Author: Butterfly Betty PM
Here is the companion story to Endless Awakenings, the story of Seth, Tanya, Ben, and Angela. MA for the usual.Rated: Fiction M - English - Romance/Friendship - Chapters: 6 - Words: 16,441 - Reviews: 146 - Favs: 81 - Follows: 79 - Updated: 11-08-10 - Published: 10-31-10 - id: 6442584
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When I detangled myself from the throng of arms that had been holding me on Monday morning, I headed downstairs to the living room. I wasn't prepared for today. I wasn't ready to say goodbye to them, even if it was only for a few weeks, a month at the most. I had fallen in love with both Seth and Tanya, and even though I hadn't spoken to Ben about it, I knew he felt the same way.
We had spent all day Saturday and most of yesterday in a lust-filled bubble that was confined to our bedroom. We only left our bedroom to shower, which we did together, and eat, which we also did together. I lost count of how many times I had made love to Seth or Tanya or Ben. They were all starting to blend together. All I really knew was that I loved being with all three of them and I didn't want to lose any one of them now. Especially not now.
"Hey, baby, what are you thinking about?" asked Tanya, wrapping her arms around me. I had slipped on Seth's t-shirt from Saturday.
"I don't know," I murmured. "Everything."
"I don't want to leave either but we have to," whispered Tanya, laying her chin on my shoulder. "But we will be back."
"I know," I said, putting on my best smile. "I'm just going to miss you. This weekend went by way too fast."
"No shit," laughed Tanya, pulling me over to the couch.
She laid down and pulled me down on top of her. I laid with my head on her chest, letting her run her fingers up and down my back. Letting her hold me because I knew this was just as hard for her and Seth as it was going to be for me and Ben. Why did everything always have to be so fucking hard all the time?
I'm not sure how long Tanya and I had been laying on the couch when Ben and Seth came downstairs. They had both slipped on a pair of pajama pants but hadn't put shirts on. They had big smiles on their faces but neither of them reached their eyes. I knew it was because none of us were ready to say goodbye, even for just a few weeks.
"It's going to be ok, you know," said Seth, sitting on the other couch with Ben. "It will be hard but hopefully it will only take us a few weeks to get everything in LA settled and get our house on the market. Then we will be back."
"For good," I whispered. "Here with us, right?"
"As long as Caleb doesn't mind us living with you," muttered Tanya.
I could tell that Caleb was still an issue for her, even though both Ben and I had tried to convince her several times that he loved both of them so much. He asked about them all the time and something told me that he would be more than excited about gaining a new set of parents. Besides, it was my parents that I was more worried about. I mean, sure they had accepted Bella and Alice's relationship with Edward and Jasper, which helped with Rose, Emmett, Garrett, and Kate. Not to mention all of their parents. I started to giggle just thinking about how many people had changed due to Bella and Alice.
"Share with us what is so funny, Ang," said Ben. I sat up and looked around at the three of them.
"Do you realize how many polyamorous have been formed because Bella, Alice, Edward, and Jasper got together?" I asked, laughing.
"Rose, Emmett, Garrett, and Kate," said Tanya.
"Carlisle, Esme, William, and Catherine," snorted Ben. "That was a shock. I mean, The McCarty's had always been so…"
"Frigid?" I supplied.
"Yes," laughed Ben, shaking his head. "This one time in high school, Emmett and I had gotten caught drinking by the sheriff. They made Emmett stand up in front of the church and apologize for acting disgraceful."
"My dad tried to tell them that it wasn't necessary but William and Catherine insisted that Emmett needed to make his amends if he was going to receive the grace of God," I sighed, shaking my head. "When I heard that they were with Carlisle and Esme, I damn near peed my pants."
"Same thing with Charlie and Renee," said Ben. "Renee more than Charlie because she had always been such a big influence in the church here and made her feelings so clear about what she thought about homosexuality."
"When Mike and Tyler came out, she wrote a huge editorial to the paper that said something to the effect of needing to instill morality in our children and teach them not to allow the devil to influence our ways."
"And now, she and Charlie are with Peter and Charlotte," smirked Seth. "We all know that they have no problems showing their love."
"Oh, we've all witnessed it at one point or another." I shuddered thinking about the time I walked in on Renee and Charlotte. "You would think they would learn not to fuck each other when they are at Bella, Alice, Edward, and Jasper's house."
"But seeing as we've all seen them doing it," snorted Tanya.
We all laughed before falling into a deafening silence. I looked up at the clock and knew that they were fixing to have to get ready. Their flight left in two hours. After a few minutes of laying there, the four of us headed upstairs and tried to prepare ourselves for what we were fixing to have to do. I never imagined my heart could hurt so much.
