Author: xxamhh PM
AU/AH. Keeping secrets are hard and raising a child by herself has always been a new challenge for Caroline. What happens when she meets a a certain man who changes her life forever? Will it be for the good or for the bad? And can he handle Caroline's lifestyle? Rated M for a lot of smut and some strong language.Rated: Fiction M - English - Drama/Romance - Caroline F. & Klaus - Chapters: 29 - Words: 104,922 - Reviews: 187 - Favs: 81 - Follows: 145 - Updated: 02-10-13 - Published: 07-23-12 - id: 8352335
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Hello readers, I'm so sorry it's taken this long to upload but I have been taking the time to study and get organized for my nursing boards because I need to pass my license in order to get a job and I hope you guys understand. I need to make my studies a priority and make sure my future is better than it is, which is currently broke and jobless and it sucks desperately.
Also, I don't know why but my internet connection has been completely wacky for the past couple of days and it's been driving me insane to not have any internet because there's no where I can go here with free wi-fi. But this is the next chapter, FINALLY, Klaus and Caroline's date and also, it is in Klaus' POV. I truly hope you guys enjoy.
Don't forget to leave reviews because they make me really happy and excited to read your thoughts and opinions. Until next time.
Like always, disclaimer, I still do not own the vampire diaries.
She was wonderful and as she walked down the steps after spending a long hour with her friends and Bekah, she was now ready to go on our date.
I didn't know how the idea actually came upon me but I was glad I spoke to her friends about it and they were actually willing to help, which surprised me even more.
I didn't want to judge her friends because that would send the wrong message and I definitely didn't want to judge Caroline besides I want to be a part of her life. I know that this woman can change so much about me with out me even knowing or with out her knowing as well, because she's already changing me by the fact that we're going out on a date, alone.
I don't usually go on a dates and I now glad that the event was actually going to place. I told myself as I got ready that I wasn't going to ask her about her job unless she brought it up because I don't know if I could possibly take the idea of hearing her being with other men that aren't me.
I want to be with this woman fully but I know that it'll take time. Rebekah continues to tell me I need to get to know her and that's what I'm going to do.
Today we take my car and I decided it was better if I drove instead of our driver and make Caroline more at ease.
I turn on the radio as she sits next to me and the first thing that comes up is Closer by Kings of Leon.
Stranded in this spooky town
Stoplights are swaying and the phone lines are down
This floor is crackling cold, she took my heart, I think she took my soul
With the moon I run far from the carnage of the fiery sun
If there was ever a time I would crave for Kings of Leon's to show up was now.
"You don't seem like the type to listen to Kings of Leon," Caroline says breaking away the silence.
Driven by the strangle of vein showing no mercy I do it again,
Open up your eye, you keep on crying baby, I'll bleed you dry
Skies they blink at me, I see a storm bubbling up from the sea
And it's coming closer
And it's coming closer
I chuckle, "Why do so many people say that to me?"
You shimmy shook my bone leaving me stranded all in love on my own
Do you think of me? Where am I now? Baby where do I sleep?
Feel so good but I'm old, 2000 years of chasing's taking its toll
And it's coming closer
And it's coming closer
She smiles and I can't help but smile with her, "I don't know. I figured you'd listen to some hard rock or something." She replies seriously but when I turn to look at her I see that's she's holding her tongue so she won't laugh at me.
"Mmm, but then as I see you sitting here I can totally imagine you rocking out to Kings of Leon while you're driving alone." She adds and I chuckle again.
"I don't think I rock out," I tell her smiling and she giggles in return.
"Yeah, but you do have good taste in music." She whispers and smiles as we continue to smile together.
"Are we going to central park?" She asks a little more loudly and I glance at her and notice she's watching the scenery from outside as I drive.
"Is that a bad idea? We could go where ever you'd like, love," I wonder.
"It's fine, I haven't been in a long time." She replies a little too sadly.
"Would you like to go some where better, love?" I ask and she shakes her head but I barely notice, as I have to pay attention to the road.
