A/N:Thanks for the favs, follows and review, it means a lot to know that people are reading this. A special thanks to morphine gun12, you are Freakin amazing! The song for this chapter is in the end by linkin park. Please review!

I kept everything inside and even though I tried, it all fell apart
What it meant to me will eventually be a memory of a time when I tried so hard
And got so far
But in the end
It doesn't even matter

I had to fall
To lose it all
But in the end
It doesn't even matter
Sam came inside with the doctor and found that both Dean and Castiel were asleep, Castiel on Dean's chest.

"Dean Dr. Honeycutt is here to examine Cas."

Dean nodded his head and gently shook Castiel. Castiel woke up with a look of fear in his eyes like a trapped animal. "Don't hurt me!" Castiel yelled, eyes closed and hands protecting his face.

"Cas it's okay now, you're at the motel and Dr. Honeycutt is here to treat your wounds. Don't worry he isn't going to hurt you."

Castiel nodded and got off of Dean's chest.

"Castiel, I need to ask you a personal question okay?"

Castiel nodded.

"Were you raped?"

Castiel jumped at the word and a tear slid down his face as he nodded sadly.

"Okay well most likely you are going to have some tearing in your rectum, so I am going to need you to lie down on the bed. If you want I can have them step outside."

"Will you please go outside?"

"Sure thing Castiel. Come on Dean."

Dean followed Sam outside the motel. They sat on the ground and Dean rested his head against the wall.

"Sam what am I supposed to do? I need you to help me out here."

Even though it was dark outside, Sam could see the unshed tears in Dean's eyes and could hear worry in his voice. Sam sighed.

"Dean I don't know much about rape, but what I do know is that the victim needs time to heal both physically and emotionally and do better with a support system. He really needs you right now Dean."

"Thanks Sammy."

"You boys can come in now. He has no internal bleeding but has a few broken ribs. He is also going to need time to heal mentally. If you boys need anything else, just give me a call."

"Thanks."

Dean and Sam walked inside the motel room to find Castiel sitting on the bed all stitched up. His eye was still swollen shut, but he looked a lot better.

"Hey Castiel, how are you feeling?" Sam asked.

"Better thanks to those pills, even though the pain is not completely gone. "

"I'm so sorry Cas, I never shoulda sent you out there alone. I shoulda been there to protect you. I swear I will find those sons a bitches and teach them a lesson."

"Do not blame yourself Dean I should not have went with that man. I should have known that he had more men with him. I should have fought harder, I was weak. I have lost the majority of my powers and am no longer welcome in heaven as I am now considered unclean."

"Castiel if they are that screwed up that they banned you from heaven then you can stay with us."

"That is very kind of you, but I can find somewhere to stay."

"Cas Sam's right, you need to stay with us at least while you heal."

Castiel was thinking of whether or not he should stay with the two brothers. He did not want to bother them but if were to go out on his own he most likely would not survive due to his injuries. Besides, he was kind of scared to be alone.

"I accept your offer. Thank you."

"No problem. Cas I'm not usually one for chick flick moments, but if you ever need to talk I'm here for you anytime."

"Thank you."

Dean couldn't help but wonder what was going through Castiel's mind. It had to be some of the most horrible thoughts. Soon everyone except for Castiel was asleep. Castiel went to the bathroom and locked the door. Dean soon woke up with a bad feeling in his gut.

"Cas are you okay in there? Cas?"

Dean got no answer. He picked the lock and what he saw scared him, which happened very rarely. There was blood all over the floor and more coming out of Castiel's wrist, who lay unconscious against the bathtub.

"Sam! Call Dr. Honeycutt right now!"

Sam jumped out of bed and ran to the bathroom to see what hyad Dean so worried. As soon as he saw Castiel laying there he dialed Dr. Honeycutt. Dean shook Castiel.

"Castiel you stay with me! Cas!"