|You Can't Understand My Pain
Author: stephfarrow94 PM
Itachi is suicidal and no one knows how to help him. After a suicide attempt gone wrong, can Sasuke help his brother open up to him or make things worse? Uchihacest MadaIzu ItaSasu suicide themes.Rated: Fiction M - English - Romance/Angst - Itachi U. & Sasuke U. - Chapters: 8 - Words: 10,392 - Reviews: 34 - Favs: 36 - Follows: 37 - Updated: 11-15-12 - Published: 10-01-11 - Status: Complete - id: 7429655
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REA month had passed by and things were much better. Though it had been very hard at the beginning, both Izuna and Itachi were doing very well.
Itachi now smiled much more and had even laughed on a few occasions. He was much more open with his family and has resumed his close status to Sasuke. They did everything together once again, and even Madara and Izuna were closer than ever.
Right now, on some rainy Monday night, Itachi lay away as his brother cuddled in against him, sound asleep.
Tomorrow was a big day for them all – they were all attending the counselling session to be informed about Itachi and Izuna's progress, as well as to receive tips on how to continue helping them.
Itachi was nervous – he wasn't sure how Sasuke would go, but he hoped that the younger would be alright. He was more concerned about Madara; Izuna hadn't made as much progress as he had.
"I'm sure you'll be fine," Itachi whispered as he combed his fingers through his brother's hair.
With that, he kissed Sasuke's head and then went to sleep.
"Itachi-kun has made great progress." Miyuki smiled at Madara and Sasuke the next day. "Izuna-kun has come along well, but I believe that his trauma is more extensive than originally thought and will require much more work. He seems to love you very much."
"He does." Madara smiled back.
"You're his security blanket," Miyuki continued on. "He told me that just as it had happened, he clung to you a lot more, afraid that you'd be removed."
"Oh, that was why?" Madara frowned. "Yes, the second I picked him up, he was too scared to be without me and kept having nightmares. I thought that it was because he had never been away from me before. Oh, my poor Izuna…"
"Itachi-kun, on the other hand, has come along magnificently. Just keep talking to him and spending time with him and I'm sure that he will recover completely."
"Yay!" Sasuke cheered loudly, leaning over and hugging his brother. "Aniki, this is great!"
Itachi smiled and poked Sasuke's forehead. "Love you."
"Love you, too!"
Madara cleared his throat. "What about Izuna? What are we doing with him?"
"Reassurance and comfort is what he needs. He knows that Fugaku cannot separate you now so he finds it easier to leave your side, but he still gets scared. His nightmares aren't as bad as they were when he first came here, so that's good. Keep up the great work, Izuna-kun."
Madara smiled at his brother and kissed his temple. "So no more tears, okay? And no more worrying. I'm not going anywhere."
"Mada-nii…" Izuna sniffed and hugged his brother. "Mada-nii, I love you…"
"I love you, too, baby brother."
Miyuki smiled. "Was there anything that anyone wants to say?"
Everyone shook their heads. Miyuki smiled. She couldn't help but feel overjoyed as she could feel the love in the room.
That same night, after listening to Madara and Izuna make their most passionate love yet, Itachi was left holding a sleeping – yet aroused – Sasuke.
The younger boy was moaning in his sleep, unconsciously rubbing his hips against his brother. Even in his sleep, he looked to be in pure ecstasy.
"Sasuke…" Itachi smiled, stroking the shining black hair. "I love you."
Itachi didn't know how long he had held such forbidden feelings for his brother, but he did know that now – after finally getting help for himself – his feelings had grown considerably.
The older brother watched as Sasuke brought a hand down to his waist, slipping it into his pants.
Itachi was greatly aroused as well, but he would never, under any circumstances, take advantage of his little brother – especially while he slept. Instead, he watched as his brother reached completion before closing his own eyes and falling fast asleep.
"Good morning~" Izuna sang happily as he entered the kitchen the next morning. He had never looked so happy and well-rested before. The young man came to his brother's side and kissed the elder's cheek.
"Good morning, oji-san," the two youngest smiled. "You look very well today."
Izuna blushed. "…Well… Aniki took great care of me last night…"
Itachi smiled while Madara sniggered from over at the kitchen counter.
"I heard," Itachi said.
"Really?" Madara turned to smile at his family. "I heard Sasuke. That doesn't happen often."
Sasuke blushed scarlet and ducked under the table. Itachi and Izuna laughed heartily.
"Breakfast is ready, boys," Madara called as he brought a plate of sizzling bacon over. "Sasuke, come out – it's nothing to be embarrassed about. When I was your age, I had many wet dreams each night."
"It's true," Izuna confirmed. "He did."
