Author: livvyham PM
A surprise from Kurt causes a break up. Blaine struggles with it, until a certain Warbler tries to help a friend.Rated: Fiction M - English - Hurt/Comfort/Romance - Blaine A. & Sebastian S. - Words: 4,423 - Reviews: 1 - Favs: 24 - Follows: 5 - Published: 02-15-12 - Status: Complete - id: 7838487
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Title: Dead Inside
Author: Livvyham - Livia Hambur
Disclaimer: I don't own "Glee" or its characters, this is for entertainment purposes only. If I owned it then Sebastian and Blaine would be together :D
Summary: A surprise from Kurt causes a break up. Blaine struggles with is, until a certain Warbler tries to be nice and help a friend, smut
Warning: Season 3 sometime. Not really any spoiler
Author's note: I'm not too great at Slash, so any tips about anything would be greatly appreciated! Please feel free to review, I love reviews! If you want more or have an idea/challenge for me to write something, also let me know! Enjoy :D
Tears streamed down Kurt's face as he finished talking. He looked away from the shocked Blaine, his lower lip trembling.
"Karofsky? With Karofsky?" Blaine's voice barely came out as a whisper, slowly getting over the shock. Kurt sobbed and nodded his head. It was after school, just after glee and Kurt had seemed really distant for the past few weeks. Blaine had finally confronted him in the hallway of school once everyone had left, but now he was regretting it. Kurt looked at him with sad eyes, and Blaine's stomach sunk. More sobbing.
He now understood the distance, he understand the avoidance of eye contact. One day they were cosy and deeply in love, the next they didn't speak. He knew that something was up, so he had asked. Blaine felt like Kurt had reached into his chest and ripped his heart out. Did he mean nothing to Kurt?
"How long has it taken you to tell me this?" His voice was louder now, the anger rising. He loved Kurt! He would never do something like this with anyone. Sebastian had tried, but he was devoted to Kurt. It seemed that it was a waste.
"It happened a few weeks ago. It's not like I could have just casually told you! Do you know how hard it was to tell you?" Kurt was barely understandable from all the sobbing, but Blaine didn't care. He had devoted himself to this boy in front of him. He had changed schools, had been there for this kid, and this was how he was treated?
"But how hard was it to cheat on me with Karofsky? Karofsky of all people?" Blaine was getting mad and it was making Kurt more upset, not that Blaine was paying attention to Kurt. He was trying to control his growing temper.
"I didn't mean for it to happen! You have to know that!" Kurt had noticed Blaine's anger and was trying to justify his actions. It was making Blaine more angry. Blaine shook his head and his hands gripped his hair tightly, ruining his gelled perfection he ensured every day.
"What were you doing hanging around Karofsky to get yourself in that sort of position?" Blaine couldn't understand it. They were perfect. They had seemed perfect. But what were they now?
"He came and hung out every so often at my house. He was planning on coming out, and I was offering advice and my support. One thing led to another." Kurt had to pause to sob loudly for a moment. "I didn't mean anything like that to happen! And his name is David, not just Karofsky." Blaine threw his hands in the air.
"David is it? Does this David realise that you already had a boyfriend that loves you? Or was that never mentioned because you were too preoccupied?"
"Stop it, Blaine! We didn't mean for this to happen! Of course I told him about you! Stop being so insensitive. Don't you realise how hard this has been for me to tell you?" Kurt was getting angry from Blaine's mean reaction. Blaine looked at him incredulously.
"For you? Things have been hard for you? At any stage, did you think about me, and how my feelings would be hurt? You took our relationship and shoved it right back at me! You don't care for me at all! Tell me that this was a once off thing." There was a pause, and Kurt avoided Blaine's eyes. Blaine's heart dropped. It was bad enough that he was cheated on once. But this, this made his blood boil and his insides die. "Tell me!" Blaine yelled.
"I'm not going to lie to you Blaine." Kurt seemed to have contained himself from the sobs from before. Blaine was dying inside. It was worse than anything he had ever felt before. It was pure betrayal. The man he loved no longer loved him.
