Title: A Painful New Year Wish

Word count: 5587

Warning: Yaoi! Grimmjow x Ichigo. Character death. Song lyrics.

Summery: When the new year starts it's always with smile, laughter and the feeling of love. But not for Ichigo. But for a moment he is happy too

Disclaimer: I do not own bleach or the song 'just a dream' by Nelly

''Oi Kurosaki!'' A deep voice shouted from behind a orange haired male, making said male turn around. Amber brown eyes widened before relaxing as the mouth turned into a smile.

''Hey Grimmjow! Where did you go?'' He asked as he walked to the slightly taller male, being around 6'1 tall with light blue hair, that resembled bed hair, covering slightly darker blue eyes sexily, the normal teal marks were under the eyelids, making the blue eyes stand more out. He wore a black wife beater with the words ''HOLLOW'' in large bold words, a jaw over and under it as if it was going to eat the words. Dark blue jeans hugged the male's legs and hips, hugging the right places and making the package stand more out. His normal black and white converses on his feet, the ends not tied properly.

Grimmjow shrugged lightly, his hands in his pockets before he removed one, making it glide through his hair. ''That doesn't matter right now Kurosaki.'' The finality could be heard as those words were said ''I don't have a lot of time'' Grimmjow said as he placed his hand in his pocket again.

Kurosaki Ichigo just shrugged his shoulder before he too placed his hands in his pocket, glancing around a little as he took notice of their surroundings.

They were at some kind of dessert, surround by miles upon miles of soft looking sand, a few trees standing bare, alone, scattered here and there. In the distance he could see a grand castle, looking like it was close, but he had a feeling that it was far from near him.

The sky over them were almost the same blue color as Grimmjow's hair, only a more light blue, with a few skies covering it.

''Oi Grimmjow, what is this place?'' Ichigo muttered to the bluenette as he continued to look around.

''This is Las Noches, the ass kissing castle over there is Hueco Mundo'' Grimmjow said as he stood beside Ichigo, glancing the same way as Ichigo was.

Ichigo glanced at Grimmjow and frowned more, feeling as if he was forgetting something, something important. It felt like when you were trying to find a word and just had it on 'the tip of your tongue'? It was this feeling Ichigo had right now, but he just shrugged the feeling off, thinking that it wasn't important.

A pair of lips pressed against his, softly, caringly, as if the owner of the lips were trying to say something. Ichigo looked into the half lidded blue eyes, seeing lust, want, need and… love. He closed his eyes and relaxed slowly, wrapping his arms around the bluenettes neck and pulled him closer, taking the steep forward by nipping on the lower lip. A drop of blood slowly appearing as his teeth bit a little too hard on the soft skin. He licked it softly, moaning softly as the taste of Grimmjow and blood mingled together.

Grimmjow growled possessively and gripped the smaller boy by his legs and hoisted him up. Ichigo 'eeped' slightly and wrapped his legs around Grimmjow's waist, making their groins rubs against each other slightly. They moaned loudly at the same time.

''I missed you'' Grimmjow muttered lowly as he nipped on Ichigo's ear, his hands rubbing the ass lovingly. ''It's weird not seeing you everyday''

''What do you me- Aaah!'' Ichigo moaned as Grimmjow found one of his pleasure spots, nipping and licking it. Ichigo gripped the beautiful mane that was Grimmjow's hair and tugged slightly. 'What did you mean mmmh with th-that?'' Ichigo moaned out as Grimmjow sucked on the neck, most likely leaving a hickey behind.

''That doesn't matter Kurosaki'' Grimmjow growled out lowly as he continued to nipped where the neck meet the shoulder. After having covered the neck he pushed the orange haired male towards the ground.

''What are you doing Gri-'' Ichigo shouted only to land onto a soft, king sized bed, followed by Grimmjow on top of him. Ichigo blinked his eyes in surprise and pushed himself up from the bed, ignoring Grimmjow who continued to lick the skin that wasn't hidden behind clothes. Grimmjow's hands which had before been busy with gripping his ass, so he didn't fall, were now busy getting to relearn Ichigo's body.

