Author: imadeafriendtoday PM
To be soul bonded to someone is everything. It's giving yourself to them, in mind, body, and spirit. You give up a part of your soul in exchange for theirs, connecting yourselves indefinitely. Kurt and Blaine are ready to bond. But so is someone else.Rated: Fiction M - English - Drama/Romance - Kurt H. & Sebastian S. - Chapters: 26 - Words: 113,424 - Reviews: 388 - Favs: 315 - Follows: 458 - Updated: 10-11-12 - Published: 04-02-12 - Status: Complete - id: 7982077
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Chapter 14: Together
Kurt woke up in the morning, disoriented. He pulled back for a moment and found Sebastian's arm wrapped around him. He squinted, looking around and saw he was still at Sebastian's. He sighed, closing his eyes, and resting his head back down. He could sleep a few minutes longer.
But then his eyes snapped open again and he sat up. "What time is it?"
"Shhh," Sebastian said.
"It's Friday! It's not a weekend! We have school! What time is it? Oh my god, my Dad is probably freaking out! I promised him I'd be home!"
"Kurt, relax. He called after you fell asleep last night. I told him what happened, he's fine," Sebastian mumbled, his head still buried in his pillow.
"You told him what happened?"
"Just that you fell asleep."
"Fine," Kurt said. Finally he glanced at the clock. It was 8 am.
"Oh my god, we're going to be so late!"
Kurt jumped out of the bed and ran to Sebastian's washroom, slamming the door behind him.
He heard a chuckle from the other side. Fine, Sebastian could find this amusing, but Kurt really didn't. They were going to be so late to school. Why did Kurt decide to go out with Sebastian on a Thursday night? He just couldn't have waited until the weekend.
Kurt stared at himself in the mirror. His hair was messed up and his missed his moisturizing routine the night before. And he didn't have any other clothes at Sebastian's house. There would be no way for him to go home and change. There wasn't enough time.
"Kurt! Can I pee?" Sebastian whined through the door.
Kurt blinked but opened the door. He wasn't really concentrating.
"Thanks," Sebastian said, walking over to the toilet.
"I don't have any clothes."
"Huh?" Sebastian asked, relieving himself, and then flushing the toilet.
"Clothes, Sebastian! What do I wear?"
"You could do the walk of shame. Would be pretty funny considering we didn't actually do anything last night," Sebastian said.
"But you said..."
"Yeah, I know. No pressure. Or you could borrow something of mine."
"Please, like anything you own is up to my standards."
"Well, those are your choices," Sebastian said, and bumped his hip against Kurt's to move him out of the way.
Kurt shuffled over and looked back at Sebastian, who washed his hands then grabbed his toothbrush.
"Why aren't you panicking? We're going to be late!" Kurt exclaimed.
"It's just school. And it's Friday. You can't tell me you really want to go back to school that badly."
"No, just hurry up!"
"Relax, Kurt," Sebastian said. He ran his fingers through his hair and shook it, shrugging his shoulders, before walking back into his bedroom.
Kurt trailed after him, lost. He hadn't even changed out of his clothes the night before. He was still wearing them. They were creased. It would not look good.
"Let me see your closet," Kurt said.
Sebastian waved his arm in the general direction of it.
Kurt started sifting through, finding some outfits so hideous he didn't even know why Sebastian had them. When he got to the Dalton uniforms, he paused. Did Sebastian miss Dalton? From the sounds of it, he hadn't been there for a while anyway. But the uniform also brought a pain to Kurt's chest. Dalton was where he met Blaine.
How could he have given Blaine up like this? He had decided to try with Sebastian, and that meant letting go of Blaine. Blaine was his first everything. Blaine was going to be his last everything.
"Kurt… you okay?" Sebastian's voice rang out softly.
"I…" Kurt started.
Sebastian appeared in front of him. "What's wrong? You feel like you're in pain, Kurt."
"I'm letting him go. I'm letting him go, and I don't even know if I want to, but he didn't give me a choice, and I am."
"Look. We don't have to do this, okay? This was your idea. For us to try to be together. We don't have to. You can go and try to win Blaine back."
Kurt looked up at Sebastian, and it was the truth in his words that settled it for him. If Blaine was willing to give up on him, maybe it wasn't meant to be. Maybe not right now. What if something got tough in the future and Blaine gave up on him? What if Blaine wanted out of the bond later in life… what if Blaine wasn't the one for him? What if they just thought they were right for each other, because there had been no one else? He could always try again with Blaine if it didn't work with Sebastian. Sebastian was his safe choice for now. Sebastian couldn't leave him…not without breaking the bond.