"You've already done worse than that, Kurt!" Blaine turned to the locker right next to him and smashed his fist into it. The loud metal noise echoed down the hall. Kurt jumped and stared with watery eyes. "You don't love me." Kurt went to talk but Blaine held up his hand. His anger seemed to have ebbed away with the punch. He was dead internally. He needed to get out of there before he emotionally exploded. He wasn't going to break down in front of Kurt. "You've shown me how you feel. It's over, Kurt. We're over."
Blaine turned away and tried to ignore the heart wrenching sobs that Kurt gave. He wasn't going to turn around and comfort Kurt after what he had just discovered. He needed to get out of there himself to avoid Kurt really seeing the hurt he had just delivered. There really was no one for Blaine to turn to at that moment. All his friends were Kurt's friends. Right now, the best thing was for him to be by himself.
He managed to make it to his car before the tears fell, and he was in his room before the tears become sobs. Curled up on his bed, his head buried in his pillow, Blaine let all his emotions out. How was he ever meant to recover from this? His whole world had been destroyed. Kurt had done worse than break his trust, he had destroyed Blaine.
Several weeks later and Blaine was still merely a shell of his former self. He went to class, did his work, went to glee club but barely sung. He avoided Kurt and all conversation of Kurt. Everyone gave him pitying looks, and Blaine just wanted to avoid all of it. Mr Shuester had even pulled him aside to ask what was going on but Blaine had given the basics. He and Kurt had split up. It had obviously seemed to have hit him harder.
Kurt didn't seem as bad anymore. After a few weeks he had gotten his usual self back. It was rumoured he was with David Karofsky now. Not that Blaine cared, he wanted nothing to do with Kurt. Finn had tried to talk to him about it, but Blaine hadn't said a word. He didn't even know if people knew the real reason of why they had broken up, but he wasn't going to say anything. Even though Kurt deserved the embarrassment, Blaine wasn't going to deliver that. They were over. He didn't want anything to do with Kurt ever again. Glee was as far as he would go.
He was sitting at the Lima Bean, making his presence known to Kurt. This had been their favourite place to hang out, and Kurt had once brought Karofsky here. There had been a very awkward moment before Kurt had left. They hadn't met back here since. That suited Blaine. There was a place he could go without having to deal with Kurt.
He had been so absorbed in trying to not think about his cheating ex-boyfriend, that he failed to realise there was someone standing next to his table before they cleared their throat. Blaine glanced up, expecting to see Rachel or Finn, but surprised to see Sebastian. It was awkward for a moment before Blaine remembered his manners.
"Sebastian." Was all he said. The Warbler didn't smile, but shifted uncomfortably. Blaine remembered that he should be hating the guy, but his hate was all devoted to the ex-boyfriend he never thought about.
"Blaine. C-Can I sit down?" He looked ready to run at any moment and Blaine wasn't thinking enough to tell him to leave him alone. He shrugged his shoulders and Sebastian took that as a yes. They sat in quiet before it was broken.
"I know it was quite a while ago, and I don't expect you to want to listen to an apology, but I have to say it. You don't realise how sorry I am, Blaine, for throwing that slushie at you. I've thought about it long and hard, and I realise that dirty tricks shouldn't have been used. It was very wrong. I should never have tried to hit your boyfriend. It was wrong. I just want to say I'm sorry. I know you aren't going to forgive me, but it needed to be said." Sebastian went to stand up, but Blaine looked over at him.
"Your apology is accepted." Blaine took a sip of his coffee. Sebastian seemed a bit gobsmacked after the quick acceptance. He hadn't been expecting anything. He was even surprised that he had been given the chance to apologise. This was more than he had hoped for. It was then that he noticed the sadness in Blaine's eyes. He stopped moving and looked at Blaine again.
"Something is up. There is no way that you would accept my apology like this. I caused you to get eye surgery. I did a horrible thing to you." Sebastian watched for Blaine to get the message.
"I know what you did, and I accept your apology." Blaine didn't divulge anything but Sebastian wasn't going to give up any time soon.
"What is going on?" He said quietly. He watched Blaine, and saw the flash of pain cross his eyes. This wasn't like Blaine. Blaine was always happy and ready to give a random ballad to someone at any time. Sebastian was getting worried.
"If you really must know, Kurt and I are no longer together." Blaine barely managed to spit out Kurt's name, but he tried to act all ok with it. Sebastian wasn't fooled. He continued to watch Blaine before answering.
