Chapter 7

The ride back to base was awkward knowing what they wanted to ask about and how I could keep it from them considering just twenty minutes ago I told the whole team that I trust Lawson and josh completely. I tried to focus on Katie as she was talking to me but I wasn't really listening as I was trying to smother my guilt at not telling them because I know it was wrong not to, they are family and we have always told each other everything no matter how bad. Yeah it took me a long time to tell josh but I told him and when he found out why I like keeping people I didn't know that well at a distance we began getting closer but I didn't want them pitying me and walking on eggshells around me, asking me constantly if I was ok. I was pulled out of my thoughts but Katie tapping my arm

"Mummy you're not listening" she said looking sad

"Im sorry baby what were you saying" I replied trying to keep a smile on my face

"I was asking what we are having for tea and I don't get how uncle Josh is pregnant he's a boy and where do babies come from anyway?" looking at me innocently

Not sure what to say I tried ignoring he last question by answering her first two " well we can have anything you want for tea how bout pizza and uncle josh isn't pregnant grace is but people say that they are both pregnant because he's the babies daddy"

"Oh right and me want Dominos pizza for tea"

Thinking I got away with not answering he last question I started to really smile but her voice interrupted by her saying

"But mummy you didn't say where babies come from?"

Looking round the car I saw that both Lawson and Josh were amused at how hesitant I were to tell her so to avoid it myself I looked to Katie and said "Well why don't you ask uncle josh he knows where babies come from"

Katie whipped her head round and said "Yeah uncle josh tell me"

Josh's face was full of shock it was pretty comical all that would come out of his mouth was "Erm ….. Well you see erm …"

Katie got fed up at this so turned back to me and asked "Mummy can you tell me uncle josh is being weird"

As she said that we pulled into the base so I jumped out and said "hey baby look Stella is there "

A smile lit up her face and shouted "Stella" as she ran towards the woman

I looked back to josh and Lawson, smiled "well I think I got out of that one"

They smiled back at first but the smile dropped as the reason I left came to the forefront of their minds "shan we have to talk about this, you know that right" josh said looking me in the eyes

"I know ok but I won't do it when Katie is around we'll talk later ok"

"OK later" Lawson said making it clear in his voice that after Katie was in bed there is no way I was getting out of the discussion.

Im sorry for this chapter for taking so long to write but I couldn't think of how the story should go after the last chapter and I got writers block. Im going to try to make the next chapter longer and better as I don't think this chapter met the standard of my previous chapters and im sorry for the confusion on the last chapter it was supposed to be grace not Tasha but I was watch rush before I wrote the last chapter lol and got confused myself. If you have any ideas of how the story should go please review