"You don't have to decide right now, okay?" Sebastian said softly.
"We can just be friends," Sebastian said.
"No… I want to… I …"
Sebastian smiled lightly at him. "Try this shirt. I think it'll fit you."
Kurt didn't know what to think when Sebastian acted nice to him. He had for a while. It really didn't seem like the Sebastian he knew. Or the Sebastian he thought he knew. Maybe this was the real Sebastian. Or maybe whatever happened to him, changed him.
"Sebastian? What's wrong with you?"
"Really? I'm trying to be nice and you go and insult me?"
"No. What's wrong with you? What are you sick with?"
"Kurt," Sebastian said, turning away a little. "I'm not sick. Okay? Not anymore. It doesn't matter. I promise."
"Sebastian, please. If I'm going to try this… if we're going to… I need to know."
Sebastian paused, looking at him again. "I.. I have… I.."
"What?" Kurt asked gently.
"I have to go downstairs for a moment."
"Finish getting ready. We should leave for school soon," Sebastian said, and walked downstairs.
Kurt huffed in annoyance. He pulled out the shirt Sebastian mentioned and put it on. It wasn't actually that bad, but all of Sebastian's pants were too long on Kurt. He sighed, and against all his rational judgement, decided to wear the pants he wore there. Hopefully, no one would notice how creased they were.
Sebastian entered the room again after a moment. "Here, I got you some breakfast."
He held out a tray with some toast and fruit. "Sorry it's not much, but we're running a little late."
"No kidding," Kurt said.
Sebastian rolled his eyes but went to get dressed. And this time, Kurt's eyes followed him. If they were going to try this, he might as well look… right?
Sebastian did have a nice body. Tall, agile. He did have muscles. But he was also skinnier than Kurt thought. Kurt knew Sebastian was always on the thinner side… but his frame looked too thin. He looked even thinner than he did a couple weeks ago.
Kurt tried to think back to that morning, when they were lying in bed together, with Sebastian's arm wrapped around him. And then he thought back to their first night.
Sebastian's grip wasn't as tight.
Before Kurt could think too much on it, Sebastian was fully dressed.
"Okay, you ready to go?" Sebastian asked.
"Yeah," Kurt said.
"You didn't touch your breakfast," Sebastian responded.
"Oh. You want some?" Kurt asked, taking a bite of the toast.
"I already ate," Sebastian said, looking away.
Kurt munched on the food quickly, and then they really had to go.
"Your car, I'm assuming," Sebastian said.
"Yeah," Kurt replied.
They got in the car and Kurt paused.
"I wouldn't be horribly offended… if we said we were dating."
Sebastian shot a look at Kurt. "Really?"
And then Kurt drove them to school.
Kurt and Sebastian were quiet and strangely hesitant with each other as they got out of the car. They kept glancing at each other as they walked inside and Kurt turned away to blush, but he caught Sebastian giving him a genuine smile before he did.
They were caught in their own world. Kurt didn't know why he felt so elated. He felt amazing, like his entire body was thrumming with life. He wanted to kiss Sebastian. And touch him. And be with him. This may have been the greatest decision he ever made.
It was like there was a spark of electricity, passing between them. They could feel each other's every move, and Kurt giggled. Sebastian looked over at him again and they stopped moving, in the middle of the hallway, staring at each other.
"Hi," Sebastian said.
It was kind of ridiculous but Kurt's grin on his face widened. "Hi."
Sebastian reached out, and hesitantly grabbed Kurt's hand. Kurt looked down at their joined hands then back up to Sebastian's face, with a grin.
He swung their hands between them hesitantly and giggled again.
They were completely oblivious to the outside world and what was going on around them.
They didn't hear the whisperings of the people around them, or the soft, "oh shit," or the incoming footsteps.
Kurt turned his head to face the other direction and saw someone standing directly in front of him. Just like that, his moment with Sebastian was broken and he felt a sinking feeling enter his chest.
"Kurt," Blaine repeated.
"Sebastian," Sebastian said, pointing at himself.
Blaine glared at him.
"Sorry," Sebastian said, putting his hands up.
"How.. how are you?" Kurt asked.
"How am I?" Blaine asked. Blaine was glaring at him now. Kurt had never really seen him glare at him. Sure, Blaine had been angry before, but he looked completely furious now. "How do you think I am?"
"Blaine, I'm sorry. I don't understand-" Kurt started.
"What was that?" Blaine fumed, his eyes narrowed.
"You two. Walking in together like that. Holding hands," Blaine said slowly.
"I…" Kurt looked at Sebastian then back to Blaine. "We're trying this out."
"Trying this out…" Blaine repeated.