"I've seen Kurt around. He doesn't seem as deep in depression as you. In fact, he seems to have already moved on with that guy who looks like a bear. There is something more." Sebastian tried to push for more. Blaine frowned and avoided eye contact. His mind was thinking. With the recent betrayal, he had forgiven Sebastian easily. He could see the change in the Warbler, and he had felt like he really could accept Sebastian's apology. But if he divulged anything to Sebastian, he wasn't too sure. The mention of Kurt being ok seemed to tip the scales.
"I might as well tell someone. It's not as if I can't say anything to my other friends. Everyone I'm friends with is friends with him. It's not just something you can say to just anyone." He was stalling slightly and Sebastian gave an exasperated noise.
"Just spit it out, Blaine. It's eating you up, I can tell." Blaine hesitated too long. He shook his head.
"I just can't. It's not right for me to say anything. Do I really seem depressed?" He looked up at the confused Warbler. Sebastian knew he wasn't going to get it from Blaine any time soon. But a drunk Blaine was already to talk. And Blaine needed to talk. If he hadn't told anyone, he wasn't going to get better any time soon. And Blaine was too much of a nice guy to let something make him like this. He deserved better.
"Yes you do. Come on, let's get out of here. You need something more than coffee." Sebastian stood up and looked at Blaine expectantly. Blaine gave him an odd look before glancing around the cafe. He was going to over think this. Sebastian wasn't trying to hit on him, for once. He was still extremely attracted to Blaine, but he wanted to be friends more than anything else. He had screwed up before, he wasn't going to do it again. He just wanted to talk and let Blaine heal from whatever was eating at him.
"What do you have in mind?" Blaine finally said. Sebastian had him. He didn't smile to show victory, which he thought was such an achievement. He wasn't all talk, he was actually trying to be a better person rather than the snobbish man whore he had given off before.
"Going to my house and getting drunk. It's a Friday night and I doubt either of us has more productive plans. You in?" Blaine seemed a bit sceptical. "It isn't a ploy to get in your pants, if that's what you're thinking. I just don't see it a great idea to drink by myself. Company is more fun." He looked expectantly at Blaine.
He caved. Blaine followed Sebastian to his house in his car. Sebastian seemed to really be making an effort to stop being snobbish, which Blaine could appreciate, but he was more interested in getting drunk. Drinking could help get rid of the pain inside. He deserved to be numb, even for a little bit. When they got to Sebastian's, Blaine had left his hesitancy in Lima. He was here to get drunk and have a better Friday night. Usually he would be home alone and watching Greys Anatomy, yelling at the doctors for their failed love lives and connecting to them. It made getting drunk look like the less sad thing to do.
Sebastian opened his front door and let Blaine follow. They went down some stairs into Sebastian's large basement, where there was a bar and plenty of alcohol.
"Wouldn't your parents mind?" Blaine said, hoping that it wouldn't stop them from drinking anyway. He just had a small conscious that would prevent him from drinking too much depending on the answer. Sometimes it sucked being moral. Sebastian shook his head.
"They really don't notice or they don't care. They always tell me to drink responsibly and not to drink and drive. So far so good. Just grab whatever." Sebastian grabbed a bottle and opened it, not bothering with a glass. Blaine went for it, not even caring about what he grabbed. He was just wanting to get drunk as soon as possible.
It really didn't take long. Sebastian hadn't been drinking too much since he really was interested in finding out what was upsetting Blaine, but Blaine had guzzled so much. He was really drunk, which Sebastian knew was the perfect time to ask him the questions.
"So what is really going on, Blaine? I really want to know." Blaine looked over at him and frowned.
"I haven't said anything to anyone about Kurt cheating on me. He cheated with that big guy, Karofsky. That was the guy who had bullied him for so long. He changed schools because of that guy, but now he is having sex with that guy. Forget about Blaine, I'm not good enough for Kurt!" Blaine spat out the last part. Sebastian was surprised. Kurt had cheated on Blaine? Before he would have sworn that the girl-boy had always worshipped Blaine but now he saw Kurt as a whore.
