Hi Everyone, I know it all seems pretty doom and gloom at the minute in this story but its a hard storyline to follow but I hope you'll all stick with it :) Thank you for the kind reviews and messages please keep them coming I really love knowing what you think and having your support :) Thank you again and I hope you all enjoy!

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Emily did as she said she would, she spent the next few days in her room on the phone or on her laptop sorting out the funeral. The date was set and it would take place in a week's time. She never once asked for anyone's help or their option on anything, Alice had been her baby and it was she who would decide what happened when they laid her to rest. Emily was completely numb to the fact that everyone else was hurting around her too. Naomi stayed with her every night it was like she had basically moved into the Fitch house. Emily wasn't bothered if the blonde was there or not, the red couldn't see how selfish and careless she was being. Her pain seemed too much for anything else to matter. Even though Naomi was around they didn't speak much, Naomi would ask Emily things and say stuff and Emily would simply agree or disagree. The blonde of course didn't want to fight with the red she knew this was an awful time for her, but she wished that Emily would acknowledge that she wasn't the only one suffering from Alice's death. Naomi understand that the pain must be worse for Emily more than anyone else, but that didn't stem the fact that others suffered too. Katie and James had lost a niece, Jenna and Rob a granddaughter and she herself even though she was no true relation to Alice felt like she'd lost a daughter too. Naomi never even dared to compare her pain to Emily's she knew that would only head her down a dangerous road. When she had first saw Alice and when that little girl had took hold of her finger Naomi's fears had faded her heart had melted and she loved her she loved that little girl so much.

Naomi lay back at home in her bath staring at the ceiling. She had just needed to get out of the Fitch household for awhile to dwell in her own thoughts. She'd ran a nice hot bath and put in some bubbles to relax. The warm water covered her skin nicely easing some of her stress. The foamy bubbles covered her body so nothing showed apart from her head. She sighed thinking about Emily and her coldness towards other, she thought about Alice, she lay thinking about everything.

A tap at the bathroom door interrupted her thoughts. She glanced over and saw Effy poking her head around the door. "Hey," she said softly, "can I come in?"

Naomi smiled gently, "Yeah," she agreed. She watched Effy come into the bathroom, shut the door and sit down on the side of the bath. "You alright Eff?"

Effy shrugged looking blankly towards the bathroom door, not meet the blonde's gaze. "You know still here," she stated.

Naomi nodded like she knew the feeling. "I don't think anyone is alright,"

Effy nodded her head agreeing with the blonde, "How's Emily?"

Naomi sighed it was hard to explain how Emily was when she herself wasn't exactly sure. "Up and down she isn't exactly saying much,"

"I guess that's to be expected,"

"Yeah I guess so," they sat in silence for awhile it wasn't awkward it was just silent, "why are you here Effy? I mean this could have waited until I was out of the bath," Naomi then pointed out suddenly finding it odd that Effy had took it upon herself to come and have a conversation with her while the blonde was clearly having some alone time. This wasn't like Effy she was normally a good judge of people when they needed space.

Effy sighed lightly and glanced over to the blonde finally meeting her eye contact, "Is this our fault Naomi?" she then asked very poignantly.

Naomi's eyes grew wide and she gulped nervously. Of course the blonde had been thinking the same thing. If they had listen to Emily in the first place then this wouldn't have happened, but the blonde was still convinced Cook was more to blame than them. He didn't need to go off telling Emily, but he did and because of that she felt she had to go with him. "No," Naomi replied in a shaky unconvincing voice.

"You sure about that, because I know I'm not,"

Naomi lowered her gaze sadly, "How can we blame one thing or one person? We all had a role to play in this even Emily herself for agreeing to go with Cook. The person we should be blaming the most though is Josh everyone seems to have forgotten about him," Naomi pointed out swiftly.

"Nobodies forgotten," Effy insisted, "But Emily blames us you know that right?"

Naomi looked back up at Effy tears welling in her eyes. The thought had crossed her mind, but the blonde had tried convincing herself that, that wasn't the case. "Does she?" she mumbled as her voice began to break.

A normal calm and collect Effy was herself finding it hard to battle with her feelings. Tears welling up her eyes felt like an odd thing. "When I go sit with her sometimes, when you or Katie aren't around, I can see it in her eyes. Either she blames me or she blames us,"

Tears dripped down Naomi's cheeks. She had known that Emily held some sort of blame towards them, but she had thought maybe she'd been over thinking things, but now Effy had seen it too the blonde's heart was breaking, breaking the shattered pieces that it had already broken into. "Why hasn't she said anything though? I don't understand,"

Effy looked away, "Either she's waiting for the right moment or she's waiting for us to admit it,"

"I didn't know this would happen, known of us knew this would happen," Naomi said as her tears flow more freely.

"It's not your fault or Katie's, if it's anyone's it's mine," Effy insisted as she stood up sharply. Her eyes did not meet with Naomi's still.

"Effy it's not,"

"I'm really sorry okay," and with that Effy left not saying another word or looking back at the blonde.

"Effy!" Naomi called after her as she sat up right in the bath. She heard the front door open then close. Naomi sunk back down into the water and sobbed.