"Yes," Kurt said.
"Look, Blaine, leave it alone, nothing's going on-" Sebastian started but Kurt cut him off.
"Sebastian and I are dating. Okay?"
Kurt was hurt from before. He was hurt from his thoughts about Blaine. He was hurt from when Blaine broke up with him. He was just overly upset with Blaine. And now Blaine was yelling at him, in front of everyone.
Kurt glanced around and saw most of the Glee club there, watching them surreptitiously. Along with half of the school.
Sebastian looked surprised that Kurt said that to Blaine.
But Blaine looked the most surprised. Then his look of shock morphed back into anger.
"Oh, so you two are dating now. Glad to know I meant something."
"Of course you meant something," Kurt said.
"Past tense," Blaine let out.
"What do you want from me?" Kurt asked. "You broke up with me!"
"Yeah, but I didn't know you'd get over me so fast!" Blaine retorted.
"I didn't, Blaine! I'm not over you! I'm just giving this a chance. You did suggest this anyway," Kurt said.
"I was just saying it! I didn't think you'd actually do it! You hate Sebastian!"
"No, I don't. I don't know if you've noticed, but after bonding, he hasn't done anything to either of us."
"He broke us up and ruined our lives!" Blaine exclaimed.
"Your life. Kurt doesn't seem unhappy," Sebastian piped in.
"Fuck you," Blaine let out.
"Blaine!" Kurt exclaimed, his eyes wide.
"No. You've ruined everything! You brainwashed him into this, you had to. There's no way he'd agree to go out with you. What did you do?" Blaine retorted.
"Enough, Blaine. He didn't. I'm the one who asked him out," Kurt said.
"Kurt," Blaine said brokenly.
"I'm sorry, Blaine. It's over. You have to know that. You're the one who said it," Kurt replied.
He didn't know why he was doing this. Pushing Blaine further away. If it didn't work with Sebastian, he probably wouldn't even have Blaine to fall back on.
And Kurt knew that Blaine didn't actually think these things. He was upset and angry, and he said things he didn't mean while he was angry. But he was pissing Kurt off.
"It's not over. We can try. I'm sorry, you were right," Blaine said.
Kurt stared at Blaine. He could accept. Right now. Easily. Let Blaine back in. But what if it got too much for Blaine again… and he wanted to walk away.
Kurt glanced back at Sebastian. He looked resigned, like he knew what Kurt would pick.
"I'm with Sebastian right now, Blaine. I'm sorry," Kurt said.
Sebastian's head shot up, his eyes wide. "You don't have to-"
"Shh," Kurt said.
"I hope you're happy with your decision," Blaine grumbled out.
"Blaine," Kurt started.
"We could always have a threesome? Don't have to choose…" Sebastian trailed off.
Kurt and Blaine glared at him for that one.
And then Blaine shrugged and walked off down the hallway. The warning bell for classes rang and Kurt watched Blaine walk away. Again. He seemed to do that a lot. While the other day, it felt like he was making a life changing decision, this cemented it. He just turned down Blaine for Sebastian.
Sebastian better not screw this up.
Kurt seemed to have gained some enemies throughout the day. Most of the Glee club was incredulous that he chose Sebastian over Blaine. And Kurt was hearing about it.
Rachel went on and on about how he and Blaine were perfect for each other and breaking up with him was like her denouncing Barbra Streisand.
Mercedes asked him why he would put Blaine through all this.
Santana just looked Sebastian over and shrugged.
Brittany was confused and asked, "Why can't you have both?"
Tina and Mike didn't say anything, but they had this look in their eyes, where they didn't look too surprised that any of this happened.
Puck looked furious and was clearly siding with Blaine.
And some of the others… didn't feel like choosing sides.
It was Finn who came to talk to Kurt later, while he was putting his books away in his locker.
Kurt looked up at him.
"What's really going on?" Finn asked.
"I'm giving Sebastian a try. That's what's going on," Kurt said.
"Oh. So… he's your boyfriend now?" Finn asked.
"Yes," Kurt said shortly.
Finn was silent for a moment and then he said. "Are you wearing the same pants as yesterday? I swear you wore those as you left the house. And they look messy… not as neat as you usually wear."
Kurt closed his eyes. Out of everyone, Finn was the one who noticed. Before Kurt could answer, Finn continued.
"Dude. You definitely wore those yesterday."
Kurt stared at Finn. "Didn't Dad tell you where I was?"
"He said you went out with Sebastian… oh god. You two… did you…?"
"What? No! Finn, I just stayed over at his house. Fell asleep during a movie."
"So that's what they're calling it these days?"