They were in a room now, better known as Grimmjow's bedroom. The walls were the same white as the sand in the dessert they somehow had left were. The closet was closed, standing beside the desk which held Grimmjow's computer, books and what not. Everything was like he remembered it, but he still felt as if it had been so long ago since he had last been to the bluenettes room.

''Oi Kurosaki, when are ya gonna stop daydream, huh princess?'' Grimmjow teasing, but still sarcastic, voice could be heard.

''I've told you hundreds of times, stop calling me Kurosaki'' Ichigo scowled before he moaned out. The reason? Grimmjow had started to rub his arousal through his jeans.

''Want me to call you strawberry?'' Grimmjow grinned as he rubbed harder. He just loved it when the orange haired male was under him, moaning, giving him those wonderful sounds that he would love to record, able to listen to it any time he wanted.

Ichigo groaned and bit down on his knuckle, the metallic taste of blood enter his mouth. ''Call me- nngh Ichigo like you- mmh used to'' He whisper, starting to rub against the hand as he wanted, needed, more friction. ''Oh god.. Grimmjow''

Grimmjow grinned as he slowly opened the zipper, painfully slow. ''I didn't know that I had become God.''

The orange haired male gripped the bed sheets under him, his feet heels were digging into the sheet too as he waited. his stomach were making knots upon knots with itself instead of the usual storm of butterflies. ''Hu-hurry up Grimmjow'' He groaned out before arching his back like a bow.

Grimmjow grinned like a Cheshire cat as he gripped the orange haired males erection in his hand, giving it some hard tugs that would send pleasure up and down the other males back. ''You like this don't ya?'' The lust filled amber brown eyes focused in on Grimmjow own blue eyes, begging him to continue

He continued to playfully tug on it, his middle finger slightly rubbing at the skin under the head, pulling it softly before he went to the slit on the head, rubbing it, spreading the precum. A tanned hand was placed upon blue locks, making him turn his blue eyes to Ichigo's amber brown eyes. He smirked to the orange haired before he took him in his mouth, groaning lowly at the taste.

Ichigo closed his eyes as he moaned out loud at the wet cavern that wrapped around him, making him felt like he was soon going to reach the heavens. With closed eyes he felt the pleasure more as his senses were heightened without the use of eyes.

He was close, he felt it in his groin, his sac tightened. He opened his eyes and glanced down, only to be meet with the sight of Grimmjow licking him like a cat licking milk. The blue eyes were a midnight blue, darkened by the lust that were swirling in the eyes. The bluenette licked the under vein before he took the head in his mouth, followed by the rest.

Ichigo moaned Grimmjow's nose touched the orange curls, the bluenettes mouth feeling so good around him. The pleasure had become to much, ending with Ichigo coming in Grimmjow's mouth.

The orange haired male panted after having had his orgasm. A light sheen of sweat coated his skin, a flush covered his cheeks. He slowly came down from his high and looked away from the white celling to look at Grimmjow, only to blush as he saw Grimmjow lick the semen away from his face with his cat like tongue.

Before Ichigo had cumed, Grimmjow had pulled him out, maybe to give a sarcastic comment, only to get the orange haired males 'milk' covering his face. Grimmjow grinned sarcastic as his tongue came out to 'play', licking the cum off.

''Look how fast you came'' A finger took some of the cum, feeling it. ''Look how thick it is too, has it been that long since you have had sex?''

He didn't know. He couldn't remember the last time he had done anything sexual with anyone. He couldn't remember that much. It was if he was there, but still not.

''I... don't know'' Ichigo muttered as he stared at the celling again, only to jump up when he felt a finger touch his entrance.

''Relax'' Grimmjow muttered, glancing up at Ichigo with some kind of feeling in his eyes, as if he knew that they wouldn't see each other again, that he wanted to do something, as if he shouldn't even be there at that moment.