"Kurt is stupid, if I had you, I would never cheat! He didn't realise how lucky he was. And that guy he is going out with now is massive!" Sebastian took a swig from the bottle, feeling the tingling sensation start to go through his body. The alcohol was working its way around. Blaine was a lot more gone than him, but Sebastian knew it wouldn't be too long until he was right with Blaine. He was bad at holding his liquor.
"I know! I'm a catch! And Karofsky, or David is a bear! He is a football player. He's a beast." Blaine slurred out. Sebastian nodded his head enthusiastically. He hadn't realised he had almost finished the whole bottle. That would account for his tongue slipping out things best left unsaid, even if both parties were drunk.
"I would make a better boyfriend! I would love you and treat you right, Blaine! Kurt is an idiot for how he treated you. He didn't deserve you. You were too good for him." Blaine nodded at the words, seeming not to process Sebastian's first statement for a second.
"Hold up, you want to be my boyfriend?" Blaine said, giving Sebastian a confused look. Sebastian didn't care too much at this point but he shrugged.
"I like you, Blaine. You're nice and attractive and you care about people. Who doesn't want to be your boyfriend? I bet even girls want to be your boyfriend." They both laughed at the stupidness of the comment.
"Girls can't be boyfriends. They can only be girlfriends!" Blaine laughed out. Sebastian laughed with him.
"They wish they could so they could be your boyfriend though! I know this!" Sebastian said drunkenly. They were laughing so hard at the stupid comment until both were lying on the floor. The laughter died down but something remained in the air. There was tension. It was odd, but despite the states of either party, they could feel it. They sobered up slightly.
"You want me?" Blaine said. Sebastian had a bit more control over himself. There was no more laughter, but a quite tension. He took a breath before commenting.
"Of course I do. Everyone does, Blaine. You're amazing." Sebastian said quietly. He didn't want to say it, but there might never be another opportunity. He wasn't going to regret not telling Blaine because he was embarrassed.
"Kurt doesn't." Came the soft reply. Sebastian sighed.
"You need to forget about him. He has already forgotten about you. And he is an idiot. He didn't realise how good he had it. Anyone would be lucky to have you."
There was a pause and then Blaine moved over to Sebastian. He looked at the guy on the floor. Sebastian didn't know what was going to happen. Was he going to get punched in the face for saying something like that especially after causing Blaine to have surgery? He tensed up.
"You think so highly of me, why?" Blaine asked simply. Despite having consumed so much alcohol, with the adrenaline pumping in his veins, he could feel the effects wearing off. His heart was beating faster as he recognised the tension. It could go either way, and he so badly wanted it to go one way.
"You are the most caring, fun and loving person I've ever met. When I'm near you, you make me want to be a better person. It also helps that you're extremely attractive." He smirked slightly at the end, but he warily watched Blaine's reaction.
It happened in an instant. One minute, Blaine was staring down at Sebastian, processing what Sebastian had just said, the next, his lips were crushing against Sebastian's. There was a moment of surprise before they realised what really was going on. Blaine kissed Sebastian until the other boy started reacting. It wasn't long until the kiss deepened and soon both boys were open mouth and fighting for dominance with their tongues. Sebastian's hands grabbed Blaine's shirt and pulled him down on top of him.
It seemed like hours, but it was merely minutes when they pulled back from each other to regain breath. Both were panting, but they had felt the spark. There was something there, and both boys were ready to explore more. Sebastian saw the vulnerable look in Blaine's eyes and Blaine saw the hesitant look in Sebastian's. They were both so uncertain. Blaine didn't want this to just be a rebound, and Sebastian didn't want it to be either. In a few seconds the looks past for more passionate looks and the air around them heated. Blaine seemed to make the decision.
He pushed Sebastian down to the ground more, his lips crushed once again against Sebastian's, while his hands pulled his shirt up. Soon both boys had their chests bare, hands feeling each other's torso. Blaine was straddling Sebastian and he couldn't help but feel the growing attraction.
"Are you alright with this?" Sebastian whispered when their lips pulled apart. He was giving Blaine a worried look. Blaine nodded. His hands wandered down to Sebastian's belt buckle and started undoing it. It didn't take long for the pants to be sliding off, leaving Sebastian only in his underwear. He helped Blaine get out of his, noticing the erection desperate to get out. He licked his lips and pushed his pelvis against Blaine. A low grown was the reaction and he smirked slightly.