"No, it's fine, it's just that last time I went Jason fell and cut his knee and we haven't been ever since but I do love central park at this time of year." She explains and I nod quietly.
I wonder to myself if she should of brought her son with us, I knew he wanted to come with us and was trying to deeply convince me as well as Bonnie and Elena to let him go but once Elena and Bonnie explained to him we wanted some time alone he understood and told me to have fun with his mom at the park.
I didn't know about the accident but he was very excited to come to park and I was some what upset and felt as it was wrong to deny him the chance to come to the park but I also craved some quiet time with Caroline with out her friends or my family.
Kol like usual told Jason that they were going to have a much better time with out us as they informed him they were going to take him to the movies after we left and he could eat all the candy in the world and I wished him loads of fun.
It was weird that the somewhat small relationship that I had established with her son felt so normal. I never thought I could be with a woman with a kid but everything that was a part of Caroline felt easy and relaxing.
Her son was very important to her life, which meant that in order to get to her heart and get close to her, I needed to get close to her son but never in my life did I except it to be so easy.
I didn't even think it could be possible for me to get along to a child so easily but he was also exactly like Caroline. You couldn't help but to fall in love with him and love being around him and I knew he was very loved by his mother as well as Bonnie and Caroline.
They both took care of him as if Jason could be their own son and that made him a very lovable child. He was a brilliant kid and I wanted him to continue to be a part of the small amount of men he's never been around with before my brothers and I came along.
We could tell he was deeply craving to spend time with men and he was more than pleased to have Elijah, Kol and I to play sports with him and video games. I knew Caroline had to take the role of both parents but for a child it was always better to actually have a father around even though he would always pick his mother above all.
As we park and get our things ready I take hold of Caroline's hand and I can actually notice that as I hold her hand I can feel an electric jolt and warmth as our hands touch and fit perfectly together.
I was never much of a man to hold a woman's hand but here I was doing it with Caroline and I was somewhat feeling protective when it comes to her.
"Where do you want to sit?" Caroline turns and looks up at me with her eyes sparkling as she takes in the smell of summer blooming in the ear and people talking.
"Some where with a shade," I reply smirking as I deeply crave for the shade and away from the sunshine.
She giggles, "Not very found of the sun?"
"As long as I don't burn, love."
She smiles, "Shade then? I don't think Rebekah would have packed some sunscreen and I didn't ask, I guess we will find out when we sit and look inside the picnic bag and actually what's inside, besides I'm rather famished myself are you?" She finishes and looks at me and I can't help but chuckle at her.
"What's funny?" She asks and I smile with her.
"Do you always tend to ramble when you're nervous or excited, sweetheart?" I ask her and chuckle again.
"It's all right, love, I rather like it."
She giggles and squeezes my hand and we find a solitary tree far enough from another couple and we open the picnic bag and find a blanket to lie down on the grass and we sit together.
Together we continue to look and find two sandwiches packed for us with a couple of bowls with fruits, like strawberries, blueberries, and grapes, as well as two small bags of chips and two bottles of water and two more bottles of juice.
"Rebekah knows how to pack a bag," she whispers and smiles and we begin to eat.
She eats more than I do since I had breakfast thanks to the delicacy of her best friends, who made breakfast this morning. I understood why she was so hungry since she didn't get woken up until late morning.
"So tell me something." I begin, as I'm quite nervous of where to start a conversation with her.
"What do you want to talk about?" She asks as she turns to look at me.
"I want to talk about you. Your hopes, your dreams, everything you want in life." I begin and she smiles softly if that could be considering a smile. I look into her eyes and I can some what see the shine fly away.
"What about you?" She whispers.
"What about me?"
"What are your hopes and dreams?" She asks, "Did you always want to be a lawyer?"
I shake my head and my mind suddenly drifts to when I was a child, "No." I whisper.
"Explain." She asks with a smile full of mischief.
"You tell and I'll talk as well." She adds.
I nod, "I wanted to be an artist."
"What stopped you?" She asks softly hoping not to hit the wrong bottom.