Ichigo leaned up so he was sitting and took Grimmjow head, pulling him up so he could kiss him. They wrestled for a moment, entering into a dance of passion. The heavenly taste that just screamed 'Grimmjow' entered his taste buds, it was a mix between dark chocolate, blueberries and cinnamon, how typical of Grimmjow for him to have the taste which had blue in it.

As Ichigo was distracted by the kiss Grimmjow smirked slightly, his hands slowly bringing the soft cock back to life, one hand wrapped around the slowly living arousal as the other tweaked the perk nipples. The orange haired moaned into his mouth, his hands gripping his shirt.

''Aaah... Mmmh... Gri-Grimmjow...'' Ichigo moaned as they finally parted to breath the much needed air, filling their lungs up before going at it again, like starved animal.

Grimmjow purred like a big cat, or a panther. After having played with the nipples to they were hardened, he removed his hand, letting it go. His hand slowly travelled up, over the neck, chin to end up at the lips. He rubbed the lower lips, smirking when the orange haired male took them in, preparing them as good and fast as he could.

After he had deemed the fingers wet enough he removed them, slowly letting it trail down his neck, over the hard chest, abs, over the standing erection, to end at the puckered entrance. He rubbed it and smirked as Ichigo whined, rubbing against him.

''Can't wait lil' Ichi?'' Grimmjow muttered against the orange haired males lips, smirking as the other male shuddered. His own erection was pushing so hard against his own jeans, making him curse that he had tight pants on. It wouldn't have changed so much anyway if he had lose jeans on, as they would still have tightened at the groin area.

''Please Grimm...'' Ichigo moaned out in a breathy moan, thrusting lightly against Grimmjow's trapped arousal. ''I wanna feel you...Mmh'' He didn't get to finish the sentence as the first finger pushed against the tight ring of muscle before entering him.

''Feel what?'' Grimmjow teased as he licked the offered neck, Ichigo moving his head unconsciously, giving more than needed space for Grimmjow to mark. Grimmjow took the invitation in a flash, marking the skin, nipping and biting. It was as if he was desperate, as if he didn't want Ichigo to forget him.

Ichigo stared into the blue pools that swirled with so many different feelings that it made Ichigo feel faint. He placed his hands on Grimmjow head and held it, continuing to stare into the deep depths. ''Grimm, what's wrong?'' He asked uncertainly.

Grimmjow only frowned, his eyebrows knitting together before he leaned closer and kissed the full pink lips that was owned by Ichigo, kissing so softly that Ichigo for a second thought he was a porcelain doll, that he would break any time it should be.

Ichigo frowned into the kiss. Something didn't feel right, but what he didn't know. The kiss was heart breaking, and he had a feeling that Grimmjow was close to crying at that moment.

He pulled away again, staring into the blue eyes and notice they were moist, shining in the light which wasn't there. ''Grimmjow, What's wro-''

A kiss silenced him, muffling his voice before a second finger joined the first. He groaned, feeling a little uncomfortable but ignored it, concentrating on the kiss and the hand wrapped around him. He opened his eyes slightly and noticed that Grimmjow was still fully clothed. That was going to change.

Tan hands slowly moved down the broad back, feeling the muscles under the shirt and skin. His hands teased the waistband to the jeans before pulling the shirt up. ''Grimmjow...'' He panted, a throaty moan could be heard. ''Why am I mmh... the only one naked... Nnghh''

As if by magic Grimmjow's clothes were gone, disappeared like drew in the morning. He ignored it in favour of staring at the well defined chest, at the caramel colored nipples and the rock hard abs. It was all droll-worthy. Only the jeans were left behind and those were unzipped, showing the covered bulge that was Grimmjow hard erection.

The third and last finger entered him. He groaned in discomfort. It hurt, it hurt so badly. It felt like it had been years since he had last done anything sexual related. Like Grimmjow was taking his virginity anew. Small tears slowly appeared but he held them back, willed them to go.

He had closed his eyes, only to open them when the fingers inside of him stilled and blue filled his vision. It was Grimmjow, rubbing his own cheek against Ichigo's, making small shushing noises, trying to calm him. Ichigo knew that Grimmjow normally didn't know how to comfort people, as he never had needed to.

