|What I Have To Do
Author: Sad Fairies PM
The scene where Cammie is on rooftop in GG4. Cammie is contemplating what she is about to do and has a little help from Zach. Similar to book scene but a bit different. Zammie. Warning GG4 spoilers. Three shotRated: Fiction T - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - Cammie M. & Zach G. - Chapters: 3 - Words: 2,310 - Reviews: 23 - Favs: 11 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 03-26-11 - Published: 02-22-11 - Status: Complete - id: 6769712
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This is my first fanfic, i hope you like it
Ally Carter owns all characters and part of the plot
I knew what I had to do; I'd been contemplating it for ages now. I don't want to do it but I know I have too, it's the only way.
I was standing on the roof of the Gallagher Academy staring out at the small town of Roseville, thinking how much easier it would be to have a normal life, not having to spend every day worrying about dying or other people dying because of you, like Mr. Solomon, right this very moment he is lying down in a hospital bed within these very walls, in a coma, dying, because of me. Everybody tells me I have to have hope, that he's gonna come through and be okay, but I'm no longer a naive little kid, I know his chances are slim. That's how I've come to the decision to leave; I can't keep endangering other people's lives just to save my own. Even if it means leaving the sisterhood, leaving my Mum, Bex, Liz, Macey no doubt they'll kill me if they ever find me and what about Zach?
That small thought made its way into my head without my permission. It's been on the outskirts of my brain ever since I met him back in the exchange programme. But since he came to stay at Gallagher it's been applying pressure. I've tried but I can't deny my feelings for him. I know I love him, even though his mum wants me dead, even though he keeps disappearing on me, even though he won't tell me things I still have these feelings, it's crazy. When I think about, I've known Zach for the past two years, we've shared secrets and stolen kisses or those rare meaningful moments when he looks at me like I'm the most important thing in the world, I still know nothing about him, but at the same time I know everything, the passion in the way he fights, his constant need to protect me, the way he looks when he's in pain or when he's sad, angry, happy or even when he realises his world's about to come crashing down around him. They way his lips feel on mine, or how his body tenses at the mention of his past or his parents, the way he smirks, or how he has the power to melt my insides with one look.
This is why I have to leave, if I don't more people are going to die, more will have to suffer, at least if I'm on my own I only have to worry about myself. So I'm going to leave Gallagher Academy, stop the people trying to kill me, find out what happened to my dad and if I survive this I'm going to come home. I don't know what happens after that I don't know what the future holds, once I thought I did, I thought that I had my life sorted out since I was 13 years old. I was gonna graduate, become a spy, save the world and all that, but nothings ever that simple there's always twists and turns, complications. The smallest things are there to tear us down but we have to stay strong.
I looked out across the landscape one last time saying goodbye knowing that this will probably be the last time I'll see it, I was so caught up in my own thoughts I didn't realise I was crying or that I was being watched.
REVIEW, reviews and constructive criticism are really appreciated, I promise Zach will be introduced into the story