Madara smirked. "I used to wake up saturated in my own cum – had to change the bed sheets daily. Right, Izu?"
Izuna blushed and nodded. He looked down at his lap and fiddled with his fingers in uneasiness. "…H-he… used to get it all over me…"
Itachi cleared his throat and Sasuke returned to his hiding place under the table.
"That's enough, oji-san…" Itachi said in a soft tone. "I want to eat…"
Madara laughed. "Okay, Itachi-kun. I apologise."
Itachi smiled. "Sasuke, it's over now."
Izuna smirked as his nephew slowly crawled out from under the table and took his seat.
The talk was quiet as everyone ate their breakfast. Sasuke was the first to leave, needing to catch the bus to school. This left just Itachi and his uncles. Izuna was the first to bring up the topic of dating to Itachi.
"When are you going to bring us home a girl, Ita-kun?" Izuna smiled and tilted his head in innocence.
Madara sniggered. "Girl? Don't you mean boy?"
Itachi pegged his uncle with a glare. "Like you're one to talk. Does my preference even matter?"
Madara sniggered again while Izuna smiled. "Of course not. We'll always love you no matter who you choose."
Itachi smiled. He knew that Sasuke was the one he loved, and he also knew that if anyone would understand, it would be Izuna – and possibly Madara, though the man probably wouldn't be too happy about it.
"Izuna-oji-san," Itachi begun, "can I talk to you about something?"
Izuna smiled and nodded. "Of course. In private or can my brother listen, too?"
Itachi glanced over at his older uncle, seeing the mischievous grin on Madara's face. He knew that the elder would turn it into a game if he knew.
"Just you." Itachi laughed at the way Madara looked like a beaten puppy. "Sorry, oji-san, but you'd be of no help if you knew."
"…Hn." Madara stubbornly crossed his arms over his chest as he glared at the wall.
"Now?" Izuna asked. He took a small gulp of his coffee.
Itachi nodded. "I'll meet you upstairs in my bedroom."
"What did you want to talk about?" Izuna asked as he sat on the bed beside his nephew.
Itachi blushed. "…About what was said before… Oji-san, I don't want a girlfriend… I know who I want… But I cannot have him."
"It's Sasuke, isn't it?" Izuna smiled.
Itachi gasped. "How did you know?!"
"Sasuke has come to me many times crying about being unable to be with you. I understand why you didn't want to tell Mada-nii. I wouldn't tell him, either."
"Do you think Mada-oji-san will understand?"
"Well, seeing as he loved his own brother at only four years old… I would say that he understands – but that doesn't mean he'll be happy about it. If you talk to Sasuke, I promise I'll talk to my brother."
Itachi hugged his uncle. "Oji-san, thank you! I love you."
Izuna blushed. "S-sorry, Itachi, but regardless of my relationship with my brother, I wouldn't touch my nephew."
"Oji-san!" Itachi laughed. "You knew what I meant!"
Izuna smiled. "I love you, too. Now go start preparing for tonight. You'll need the time."
Itachi nodded. He watched as his uncle left the room. Izuna was right – he would need the time.
It just so happened that Sasuke had come home sick while Itachi was in town. When the older Uchiha stepped into his room after lunch, he was surprised to find Sasuke in bed, sound asleep.
Itachi raised an eyebrow and approached the bed. He gently shook Sasuke's shoulder, trying to wake him up.
Sasuke let out a groan that Itachi had assumed was due to waking up – until Itachi's lips rolled out of his mouth and Sasuke's erection became obvious.
Itachi felt himself becoming aroused at the sight. He bit his lip. He would never force his brother to do anything – but God, did he look delicious!
Itachi's face blushed as he thought dirty thoughts about his own brother.
Sasuke's eyes opened slowly. "I love you…" He mumbled at the sight of his brother.
Itachi frowned. Did Sasuke know what he was saying…? "You should go back to sleep, otouto…"
"No… I need to tell… to tell you… I… Love you… More than a brother…"
"…Sasuke, you're delirious… Go to sleep…"
"No… Ask Izuna… I told him… He knows… I love you…"
Itachi's eyes watered, unable to trust his brother's words. Even so, it didn't stop him from locking lips with the younger.
Sasuke kissed back eagerly – both of them experiencing their first kisses.
When they broke apart for air, Itachi gazed into his brother's eyes, a burning emotion boring into Sasuke's soul.
"I love you, too, Sasuke…" Itachi whispered. "So much…"
Itachi rested their foreheads together as he slipped Sasuke's clothes off. It didn't take long for Itachi to slip inside and make love to his brother.
The next day had been nerve-wracking, but both uncle had accepted the new relationship, just glad that Itachi was getting better.
Telling Sasuke about his feelings was the best thing that Itachi could have ever done.