I got up the next morning, still in the alley. It was cold as hell, and I had a killer hangover.

So I brushed it all off. Lying to yourself is always a good idea, right? I had to clean up, I was late for work, and probably in huuuuge trouble. William was going to ban me from leaving for weeks, even, if he were so inclined. Alan and Eric would rib on me for it, and Grell would laugh. The second time that my career had been tarnished.

Tch. Tarnished. I felt too nasty to be able to go in, anyway. I wandered to the street and lowered my head before I threw up. Then I wandered. Hell. I didn't know where I was going. I was waiting for someone to get a hold of me. I didn't see anyone for a while. Must have been one of those busy days.

Or if I passed anyone I didn't notice. God, who turned on the sun? Who made it so goddamn bright? Agh, even my footsteps were loud. I'm pretty sure some of you know how nasty hangovers are, so you know what I'm talking about.

But I've had a million hangovers before.

So I'm not worried about this part of the story.

The drunken stumbling into the apartment, trying to make my way to the phone. I haaaaate missing work, guys, I really do, it gives me lots of overtime. And I'm pretty sure Alan hates getting my extra work.

I took a couple minutes to sit down, try to think, try not to puke, hey, it was quiet and it all worked out for me, at least then. Shrugging, and thinking I was maaaybe a little less groggy than before, I meant to go and call the boss.

And then I froze. There was a lot more noise in the apartment than there should have been. Didn't I close the door? God, paranoia is a bitch.

It felt like I was on fire. I didn't have time to think about why the door was open, and so I sat there, being hot, trying to fight it back. Demons are nasty the way they do that to you. Or at least, to shinigami. Was it really that bad for William? Did he really have to put up with this?

I tried to get up. Nope. On the floor in a second, even if it was just for water. Something slid against me. There was a little bit of panic, but I was weak, tired, hung over and really really hot. I looked up. At first there was just spinning ceiling, stars, and then that damn demon.

I shuddered, but I couldn't do anything to stop him from straddling him. "Such a party animal, Knox, I would expect better out of you. William is going to be sooo disappointed, isn't he? Afraid of getting overtime, are you?"

Sebastian grinned. That was a nasty grin. God I hate that look on his face, but I was too damn hot to do anything. Spinning, and he kissed all over me. Everywhere.

"Ronald Knox, what are you doing on the floor?" William was standing over me in his pajamas and a robe, sipping coffee. Adjusting the glasses, he nudged me with his foot, I think. Shit was dizzy. Hell, I don't even know what he said next. But he kept nudging me and made me get up.

"Hey….Sen-senpai… How'sit goin? Aren't you supposed to be at work?"

He gave me a look before fixing his glasses again. "It's my first day off in three months, Ronald Knox. You're supposed to be at the office. Without you there, Grell is probably running rampant." William sat at the dinner table. We don't really have a dining room. I don't think so, at least. My memory's a little fuzzy, you know?

So William made me get up and sit with him. He got me some water and he was talking about something or other. I stopped listening after a while. He might have started talking about rainbows and unicorns at some point. Hell if I was listening.

All I could think about now was that damned demon. That damned demon and how much William was gonna kill me if he found out. But it wouldn't be as bad as he was, right?

I mean…

William-senpai hadn't had sex in like a million years before Sebastian got him. I think I go at it on a regular basis enough for it not to bother me… How long had he touched me again? At some point I ended up just collapsed on the table in front of me. And he stared at me. I haaaaaate it when William-senpai stares at me, it makes me feel like he knows. And maybe he did know?

"Ronald Knox what are you not telling me?" His mouth ticked with impatience, and I could read it on his face.

"…Well, senpai, you know, it's kinda funny," I tried to laugh it off, hoping it might lighten the situation a little. Because if things went how I thought they were gonna go, I was gonna have overtime for a while. William-senpai's stare was cold and heavy, and it didn't help me get over that annoying heat in my body, either. I should have spoken up sooner.

"Oh? What's so funny, then?" He adjusted his glasses, and looked really unamused. I was dead.

