Author: Lilly Valens PM
When two gunshots ring out underneath a deserted viaduct, all Jimmy and Coop created together appears to fade away with the gun smoke into the balmy night. But what if that wasn't the end? What then.. AU slash Jimmy/Coop fic based on "Forever Blue" and combined with aspects of "A Time to Hate." Rated for language, violence, and mature themes.Rated: Fiction T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 35 - Words: 137,837 - Reviews: 107 - Favs: 13 - Follows: 11 - Updated: 02-17-13 - Published: 01-11-12 - id: 7732008
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A/N: Spoilers if you haven't seen the episodes "A Time to Hate" or "Forever Blue". This is a (canon) slash fanfic that will contain violence, mature themes, and coarse language. Please keep in mind the homophobic language is only in keeping with the context of when the episodes took place.
Canon alteration: Above two episodes are combined, so AU. I also adjusted the "Forever Blue" timeline so that all the events of the episode take place in June/July 1968.
Disclaimer: I own nothing, except my original characters.
Normal was how Saturday, July 27, 1968 began.
Despite a massive recruitment process being underway, the Philadelphia Police Department continued to lack adequate manpower. Doing double shifts was a regular occurrence for the officers of 5th District. Having a wife and three kids to support, patrolman Jimmy Bruno had readily volunteered earlier in the week to do an extra twelve hours that Saturday, to help train a couple of rookies and patrol North Philadelphia.
After five years on the force, Jimmy had come to know the filthy alleyways of North Philly better than his own neighbourhood. Jimmy knew a busy shift awaited him; a broiling day with a cool night attached often equaled extra trouble in an area already overrun with problems. So it was strange when the first fifteen hours of the shift had crawled by.
The first call had been a domestic call. After several noise complaints, Jimmy and rookie Joseph Malone had driven over to a rundown apartment block in Fishtown. Though only seven AM, the day already promised to be a scorcher. The slight river breeze did nothing to ease the stagnant air.
Steadying themselves, Jimmy and Malone barged into the apartment building and raced up to the third floor. They sweated profusely as they followed the loud shouts coming from apartment 314.
Malone gave the battered door a timid knock. "Open up!"
"Christ, ya gotta be louder than that!" Jimmy hissed, giving the door a heavy thud. "Police! Open up!"
The arguing on the other side of the wall ceased as china smashed to the floor. Hesitant footsteps began to pad up to the door.
After calming the couple down, Jimmy and Malone directed the couple to the kitchen table. Husband and wife glowered at each other from opposite ends.
For several minutes, the couple continued to mutter amongst themselves. But Jimmy and Malone at last found out what had caused the arguing. The wife had flown into a rage against her husband because he had popped her inflatable bath pillow with a fork.
The husband, his fat belly poking out under a too-small muscle shirt, was unapologetic. "She's spendin' more time with that god-damned pillow than me!" he bellowed, running a hand through his tangled, greasy hair.
"Of course! It's better company!" the wife spat, metal curlers still in her hair.
With a smile trying to tug at his lips, Jimmy barked at the couple to shut up.
The couple fell into a stunned silence. A soft spoken man with fine features, Jimmy hadn't given the impression of being an intimidating force. But Jimmy had learned early on in his policing career that sudden displays of emotion were his greatest weapon in gaining control of volatile situations.
Wanting to get away from the boiling apartment that smelt of rotting cabbage, Jimmy racked his brain for a solution to the couple's dilemma. It was something that should have been easy after ten years of rocky marriage. In the end, Jimmy suggested to the husband that he buy a new pillow to show his wife how much he valued and missed her company.
Once certain things would be under control, Jimmy and Malone sprinted out of the apartment building. It was a relief to have cool air blowing through the open windows on them as Malone sought to impress Jimmy with his driving skills.
The first eight hours at their end, Jimmy dropped Malone back off at the stationhouse. Captain Alfred Stinson had thought it best for Malone to take a breather before beginning the night shift of his blitzkrieg training schedule.
With Malone out of his sight, Jimmy embarked on his next eight-hour training session that quickly turned into a comedy of errors. While Malone seemed a promising officer, Jimmy's second rookie, Alphonse Bon Boivin, was clueless. In the car together, Bon Boivin couldn't figure out how to operate the patrol car's radio properly. Right there, Jimmy began to have serious doubts about Bon Boivin's future on the force. But the officer was a patient man and willing to give the stammering rookie a chance to prove himself.
