|No one ever said it was going to be easy
Author: Super Tash PM
You can erase someone from your mind. Getting them out of your heart is another story. Falling in love with her is something I hadn't expected, but being in love with her is something I couldn't stop even if I tried.Rated: Fiction K - English - Romance/Drama - Naomi C. & Emily F. - Chapters: 25 - Words: 24,973 - Reviews: 54 - Favs: 18 - Follows: 26 - Updated: 07-07-12 - Published: 07-26-11 - Status: Complete - id: 7221043
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Thanks to all the people who have reviewed my story hope you are enjoying it :) And All the spelling mistakes are mine :)
Dont own Skins ( Wish I DID )
It's been a month since Em found out about Sophia and all the gang is coming over for a BBQ, the joy, we act like nothing ever happened because the army of Fitch's are coming too. Emily has started talking to me again it's a start to win her back.
The gang came over about an hour ago and started setting up the party. Then the door bell goes. Great the Fitch's are here.
Emily is walking up and down the kitchen and muttering under her breath.
"Stop it Em" I pleaded
"After all the shit she's put us through you just let her march into our home" Emily shouted
"She's your mum"
"She's a selfish cow"
Then Katie and Jenna came in to the kitchen. Oh great, then Emily gave Katie and Jenna the whole I don't care speech.
"This is my house; I live her with my girlfriend and we are having a BBQ. All right" She snapped
While Emily was giving a lecture about our life I saw Katie look on the chalk board filled with love quotes and she smiled.
I have never heard Emily call me her girlfriend for weeks now. Then Emily came over to me and kissed me full on. That was one nice kiss but it was full of hate. I thought it was real; I'm a stupid tossa to think that. I'm not going to give up. I love her and I'm going to get my Emily back.
But this kiss wasn't right it wasn't love so I pushed her off me. Then she gave one last look and walked out the kitchen.
I went outside and sat next to Effy. Her and Cook were the only people I could talk about this Emily situation too all the others wouldn't understand.
"Eff I miss her so much, I want her back what can I do. I wish I didn't hurt, I wish it didn't happen I wish I could forget I wish it could go back to the way it was" I admitted
"You can try to rebuild her just give her time Naoms. Without pain, there would be no suffering, without suffering we would never learn from our mistakes. To make it right, pain and suffering is the key to all windows, without it; there is no way of life". Effy announced
"But have you ever loved someone so much that they are the only person who can ruin your life."
"Yeah" Effy agreed, she looked at Freddie with only love in her eyes.
That made me sad, that was what me and Emily had before I got scared and ran.
Emily was acting strange around the gang and even Katie. But can't blame her because it's all my fault, I've done this to her. She was asking every one for drugs but everyone saw that she was high so they all stopped. Then she came back over to me and Effy. She both asked us for drugs but we said no.
Then she went to the stereo and turned it up full blast, I love hearing old songs I used to love. They're like memories you can always go back to.
Emily then started dancing with this girl. I would have gone straight up to the girl and punch the lights out of her, but that would make it all worse. But their hands were all over each other I had to stay calm that's when Effy slipped her hand into mine. Then they kissed. That bitch kissed my Emily.
Then I heard Katie shout "What the Fuck Emily".
My heart was broken it felt like I was being stabbed. But I broke Emily's first.
Then Emily started running to me and tackled us into the pool. I got out the pool dripping wet and was about to go inside then Emily pushed me.
"Fuck you right back!" Emily screamed at me.
"Ems stop it" Katie butted in.
"Stay out of it" Emily roared
"What…What you want to fuck her is that it" I questioned
"Maybe I do. So what, you knew what you were doing and you knew it would hurt me but somehow that still didn't stop you". Emily cried
Then Jenna step in once again to see what all of us were yelling at.
Oh God I have to tell all my friends what I have done to Emily. Only Effy and Cook know. It's properly better to tell them know it been a few weeks and they always ask what's wrong with you and Ems.
"It's none of your business" Emily shouted
I heard Sophia's voice in the wind again saying "You can only put the past away for so long. There will be days it comes rushing back"
"I fucked the dead girl. I fucked Sophia and gave her the drugs and now she's punishing me for it". I yelled
I told everyone. But Emily was looking at me with hurt. Katie looked shocked and Jenna looked like she was going to kill me. Fucking hell she's going to kill me.
Emily started arguing with her mum. Then Katie slapped her and it was hard, you could hear the echoing. Then she started crying I couldn't bear to see her crying after what I had had done.
All I could do was look at her, my Emily she was hurting so bad and I don't know what to do to make her better.
"Em" Was all I could say
She looked at me and walked away crying.
The BBQ had finished and everyone went and Effy, Freddie, Panda, JJ and Thomas said that Emily would forgive me. But I couldn't believe them.
I think Emily had left to go to the Fitches house with Katie. So I decided to go on my laptop looking and the pictures of me and Em's and the gang, the good old days. Then I heard the front door open it was probably mum and Kieran. I have to tell them what happen with and Emily too. Oh great!
Someone came into my room and tapped my shoulder, I turned around it was Emily.
"Naomi we have to talk" Emily started
"Ems I'm sorry. No I'm so sorry. I'll do anything"
"I know, but you need to give me time. Time to heal"
I had only noticed Emily before but behind her was Katie sat on the end of my bed.
"I can't do this Naoms, Why did you do this to me, why did you hurt me so bad that I want to die"
"I am so sorry Emily with all my heart, I'm going to do everything to make US work to make it go back to the way it was. I know it will take time but I'll make it work because I love you. To be honest with you, I don't have the words to make you feel better, but I do have the arms to give you a hug, ears to listen to whatever you want to talk about, and I have a heart that's aching to see you smile again". I vowed
Emily was crying now and she came over to me and hugged me. This was the first time I've been happy in a month. I hugged her back with all the love in my heart so she knew that I meant that speech. We stayed like that for ages.
Katie left and it was getting late. Emily fell a sleep on the sofa so I carried her to our bed tucked her in and kiss her on the forehead and whispered in her ear "I love you and if there ever comes a day when we can't be together, keep me in your heart, I'll stay there forever".
Hope you lot liked my second chapter :) Please review:) I'll update next week:) And always ship Naomily :)