Why didn't Grimmjow need to know how to comfort people? He knew why, he had it on the tip of his tongue, but he couldn't form the words. It was as if a barrier had been placed in Ichigo's head, making him forget things that had with the past to do with.

The three fingers touched something inside of him that made him see the stars. A moan was ripped from his throat as the fingers continued to touch his spot. He wrapped his arms tightly around the bluenettes shoulder, moaning into the ear. ''Gri-Grimmjow'' he moaned wantonly, tears appearing in his eyes without him knowing. ''Please...''

Grimmjow just looked at Ichigo with a trouble expression before he nodded, as if he had verbally said his want, or need, to feel him. Grimmjow pulled the legs onto his shoulder, giving him more place to pleasure the moaning male under him. He kissed the inner tights loving, gazing into liquor amber eyes.

He continued to stare as he took a hold of his own arousal, his pants and underwear having disappeared. He continued to hold eye contact as he placed the tip of his head at Ichigo's entrance. They didn't need words to talk, to tell the need they had, the want to feel each other. Body language spook louder than words.

Midnight blue eyes stared into the Ichigo's eyes silently asking for permission. Ichigo nodded, a small, soft smile on his lips as he gave the wanted permission.

Grimmjow nodded before he thrusted in, both arching at the mind numbing pleasure, chest touching the other males'.

Suddenly Ichigo's legs were around Grimmjow's waist, holding so tightly that he was almost sure he had blended in with the blue haired male. His arms wrapped around the neck, tightening his grip, groaning as Grimmjow missed his prostate, send great pleasure up his spine than if Grimmjow hadn't hit it.

Bead of sweat were slowly travelling down their bodies, coating it, making it shine. Grimmjow was nipping on his shoulder, kissing, sucking, licking. Marked him over and over, whispering 'I love you's into his ear with almost every second thrust.

He felt like he was there, and still not. Like he was looking from someone else's eyes, but still feeling the pleasure. He noted that the edges in his vision was blurry but he blamed it on the pleasure.

Ichigo opened his eyes, not knowing when he closed them, and stared at Grimmjow. The light were shining behind him, making him look so beautiful, as if he wasn't a human, earthling, whatever word you could use. He looked like an angel at that moment, he could almost see the wings on his back.

He arched his back as the pleasure ten-folded, racing up and down his back. Grimmjow had hit spot on, hitting his prostate like and hammer hit the nail.

''Grimmjow!'' He moaned out as he gripped harder, tightening his grip on the blue haired male.

''Fuck yer tight Ichi'' Grimmjow groaned out, hands placed on either side of Ichigo's head, gripping the sheet. The bluenettes eyes were screwed shut as he continued to thrust into the orange haired male, making love with him, not fucking but loving.

''I love you'' Grimmjow repeated again and again. It was as if it was his new mantra, trying to drill it into Ichigo's head, to remind him that he, and always had, loved him.

Ichigo smiled softly before the need for release became to much. His hand neared his up standing erection, which was letting large globs of pre cum out. Before he could grip his erection his hand was slapped, making him pulls his hand back, frowning.

Grimmjow smirked to him and gripped the males arousal, starting to move it in time with his thrust. He was near, they were both near their orgasm. He kissed the orange haired male deeply, trying to send the feelings he had.

Ichigo shivered before he came, screaming Grimmjow's name, his semen covering their stomach and chest, some even reaching his chin. Grimmjow didn't come long after, growling Ichigo's name under his breath as he spilled his seed deep inside of Ichigo.

''I love you Grimmjow'' Ichigo muttered as he leaned back on the bed, slowly getting down from his sex induced high. Grimmjow landed just beside him, smiling at him.

''I love you'' He muttered.

That was when Ichigo noticed something. There was something red at Grimmjow's forehead that was slowly trailing down, only to be followed by a new line and another.

''What's that?'' he muttered as his fingers slowly touched it, rubbing it between his fingers before he looked at it. It was blood, fresh.

