|Waiting is not forever
Author: Sum1cooler PM
Abstract: Spin off story to "illogicality" dealing with the two taller members of big time rush. Kendall and and James aren't illogical but are they meant for each other?Rated: Fiction K+ - English - Romance/Hurt/Comfort - James & Kendall - Chapters: 6 - Words: 11,830 - Reviews: 30 - Favs: 9 - Follows: 11 - Updated: 06-25-11 - Published: 05-18-11 - id: 7002417
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"If I rule the world, I throw all my money like confetti "- Interesting. I like the song.
BT Break up is pretty good. Although, being a cargan shipper, I wish there was a bigger back story to the helmet but oh well.
Chapter 6 – All of Your Dreams Come First
It has been three days since Logan left to New York, breaking Carlos and three days since James told Kendall he is dating Camille, breaking Kendall. Three is a new record for the guys. Normally, one day, two days top and everything is back to normal but this time, time isn't helping.
Kendall has been suffering, watching James openly express his dating life with Camille. Of course James said he can keep it a secret, calling it a "secret affair" if it helps Kendall not suffer but Kendall said lying will hurt him more. That is not true now.
"Yea sweetie. I like going to the park." James giggles into phone pacing the living room. "Sure the park is the perfect place for acting practice." He smiles.
Kendall sighs softly pretending to watch the TV with Carlos.
"I'm still finding a model agency but it's good. I love my free time."
Kendall sighs again pinching the bridge of his nose.
"Are you ok, Kendall?" Carlos asks concernedly.
"Of course I am." He whispers under James' conversation. "I broke up with Jo and told him I love him and now I, now I"
"Know what it feels to wait?" Carlos whispers again watching James go in his bedroom before returning his gaze to his suffering friend. "How does it feeling being me now?" He asks leaning on Kendall.
"It sucks." He chuckles. Carlos punches him back. "I guess love sucks."
"At least he knows."
"How is that good? I told him and he rejected me." Kendall rests his head on Carlos'.
"Because you finally did what you want." Carlos smiles. "I'm proud of you. You are the leader I want to follow for the rest of my life."
"Thanks Carlos." They smile finally feeling good.
"Hey Kendall, I'm throwing out the trash. Do you have any?" Katie announces walking in the living room.
"Nope. Thanks Katie." Kendall says eying James walking out of their room.
"Hey guys. I'm going out tonight. Ok?"
Kendall nods trying to speaking but staring at James' eyes, no lying words can escape.
"Ok James, we hope you have fun." Carlos lies for him.
"Thanks. I got to go. I'm already late." He squeals and runs to the door.
"Kendall!" Katie screams stopping the rushing teen. "Kendall why is this in the trash?" She asks holding an envelope similar to Logan's.
"Throw that out Katie." He sternly commands. "That is my mail."
"No, this is important."
"What is it Katie?" James ask walk to her.
"This is a letter from the coach of the Wilds asking for Kendall." Katie says angrily surprising him. "Why did you hide it, Kendall?"
"That is none of your business." Kendall yells grabbing the letter from her hand. But as Kendall walks to his room, James grabs and reads it.
"Kendall, the coach is asking you to come to Minnesota to train for a pre-preposition for the Wilds." James states. "Why did you throw this out?"
Kendall grabs the paper back. "Because I need to stay here. Everyone is happy here. And everyone's dream is here. Therefore I'm happy here."
"Your dream is there." Carlos jumps up frowning at the caring blond. "You need to take this opportunity."
"You said opportunity like this comes once in a lifetime." James exclaims. "How did you get a letter from the coach?"
"Logan did it. We talked three months ago about how we dreamt of being doctors and hockey players instead of singers. I guess Logan took it upon himself to send the coach a video of my plays." Kendall explains. "But I'm not going."
"Kendall, hockey is your dream. We have to go back to Minnesota." Katie adds.
"Katie, your dream is here, James' dream is here. I'm going to stay here because I promise to make of your dreams come true first."
"So you will never have your dream come true?" Carlos frowns.
"I can wait."
