|A Taste of Collapse
Author: Scytherageroses PM
Chapter Three: My second day in Shu, and I already hate it...and yet, this is what I wanted, right?Rated: Fiction M - English - Drama - Zhuge Dan - Chapters: 3 - Words: 6,934 - Reviews: 5 - Favs: 4 - Follows: 3 - Updated: 01-08-13 - Published: 01-17-12 - id: 7751676
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I gripped the sword at my side and closed my eyes. Memories flooded my mind, some of them were happy ones, others, not so much.
I didn't always hate Sima Zhao. In fact, there was a time when I loved him dearly. That was, before I realized the monster he had become. Yet I should have seen it coming. After all, he was a Sima. I was a Zhuge, we weren't supposed to be friends.
We weren't supposed to be lovers either.
Now we're enemies. Everything is right in the world. Except now him and I were at each others throats. But that's the way it should be. I'm a Zhuge, he's a Sima. The grand pride joy of his clan, while I was merely the dog.
It didn't have to be like this.
I could have gone about the rest of my life ignoring it. But how? When I heard the cries of the people below. My heart ached at the thought, but this wasn't the man I loved. Not anymore. Those eyes that used to look at me with love, looked at me with hate. Those hands that used to make me moan, all but secured my death.
Power had changed him. I really should have known better than to open my heart.
But I couldn't help it...I was a fool for his love. When he'd look at me. Kiss me with those pillowed lips. His large hands trailing down my pale body. I was always so physically inferior to him, too pale, too small, but he loved it anyway. He loved my body; the taste, the texture, the scent, everything, and I loved him.
Our lovemaking was nothing short of magical. It was something we knew we shouldn't have been doing, but did it anyway. I'd make the noises he loved to hear every time he touched me, I'd squirm, writhe beneath him like a desperate whore. But I loved it.
I loved you, Sima Zhao.
And now I must kill you.