"What? Oh my god. I'm serious. We didn't do anything," Kurt said.
He really didn't know why everyone was so mad at him. He tried with Blaine, and Blaine gave up on him. They should be mad at Blaine, not him. Maybe it was because everyone hated Sebastian on principle.
"Kurt. But really. What are you doing? I thought you were waiting for this to be over… for Blaine?"
"I thought he was waiting too," Kurt mumbled.
Then he raised his voice a little louder. "But, Sebastian hasn't been too bad. He's actually… a pretty decent guy," Kurt said.
Finn watched him for a moment. "Just be careful. He still has a reason for all this."
"I know," Kurt said. He looked away. That reason was tearing him apart. Sebastian was sick and didn't want to acknowledge it. It would be all well and good if his parents weren't worried about him. It made Kurt worry, and he hated worrying like this about him but…
Sebastian was his boyfriend now.
He was dating Sebastian.
And he sort of wanted to date him. Well, he was happier about it that morning right when they walked into the school. Now, he just wanted everyone to get off their backs. It was Kurt and Sebastian's lives. Not theirs.
"Look, Finn. We'll discuss it later, at home, okay?"
"Fine. Just know I think you may be making a huge mistake. Blaine's good for you."
"I know," Kurt said softly.
Finn nodded and started to walk away. Kurt let out a huff of frustration.
It was time for Glee Club and Kurt really didn't want to go. It seemed like almost everyone was against him and he really didn't want to go there alone.
Kurt found Sebastian and walked right up to him.
"What are you doing now?"
"Probably going to the gym," Sebastian responded.
Kurt shook his head. "You're joining Glee club."
"Because you deserve to be in it," Kurt said out loud, then under his breath, added, "And I need someone on my side."
Sebastian stared at him for a moment. "I don't know if that's a good idea. I'm kind of busy anyway."
"Busy at the gym? You're fine, you don't need to go today. You're coming to Glee."
"Fine," Sebastian grumbled.
"Why do you go to the gym so much anyway?" Kurt asked.
Sebastian shrugged. "Like to keep fit."
Kurt had a feeling that wasn't the real reason but he went along with it. No use arguing right now. Especially when he was making Sebastian do something he wanted.
Kurt led Sebastian to the choir room and braced himself. He knew the reaction they were going to get.
Kurt was exactly right. As soon as they entered the room, everyone erupted in noise.
"What's he doing here?"
"Going to serenade you again?"
"Dude! We don't want you here!"
Until finally, Mr. Schue had to calm them all down.
"Guys, guys! Relax. Now, Sebastian, what brings you here?" Mr. Schue asked.
"He's joining Glee club," Kurt announced.
"Oh hell no! Kurt! After all he's done?" Mercedes asked.
Kurt stared at her.
"While I can appreciate that he has a good singing voice, I don't think we need him here if he's going to bring poison into the group," Rachel added.
"Plus I hate the dude," Puck said, glaring.
Sebastian looked a little uneasy and turned the other way. "Maybe I should go. No one really wants me here."
"No! Stay. I want you here," Kurt said, turning to face him.
For some reason, despite all the upheavals and stuff he'd done, Sebastian had been the only one truly there for Kurt in the last few weeks. And that counted for something in Kurt's book.
"Can you all listen to yourselves? We want to win, right? And we know Sebastian can sing. He can help us win," Kurt said.
"Yeah, like that's the only reason you want him in Glee club," Puck scoffed.
"No. I also want him here, because so far, even though he's the one who did all this, he's the only one who's stuck by me," Kurt said.
He glanced at Blaine but he was avoiding his gaze.
"Kurt, you know I'm your friend, but this is ridiculous. He tried to blind Blaine! And blackmail us! And steal our set list!" Rachel exclaimed.
"First of all, he wasn't trying to blind Blaine. He was aiming the slushie at me… and at my clothes. And yes, maybe he did all that, but he hasn't done anything like that since he's been here."
"He bonded to you," Puck pointed out.
It seemed like Puck and Rachel had the most issues with this. Everyone else was just along for the ride.
"Besides that," Kurt said.
"I don't know how you can forget about that and forgive him!" Rachel exclaimed.
"I haven't! Okay? I haven't! I think about that all the time, and what my life would have been like if he didn't do this! But I don't want to wallow! I want to live my life, and if this is the path it takes, so be it," Kurt said.
"Well you didn't have to date him, or whatever," Puck said with a scoff.
"No. But I wanted to," Kurt said.
Sebastian finally raised his head and glanced at Kurt, offering him a soft smile.
"Okay, boys, I think everyone is very high strung. Why don't we settle down," Mr. Schue said.