We showered and got dressed, opting to wear jeans and t-shirts. I helped Tanya pack her and Seth's things while Ben and Seth started cleaning the bedroom up. We had been living in the bedroom for the last two days. Once we had everything packed, Seth and Ben carried their suitcases downstairs and we loaded into the car and drove them to the airport.
The car ride had been filled with painful silence. I held Tanya's hand in mine, trying to hold onto her as tightly as I could. Ben pulled the car up in front of the airport and the four of us reluctantly climbed out. Ben popped the trunk and he and Seth grabbed their luggage, setting in on the ground next to us. For a moment, the four of us just stood there.
"Call when you get back to LA," I said, fighting the tears that wanted to fall. "Let us know you got back ok."
"We will," murmured Tanya. She brought her hands up to my face and leaned her forehead down onto mine. "I love you, Angela."
"I love you, too," I cried, slipping my arms around her.
Tanya leaned in and gently pressed her lips to mine before she turned to Ben. He pulled her into his arms, whispering that he loved her too. Seth pulled me into his arms and I laid my head on his chest, enjoying the feeling of being held by him.
"I love you, baby," he whispered. "We will be back soon and then are never leaving again."
"I love you, Seth." I brought my hand up to his cheek and pulled his lips down to mine. "Be quick."
"We will be," he whispered, kissing me again.
Seth pulled away from me and stepped over to Ben, who had his hands on his hips. Seth reached up and placed his hand on the back of Ben's neck, leaning his forehead down on my husbands. I could see the unshed tears swimming in both of their eyes and I knew that their experience this weekend had changed them both.
"We're going to miss you," murmured Seth. "Take care of Ang for us, ok?"
"I promise," whispered Ben, placing his hands on Seth's forearms. "I expect you to take care of T for us. Keep her satisfied."
"I'll do the best I can," chuckled Seth. He leaned in and pressed his lips down onto Ben's, ignoring the people who were standing around staring at us. What did we care what they thought about us? "Ok, we'll call you tonight. Give Caleb a big hug from us."
"We will," I said, smiling.
Seth and Tanya picked up their luggage and headed into the airport. Ben scooted over and wrapped his arms around me, placing his lips to the side of my head. I didn't need to look at him to know that he was letting his tears fall down his face, just as mine were falling freely down my face. Ben and I watched silently as Seth and Tanya checked into their flight. They looked back and waved sadly before heading through security and off to their terminal.
"Well, I suppose we should go," I sighed.
"Yeah," muttered Ben, nodding his head. "Your Mom and Dad should be there soon with Caleb."
"Do you think he is going to be ok with Seth and Tanya moving in with us?" I asked, looking up at my husband.
"Yes," chuckled Ben. "I think he is going to love it."
"I hope so," I murmured.
Ben and I climbed into the car and headed home. The trip back to the house was completely silent except for the sound of the tires rolling on the roads, the soft hum of the music as it streamed out of the radio. I missed the sound of Ben and Seth talking in the front seat while Tanya and I were in the backseat, watching them. It had only been five minutes and I already missed them both.
Ben pulled the car up into the driveway and cut the engine. However, neither of us made any effort to climb out of the car. I looked over at him He was staring at the house with a lost vacant look on his face. One that I knew was on my face as well. I lifted his hand and brought it to my lips, causing him to look over at me.
"I shouldn't feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest." Ben shook his head and sighed. "You know that I am still so in love you, don't you?"
"Of course, I do," I smiled. "I'm in love with you, too. And I'm in love with them."
"Oh, God, me too," he sighed, smiling. "I wasn't sure if it was just me but I love them so much."
"Nope, not just you," I laughed.
My father pulled his car up into the driveway behind us. Ben and I sighed as we climbed out of the car and turned and looked back at them. The backdoor to the car was thrown open before either one of my parents could even open their doors. Caleb, a small dark haired boy, jumped out of the backseat and came running at me and Ben.
"Mommy, Daddy," he screamed, jumping up into Ben's arms. Caleb wrapped his arms and legs around his father, hugging him as tightly as he could.
"Hey, bud, I've missed you, too," said Ben, holding him as tight as he could. I placed my hand on Caleb's back, causing him to look over at me.
"Don't I get a hug?" I asked.
"Duh," laughed Caleb, leaning toward me. I wrapped my arms around him, pulling him out of Ben's arms.
"Did you have fun with Grams and Gramps?" I asked as my parents joined us.
"Yep," smiled Caleb, leaning back. "Are Tanya and Seth still here?"