"No you can't!" James screams. "Waiting is hard Kendall. You have to stop waiting for me and go."
"What if I want to wait for us?" He yells back.
Carlos grabs Katie's arm and drags her into her room. "Ok Katie, I think we got to go somewhere else."
"This is a once in a lifetime opportunity and I know deep down you want to take it." James says.
Kendall waits to hear Carlos slam the door before talking. "I told you, I will wait no matter what because I love you. I am giving this up because it's just stupid team."
"You never called your dream stupid before!" James yells back.
"Well maybe there is someone more important in life than the Wilds."
"Stop it Kendall! I have a girlfriend and you have your dreams in your hand." He points to the letter.
"Why are you being nice to me about my dreams?" Kendall retorts. "You never wanted Logan to follow his."
"Because you're different Kendall I still…"
"Still what?" He presses.
"I still love you." He whispers. "I still care about you more than anything. So you have to go."
Kendall walks to shaking brunette. "I want to be here with you. I want to see you everyday. I don't need the Wilds, I need you." He says before crashing their lips together.
James leans in accepting Kendall's passionate lips but eventually pushes Kendall's chest back. "Kendall, I can't. I have a girlfriend." He frowns watching Kendall shifting his eyes away from him.
"Aren't you going to be late for your date, James?" Kendall sternly says eying the door. James sighs and walks out slowing closing the door.
He walks down the hallway hands stuff in his pocket. He should be thinking about things he is going to do with his girlfriend but instead he wonders how life got turned upside down.
It's crazy, right? In the span of three days, all four dreams end. In three days, they aren't big time rush anymore, just four distanced maybe-not-even friends.
He stops at the brunette's door and sighs before knocking twice.
"James!" Camille screams wrapping her arms around his neck. "So what do you want to do tonight? The park is beautiful. I heard of a new restaurant." She asks excitedly.
"You mind if we just watch a movie tonight? I rather stay in." James fakes a smile hiding his thoughts.
"Sure. Anything is fine." She says pulling his hand and leading him to the couch. "I don't have any good movies but we can rent something."
"Any movie is fine." James falls into the couch waiting for the blank TV to change. Camille jumps down on the couch falling into his arms.
"You want a comedy or action or mystery or"
"Romance." James cuts, surprising the brunette.
"Romance? I thought you hate that kind of movie. You said chick flicks are for people who don't understand love and dreams." Camille raises her brows questioning his choice.
Truthfully, that is why James wants it. "I guess, tonight is one of those nights."
Camille sighs, turning off the TV. "Ok James, what's wrong? And don't tell me nothing because I know something is up."
"Really nothing Camille." He lies. "I really just want to watch something different."
"I told you how Logan and I broke up right?" She adds lifting his arm off her shoulder. "He had a tone, an 'I'm not interested in you anymore' tone and I'm getting the same feeling with you James."
"That is not true. I was so happy when you called. We basically giggled the whole time." James says defensively.
"And now you're defensively." She frowns. "James, I know both of us are heart broken and it makes sense for us to date but honestly, I think you still have feeling for whoever dumped you."
James tries to open his mouth but no words come out.
"So who is she?" Camille asks, suddenly frowning. "If I can't be your girlfriend, at least I can be your friend, right?"
"Why? Logan broke you and now I just broke you. Why would you be so nice?" He questions.
"Because I should have supported Logan. I was a bitch writing horrible things about him in my journal, ripping pictures of him and just cursing whenever I saw him." She cries. "I should have been happy but now I lost a good friend and I rather have you guys as friends than haters."
James pulls her in a hug. "Kendall is leaving." He opens. "He is going to leave to join a hockey team. He's going to leave me." He cries tears falling on the girl's hair.
"That doesn't sound like Kendall. He would never leave btr."
"I going to make sure he leaves even if he doesn't want to. He should finally follow his dream."
"I'm sorry James."
"No. It's fine. If I love him, I support him right?" He smiles.
"Right." She chuckles backs. "Look at us? We are crying like girls instead of enjoying a nice movie."
James laughs. "Well pick the sappiest, girliest movie out there and let's watch it a million times."