He didn't noticed that they were fully clothed again as the blood continued to rivet down the bluenettes head, pouring from the eyes, mouth and nose. Grimmjow looked like he was in pain, his eyes closed tightly, biting his lower lip raw. He had probably bit into the skin, breaking the soft skin, but it couldn't be seen through the blood.

''Grimmjow!'' Ichigo shouted alarmed, placing his hand onto the bleeding forehead only to pull it away, almost as he had burnt himself on fire. He held it close to his hands and stared at the bluenette as a flush appeared on the blue haired males check, eyes closed tightly in pain.

''Grimmjow!'' Shouted the orange haired male as gripped the clothed arm, still feeling the burning skin under it. ''What is happening!''

A painful smile stretched over Grimmjow face as something started to peak from his forehead and cheeks, looking like bone but he didn't want to believe that.

''I love you, Ichigo...'' was muttered as more of the white peaked forth, the skin around it starting to smelt off, along with the muscles.

''N-no...'' Ichigo muttered, tears starting to appear in his eyes but he didn't notice.''No! No!'' He didn't notice that he was screaming either as he tried to pull the skin back up, trying to stop more skin from melting. He was sure that his fingers were smelling like burned flesh but he couldn't smell it, didn't notice anything around him as he tried to stop Grimmjow from dying.

Small stubs were appearing on the forehead. the smelted skin had reached to over his eyes, his forehead being the smooth surfaced known as the skull. The small stubs started to grow in length, curving sharply, as more skin came of. Two question marks like things starting to appear on the forehead in the same crimson color that his blood was, like it was painted on.

Grimmjow just continue to smile the painful smile, whispering the words that almost hurt Ichigo's ears.

Suddenly all of his skin burned off, only for new muscles to grow from the bones. The new skin tone was completely white, with red marking on the shoulder and on the now suddenly appeared mask. The body looked like it belonged to a cross-breed between a human and a lizard. Its long tail looked strong and also had the same red markings.

It had a hole in the middle of its chest, going all the way through, perfect round too.

''Wh-what are you?'' He asked shaking, his breath coming in short gasps at the raw power from the being.

The thing glanced at him as it heard his voice, turning poison yellow eyes toward him. It had a wild glint in the eyes, staring at him as if he was only but a prey, standing before an great predator. It roared, the mask moving with the mouth. The roar sent a shiver down his spine, the temperature slowly getting colder.

He fell backwards, landing on his back before he raised himself slightly, pushing away to put some distance between them. He stood up as fast as he could before he ran.

But no matter how fast he ran or how long he ran it didn't help. The creature got closer and closer with each slow step it took, a small cloud of smoke rising each time it stepped forward. It wasn't hurrying, but was taking its time, knowing that he wouldn't be able to outrun it. It was playing with him, like a cat that was playing with a mouse. Pushing and pushing it around until the mouse couldn't do more, only waiting for its death to come.

He stumbled a few times as he ran, stumbling on things that wasn't even there to begin with.

The creature was getting nearer, he just knew it somehow. He could see the creature as it walked toward him, the muscles relaxed but still ready to run after him if he got to far.

It held a sword in its hand. It was a dark ebony colored blade, sucking all life and souls into it, reflecting no light. The handle was turned to the opposite side being the swastika symbol. It was mostly known as the symbol Adolph Hitler had used in the World War II. It meant that the beast didn't like the way things was, but was connected to the 4 world corners, the 4 seasons

It must have become bored with their small 'tag' as the monster leaned forward slowly, its horns pointing toward him before it just... disappeared.

It suddenly appeared behind him, mouth open and ready to eat him...

The same orange haired male as in the dream jumped up, legs straight and hands ready to hold the imaginary beast away. He blinked his amber brown eyes slowly. ''What the...?'' he muttered to himself as he laid back on the bed, noting that his clothes were slightly wet and sticking to his skin. His pants were extra sticky, clinging so much that it was uncomfortable.

Tears appeared suddenly in his eyes, surprising him. He rubbed them harshly, but it didn't help.