"Well you seee… so I was at a bar and I got drunk and Ikinda…submet with Sebastiansubsuband he felt me up and then I passed out/sub/sub/sub But it's okay because I'm right here and-" William's eyes widened, and then he looked furious. "…You're gonna give me overtime, aren't you?"

William shook his head. "I'm not giving you overtime." He gritted his teeth and took a sip of his coffee, adjusting his glasses. "I'm quarantining you until you go through withdrawal."

"..But I'm fine Will!" I couldn't believe this. This was almost as bad as overtime. This was worse, he was going to lock me up!

"NO. You haven't been through this. Did you forget it almost got me killed?"

For a moment I stopped. …Will had gone through this before. Maybe he was just trying to protect me? So…I did what I had to do.

"..Alright William-senpai.. I'll let you quarantine me."

I probably shouldn't have let him do it. Crossing his arms, he tilted back in his chair and examined me. "The damage doesn't seem too bad… But I'm still locking you up."

"..Alright Senpai." Arguing with William is a bad idea, guys. Ever. Even if he's wrong, he's stubborn and he won't admit it. But he'll probably grudgingly allow you to make your point. "But you'll need me later on when things start to get busy this week.

He pinched the bridge of his nose. "It's winter, old people always seem to drop off in winter. …I'll consider you having a work pass."

"…But Senpai-"

"No."

And when William says no, he means it.

So, like a good little boy I was being forced to be, I trudged into my bedroom. It was cool in there, and I blame that new AC fan I got for that. Even though it was mid winter, my room has a tendency to get hot, you know?

So I crawled into bed and the house got quiet. I heard the door open and close. Maybe William went to work? At least, I hoped. ..And then I heard voices.

"Get out of my house, demon." I cracked my door open a bit to get a good view of what was going on. I couldn't see anything other than Will standing in front of the couch and holding out his spear.

"Now now, William, is that any way to treat a guest?"

My heart lurched and man, was it awful. That feeling of being frozen, and just by his voice. It started to get hot… I dropped onto my knees, and I think I made some noise, but I think they ignored it, but I don't know. Maybe Will was trying to keep the demon away from me.

"Get out of my apartment, demon." He wanted to kill Sebastian, I could see it all over his face.

"Oh, make me, Shinigami."

He bypassed the spear and disarmed him. I don't think I'd ever seen anyone get the jump on William before. Not like this. Sebastian pinned William to the couch and leaned down, nose to nose with him.

William-senpai stared and tried to squirm away from the demon. Sebastian stripped a glove off of his hand with his teeth and I couldn't see what happened next. I suddenly got hot and dizzy. Taking a gasp of air, I looked back up. Sebastian had sat up, and pulled William-senpai in his lap, kissing his neck, sliding his hands all over him. God it was sickening.

…

Was that going to be me?

That look on William's face, that horrible elation. He was letting the demon touch him. He glanced over at me and Sebastian turned his head, snickering. "Oh, look."

I tried to scramble up and then fell flat on my damn face. "I think he's jealous, master," Will said quietly, and he looked at me like I were less than him.

Not like he normally did.

But like I was some kind of animal.

"Yes yes, he is."

Sebastian stood, sliding my boss off of his lap. I tried to crawl back, but I only ended up scrambling back and knocking the door open. He knocked me over and suddenly, everything got hotter. I stared up at him. I felt like I was drowning, and that, guys, is a shitty feeling.

"D..don't touch me, demon," I meant to make a threat. I squeaked instead.

He closed in on me. Fuck, I was doomed. And boss wasn't helping. Sebastian pressed me against the wall. "I can touch you all I want," he hissed. His voice made me just a little dizzier, and then he kissed me.

It's hellish when someone you hate kisses you, you know? And they're good at it, and you KNOW you like it, but you don't and you just want to ..I don't know, disappear, fade into nothing, do something to get away… But, I ended up kissing back. And his hands ended up all over me. I heard Will protest something, but I was too tired to care. Sebastian chuckled in response and left me on the floor, panting.

"You're right, William. I'll play with him some more."

I think when the haze went away, I was in bed. I sat up a little, and looked over. Will was at my side with some water and ice, his head was down, and he looked frustrated. "Honestly. Putting yourself in danger like that, Ronald."

