eye's snapped to me her face went pale white "Rouge oh my god look-look at your h-hand."

I looked down ice was forming all around it. I moved 10 ft away from Bobby I now knew why he was so badly hurt. My powers came back. I hugged myself starting to hyperventilate I look back at Kitty she was in shock. I glared at her "Did you not hear me? GO. GET. HELP!" I yelled. She stared at the ice biting at my flesh and made a move to help me.

"Don't touch me! Go get help now Bobby's dying!" I cried. This seemed to get through to her. She looked back me scared and then turn around and ran through the walls. I was freezing it's been at least a year or two since I had to control my powers and ice was slowly coating everything I was touching. I had to focus. I tried to calm myself down which wasn't working I kept looking at Bobby who's small breath's were growing shorter. Tears were staining my face even though I had the power to take and control another's power I was powerless to save him. I couldn't even touch him without him being that much closer to death. My heart felt like glass being shattered it hurt so much. I can't believe I'm killing him, he is dying, don't die, don't die. Please God don't let him die. The ice started to swirl around me going out of control. Focus! I mentally kicked myself.

"Rouge!" I looked up to see Logan running towards me with Storm and Kitty right behind him. Storm and Kitty went to go help Bobby while Logan ran up to me. He stretched out his hand to pull me away from the ice.

"Don't touch me! Go help Bobby h-he's d-dying." I shivered violently and then turned away to focus on what I had to do. In a few minutes this should disappear this is only temporary. I thought to myself. After five agonizing minutes the ice started to go away I was freezing cold and covered in ice. I slowly got up and cried my heart out. Logan tried to put his arm around me, but I inched away from him.

"What happened Kid?" He asked concerned.

"T-their b-back m-my p-powers are b-back." I said between shivers and sobs.

Logan walked over to a nearby window and ripped the curtain off and wrapped it around me. He pulled me into a hug "Everything is going to be ok Kid. Why don't you go get some rest I'll come get you when any news about Bobby gets heard."

I wanted to go and stay with Bobby and be there for him every second. He could be dead I turned around from Logan and puked. The thought of him being dead was too much. Logan rubbed my back then lifted me up and took me to my room. I went straight to the bathroom and puked some more. He stayed with me until I was done and cried myself to sleep.

I woke up in the morning to find Logan was gone. I took this advantage to get changed in to a black long sleeved shirt, with gloves, jeans, long black socks that came up to my shins, and converses. I let my hair hang freely since I was in a too big of a rush to do anything with it. I got to the emergency room at the institute and ran in to find Bobby hooked up to all types of IV's and monitors. I felt like I was going to be sick again.

"Came to see the damage you caused." I turned around to see Kitty standing in the door way. This was odd she is never this rude and what she said just went through my heart I felt like I was going to break down and start crying again.

"Kitty why are you here." I said with my voice cracking at the end.

"I should be asking you this Rouge this area is off limits." She said glaring at me.

"I'm sorry I didn't know I just came to see how Bobby was doing." I said barely above a whisper.

"He would be just fine if you hadn't touched him." She said nearly in tears.

I started crying I fell to my knees and cried into my gloved hands.

"Rouge why, why does he love you, you nearly killed him countless times and yet he stays with you. Why can't you just leave and never come back haven't you caused him enough pain." She yelled through tears. I cried harder and shook my head. She was right and I never understood why he stayed with me. Kitty fell to the ground and started crying.

"I'm so sorry Kitty." I whispered and ran back to my room. I had to leave if Kitty hated my guts so would everyone else I'm not wanted here and I think it would be much better if I left Bobby here with Kitty to watch after him. I got to my room and started grabbing all my clothes and sticking them in my bag. Then I pulled out my cash that I have been saving for a while now and stuck it in there. I stuck on my long coat that had a hood on it then grabbed a sheet of paper and wrote:

Dear Logan,

Thank you for everything I love you so much you're like the dad I never had I'm going to miss you all please tell Bobby that I love him very much, but this is the only way he can be safe. He would live a better life with someone other than me. I can't keep burdening you with everything that I do I have enough money to get me to go on with my life for a while. Take care of everyone while I'm gone.

Love,

Rouge

I cried through the entire thing I quickly wiped them away and jumped out the window and headed off to start my new life.

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