Author: lacksubstance PM
LARGER SUMMARY INSIDE: Santana and Brittany are happily married and have a beautiful three year old daughter together, only problem is, Santana has been deployed in the Middle East. Brittana, femslash.Rated: Fiction T - English - Romance/Angst - Brittany P. & Santana L. - Chapters: 14 - Words: 56,249 - Reviews: 211 - Favs: 197 - Follows: 158 - Updated: 07-23-11 - Published: 05-28-11 - Status: Complete - id: 7030168
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Hey guys, so some of you probably don't know me, but I'm new to writing for Glee/Brittana, but I miss writing on here so much and I thought I'd take on the challenge that is Brittana. My friend Michelle (0oIKissedAGirl0o) helped me get a story idea for these two and she came up with this one. So if you guys like it, please hit the little review button at the bottom of the page and let me know and the more reviews I get the faster I'll update. So on to the story (:
Summary: Santana and Brittany are happily married and have a beautiful three year old daughter together, only problem is, Santana has been deployed in the Middle East. With both women struggling to keep their emotions in tact, will the struggle become too much for both of them or will they make it through the hardships, in time for Santana to come home; whenever that is.
Disclaimer: Do not own show, story idea, or characters. Just the writing.
You have no idea how proud I am of you. Every morning I wake up knowing that you're out there fighting for our country and doing all of this to make the world a better place. At the same time, I cry at night, knowing you're not next to me to hold me and aren't going to be next to me when I wake up. I try to be strong because I know that's what you ask of me every time you leave and every time we speak. You tell me "it'll be over before you know it. I'll be home soon". It's been three years, when is it finally over? When will you be home? I need you and I miss you like you cannot believe. I'm being patient and I'm being strong for her. I hope you know how much we miss you. I love you so much Santana, never forget that. I'm here waiting for you when you come home.
I love you.
Hi Mommy. I miss you. I turned 3 today and had a party. I wish you could see me. But since you can't, Momma and I sent you a picture. I love you Mommy. Come home.
Santana couldn't count how many times she read the two letters. She couldn't count how many times she looked at the picture that came with them. She missed her family. It's hard to believe it's been three years since she's been home. Three years since she's held their daughter Maya. Last time she had her in her arms was when she was nearly five months old. It killed her knowing that she hasn't been there to see her grow up.
She ran her hand through her perfectly pulled back hair, letting tears stream down her cheeks as she held the letters in one hand and the picture in the other. She just wanted to go home, but she knew she couldn't.
As she thought all of this, someone sat down next to her. She began wiping her eyes furiously, trying to hide her weakness. She hated showing weakness, especially here.
"You know you don't have to be strong right now," Her shirt said Ramirez on it. She's been Santana's bunk mate for the last three years, even though she's been here much longer and they grew fairly close. They had a very interesting friendship just because she could relate to what Santana was feeling. She hasn't seen her husband and her seven year old son in as long as Santana and it broke her heart as much as it broke Santana's.
"I have to for them. You of all people know that Alex," Santana simply says.
Alex nods slightly. "Yes, but they're not here, therefore you're allowed to cry your heart out," she replies. "God knows I do," she adds shifting to the side, crossing her arms.
"Does it ever get easier?" Santana asks, looking up at her. Alex looks down at the floor, shuffling her feet in the Middle Eastern sand, then looks back up at the Latina.
"No. No it doesn't," Alex replies shaking her head, feeling her own set of tears welling up in her green eyes. Santana leaned over and began hugging Alex tightly in her arms, closing her eyes, to prevent the tears from spilling out. "Let them out Lopez" she hears Alex whisper as her voice cracks and before either woman noticed; they were both in tears.
"Okay, now you be good, okay?" Brittany tells the three year old brunette little girl, with blue eyes. Maya begins to shift from side to side, looking down at the floor.
"Momma I'm always good," she says in a little innocent voice, looking up at her, batting her eyelashes.
