Chapter 14- of sparrows.

It was a bit chilly up on the roof of XXX city's community high school, but Li needed a quit place to shed a few silent tears. The roof was slightly dirty, with brown withered leaves scattered around, a forgotten notebook and a few empty half crashed soda cans, but it didn't really bother Li. The roof was his spot nowadays and had his favorite spot to sit at and watch the sparrows jump around.

He pinched some bread out of the sandwich he was currently eating and threw it to the small puffy sparrow that looked at him so enviously. Li didn't hear the roof's door open or close silently, but as the small sparrow flew away, frightened by the new presence he turned his head, to an unwanted surprise.

Kuan stood there, the cold breeze blowing his bangs into his eyes as he tried to swat them.

Kuan couldn't utter a word before Li was on his feet, rushing toward the door.

"Li, look at me" was the first direct thing Kuan had said to him in months. He didn't want to grace him with an answer, but his biting answer was out before he could stop himself. "You are not worth my glance, Kuan. Leave me alone".

"Li, would you please listen? You have been avoiding me this whole time; just let me talk to you." Kuan almost pleaded, or demanded, Li was not sure, but he sure was annoyed. When he turned to face him, he felt his patience thinning to a fine string, ready to snap.

"Did your small head figure that out all by yourself or did the rat help you with it?"

"Will you stop calling her that!" Kuan's hands clutched into fists and it took him some real effort to try and calm himself. "Look, I only want to make amends—"

"Make AMENDS?" Li hissed through clenched teeth. He sounded flabbergasted and the fury washed over him like a tidal wave. "What AMENDS are there to make?! You betrayed me, threw me away like a used tissue paper! No one will even glance my way without the consent of the RAT! Can you even imagine with that pea of a head of yours how hard it is for me?!" his voice rose with every word until his shouts scared off all the sparrows off the roof.

"YOU had it hard?" Kuan sounded incredulous "Do you know how it feels to sit in the classroom and feel you staring daggers at my back!"

How dare he? HOW DARE HE? Li's recent anger dimmed in comparison to the rage he felt now. He wanted to strangle that idiot, he wanted to kiss him and bash his head on the wall.

"You must know since you are an expert on putting one through other people's backs, you traitor!" Grabbing the first thing his hand could reach he aimed and threw it at Kuan. The soda can spilt some of its content on kuan's shirt as it hit his shoulder. "I laid my heart bare to you and you ran away! You coward!"

Now Kuan was livid too, as he ducked to avoid another empty can that was hurled at him.

"In case you can't remember, Li, you were the one to tell me to get the hell out of that place."

"You left me there alone! I had no money for the bus and I had to walk two hours until I was back in my house!" It was a silly thing to shout but it was even sillier that Kuan looked ashamed over such an idle detail, and it made li even angrier.

"You couldn't just expect me to fall in a daze into your arms after you sprung up on me, telling me you loved me in a crowded restaurant!" kuan shouted as Li burst at him. In a heartbeat Li was in front of Kuan, slapping him as hard as he could manage as he shouted into his face.

"You are such an insufferable jerk! You didn't even have the decency to turn me down gently!" Kuan held a hand to his cheek and looked at Li who kept his dialog. "Of course I told you to get the hell out of there! You told me you had never loved, that you don't love me and that you never ever willand to top that you told me you loved the rat!"

Kuan's anger seemed to fade. "I admit I might have been extremely tactless-" he started.

"I don't give a rat's ass about what you admit, Kuan." Li bit back.

"Will you stop it!" Kuan snarled and grabbed Li by his shoulders, "I wanted to make things right, not break them more than they already were!"

"Well, you innocent martyr, you are too late!"

"Li, would you look at us?! You and I go hard at each other like we are going to war, we are going rough at each other, throwing stuff at each other, we got so damn un-functional and I can't do this no more! I thought…" he let go of Li and took a step back, "I thought we could have a fresh start."

Li turned his head away from Kuan's stare. That look, it used to melt him, making him think indecent thoughts, but now it only looked silly, and It felt good, it felt relieving.

"I'm not sure I want a fresh start anymore Kuan." Was all Li said as he looked into Kuan's eyes. He felt a little surprise by the disappointment he saw there and felt proud as the twinge of regret he expected to feel never came. "I think what we had had been broken too much, and I can't really feel the same toward you anymore, not with the ra- not with Xiu Mi around you all the time."

"So…" Kuan sounded sad.

"I guess this is goodbye."

"I guess it is."

When Li left the roof, he felt the best he had felt for the last couple of months. He felt lighter, a smile bloomed on his face as his thoughts wondered to that cute boy that had looked at him in the café a few days ago. Things were going to be better from now on. He would make things to be better.

A\N- I know this is not much, but I needed this out of my head…I had a large part of the chapter done but my computer crashed and deleted it all!

I am being sent to a medic's course! i am going to be a medic in the army, in my battalion! I am very excited it is a dream coming true! I hope it will mean I will have more time to upload…. What do you think about the Kuan and Li's fight? :X

-Trogmorten.