|Angsty April, Merry May 2012
Author: SailorCopperOwl PM
A collection of stories written for the LJ Angsty April vs. Merry May challenge. Senshi/Shitennou, Mamoru/Shitennou, or just ShitennouRated: Fiction T - English - Drama/Romance - Chapters: 4 - Words: 4,625 - Updated: 05-25-12 - Published: 05-19-12 - id: 8130167
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Prompt: "I didn't stop loving you, you just stopped noticing it."
A/N: This is a prequel to a story I'm currently writing. So, if you like it, and want to know more about Karl and his friends who have the same problem, there's going to be more ;)
"You have to go. This man is dangerous."
"How am I supposed to leave you now that you need me the most? I can't go."
"You can't help me with this. This is something I need to settle with myself, and I don't want you to get caught in it."
"I don't believe you're doing this to me and the little one, Karl. How can you choose evil and the thirst for revenge over us?"
"Damnit, Amelie, I didn't get to choose this! No one chooses to be a schizo with a split personality! It's not like I'm having fun all day here at the psychiatric hospital. I don't exactly ask to be caught in this situation."
"Yes, you do! The doctor says you're welcoming it, you're not fighting it at all. You don't work along in therapy, and you brag so much about this guy. What is the reason for this, Karl? All your life you've been trying to do the right thing. Live green, climb up chimneys of atomic plants, get your ass in the way of evil. And now you're telling me that suddenly the most important thing is to be evil, to do wrong, to kill imaginary people in your head? What the hell, Karl, why are you throwing away your life for this?"
"I told you I don't have a choice. But the only way to come out of it is to go through it to the end. Leaving all the dangling ends is what got me into the last relapse. This time, I'm not backing out. I'll fight it through."
"Karl, you don't fight. It's all in your head, and you let it happen."
"And how do I escape my own head, can you tell me that? Kunzite is in my head, and he's not going to go away unless he's done with what he has to do, and I'm in this, and you've seen what happened to me the last time I didn't play along."
"That's no reason why I can't be there for you. That's no reason at all for sending me away. Karl... why isn't our love strong enough for this? Why aren't we fighting through this together? Where did it go wrong? When did you stop loving me?"
"I never stopped loving you! You just stopped noticing it!"
"Must be the funny way you have showing it! Hiding yourself behind this ghost in your head, wiggling out of the family thing the moment it doesn't meet your precious expectations!"
"That's not the reason, Amelie, I swear, none of you has anything to do with it. Don't look at me like this. I'm serious. I love you both, and I don't want to see you again as long as this guy can take over my head any time and make me do something terrible.
Amelie, please. Kunzite is dangerous. You know that our baby is the most important thing in the world for me. And I can deal with being crazy, and losing what makes my life, but I couldn't deal if anything happened to her through all this. She's the reason I haven't hung myself when this started. She's the reason why I can put up with all this. So, please, take her away, keep her safe, raise her to be a fine girl and make me proud."
"If we're leaving now, we're not going to come back."
"I know. Please go."