Everyone grumbled and sat down. Kurt and Sebastian kept close for the duration of the meeting, and then it was time to leave.
"I'll see you later," Kurt said softly.
"Yeah, later," Sebastian replied.
And then they parted ways. Kurt couldn't resist looking over his shoulder, back at Sebastian again, and he was surprised to lock eyes with him. Sebastian hadn't moved.
Kurt frowned for a moment before Sebastian ran up to him.
"One last thing," he said, before he brought their mouths together.
Kurt smiled into the kiss and giggled a little. "See you."
"Bye," Sebastian said.
Kurt was in a euphoric mood the entire way home. Somehow, being with Sebastian for only those few moments, while they were alone like that, could make up for everything else that happened in the day.
But then, as soon they were apart, Kurt had time to think about what happened.
He was dating Sebastian. And everyone hated him for it.
He moped around the house for a little bit. He should be happy. He was in a new relationship, and that morning, when he wasn't thinking about anyone else, he was happy.
He couldn't believe he could be happy with Sebastian. But he was. And it was starting to become strange. Sure, it was different to have a good time when they hung out together. But they went on a date, and Kurt enjoyed it. And they kissed, and Kurt enjoyed it. And Sebastian stuck up for him, and he stuck up for Kurt.
And maybe… just maybe… he could actually enjoy dating Sebastian.
Kurt's mind was a jumbled mess because of all that. And after their Friday night dinner, he found himself washing dishes with his Dad again.
"So, how'd your night go with Sebastian? He promised me there was no funny business," Burt said.
"Dad," Kurt whined. But then he shook his head. "No. Fell asleep watching a movie."
"Yeah. That's what he told me."
Kurt nodded and they were silent for a moment.
"Am I a bad person?"
"What? Kurt, why would you think that?" Burt asked.
"For giving up on Blaine. We had a future planned out, Dad," Kurt said.
"No. Now you listen here. Plans change. I know you and Blaine thought you'd be forever. I do know that. And I think you two could have been great together. But… the world works in mysterious ways. And you never know… you may like that you got this opportunity with Sebastian," Burt said.
Kurt nodded. "Yeah. But how do I know if it's right or not?"
"You don't. But I think he could be good for you. Or you good for him. Or both," Burt said.
"Yeah?" Kurt asked.
"Yeah. I just hope he doesn't do anything to hurt you," Burt said.
"Dad, you know he can't do something like that to me. We're bonded, he'd feel it," Kurt said.
"I don't mean physically. I just don't want what happened to me to happen to you."
"What? I don't love him… and he's not dying," Kurt said.
Burt raised an eyebrow.
"Okay… maybe he is…but he says he's fine."
"Sure. He says that," Burt said.
"Dad, what do you know?" Kurt asked.
"Kid. He's not miraculously better. It's not how these things work. He's still sick. It just delayed it, gave him more time. You know? You're keeping him alive by sharing some of your soul with him. That's all. And I have to say… I don't think it's going to stay like this forever."
Kurt was silent and looked up. "You mean… what do you mean?"
"I mean… he's still very much in the danger zone."
"Dad," Kurt said.
"I know you don't want to hear it but-"
"We just decided to date. He can't be… I refuse to believe that anything will happen."
"Oh, Kurt. You had to know what you were getting into. It was the reason for all of this."
"Maybe...maybe we shouldn't?"
"You do what you feel is best."
"What if I don't know? What if I don't know what's best?"
"Then you try. See if this is okay. See if you like being with him. See if you like being with him more than being with Blaine."
Kurt heaved a sigh.
"Don't know what I did, but of course."
They finished cleaning up the dishes and once again, Kurt had a lot on his mind.
Was dating Sebastian the right thing? Should he give it time?
Was Blaine ever going to forgive him?
Kurt jumped as his phone went off. He saw a text message from Sebastian. It read, 'have a good night.'
Kurt smiled and texted him back, saying his own goodnight.
Maybe it would all be okay.
All Kurt knew was that when he thought of Sebastian, and when they were together, warmth bloomed in his chest.
Okay… I'm sorry I'm getting behind on chapters. But despite that... I know what I want to happen and I'm not going to lose that.
And I hope this didn't get too out of character. I'm trying to get them to listen to me… and it seems like they took giant leaps in their relationship in this chapter… but I'm getting antsy. This story is getting long. So sorry about that.
Also… my livejournal is up and running. No one told me how long it takes to upload all your fics there… :D username: madeafriend2day. I will probably post both here and there now… here first. As long as they don't delete me. But at least I have a backup now.
Anyway… I hope you enjoyed this chapter!
Let me know what you think!