"My father." I reply angrily.
"My father told us from a very young age we had to be lawyers just like him or at least have a career where people would see you as the alpha male or whatever it was he said. I was a rebel since I was a kid and it became worse the second I found out the man who I thought to be my father, wasn't really my father. My mother had an affair with another man and that other man is my real father, which made his hatred for me only stronger." I tried to keep my anger to a minimum because I didn't want to ruin the perfectly good time I was having with Caroline because of my dreadful father.
She softly places her hand on the side of my face and I move my face closer to her hand. Her soft skin put my mind more at ease and I didn't want her to ever stop touching me like she is right now.
"Is that why you left London?" She asks softly and I nod.
"It's all right, my mother threw me out of my house when she found out I was pregnant." She tells me and I nod.
"Being a lawyer was the only thing that ever caught my interest besides art. My father said it was one of the best careers I could pick after Elijah told him he was going to become a lawyer as well. I was never good enough for him because I was never his blood."
"I'm sorry," she whispers softly and I can see the sincerity in her eyes. Something I've never seen before in any one before when ever I spoke about my father and I knew she was genuinely sorry for what I went through.
I chuckle darkly a softly, "Oh, love, it was never your fault. It's all right now, I'm away from that problem."
She nods but says nothing and looks away. "Are you ever going to get back to escorting?" I whisper and I don't know where the hell that question came from and why I just blurted it out.
I almost slapped myself but she turned quickly to look at me to see if I was serious or not and she stays quiet as if she's contemplating what she should tell me.
"I don't know," she replies softly. "I escort because it provides me with the money that I need to survive and give Jason everything he deserves. I don't want him to end up like me. No other job with out a degree will provide me with the money I get as an escort and I don't want to go back to the life I had before I move to New York. I hated not having money and I hate asking for money from others to provide for him, he deserves better." She explains and I understood her, I understood completely where she was coming from but I still can't think I can handle the fact that I have to share her.
Everything I've ever wanted I've always wanted for myself. I was never a man to share and in this complicated situation it made things even more complicated, but this bright woman made me was weak and I was getting weaker by the second as I got to spend time with her.
I didn't know what to say so I decided to stay quiet because even her own friends aren't so sure if she will go back to that lifestyle and they've known she's talked about going to school but hasn't fully committed to it because she hasn't gotten the proper push. Both Elena and Bonnie believe everything that has been happening has been slowly giving her the proper push to go after something she desires that isn't escorting, something she properly enjoys.
They spoke to me about it this morning, they know her better than I do and they both think these past few days have been slowly changing her perspective in a lot of things but most all they told me that I've been messing with her mind since she meet me and it brought me some kind of ease to know that she's going as equally crazy as I am.
"Why does you sister think we're so alike?" She wonders but mostly to herself but I decide to answer because I have a way of being able to think the same as Rebekah or at least understand her perspective.
"Because she believes I some what understand your lifestyle." I respond and her eyes once again wonder to mine and she waits for me to explain further.
"It's because I've never been with a woman relationship wise. I used to be with a lot of woman, once I even tried to be with an escort but I ended up in just having random one-night stands. I didn't look for a relationship with any of them until I met you." I begin. "I used to drink a lot before I moved here and while I drank woman would come up to me looking for one night stands or more but I only ever cared about the sex. I guess you could say I was troubled or I didn't have an example of a good relationship because my parents didn't have one either."
She nods, "I get it, my parents divorced and my father turned out to be gay and remarried to a man after he divorced my mom. I used to drink and do drugs and party all night with Manson and Tyler when I was in high school to forget about the fact that my dad left me alone with my mother who was never around."
"It's why I don't drink anymore unless I'm home with Bonnie and Elena. I did a lot of stupid things while under the influence and that's how I ended up with Jason but I will never regret having him in my life. He changed me for the better." She said aloud but mostly to herself though I did listen her.
I didn't want to pressure her to tell me more about Tyler and Manson, they've done enough damage to her and I didn't want to be the one to bring horrible memories about them.