In a quick movement, Sebastian managed to get Blaine onto his back and was straddling him. He ground against him, feeling his own groan escape his lips. He kept the slow pace, maddening the need. Soon Blaine couldn't take it anymore, and plunged his hand into Sebastian's boxers. Sebastian froze at the contact, feeling Blaine wrap his fingers around his cock. Slowly, ever so slowly, Blaine rubbed his hand upwards, tingling every nerve that ever existed in Sebastian's body. He fought to not cum right then and there.
It was obvious he wasn't going to last too long, so he moved Blaine's hand and took his boxers off, pulling Blaine's off right afterwards. What stared up at him was an impressive cock, making him salivate. Without even thinking, he took the organ into his mouth, his tongue swirling around the tip. Blaine thrusted upwards and gave a groan, his hands flying to hold Sebastian's head. Sebastian worked Blaine's cock, using all the tricks that he knew. He could feel the urgency in Blaine, the need to cum, but he wouldn't let him. He pulled away before Blaine could get his satisfaction. He got up and ran to the cupboard near him, pulling out some lubrication that he kept downstairs. He had them hidden all around the house, figuring he never knew when he needed it. He was so grateful for his foresight.
Blaine had waited impatiently, his hand on his cock. Sebastian removed it, not letting Blaine finish. Blaine groaned in frustration, which was quickly replaced with a groan of a different kind when a lubricated finger started playing with his hole. He pushed against the intrusion, feeling the finger easily slide in.
"You're so tight, Blaine. Didn't he ever fuck you?" Sebastian asked. Blaine shook his head, panting with the feeling of Sebastian's finger moving in and out of him. "Such a waste. He'll never know what he was missing out on." Soon one finger was joined by another, stretching out the virgin muscle. Blaine grimaced slightly, but tried to relax, slowly feeling the burn be replaced with pleasure. Soon Sebastian had three fingers working him. He couldn't help but push against the fingers, desperate for more. He wanted more, he needed more. He needed Sebastian.
"Sebastian, please, stop torturing me. I need you." He groaned out. Sebastian obliged, quickly coating his own cock with lubricant to make it easier for Blaine and then slowly pushing his way in. He was tight, oh so tight, and Blaine struggled at first.
"Relax, you need to relax. It's going to feel good, Blaine." Blaine nodded and soon the feeling of pain passed. Sebastian knew just when it was ok to start thrusting, so he pulled back gently and pushed in with a loud moan, feeling the muscles against his sensitive cock. He wasn't going to last too long, but he was going to make it count. He started slow, letting Blaine adjust, but he could hear the pleasure noises coming from him. Sebastian moved slightly, positioning his cock to hit the spot that every male had. Blaine jerked in surprise, gasping at the feeling as Sebastian hit his prostate. It was so good, he needed more. He moved his hips to encourage Sebastian, who really didn't need any more encouragement.
Soon he was being thrusted into, the spot being hit over and over again. Sebastian was going to lose it soon, he felt it at the bottom of his spine. Blaine pulled him down, and was making out with him, his tongue thrusting into Sebastian's mouth in time with Sebastian. The sound of flesh against flesh was loud in the room, causing Blaine to groan in pleasure. He was close, so close, and from the speed that Sebastian was going, so was he.
Suddenly, Sebastian thrusted deep into Blaine with such force, that it was like ecstasy. Sebastian came fast and hard deep into Blaine, the muscles seeming to milk Sebastian as he let his seed loose. Blaine couldn't keep it contained, and without any direct stimulation, he came. Cum coated the boys stomach as Blaine finished up. They were panting, both covered in sweat. Sebastian pulled out of Blaine slowly, wincing at the overstimulation. Blaine looked over at Sebastian and gave a sleepy smile.
"The couch becomes a bed. I don't think I can make it up those stairs to my room." Sebastian said. Blaine got the message and they both stood up to pull out the bed. They were exhausted and as soon as they got the bed out, they grabbed a blanket and collapsed. Sebastian snuggled in close to Blaine, loving the feeling of his so close. Blaine held onto Sebastian, not feeling guilty at all for what he had just done. He was warm inside, something that he hadn't felt for so long. He wasn't going to let go of it. Or Sebastian.