a/n: this was to .com follow her. she's amazing.

The "L" Word

She loved her. She was finally going to say the 'L' word. Emily had practicing the whole way home from work. She knew she would still probably mess it up, but she was going to try so hard not to. She did love JJ, but she was just so afraid to say it, because she had always gotten hurt in the past.

"I love you. That's all you have to say, Em," Emily reminded herself as she pulled onto JJ's street. She saw an unfamiliar car parked in JJ's driveway.

She hadn't told JJ she was coming over, she had wanted to surprise her. She was supposed to be away on a case still, but the team had finished early, and Henry was with Will for the weekend, so Emily figured it would be the perfect time to use the 'L' word.

Maybe JJ was having someone over, which was okay with Emily, but it seemed strange that JJ didn't mention it.

"Here we go, Prentiss," Emily said, walking up the driveway. She pulled out the spare key and opened the door.

"Jen?" Emily called. No answer, "Honey?" she tried again. Still nothing. She heard noises coming upstairs.

Emily drew her gun and made her way up the stairs quietly, thinking something terrible could have happened. She reached the end of the hall, to the bedroom that Emily and JJ shared when Emily slept over.

Emily opened the door with her gun drawn and what she saw, though not what she had imagined, was just as awful.

JJ was in bed with nothing more than a sheet wrapped around her kissing a man.

"Oh my god," Emily said, holstering her gun, and covering mouth. JJ jumped when she realized Emily was standing there.

"Oh no, shit, Em, this isn't-" JJ exclaimed.

"This isn't what it looks like? Cause...cause it looks like you just slept with him, and he's not me, and that's what it looks like, so if it's something else, please let me know, because almost anything would be better than what this looks like!" Emily said quickly, holding back tears.

"Oh, god Emily," JJ said, tears pooling.

"Did you just have sex with him?" Emily yelled.

"Yes, but-" JJ began, now crying.

"But nothing. I'm done!" Emily shouted, and tore out of the room as fast as she could.

"Em!" JJ called, throwing on a bathrobe and following her quickly, leaving the man alone, awkwardly, "Just let me explain! We used to date in college and he was in town and he stopped by for a visit and one thing led to another! I never meant to hurt you!" JJ cried, following Emily out of the house towards her car.

"But you did! Jesus christ, JJ! I came here tonight to tell you I loved you! I have NEVER told any one that before, because I have always been afraid. But I thought you were that special one. I thought you were the one that would never do anything to hurt me. I was wrong! I don't think I will ever say I love you to anyone, because I will NEVER be able to trust anyone as much as I trusted you again!" Emily screamed her final words, and got in her car, and drove away as fast as she could, determined to never see JJ again.