He adjusted his glasses, and the shine covered his eyes. I didn't know if what I'd seen a minute ago had been real or not.

"H..hey Senpai.." I had to reach up and take his glasses. And he hated that more than overtime.

Blinking with surprise, he looked furious. "Ronald Knox…Give me my glasses back." He held out his palm and glared in my general direction. The shadows obscured his eye color. Dammit. I needed to know.

"H..heh, sorry William, I just needed to make sure."

"Make sure of what?" He looked skeptical as he put his glasses back on.

"I just thought-" And then I stopped. William-senpai didn't like other shinigami mentioning his… affairs… when it came to that demon. Not those days, at least. Heh, maybe it would have been better if I asked? "Well, I kind of had a nightmare and you were in it.."

"…You'll be having a lot of those, Ronald." He raised an eyebrow at me. I hate that look. I wouldn't mind it if he didn't make me look stupid when he did it.

"…And hallucinating?"

"Perhaps."

I let myself fall on the bed. What the hell was that I saw, then? I didn't even…But I should have seen it. Don't trust your eyes, Ronald Knox, why didn't you trust yourself?

Oh, because I was hot, dizzy and no one expects William to lie. Ever. I always thought Will was an honest man.

But.

….There were things, he just, didn't tell us things, all the time.

God everything then, though, it was hot. Hot and I wanted some ice. And I ended up with William senpai shoving a glass of ice water in my hands.

"I don't think this is gonna help, William-senpai."

"Drink it anyway."

There are gaps here, like there are gaps in pretty much everything I remember from that point on, see? Because I think Will was drugging me up? Maybe it was something from the hospital that they kept him on? I don't know! None of this that I'm telling you, not really, it can't be considered honest.

Would YOU trust someone who was potentially high out of their minds when they told you a story, then swore it was true? No? Good, then you're probably sane enough to understand that I have no fucking clue what was going on.

I literally have no idea where I was, or how long I was in that room. And, I'm pretty sure my only visitor was William. Well, one night when he was out doing some more overtime for…previous indiscretions (his words, not mine, folks). So he left me with Grell.

That's aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaalways great.

Well, sort of. See, Grell lets me get away with things that Will wouldn't well, because he kind of agrees that Will's got a stick in his ass, and that it's shoved in there pretty well.

So he let me out of my room and into the kitchen to get something to eat, and shower, and not have to see that room for at least a few more hours before Will got home and I had to go back.

So we sat at the table, had some food, a little bit of water, and then, Grell looked at me. "Hey, Ronald?" He was done twiddling with his nails, and looked more concerned.

"Yeah, Senpai?" I was still a little out of it, and tired, from all this bullshit that happened, but that didn't stop Grell from saying anything.

"Why are you so jumpy around Willu? Nothing happened, right?"

I sort of shifted away from him a bit. It wasn't always good to tell Grell things- he wasn't the office gossip- that was someone else (and it damn sure isn't me, I swear). But Grell was damn reliable for someone like himself. Call it some 'womanly' quality that made him a lot more trusting than William-senpai.

"Well, Senpai.." I shifted again and sipped at the water William had left on the dresser. "I had this nightmare last night, you know, about when Will was that demon's pet-" I kind of didn't want to talk about it, but if SOMEONE would listen, the best would be Alan- but I had Grell. Good enough.

"We've ALL had nightmares about it, Ronald, I think it's nothing."

"But they looked at me. At ME."

"…And?" Grell looked back at his nails, leaning back onto the bed.

"And he used William to get to me."

Grell frowned. "…Do you think he would?"

I shook slightly. "Yes, I think he would, I know he would! Will would do it if that-that-that-"

Dizziness was starting to fill my head again- and I hate it. I hate that feeling.

But don't tell master that, he knows it drives me crazy and he'll just tease me with it- Grell, if you're reading this somehow, please.

Come get me.

Come on, grab your chainsaw and- I gotta get focused, and keep typing.

But I fainted. Again.

No, I'm not like that all the time, dammit, I hate it. So much! But I can't really DO anything about it yet.