But Jimmy's reservations about the rookie were soon proven true. Towards the end of the shift, Bon Boivin and Jimmy had begun to drive back to the station after breaking up a bar brawl. But they never got there. Bon Boivin had crashed their patrol car into a fountain after forgetting to turn. While both men were fine, minus some soaked feet, the car was a write-off . Jimmy's boss, Lieutenant Tom McCree, had fired Bon Boivin on the spot. Though short-staffed, there was only so much quality in the caliber of recruits that could be compromised.
Jimmy's piercing blue eyes swept the parking lot. Man, what a boring day. Jimmy viewed the past hours of his day as a mere distraction. The best part of his shift had not yet begun. Nothing else could compete with his partner and he , Sean "Coop" Cooper going out on patrol together for eight hours. Coop normally did twelve hour shifts like the rest of the guys. But Coop had somehow convinced the Captain to let him attend the wedding of a fellow solider he had served with in Vietnam.
Jimmy hated the time he had missed with Coop. Shifts were always exciting with Coop. His partner seemed to attract troublemakers and drug dealers with little effort. Even if it meant busting a few shins now and then, it couldn't be denied that Coop's cowboy methods were successful. In the year they had been together, Jimmy and Coop had more busts and convictions than any other team in the precinct.
Jimmy and Coop were such an effective partnership that they had earned themselves the nickname of the "Dynamic Duo." Jimmy knew the nickname incensed Coop; many a night spent drinking together had revolved around Coop's rants of Batman ridiculing and eroding the public's respect for law enforcement. But Jimmy knew Coop was secretly proud that his efforts were being noticed. People thought Coop was incapable of planning anything beyond boozing or picking up women. But Jimmy had come to learn otherwise. Coop had many plans for the future and he often discussed them with Jimmy as they drove around North Philly looking for trouble. For the cowboy type, Coop was pretty deep.
But that's not really true; there's so much more to Coop than what he lets people see.
Having a free hour thanks to Bon Boivin's incompetence, Jimmy tried to think just what it was that made him love being Coop's partner. It had come to him with a flash. That's it. It's the conversations. And that we can talk about anything. Even the conversations about love are okay... sometimes.
For the past six weeks, Jimmy had tried to make sense of what had developed between him and Coop. After many sleepless nights, he managed to arrive at some semblance of peace about it. But the guilt of violating his marriage vows and the teachings of the Catholic Church continued to gnaw at him like a small animal. However, Jimmy couldn't deny that he and Coop shared a passion that he had never experienced with his wife, Eileen. Things were now at a point where Jimmy felt no day was worthwhile if he hadn't spent some part of it in Coop's company.
The past several weeks, it had been difficult to spend time alone with Coop outside of work. The guys had had to put in lots of overtime and Eileen would get upset when Jimmy wanted to make plans that didn't involve her. At the other end of the spectrum, Coop had kept insisting that he and Jimmy only hang at his place. Some days, Jimmy worried that his body would be torn in half by the two forces fighting for a piece of him.
But, Jimmy had tried to put everything into perspective; he and Eileen had a newborn in the house for the first time in years. New babies always altered the dynamics of any relationship and Jimmy had figured it would take them all time to settle into the new state of affairs.
Hanging around in the staff parking lot, Jimmy sweated in the stillness of the night. The heat wave pounding down on Philadelphia was oppressive. Though the sun had already dipped out of sight, no cool refuge had come with it. Jimmy reached into his pocket and pulled a handkerchief to wipe the perspiration off his brow when he heard a distinctive horn.
Jimmy felt his heart speed up a few beats as Coop pulled up in his red 1955 T-Bird. A veteran of the Vietnam War, Coop had been one of many returning soldiers enticed into police training by financial incentives. Since Coop had never previously had a car of his own, , the T-Bird he had longed for as a teenager had become his early Police Academy graduation gift to himself. Coop would tool with the car's engine whenever he had the chance, always looking for ways to go faster on the country roads he liked to race along on days off.