Katie sat in the kitchen drinking some coffee, while her mum cleaned around trying to keep busy. She was telling Katie about Rob's new gym and how well it was going. On a normal day this sort of thing would have annoyed the crap out of Katie by now, but she could see it was keeping her mum from crying so if it took Katie to listen then that is what she'd do. Jenna wouldn't admit it, but Katie knew her mum had been crying every day since Alice's death whether it had been over Alice herself or the coldness she got from Emily one way or another she'd been crying. Katie had never seen her mum's face so puffy and red all the time; she had no makeup on and didn't leave the house much.

Mid way through their conversation Emily came into the kitchen and got herself a glass of water. "Emily love, you fancying some dinner?" Jenna said in her best happy voice.

Emily shrugged looking completely blank, "Whatever," she replied bluntly.

"I can make you whatever, I don't mind," Jenna stated still smiling still just trying to get through to her daughter a little.

"The funeral place called and said Alice's body will be at the capital of rest the day before the funeral if you want to go and see it," Emily said coldly.

Jenna glanced over at Katie who looked back at her mum seeing the tears in her eyes right away. "Maybe we should all go as a family?" Katie suggested seeing that if her mum had spoken again she'd cry and she knew her mum didn't want to cry again.

Emily frowned at her twin hideously, " It's not a bloody day trip, I'm not going anyway," she stated firmly.

"I didn't say it was," Katie said sternly. "Thought you'd want to go,"

"What to see the body of my dead baby," she snapped.

"Emily it's not like that," Jenna insisted her battle with her tears faded fast.

"No mum it's exactly like that," Emily hissed. "If you want to go and see her body cold in a box you're welcome too, but you can go on your own,"

Jenna tears started to flow then, "Emily you don't need to be so cold about it," she sobbed.

Emily rolled her eyes not looking at all impressed by her mother's tears, "Get a grip mum it's not a sodding fairy tale is it, I'm not going to be all warm and fuzzy about it am I?" she said rather harshly.

Jenna shook her head not being able to bare it anymore she hurried off out of the room and went upstairs. "A bit harsh," Katie snapped deciding to sod being all nicey nice to Emily. Katie knew Emily was in pain, but there was no need to be heartless to the people who cared. To the people who just wanted to help. They were hurting too.

"Well it's the fucking truth," Emily hissed as she glared at Katie.

"I think you're the one who needs to get a fucking grip Emily. I get that you're hurting, but so are we. Mum hasn't done anything wrong so you don't need to be an utter cow to her!" Katie yelled angrily.

"Fuck you Katie," Emily yelled back as she slammed her glass of water down on the side, "I never did anything wrong to her by being gay but it didn't stop her being a fucking cow to me then did it?!"

"That's fucking different Emily and you know it! You're acting like you're the only person hurting and you're not!"

"You're not hurting like I'm fucking hurting Katie you'll never know this fucking pain!" Emily yelled vilely at her twin, "You can't even have kids so you'll never know what it's like to be a mum!"

Katie's jaw almost hit the floor when she heard those words come from her twin in such a horrible way. She knew Emily was hurting but to take such a low blow as that was uncalled for no matter how much pain she was suffering. "Take that back!" Katie insisted through gritted teeth as she gripped her fists together feeling the range build up inside.

"No," Emily said firmly like she didn't care.

"You fucking heartless bitch!" Katie yelled as she lunged at her sister with her fists. Her first punch smacked Emily right across the cheek, Emily was a little taken aback by Katie's attack, but it didn't take long before both girls were punching, biting, slapping and scratching each other.

"Fuck you," Emily yelled as she gripped her nails into Katie's arm.

"Bitch!" Katie yelled back as she pulled at Emily's hair.

Emily slapped Katie's face and bit her arm making her scream. Katie threw more punches, which Emily returned.

"Shit, stop it!" James called as he entered the kitchen to see his sisters fighting. He tried to stop them but he got pushed to ground.

Naomi had just come back by then she walked through the front door to hear crashing coming from the kitchen and James yelling, "Stop it," She dropped her things at the door and dashed to the kitchen to see Katie and Emily in a full on fight. Each of them were bleeding and neither one of them appeared to be thinking of giving up.

The twins were locked together pulling each other's hair and slapping whatever part of their twin that they could. "Jesus Christ, stop this shit!" Naomi yelled as she foolish went to get between them. James hurried to his feet and grabbed hold of a struggling Katie she was screaming and yelling at Emily who was doing the same back.

Naomi pushed Emily backwards to try and get her away from Katie. While James pulled at Katie trying to do the same, but as Naomi pushed Emily away the red went for one last swing for her sister but managed to punch Naomi right in the lip where she had been punched by Josh only a week early. The cut that had been healing nicely burst clean open making her blood pour. Naomi tumbled to the floor in pain as she held her hand over her wound.

Both Emily and Katie stopped swiftly, James let Katie go when she suddenly stopped struggling. All eyes were now on Naomi and the blood that poured from her lip.

"Shit Naomi," Emily said suddenly seeming to have a care about something. She knelt down at Naomi's side and tried to look at the blonde's wound.

"Don't," Naomi said sternly pushing her away.

Emily's eyes welled up, what had she done. ...