Brittany just smirks laughing slightly. "Uh huh sure you are. Now give me a hug and a kiss, so I can get to work," she says, kneeling down to her daughter's level. Maya stomps over to Brittany and buries her body into her mother's arms, as Brittany held her tightly. She loved her so much. She really didn't know where'd she'd be without her.
After pulling away, Maya leaned over and kissed Brittany then ran off into the classroom. "Have a good day!" Brittany shouted in her direction, before sighing somewhat sadly. As she was about to walk out of the school, she hears "Momma", making her turn around.
She sees Maya peaking her head out of the classroom, giving her a goofy grin. "Go to school," Brittany tells her, making Maya pout. "Go," she tells her again, this time Maya sighs loudly.
"Fine, I love you Momma," Maya shouts to her, walking back into the classroom, signaling for Brittany to leave.
As she's walking out to the parking lot, to get to her car, she hears her name being called, making her sigh and turn around to see Quinn, walking over to her.
"Brittany, jeez it's been awhile," Quinn says, pulling her hair behind her ear, walking over to her and giving her a warm, tight hug.
"Um yeah it has, since high school I guess," Brittany replies, as they begin walking further into the parking lot.
"Yeah, so how have you been? Did you just come out of the preschool?" Quinn asks, making Brittany look down for a moment.
"I've been pretty good and yeah I was just dropping my daughter Maya off," she replies to the other blonde, who nods. "Um, what about you?" she adds, walking down a row of cars.
"Oh same, just hanging around I guess, and yeah I just dropped my daughter off as well," she replies. They never thought a reunion would be this awkward, seeing as they never left high school on bad terms or anything. Their guess was that they just assumed they'd all keep in touch; clearly that didn't happen.
"So are you married?" Quinn breaks the silence, making Brittany look up and smile sadly.
"Yeah, yeah I am," Brittany replies softly. It's not that she isn't happy to be married to Santana, it's just that she wished she was here.
"Oh really? Congratulations whenever it happened. Who's the lucky guy?" Quinn asked happily.
Brittany almost laughed out loud, but decided it'd be best that she didn't, but she did laugh slightly. "Um…I'm married to Santana. I'm a Lopez now," she replies with a little shrug, making Quinn's eyes widen and her mouth drop slightly before she started laughing.
"I should've saw that coming," Quinn replied to her, still laughing. "I'm really happy for you guys," she adds, hugging Brittany warmly again, before looking down at her phone. "Shit, I have to get to work, but here give me your number, I'd love to get together with you and Santana. Maybe we can have a play date with Maya and Grace,"
"Yeah sure, but Santana won't be able to come. She's actually deployed right now in the Middle East," Brittany states sadly.
"Oh my God, how long has she been gone?" Quinn asks shocked. Santana was one of the last people she'd expect from Glee Club to be in the military. Actually she expected none of the Glee Club members would ever be in the military.
"Three years, but here's my number. Send me a text, so I can get yours because I really got to get to work as well. It was nice seeing you again Quinn, please don't be a stranger," Brittany replies quickly, giving Quinn a quick hug, then stalking away to her car.
As soon as Brittany got the car unlocked, she got into the car and placed the key in the ignition, but didn't turn it on right away. She just sat there and began to cry. She hated talking about Santana being away from her because all she could say was the basics and if someone asks her "well isn't that hard?" all she wants to do is lash out at them and say "Well of course it's hard" and some other colorful words. She tries to remain strong for Maya, but sometimes she can't help but bust out in tears.
For Maya's last three birthdays, Brittany threw her a birthday party and every time she tells her to make a wish. Brittany would jokingly ask her what she wished for and Maya would just tell her "For Mommy to come home". For every birthday she could talk that's always been her wish. No presents. Just Santana. And for the last three birthdays that Brittany has had. Brittany has wished for the same thing.
"I miss you so much," Brittany says through her tears to no one in particular. She didn't know how long she sat there, until she finally decided she needed to compose herself. She began to wipe her tears off her face and cheeks, finally starting the car so she could head to work.
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