|Mr Durant's Expectations
Author: Yankees01 PM
Bohannan is back, thanks to Durant, and he knew that it would come with certain exceptions. He never expected for this to be one of the exceptions. Will be run again or stay and bend to Durant's will? Char: Bohannan, OC, Elam, Lily, Durant, and othersRated: Fiction T - English - Drama/Romance - C. Bohannon & T. Durant - Chapters: 14 - Words: 14,798 - Reviews: 28 - Favs: 2 - Follows: 5 - Updated: 01-14-13 - Published: 09-22-12 - id: 8547410
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I walked into the saloon and Sean saw me. He walked over and pulled me out the door.
"Yeh don't belong in there." He said and I smirked.
"Right, because you know me." I said and sighed.
"Look, yeh are a nice girl. Go to church or something." He said and I shook my head no. I attempted to walk past him, but he stopped me.
"Mickey doesn't like yeh, yeh have no business with him, and he's not who yeh need." He said and I was getting frustrated.
"What do you know?" I asked him.
"That Mickey is getting paid to talk to yeh, that Lily wants Bohannon, and that yeh don't belong here. Yeh are a proper lady. This isn't a place for yeh." He said and I felt the tears in my eyes as he spoke to me. I knew that most of it was true, but I didn't want to hear it.
"Why do you care? You won't even fight for Ruth." I said and he smirked.
"She won't have me… Ah won't wait for her anymore." He said and I nodded.
"We have something in common." I mumbled and turned to leave.
"Wait… I will get a bottle. Yeh look like yeh can use it." He said and disappeared into the saloon. I contemplated walking away, but he returned with a bottle.
"Come on." He said and took my arm. I didn't know where we were going, but it felt like no one would miss me if something horrible were to happen.
I sat there and waited… but Anne didn't come back. I sighed and knew that I had taken my frustrations out on her. She was trying to help, but I wasn't used to that since Mary had died.
I waited, but she didn't come back. I knew that she didn't know a lot of people. I also didn't want the men to take her thinking she was a whore. I grabbed my belt, slipped it on, and walked out of the car. I saw the men changing watch, so I knew that it was late.
I was walking past the places I thought that she would go, but I hadn't found her yet. I sighed and looked towards Lily's car, it was dark, so was Bohannon's. I couldn't search every tent, but the idea had crossed my mind.
I was heading behind the saloon when I heard someone struggling. I walked towards the sound and it was coming from the area of the jail car. I made my way towards it and realized that it was Anne.
I ran over there to fine Sean pressing Anne up against the car. She was trying to push him off, but not succeeding. I grabbed him and threw him off. She sunk to the ground and I locked him into the car.
I quickly picked her up and pulled her to me. I carried her to the car and sat her on the bed. She was upset and crying. I looked down at her. She looked more vulnerable than she had the night the Indians attacked.
"I don't need to be here. No one wants me here." She mumbled and I sighed.
"Why do you think that?" I asked her.
"Because, Sean told me that Mickey is only talking to me because of my uncle, you don't want me, Lily hates me because of you, and I don't even belong here." She said with a sob.
"I like having you here." I admitted softly.
"No, you don't. You want me to go back to New York. I am just in your way." She said.
"No, I don't. I was angry." I said and she sighed. She got up and pushed me away.
"You are always angry then!" she said and started to hit me. I captured her arms as I pulled her close me.
"I am angry, but it's not at you." I said and she struggled out of my grasp.
"Then what! Because I'm something you can't have?" she said and I sighed.
"No! Because you are what I miss! You are innocent. You are everything I was before the war, before they killed my family, and before I forgot how to be human." I admitted to her.
"So, what? You just want to be an ass all the time? You like having people fear and hate you?" she asked me.
"It's better to be feared than loved." I mumbled.
"No, it's not… no wonder everyone thinks what they do about you! You are just a gun for hire without a care for anyone but yourself. Lily can have you!" she screamed at me.
I couldn't believe that I was having this conversation with Bohannon. He really was the cold-hearted ass Lily had mad him out to be. I thought she was saying that to keep me away, but no he really was just that.
"What?" he asked me.
"It's no secret that Lily loathes and craves you in the same second. She is the only reason that you got where you are now. I figured that you sleeping with her would have gotten you a better job on the railroad by now… but, at least you didn't have to pay for her." I said and he was seething at this point.
"I didn't sleep with her for the pay." He said. I smirked. I wanted to believe him, but I didn't care anymore. I knew that I didn't belong here.
I realized that Anne wasn't happy right now. I didn't know what to do, but I knew that some of this might be my fault.
"Right, and I didn't come out here to hide from my past… I know that's the reason that you are here. I guess that's the reason that we are all here. I know that now." She said and stood up. I had to admit that this conversation that gone to a place that I never wanted it to go.
"Don't worry, Mr. Bohannon. I will be gone tomorrow. You can go back to sleeping with whomever you like, I will be a faded memory, and my uncle will be happy that I am no longer a distraction." She said. She was very unsteady at the moment.
"Or, I could just fix it now." She said and grabbed the knife. I wasn't quick enough as she pressed the blade to her wrist. I grabbed it, but she had managed to draw blood.
"No, you stupid girl." I quickly tied cloth around her wrist.
"Just let me go… I don't want to be here. No one wants me. My family sent me away because someone raped me, my father died when I was younger and my mother blamed me for it, and I will never be good enough for anyone." She said.
"No, you don't deserve this." I told her as I held her to me. She was struggling, but I wasn't going to let her go. I had been in that state after my family had died. I had to pull myself out of it… I wasn't going to let her to that to herself.
"Yes, I do!" she cried.
"No, Anne, you don't." I said and I pulled her face to mine. I wanted her to understand that I was serious. I looked into her eyes and saw sadness, loneliness, and contempt for the things around her. I realized that her feelings mirrored my own. She was more than I ever realized.
I was looking into his eyes. I saw as much pain as I held in mine. I knew that he might be the person that understood, but that's only if he wanted to be that person. I hoped that he would be.
I was lost in his eyes when he pressed his lips to mine. I was surprised, but at the same time… I felt something I hadn't in a long time. I felt right, accepted, and where I was supposed to be.
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