"Do you still draw or paint?" She asks breaking the silence.
"Yes I do, love," I reply and we look up at the sky and watch the clouds for a while.
It was almost late afternoon when Caroline and I packed up our things and headed back to the car, an almost perfect date if it wasn't ruined by an almost complete stranger.
"Ruby?" We both hear a voice behind us, a male. Caroline turns around and smiles oddly at the man behind us.
"Evan." She replies coolly and lets go off my hand.
"I've been trying to get a hold of you." He begins but she stops him before he could finish his sentence.
I let go of her hand and I can see that spark that was there only a few seconds ago vanishes as I let go of her and she sets her eyes once again on this Evan guy.
He must be one of her clients and he's basically ruining everything we just worked hard for this whole afternoon.
"Yeah, I've been taking a break, sorry but look call Katherine and she'll find you another girl. I'm not going to be with any one for a while." She replies smiling to Evan but I can see in her eyes she doesn't really mean it.
Her eyes have grown dark and I'm afraid of what she's thinking. "I'll see you some other time, Evan." She finishes and turns back around and the guy looks to me and says nothing but leaves as well.
I didn't know what to do but I certainly didn't like this. "Who was that?"
"A client." She replies not willing to explain any further because I knew by the second that man called her Ruby he was a client and fist were clenching as I was deeply craving to punch something.
"Does this happen a lot?" I ask, curious to know if this is going to become a habit when I take her out, if I take her out again.
"Not so much, this might be the second time it happens." She replies coolly trying to brush the situation away.
I say nothing, instead put all my focus into getting as back to my car before I explode. This couldn't be normal; I couldn't let this pass off as normal. That was a man she fucks, for heaven's sake. I was over thinking it, I knew that was but I couldn't help myself.
"He's definitely too short for you, love," I tell her and she doesn't look at me. "Not the kind of man you should be with."
"I'm not judging anyone, I'm only judging their money because that's what I want from them." She replies.
"They obviously want more from you, love," I tell her and she laughs dryly.
"What the hell do you think I do, Nik? Dance around and hold their hands for an hour or more? No, they give me the cash, I make sure it's real, we fuck, they leave and on to the next one. All I want is the money, I told you this." She spits angrily and I can feel myself fuming inside.
By the time we arrive to my car and I didn't even bother this time to open the door for her because I was so angry and I knew this was getting to her. "If you ever want this to work out you're going to have to get used to that."
"Not likely, love," I spat back and leave central park and I feel like the perfect day has been ruined.
"Than this is just pointless. It's who I am." She continues.
"That's the thing, love, I don't like to share."
"Then what's the point of this? What the whole damn point of taking me in when you know who I am, when you heard me tell you directly to you that I'm an escort, a whore, or whatever you want to call it? What's the point of taking a chance when you're not exactly taking one to the fullest extent?" She asks sadly but you could still hear the anger in her voice.
It was a deathly tone; a tone I don't ever want to hear that tone in her voice again but I can't control my anger or my jealousy. My jealousy will always get the best of me and she's going to have to get used it because it's who I am and I can't change that.
I don't even answer because I don't know how to reply. I don't know what's the point in taking a chance when I can't accept her escorting. When I can't get my head wrapped about me having to lets her be touched by other men when she then comes home to me. It's just not right.
It shouldn't be a part of deal and I don't know how I can let her go and be back to the man I used to be with out her, or at least I don't want to go back to what was before I met her. It's bloody impossible to be the same man if she leaves me alone and goes back to escorting. It's just impossible for me to think off.
When we arrive to the house Kol, Bonnie and Elena are downstairs playing with Jason and as we open the door Kol turns and smirks.
"Here's the happy couple, how was your day?" As he speaks I just want to grab him and hurt him repeatedly for talking and making this crappy situation even shittier.
I turn to look at Caroline and she rolls her eyes angrily at Kol and runs up the stairs. All I can do is sigh and go straight to the bar and take a long sip of scotch straight from the bottle.
Elena and Bonnie frown as they watch me and run behind Caroline up the stairs.