I'm SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOORRY for taking SO SO SO SO SO LONG to update. I'm currently suffering from writer's block and I kind of knew what I wanted but ksjadhkjsadhjkas it was hard to put the right words there :C I had a hard time writing this chapter, and yeah, I know how mean I am, I know, don't remind me ;-; This chapter is shitty.

*Next day*

I woke up with my mom shaking me.

"Neku, Neku! Wake up!"

"Ugh.. Mom… I don't want to go to school yet…" I said turning around.

"Today is Sunday, wake up!"

"But it's Sundayyyyy…"

"Neku! I'm being serious!"

"What?" I said sitting up and rubbing my eyes.

"We need to go to the hospital, go and get a quick shower and let's get moving"

"Wait, what? Who are we going to visit? What happened?" I asked confused.

"Why don't you take a shower and I tell you then?"

I gave her a confused look. "Alright, I gues…"

I got into the bathroom, got showered and dressed. I got ready in about 10 minutes. Then I walked up to mom after finishing putting my shoes on.

"So… What's going on?" I asked

"Okay… Listen…"

"Mom? Don't freak me out, what's going on?"

She didn't give me an answer.

"Mom!"

She took a deep breath I was starting to get nervous "Shiki's mom called, looks like Shiki tripped in the stairs an-"

"What?" I almost shouted. Almost.

She just hugged me. "Is Shiki okay?" I asked.

"She hasn't woken up yet… It happened about 30 minutes ago"

She pulled back and grabbed her car's keys; I followed her taking a seat inside not knowing what to think. We finally headed to the hospital, once there, I just followed her, I knew she had an idea about where they were. When she stopped, I noticed Eri there, and the only thing I did was sit down without bothering to talk to anyone. I knew this was something to worry about. If she fell, she could've hit her head with the floor or the walls, I knew that if she hit her head too hard she could even get her brain damaged. That would cause her to live under supervision her whole life. But my biggest fear was the she may not remember me. What if she loses her memory? Just thinking about that was terrifying.

Eri sat next to me. "She's going to be okay" she said. I kept looking at the floor, I was too busy getting worried about my girlfriend. She started stroking my hair. Beat arived with Joshua and Joshua's dad. Eri walked to Joshua and hugged him tight. She was just as worried as I was.

Everyone around me was talking, walking, going out of the waiting room, but me. I was just sitting down there hiding my face in my hands. I was scared.

"She's going to be alrigt, Neku" Joshua said patting my back.

"You're saying the same thing everyone else told me"

Joshua sighed and crouched in front of me. "Look at me" I did. It was weird, he looked like he was going to propose to me, but, somehow, I knew he wasn't going to. "She's fine, trust me"

"What if she isn't fine?" I frowned.

"Neku… Positive thinking helps, my dear"

"That's mental. Positive or negative thinking never change results, it just puts your hopes up and at the end you get disappointed."

"Why do you say that?"

"Never brough Rhyme back…"

"Hey, I just wanted to help you feel better"

"You ain't helping"

"Neku"

"Doctor!" Shiki's mom exclaimed, basically running to him.

Everyone turned around to look at them and the elders joined. It seemed like hours before all of them walked back. Mom sat next to me and I begged her with my eyes to tell me.

"Neku… There's a lot of chance that she has forgotten pretty much everything"

"No… Mom, tell me you're joking"

She shook her head and hugged me. "Why would I joke about something like that, I know she's your best friend but-"

"She's not just my best friend…"

She kinda got the idea of what I meant by that. I broke the hug appart and saw her confuseed face.

"You mean? Since when?" She asked. "You didn't tell me"

"How long would it take for her to get her memory back to normal?" I asked looking away.

"I'm not sure" she answered.

I stood up and walked out of there.

"Where are you going?"

I did not answer, but I was hungry and I had some money in my wallet, so I went to the cafeteria to get me some breakfast. After doing the line to order and sat down alone, after eaing half of my ham and cheese sandwich, Eri and Joshua walked in.

"So here you are!" Eri said taking a seat in the other side of my table. "I need to talk with you"

I glanced at Joshua who walked out of the cafeteria and sat somewhere, he started at us but wasn't listening.

"What is it?" I asked.

"Umm…You know Shiki's my best friend and I only wan the best for her" she started.

I raised an eyebrow, taking another bite of my sandwich.

"I don't know if you're going to like this idea but… I don't think Shiki should know that… You guys are together…"

I blinked. "What?"

"D-don't get me wrong! I mean-" she sighed "You know how you met her, right? She's going to ask you a lot of things including that! Do you really want her to think about all those 'bad' things she's done? It'll be easier if you tell her you're just her friend and you know each other since forever!"

"You want me to lie?"

"You want to hurt her?"

"There's no way in hell I'm doing this. No" I frowned.

"There might be no way in hell, but you are not in hell, so you're doing this. Neku, you have to"

"No! You're asking me to lie, and not just to lie, but-"

"You have no choice, is either lie or get her sad or worried or concerned or disappointed about all the things she has done to herself."

"You're talking nonsense! What about the marks on her wrist, huh? She'll figure out"

"I ….. Don't know, okay? We'll tell her it was an accident from when she was younger or something"

"Eri, I DON'T want to do this" I said, placing my half-eaten sandwich on the plate.

"Neither do I, but do you think I only do what I want? I want to do what is better for her"

"What if she remembers? She's going to find out we've been lying"

"Then we'll tell her we didn't want her to get worried, that's all"

"You know what? I'm not going to talk about this any more. I just don't want to do this. End of story" I said standing up about to walk away.

"You don't want because of Shiki… Or you?" she said, not looking at me. I scowled and walked out.

"Neku!" Joshua called, running to me.

"Leave me alone… I'm going home" I said, not waiting for his response and walked away.

"Neku! For goodness sake! You're acting like such a 3-year-old kid! One step more and I'm fucking going to take your headphones off and smack them with a fucking wall"

Wow… Joshua never swore… He was being serious.

"Eri told me she would hate herself after asking you that, she had a hard time thinking about it" Joshua explained walking to where I was standing. "All she wants is that Shiki get a nice recovery without getting worried about anthing. And look at you! You don't even know if she had forgotten you and you're walking away already? Get your butt upstairs right now!"

"Joshua-"

"I. SAID. NOW"

I didn't question him, I just turned around and walked to an elevator. He, in the other hand, walked inside the cafeteria to meet Eri.

I'm sorry...