With his dirty blond hair and deep blue eyes, Coop had always struck Jimmy as the archetype of the Hollywood cowboy. As their relationship had continued to blossom, it had difficult for Jimmy to conceal from the other officers the nervous energy that coursed through him when he glanced at Coop. But none of the guys could have suspected Coop and Jimmy harboured feelings beyond the standard partners as Jimmy broke into a broad smile and headed over to Coop's car.
Coop emerged from the car still dressed in the suit he had worn to the wedding. The only suit Coop owned if Jimmy's memory was accurate. As usual, Coop's unruly hair was subdued with copious amounts of hair oil.
Playfully, Jimmy punched Coop's shoulder. "So," Jimmy asked, "was the wedding more fun than bustin' shins?"
Coop grinned. "Well, there were some hot chicks. And the booze wasn't half-bad, either. But nah, the whole thing was sorta boring. The goddamn speeches went on forever. Enforcing the law is so much more fun." Not to mention being with you, Jimmy.
"Glad you think so. Today's been something; I can tell you that." Jimmy whistled and leaned against Coop's car, hands in his pockets.
"I didn't mean now," Jimmy sputtered, straightening up. "I meant once we're driving. You start in fifteen minutes and you're still not changed. McCree will be pissed if you're late even one minute."
Rolling his eyes, Coop asked, "Another scumbag you're afraid of, huh?"
"No." Jimmy sighed and his gaze shifted away from Coop. "I just don't want you getting in any more hot water. McCree's still pissed about that whole thing with Teddy Burke."
Coop flashed Jimmy a cocky grin. "I don't give a damn what McCree thinks of me. Besides, he's got better things to do with his dirty money than think about me all the time."
Jimmy ignored the crack about dirty money. "Look, just get changed, alright? It's Saturday night. I got a feeling it ain't gonna be a quiet one," Jimmy replied, his brow furrowing.
Seeming to know he had crossed a line, Coop followed Jimmy's request. Giving Jimmy a sharp salute, Coop strolled into stationhouse and chuckled to himself. Jimmy, Jimmy, Jimmy. Always worrying about nothing!
Jimmy bit his tongue as Coop disappeared from view. That stubborn prick will never let the money thing slide. Even when he knows money's tight with a new baby.
Twelve minutes later, Jimmy was in the police parking lot across the road from the station. He chatted with some other officers as he waited for Coop to come back outside.
At last, Coop strolled into the parking at exactly ten PM. A small smirk crossed Coop's face.
Jimmy knew Coop was elated that he had ticked off their boss by arriving right on time. McCree was always miserable when he didn't have someone to bitch at. But it made Jimmy uneasy that Coop would risk his job just to make a point. Coop had the advantage of his father being a high ranking inspector in the main office downtown, but it was still a game of Russian Roulette Jimmy wished Coop would quit playing.
"Hey, Coop!" Jimmy yelled. "Go get the car ready!"
Coop walked over to the car and set up the radio as was normal protocol. When he finished, Coop walked over to the front of the patrol car and rested against the hood. Quit yakking, Jimmy, and get your ass over here!
Sensing Coop's limited patience beginning to thin, Jimmy began to make his way to the patrol car. He stopped when he noticed McCree approach his partner. He winced, sure Coop was about to be told off about something.
Fuck! What does the bastard want now? Coop immediately straightened up to his full height, his face all duty and honour. "One good thing that came out of boot camp was learning a good poker face," Coop had told Jimmy one time. "Now I can make them think I'm listening when I'm really a million miles away."
Jimmy was surprised when McCree only put his hands on his hips and ordered, "You two stick close in North Philly tonight. We've been getting armed robbery calls from under the bridge." The bridge on Diamond Street was a hotbed for drug activity.
Wow, McCree's in a great mood tonight! Coop dropped his military stance. He smiled and swung an arm underhand in excitement. "Send in the bad guys!"
Chuckling, McCree told Coop he'd try to scare some up for him before turning away and tapping Coop on the chest in a rare show of camaraderie.
Jimmy's mouth went dry. Weird. McCree always tells Coop off for wiseass remarks. He must have finally gotten some of that LSD.
