|The Beautiful The Unbroken The Free The Unspoken
Author: Kharress PM
No one knows what happens behind closed doors; but what if you could sneak a peek? My idea of what goes on when the Victorious girls return home to their not so perfect lives. Mostly Cat and Jade, some Tori and Trina. Oh and all chaps are one-shots/songfics.Rated: Fiction T - English - Drama/Angst - Cat V. & Jade W. - Chapters: 3 - Words: 4,525 - Reviews: 7 - Favs: 3 - Follows: 4 - Updated: 05-07-12 - Published: 03-31-12 - id: 7976518
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A/N Hey guys! Holy fanfiction hiatus, eh? It's been forever since I last updated so I figured I'd fix up this chapter for ya... I finally got Microsoft Word on my laptop, schools out, and all my major summer events have passed sooo... Now I can get back to writing! That being said, enjoy the (revised) 'Who Knew.' (Oh and I added a few new things to the author's note at the bottom as well)
Oh wait! One more thing! or two... I'd like to thank all my new readers, watchers, and reviewers! Your kind words and opinions helped me get off my lazy ass and actually write this chapter :3 Also, this is a touchy subject for me since I've known so many people [[spoiler alert]] with cancer, some survivors and some not. So if this will be too much for you, please don't read. I won't be offended, its completely understandable. *glomp*
Disclaimer: I don't own Victorious (darn it all) or the song Who Knew by P!nk. ON WITH THE SHOW :D
Never in a million years did I, Victoria Vega, think I'd be standing where I am now. Most people would read this and think 'Oh wow she must be in a great place!' but in actuality it's quite the opposite. Here, right this very second, I Victoria Vega, am dressed in all black... standing in the middle of a funeral home.
You took my hand, you showed me how You promised me you'd be around Uh huh, that's right
Yes, you heard me correctly. No, I'm not imitating Jade on a lost bet again. I'm standing here clad in my best black attire, for my older sister Trina Vega's funeral.
I took your words and I believed In everything you said to me Yeah huh, that's right
I remember it like it was yesterday, though it was nearly 1095 days ago. The day Trina stopped responding to treatments... They said the cancer would spread but only gave her a few more months to live. Ever the fighter, Trina held on for another three years. Up until today everything was a blur, like I never knew it was happening. More like I didn't believe it was happening... or maybe I just didn't want to believe it was happening...
If someone said three years from now You'd be long gone I'd stand up and punch them out Cause they're all wrong. I know better Cause you said forever And ever, who knew?
It took me the better half of an hour to make my way up to her casket. I couldn't find the courage to actually face her again. I'd give anything to have her by my side right now. She's the only one I really would want with me during this kind of tragedy. She would try and make things better, she'd try to make me smile. We'd probably get in trouble, but we'd be happy again. Man, we used to think we were the coolest people on earth... untouchable! Especially when we were younger and we'd- Oh sorry, I'm rambling... I do that when I'm nervous you know. But hey, it distracted my mind and I'm finally here, seeing her again. That's a start.. right?
Remember when we were such fools And so convinced and just too cool Oh no, no no. I wish I could touch you again I wish I could still call you a friend I'd give anything.
As I gaze at my once living, vibrant, crazy, hot-mess of a sister I start to regret everything I had done to her. I always seemed to outshine her, but she never held me back. She was truly a great big sister and if it not for her, I wouldn't be part of Hollywood Arts. If it weren't for her, I wouldn't have the future I do now... People always told me to cherish our time together and never leave on a bad note, because you never know when a life will end and you don't want your last words to be 'I hate you.' I never paid attention because I never understood what they meant... I do now.
When someone said count your blessings now For they're long gone I guess I just didn't know how I was all wrong. But they knew better Still you said forever and ever Who knew? Yeah yeah.
I reach out subconsciously and touch her now ice-cold hand. Her skin now pale, no longer the golden tan I admired. She probably never knew this, but I was always jealous of her. Now I just wish I could let her know... Not just of my admiration, but of my love and need for her. She's like an addiction to me, she held me high for so long but now that I don't have her, I'm falling fast. All I have now are memories to feed my craving for her interaction and smiling face. Memories so dear to me now that death itself, as ironic as it is, could not take them from me... God, I'm a mess... What happened? I can't believe she's actually gone... These past three years have been bittersweet to say the least but I refuse to regret or forget. I'll hang on to not only life but all the great times I've had with her. I'll cling to that last good-night kiss on the cheek, to every dream she shows herself in, and most importantly to her last words to me... 'I love you. Sisters forever.' Forever... That has to mean something, right?
I'll keep you locked in my head Until we meet again Until we, until we meet again And I won't forget you my friend What happened?
If someone said three years from now You'd be long gone I'd stand up and punch them out Cause they're all wrong
And that last kiss I'll cherish Until we meet again And time makes it harder I wish I could remember
But I keep your memory You visit me in my sleep My darling, who knew?
I don't notice my parents stepping up beside me or the crowd clearing out of the building till my father places his rough hand on my shoulder and breaks me from my thoughts. With a sigh my mother reaches out to grab my hand before turning and pulling me with her. My dad follows behind shortly after talking with the burial crew. I've just barely turned my back to her and my heart already aches with longing. Too bad this is the last time I'll see her... I don't think this ache will ever subside.
My darling My darling, who knew?
My darling I miss you My darling, who knew?
As my mother, my father, and I all walk out of the funeral home hand on our way to the cemetery I know we're all thinking the same thing,
A/N Ok I know it was short and choppy and crappy but don't worry, the chapters will get better once I get microsoft installed. But other than that, thanks for reading and feel free to leave reviews/faves/watches!
Also, which song next? I'll let you guys pick since you've waited so long(: Put in your suggestions for which girl(s) as well, and I might just listen. Also, I was thinking of starting up another story. Any ideas? I might let this one fall to the wayside while I'm writing my new one since not too many people seem interested in this collection... But I'm not sure yet so just leave me ideas and reviews if ya can! C:
Peace, Love, and all that Stuff,