|I Don't Blame You For Being You
Author: sunshinebananas PM
An AU set in season 4.Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Evan C. & Casey C. - Chapters: 2 - Words: 1,831 - Reviews: 10 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 2 - Updated: 09-13-11 - Published: 04-12-11 - id: 6898254
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A/N: Hey everyone! So here's a new part of the story. I know, it's really short, and really late, but school and work have been taking over my life. Thanks so much for all the positive feedback, and I promise I will try really hard to keep up with this!
He still loved her. He knew that. He knew she knew that. And she still loved him too. He thought. Maybe. Ok, to be honest he had no idea. But the last few weeks had given him hope. "I've changed Casey." He'd changed for her. Anything for her.
She reached up and touched his cheek. "I know Cappie."
"So why aren't we together?"
"Because. I want you to be better for you. Not because I want you to."
He took her hands in his and held them to his chest. "I just want to be with you."
"You left me, remember?" She said, gently withdrawing her hands.
"Everybody's sorry lately." Said with a sigh.
She shook her head, "It's nothing."
"Are you sure? You know you can still talk to me about anything."
She gave him a sad smile, "But I can't Cappie. Not about some things."
"Things…." She paused, not sure if she even wanted to bring this up. "Things like Evan."
"What did he do to you now?" He said, automatically going on the defense.
Cappie just stared at her. "Are we talking about the same Evan?"
"Yes? It was sweet."
"Evan Chambers is not sweet. Evan Chambers is sneaky. And it doesn't make up for the fact that he cheated on you. You know I would never do that, if that's what you're afraid of."
"Of course I know that. And that's not that. It's just…when you left I really and truly thought we were over. And I'm still getting used to the fact that I'm still here. And that maybe I was wrong. And I need to figure out how to be around you again."
He tilted her face upward so that she was forced to look him in the eyes. "Tell me the truth, do you want to be with me?"
She caught her breath, suddenly uncomfortable. "I…I don't know."
He lowered his face until they were mere inches apart, close enough to kiss. "Liar."
"Don't do this. You aren't allowed to do this, not now." Suddenly, there was only empty air where she used to be.
"What do you mean now?"
"I can't deal with this."
He raked his hands through his hair, suddenly fed up. "What do you want from me, Casey?"
"I want you to be happy."
"I can be happy with you!"
"I don't want you to hate me!" She cried.
That stopped him, "I could never hate you."
"Yes, you could. If I have to keep pushing you, one day I'll push too far and you'll start to resent me. And I couldn't live with that."
"Casey, you make me want to be a better person, don't you get that? I need you to push me."
"I'm sorry, Cappie. I can't right now. It's too much." With that, she pushed past him and walked away.
He turned to watch her, hating himself for not going after her. Hating her in that moment for not understanding that he would literally jump off a building for her. Hating himself even more because even though he was angry, all he wanted to do was have her in his arms. But now he wasn't sure that would ever happen again