Not seeming as mystified as Jimmy, Coop shrugged. He went over to the driver side of patrol car D108 and leaned against the door. Come on Jimmy, get your ass over here!
Then it happened.
Officer Owen Murphy was also in the parking lot, but had hung back from Jimmy and Coop like he had the previous few weeks. Jimmy had figured Murphy was still sore about Coop calling him a "fairy boy," humiliating him in front of the whole locker room. At the time, Jimmy was terrified Coop had exposed their secret. But when the encounter had ended with Murphy storming away, Jimmy had thought no more of the incident.
That conception shattered as Murphy walked by Jimmy and taunted, "Keep an eye on those bathhouses, Jimmy."
Jimmy's thoughts began racing. Shit! Murphy knows! How the hell does he know!
In a split second, all of Jimmy's priorities changed. He had to get away from Coop. If he got into that car with Coop, the whole world was going to know what he was. The secret he had been hiding for almost half of his thirty-two years couldn't be exposed. God, if the other guys find out... it's the end for both of us!
His face hardening, Jimmy walked over Coop. He froze in place and gave Coop a cold stare.
Coop tried to figure out why Jimmy continued to dawdle. "You gettin' in or what?!"
Trying to maintain his composure, Jimmy turned his head. He licked his lips and thought fast. "I think I'm going to take out a rookie." Jimmy almost sighed with relief. The rookie excuse was believable. Coop knew how short-staffed the precinct was.
Coop just laughed.
Jimmy didn't budge.
"You serious?" asked Coop, raising his eyebrows.
Jimmy nodded. "Yeah."
Coop gave Jimmy a surprised look. But he was never one to let a little change in routine deter him. He smiled and "I'll pick up some beer and meet you after, then." Coop turned away to get into the patrol car.
Shit! A confrontation Jimmy never thought he would have to have was now unfolding like a summer thunderstorm. He gritted his teeth and told Coop, "I can't make it after we're done."
Coop fell quiet and Jimmy didn't blame him. They had been planning their early Sunday morning poker game all week.
"Why not?" asked Coop, giving Jimmy a hard look of his own.
Jimmy tucked his thumbs into his belt and rocked on his feet. "Maybe it's time for a change," he said softly. Jimmy stiffened to keep himself from falling to the concrete below his feet.
Coop looked baffled. "What kind of change?"
Swallowing, Jimmy didn't say anything for a moment. He knew he had to look Coop square in the eye. "I wasn't thinking right when we talked the other weekend. And I haven't been right for a long time."
"What's going on, Jimmy?"
Unable to stand Coop's eyes boring through him like blue fire, Jimmy twisted his head away. "I ain't going to be making it over to your place no more," said Jimmy bluntly.
Coop lowered his head in astonishment.
Feeling relief those searching eyes were no longer on his face, Jimmy didn't hesitate as he said, "You should get a new partner." Jimmy winced, sure Coop would now deck him with one swift punch.
Instead, Coop looked up. Hard, blue stones began to soften. "You afraid?" Coop asked in a low voice.
More than you can imagine, Coop. "It has nothing to do with that."
"I'm afraid, too," Coop whispered.
Since when are you afraid of anything, Coop? "Look, I gotta get going," Jimmy said tersely, beginning to walk away.
"Jimmy, don't go. Please," Coop pleaded.
Jimmy turned around. What the hell am I doing? God, Coop. Quit looking at me like that. Please.
In a voice edged with tears, Coop reminded Jimmy, "We're the lucky ones, remember?"
Jimmy saw red. You fucking idiot! How the hell is this curse lucky? Jimmy ground his teeth. "I think you got it wrong there," Jimmy said, only inches from Coop's face. "I ain't a queer!"
Jimmy then turned around and began to walk away from Coop. But he kept his pace slow, waiting for Coop to call him back.
Coop didn't say a word. Instead, Jimmy heard a car door slam and tires screeching.
Good God, what had he done? Spinning around, hoping to catch his partner, Jimmy shouted, "Coop!"
But it was no use. Coop and patrol car D108 roared out of the parking lot and took a right.
Jimmy stood motionless and felt a part of himself die. He wanted nothing more than to curl into a ball and shut out the world. But Jimmy knew he couldn't vanish from the hell he had just created for himself and Coop; police business still awaited.