-Chapter 36- Different life-

I joined Cody some days later on tour while he was in California. First I wanted to stay just for 3 days, but I quickly changed my mind. His team was fabulous and I got really close friends with Alli. We shared all of our secrets, I knew everything about her, and she about me. Everything? No. Cody was the only one who knew what really happened. He was the only one who knew who I killed and who my parents were. Sometimes, I woke screaming in the middle of night, drenched. In these situations, I didn't care how late it was or if I walked up someone. To not freak out completely, I took my skateboard or my surfboard and went outside.

Sometimes, you couldn't see anything, but most times the sun was slowly rising. I surfed for one or two hours, just to make sure I don't have to get back to sleep. I always loved to sleep, now I was scared of going to bed. I was scared of my nightmares, I was scared of myself. I was scared of everything. Every night my dad comes to hunt my nightmares or my family dies. I got so weak. I'm so weak. I'm breakable.

Cody apparently saw how distracted I was and started to stay by my side day and night. When during the day, I got a message from the hospital, I held my hand. When at night, I woke up crying, he wiped away my tears. It became our life-routine. Boring, but helpful. After some weeks, I started to feel the real Kalea again.

"Morning" Cody whispered in my ear, I smiled

"Morning too" I said

"No nightmares" He looked at me "You slept like a baby"

"Really?" I asked. It was true, I felt much better this morning than at those where I ran out of the bus, screaming my lungs out.

I got out of the bed and took a shower. When I got out, everyone was already eating breakfast. I took the cereals out of the cupboard and purred some milk into a bowl. I started to eat. Slowly everyone left the bus, except of Cody and me. I was sitting on the couch, while I was still eating my cereal.

"Hey, you know, I feel like the real Kalea is coming back" He suddenly said

"What I thought some minutes ago. I don't feel so weak anymore" I told him and he smiled

"Great to have you back. I missed you"

"You didn't even know the real Kalea!" I laughed

"Enough to make me fall in love with her" Cody mumbled.

What? Did he just say that he loves me? But…

"Wait, Cody what did you just said?" I asked him, sitting down next to him

"Me? Nothing" He blushed

"Cody, I'm serious. Because otherwise you can directly bring me to the hospital saying I have hallucinations" I told him

"Kalea, what I said was…" He looked at me

"Cody, I… I love you too" I smiled at him. And that's when I kissed Cody for the first time. It was gentle and short, I smiled unto the kiss. I never wanted to leave the tour.

*(5 weeks later)*

Cody and I started dating 5 weeks ago. I've been with him ever since. After a week, we got public and were constantly followed by fans and paparazzis. I quickly deleted my Twitter, getting scared of all the messages I got. Cody begged everyday, to get me back on twitter, but I refused. Nobody knew my Tumblr URL, so I had nothing to worry about. When a fan made fun of me or something, I mostly just turned around and told them "I love you too". But everything that they said to me, never really reached me. I have gone through worse. Much worse. After some weeks, they started to all shut up, because some of them showed videos of me surfing and winning the regional's, to show how talented I was. Some nice comments started to show up on Cody's or Alli's Twitter. Then a fan, found out about my parents. And that's when I almost lost myself again. I surfed for 13 hours straight, refusing to talk. But then, I saw the comments. The hate was replaced with worry and love. Everyone was talking about my family and how they hoped they didn't die.

Everyday I got a message from the hospital, telling me how my parents and brothers were. They still didn't wake up. But with all the messages I got, I was sure they would wake up. They are going to wake up Kal, the words I told myself if I had a nightmare. One day I got a call from the hospital, instead of a message. They probably wanted to tell me the good news my phone and not by message.

"Kalea Dixon?" I young woman asked

"Yes! Yes, it's me" I said exited

"Well, we have some news for you" She said. They woke up! They survived!

"And?"

"Well, we guess that it's time for you to let go…" She whispered

It's time to let go, it's time for them to die.