His radio was singing a song. The song was a hit, many people heard it. It was Nelly – Just a dream.

I was thinkin about her, thinkin about me.

Thinkin about us, what we gonna be?

Open my eyes, yeah; it was only just a dream.

So I travel back, down that road.

Who she come back? No one knows.

I realize, yeah, it was only just a dream

The lyrics continued to sound in his head, it was like Nelly was speaking to him.

He glanced to the pillow beside him, untouched. ''Grimmjow...'' Ichigo muttered, tears starting to trail down his cheeks anew as he remembered the accident that had taken Grimmjow from him.

''Hey Grimmjow'' Ichigo said as he walked to the bluenette, smiling one of his rare smiles, that wasn't so rare any more.

Grimmjow grinned back, he took the orange haired males hand and pulled him toward himself, kissing the surprised males lips. ''Hey Kurosaki'' He continued to grin as Ichigo punched his chest.

''How many times have I told you to call me by my first name?'' He growled out.

Grimmjow just laughed and placed a hand on Ichigo's waist, nuzzling the neck lovingly. ''I'll think for the 666 time''

Ichigo looked surprised at the man beside him, ignoring the many stares around them. ''You counted it?''

''No, I just like the number six, I think I'm going to get it tattooed on my back.'' Grimmjow trailed Ichigo's back with a finger, forming the number six again and again.

Ichigo just smiled before looking at the shop they were passing. ''Hey Grimm, can ya wait here for a moment? Yuzu wanted something for the new year cake she was going to make. It's only going to take a minute''

the bluenette pulled the orange haired for a kiss before he let him go, almost smirking his face off. ''Hurry up then Ichi, I can think about quite a few things I would love to do with ya''

A delicious shiver ran down Ichigo's spine at those words. With a red face he entered the small supermarket.

It didn't take long to find the whipped cream, bananas and strawberries. There wasn't many people in the small shop, most either going to the more known shopping places or they had already brought the things they needed.

The girl was ringing his things through, a smile on her lips as her eyes stayed on the items. Small fingers pulled a strand of hair behind an ear, the small hairpins contrasting against her orange hair.

''Thanks for shopping her Kurosaki-kun, and happy new years'' The girl said as she handed the bag to the male.

''Thanks Inoue, and just call me Ichigo, or at least Ichigo-kun.'' He said as he took the bag.

''Ok Ic-Ichigo-kun...'' The girl was now blushing bright red, twirling a strand of hair on her pointer.

''See you again when school starts.'' He said before he walked toward the exit, smiling happily as he exited the store. He turned to Grimmjow, held his hands up. ''Hey Grimmj-'' The words died in his throat as a car slipped on the snow, turning and turning. The owner of the car was obviously trying to stop the car, without luck.

He watched in almost slow motion as the car hit his blue haired lover, smashing his body into the wall behind him. Sky blue eyes were wide in shock, staring unfocused into the air. Mouth open in a silent scream, a small trail of blood at the corner of his mouth.

He was frozen on the spot until he noticed that there was smoke rising from the hood, turning more and more dark before it just said...

Boom.

Someone was screaming, the only sound in the silent world he was trapped in. He later learned that it was him when his throat started to hurt but he ignored it, screaming and screaming as he stared at the burning car and lover. He couldn't turn his eyes away from the sight as the skin started to burn, as his hair and clothes burnt.

Someone was pulling him away from it, trying to turn him so he couldn't see his lover be burnt to death.

''Save him!'' He tried to shout, but it only passed as a loud whisper. ''Save him! Please!'' He gripped one of the people around him, tears blocking his vision as he shook the person.

As some people said, you had to enter the new year in a bang...

That following year had been the worst year ever. Without his blue haired lover everything was just dull, painted in the color of grey. He never drove in any moving transport any more, always seeing Grimmjow's pain filled face as he burned.

He had gotten the tattoo that Grimmjow had wanted, placing it on his back. The Gothic number was a ebony black, clashing with his tan skin tone. He never showed it to anyone, feeling that he should hide it from everybody, that it was his memento of Grimmjow

He had tried to date again, but he always ended up being single again, always comparing those he had dates with Grimmjow.

