Author: emm5683 PM
What happens when you love someone? And then they're dead? What happens when you love someone? And you give up on them? What happens when you love someone? And you leave them? What happens when you love someone gone? Part 2 of the Pain SagaRated: Fiction M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Tragedy - Bella & Edward - Chapters: 10 - Words: 15,974 - Reviews: 34 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 21 - Updated: 07-27-11 - Published: 01-01-11 - id: 6614709
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DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT OWN TWILIGHT
A/N: I only got one review last chapter, but I'm not going to let that bring me down! Anyways thank you to Esme Nicole Cullen for the review!
This chapter isn't really anything special, just kind of a filler.
Later that night we went out to dinner, and Edward tagged along.
Charlie was telling Fiona and Edward the few childhood memories he had of me and Dylan. I could tell that Edward enjoyed hearing them.
Later that night, when Dylan and Charlie were asleep, I noticed Fiona sitting outside in the backyard. She was crying. After a few seconds of my watching, she wiped away the tears and got up. I listened to her go back into the house. I decided that if she wanted to talk about it she would have come up and gotten me.
"Hey." Someone murmured in my room. I smiled and turned back to my window to see Edward standing in front of it. I turned off my light as Edward hopped onto my bed. I walked over to my bed and I laid down in his arms.
"School starts Monday." Edward whispered.
I rested my head on his chest. "I know."
"Are you ready to go back?" He asked.
I bit my lip. "I don't really know. I guess we'll see." I shrugged.
He kissed my head. "I've missed you so much." He sighed.
I snuggled closer to him. "Me too."
"Did you ever get my letter?"
My heart stopped. "Yes, I did." I turned my head to look at him. "And I don't ever want to hear that from you again." I said seriously.
He smiled slightly. "What? That I love you?" I nudged him playfully.
"No, don't ever say that I would leave you." I paused, "Because I wouldn't, Edward Cullen. I love you too much to ever stray. My heart belongs to you, and only you."
He laughed. "That's enough to last me until I no longer have you."
I rolled my eyes. "You just did it again." He looked at me questioningly. "You talked about me leaving."
He shook his head. "That's not what I meant."
I looked away as I realized he meant when I died. I sucked in a hard breath. "But you're going to change me eventually, aren't you?" He looked down and fumbled with my hand. I yanked it away and pulled his face towards mine. "You're going to leave me a human. A weak, fragile human?"
"But, Bella. That's how it's supposed to be."
"Not in my life." I said. "I don't have a normal life."
"Well we'd have to discuss it." He said hoarsely.
I sat upright. "We are, right now. Aren't we?"
I twisted my mouth and then fell back onto my bed, facing away from him.
"I'm going to die." I muttered dramatically. "Every second of the day I'm dying."
"Let's get through senior year first." He grumbled. "Bella, I swore that day that I saw the bruises on your face at the police station that I would never hurt you. You have no idea how painful the change is. I couldn't do it."
I rolled my eyes, ignoring him. "One day I'll die. And you'll look back and remember this conversation and you'll regret not changing me."
He laughed. "Bella, stop being a drama queen." He wrapped his arms around and planted his lips on my jugular.
"So you wouldn't mind if I just nonchalantly bit your neck. Right now."
I shrugged. "Not at all."
I could feel his grin against my skin. "Well that's not happening. Not today anyway."
I cradled his arms that were in front of me.
"You know how sometimes there's people that have trouble getting pregnant?" He rested his hand on mine as he nodded. "I hope that my loss gives at least one couple a gain, you know? Like the moment I lost Ellie, they found out there were having their miracle baby." I bit my lip.
"That's a very wonderful thing to wish for." Edward murmured.
The weekend was soon over and Monday morning came.
I woke up and walked downstairs to see Fiona already up. She was sipping coffee and sitting at the table. I poured a mug and sat down next to her.
"So how do you like Forks?" I asked. I've spent the past couple days with Edward and not with my family.
She smiled. "I loooovvvve it. It's just that whole small town feel, you know?" I nodded. I liked it too…. At times. "Do you need a ride for school, or is Edward taking you?"
"No, I'm taking my truck." I glanced out the window at my rusty truck. I haven't driven it in months. It will probably fall apart when I step inside it. I sighed. "But I'll let you know if the plans change."
After a couple of minutes of chatting with her, I went back upstairs to get ready.
I wore plain jeans and a shirt. Nothing special. Before I knew it, I was on the way to school.
I parked next to Edward. He was waiting in his car for me. I smiled at him as I got out.
Stares bore into my back.
He glided out and jogged over to me. He enveloped me into his arms.
"Everyone's staring at me." I complained.
He kissed my forehead. "Oh well."
Throughout the rest of the day I was getting stares and murmurs. During my class before lunch I walked out with the pass. I had to get out. I scaled through the hallways pretending as if I was looking for a bathroom. I walked past a math class and saw Alice smiling at me when I was by the door.
I continued to trudge through the school until I heard someone shout my name.
I froze at the hideous voice. "Go away." I gritted through my teeth as I walked forward.
"You can't ignore me forever! She was my daughter too!"
I stopped in my tracks and stared down at the floor. "Can you just leave me alone, Mike? I'm still dealing with it."
I spun around on my heel and stomped away.
"What makes you think I've already dealt with it?"
I clenched my fists as I turned around again. "It's different. She was a part of me for months. And then poof, just like that, she was gone. She was in your penis for like five seconds." I rolled my eyes and walked away.
I went back to class and waited for lunch to come.
The minute I stepped into the cafeteria Alice swept me into her arms. "Oh Bella!" She squealed. "Edward said you were back!"
I struggled to get out of her incredibly strong grip.
"Alice-" I breathed. "You're supposed to be human, remember?"
She laughed and let go. We sat down and waited for Edward.
Rosalie, Emmett, and Jasper graduated last year, so it would be just the three of us sitting at the Cullen table.
"Can you believe we're seniors?" Alice sarcastically.
I laughed. "How many times have you graduated?"
She shrugged. "I stopped counting."
"So did I." I voice said behind me. I turned around to Edward grinning at me.
He sat on the other side of me and all three of us chatted through the lunch hour.
"Do you want to come over my house this afternoon? Everyone would love to see you." Edward said to me as we walked out of school when the day ended.
I shook my head. "No, I want to be alone."
He sadly smiled at me. He leaned in for a kiss. I pecked him and them hopped into my truck.
I didn't know where I wanted to go but I found myself in La Push, parked by the beach. I jumped out and walked over the sand.
I grimaced as I felt the sand get into my shoes. I plopped down on a stump and pulled my knees up to my chest.
Dark thoughts raced through my head. I shook them off and went home.
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