"No, they left already," I said. Caleb's smile dropped and his eyes watered. "But they are coming back really soon."
"How soon?" asked Caleb.
"A few weeks," said Ben. "Maybe a month."
"Are they coming back to work on the new house?" asked Caleb, playing with a strand of my hair.
"Um, no," said Ben, clearing his throat. "They are moving here."
Caleb's eyes popped open as he smiled. "REALLY?" he squealed.
"Yes," I laughed. "I take it you are excited about them moving here?"
"Yep," he chuckled. "Are you going to be like Whitley and Mackenzie's mommies and daddies?"
"Um," I said, eyeing my parents. I couldn't get a read on their expressions. "Yes."
"It's about time," he sighed, wiggling his way out of my arms. He started toward the house. "I thought you were never going to see it."
My mouth fell open as Ben and I watched our son walk into house. I wasn't sure what had just happened but it sounded like Caleb just told us we should have gotten our heads out of our asses a long time ago. Ben looked over at me, silently asking me what had happened. All I could do was shake my head and look over at Robert and Ann, who were standing there with their lips pressed into thin lines.
"Mom-" I started but Ann interrupted me.
"Angela," she said.
"Dad," I said, interrupting her this time.
"Angela, is that true?" asked Robert. "Are you and Ben going to be in a relationship with Seth and Tanya?"
"Yes," I muttered, looking down at the ground.
"Are you sure that's what you want?" he asked.
"I've never been more sure about anything," I sighed, looking up at him. "I know that you don't agree with our decision but it is our decision. It wasn't anything we went into lightly."
"I never said you did," said Robert, placing his hands on his hips. "But you have a child to think about."
"Robert, Ann, look, we know that it is…odd to get involved with them but we love them," explained Ben, sliding his arm around my waist. "And they love us and they love our son just as if he were their own. It wasn't easy making this decision and, we've felt the guilt for even thinking about them, but we won't deny how we feel any longer and we hope that you both will accept us."
"You have no idea what you are doing," said Ann, shaking her head. "You think just because everyone can get away with this in Los Angeles that you can do it here? It won't work. This is not the city and the people here won't tolerate it."
"They can go to hell," I said, heatedly.
"Angela," gasped Ann, pulling her hands up to her lips.
"Mom, I am not going to let a bunch of narrow-minded hypocrites tell me that I am wrong for loving Seth and Tanya and Ben," I said, firmly. "If you can't accept us, then that is your problem. We are going to do this and nothing you say is going to make us decide otherwise."
"Grams," said Caleb. Ben and I spun around and looked at him. He was standing behind was with a confused look on his face. "Why can't Mom and Dad love Seth and Tanya?"
"Sweetheart, it's not that they can't," said Ann, placing her hand on her chest. "It's just that people won't understand."
"Don't you like Seth and Tanya?" asked Caleb, slipping his arm around my leg.
"Of course I do," smiled Ann.
"Then why can't they live here with us?" he asked. "It's not fair that Whitley and Mackenzie's mommies and daddies can live together when they love each other but mine can't. They said that their mommies and daddies loved each other so much that they couldn't pick and decided to just love each other. Why can't my Mom and Dad and Seth and Tanya love each other and me so much that they can't pick? We would be family then, wouldn't we?"
I gave my mother a look as I knelt down next to Caleb, brushing his hair out of his eyes. "Sweetie, you're right we would be a family with Seth and Tanya but, regardless if we are together like Bella, Alice, Edward, and Jasper are, Seth and Tanya would still love you."
"I know but they would be my mom and dad, too," he said. "You can't ever have too many moms or dads."
"Come on, bud," said Ben, slipping his hand into Caleb's. "Let's go get some ice cream."
"Ok, Dad," smiled Caleb. I stood up and watched as Ben and Caleb walked into the house together.
"We aren't asking for your permission," I said, looking over at my parents. "Ben, Seth, Tanya, and I will do as we think is right for us and for Caleb. Don't make us choose between them and you. You won't like our choice."
I turned and headed into the house, leaving them standing in the driveway. As I shit the front door behind me, I heard Ben and Caleb laughing in the kitchen. I brought my hand up to my chest. Only a few more weeks, and, like Caleb said, we would be family with Seth and Tanya.
The end…for now. As I work on Endless Awakenings, I will be continuing this one but there are a few things that need to be covered first and updates will not be coming as fast as they have been. I just needed to get this all out of the way before I could move on in Endless Awakenings and it has taken off as it's own little story. Thank you for all the reviews. I truly appreciate them and hope you enjoyed this as much as I have.