When I be ridin man I swear I see her face at every turn.

Tryin to get my usher over, I can let it burn.

And I just hope she notice she the only one I yearn for.

Oh I miss her when will I learn?

He grinned bitterly as the lyrics continued to sound in the radio, just wanting to hit it, break it for singing the song, for reminding him of Grimmjow.

Now he understood why Grimmjow had been so sad in his dream, why he had been so gently, so lovingly. Whispering 'I love you's into his ear all the time. Why he couldn't remember anything past related.

A tan hand touched the pillow, softly touching it as he remembered that Grimmjow would sometimes sneak in to his room through his window when everyone was asleep, grinning smugly to Ichigo as he jumped onto the bed, only to be pushed off the moment his shoes touched it.

''Hey Kurosaki'' knockings could be heard from his window, making the half asleep male scowl. He turned in his bed, placing his pillow over his head to muffle the knockings and Grimmjow's voice out.

After some time the knocking stopped and he sighed relieved, pulling the pillow of his head and under his head. A eye peaked over to the window only to widen.

Grimmjow was standing outside, grinning as he wrapped his shirt over his arm. The sky blue eyes turned to Ichigo, laugher visible in the blue haired males eyes as he prepared himself to hit and break the window.

''You are not breaking my window! Old goat face is breaking enough as it is!'' He whispered loudly to the still grinning male as he opened the window.

''Ya coulda just opened the window'' Grimmjow said, ignoring that Ichigo's father and sisters were sleeping and could possible hear them. He swung his legs over and placed them onto the blue and white bed only to get the cover pulled from under him. He tumbled to the ground and landed in a ungraceful head.

''How many times have I told you not to place your shoes on my bed?'' Ichigo growled as he laid back on his bed.

Grimmjow sat up and rubbed the small bump on his head, frowning before his eyes lid up. ''What ever'' He said happily and removed his shoes, coat and gloved, throwing them onto the floor.

''What are you doing?'' Ichigo asked curiously.

Grimmjow raised and blue eyebrow as he started to remove his shirt, six-pack and chest flexing as he got it removed. ''What does it look like? I'm getting ready ta sleep with ya'' he then got ready to remove his jeans, leaving him in his boxers.

Ichigo just sighed before he smiled. ''You would just ignore me anyway if I said no'' he muttered as he made some space for his blue haired lover.

Grimmjow grinned like the cat that got the mouse. ''Ya got that right Kurosaki''

''How many times have I told you to call me Ichigo?'' Ichigo hissed before just sighing laying back. ''Forget this, I'm tired so come already.''

Grimmjow smiled softly as he got on the bed. He pulled the orange haired male to his chest, wrapping his hands around the hips as his eyes slowly closed. ''Merry Christmas Berry''

He would let the name slide for this time. He smiled and pecked the others lips. ''Merry Christmas Blueberry''

''Strawberry''

''Hey!''

He pulled the pillow to his chest and hugged it, wishing that Grimmjow would have been by his side, instead of becoming one with the ground. He had many times thought about the 'what if'. What if it had been someone else instead of Grimmjow? What if he had saved him? What if they hadn't gone? What if it had been him instead of Grimmjow? What if... What if...

He couldn't wish for an other family to feel the grief, pain and sadness he had when he had lost Grimmjow, no matter how much he loved his crazy-blue-haired-panther-loving lover.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

I said, if you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

If you ever loved somebody put your hands up.

And now they're gone and you wish you could give them everything.

He would have loved to give Grimmjow everything, but now it was too late. ''I was able to see Grimmjow again at least...'' Ichigo whispered as he smiled a small smile.

''Happy new year Grimmjow...''

The firework began...

A/N

I just wanted to wish every one a happy new year. I had been working on this for a while. The song was inspired by Nelly - Just a dream.

the new chapter to 'Love at High Speed' is soon done so I'll probably get to place the story on before the new year starts.

Happy New Year to everyone!

~Fozygirl