Chapter 1

She wasn't the kind to give something up. She would never let go of something so precious, so special to her life. Jade was at the palm of her hand but she let her slip away. She let her go. She didn't know what possessed her to do so; she wishes she did so she could kill it!

"You have to forget about me!" she said wiping away her tears furiously as the rain poured down like a waterfall, soaking her whole body. She couldn't loose her best friend, she wouldn't! Even if it meant loosing her.

"B-but why?" Jade looked so dejected so pained; she didn't know if she could go through with this. Jade has loved her for about two years now, she couldn't just forget about her! Jade's heart clenched tightly as she looked into her brown orbs, her face holding a mixture of pain and confusion.

Jade has told her many times that she loves her, each time getting rejected, but to her it didn't matter as long as she told Tori what she felt hoping that one day Tori would return her affections. So how could she just come to Jade and say this?

"Because you can't be in love with me. You should be with Cat, you should love her not me." she breathed out the words after another heavy thunder was heard. She knew she would regret this, but for right now all she cared about was making her best friend happy again.

Cat had been so depressed and angry at Tori because Jade loved Tori and not her. Cat wouldn't speak to Tori and when she did she seemed so 'out of it' so heartbroken. Tori knew her best friend had a thing for Jade after Beck had moved away. It took Cat awhile to get over the break up but when she did, she was head over heels in love with Jade.

Tori was in a terrible position, knowing that her best friend was in love with Jade while Jade loved Tori. Tori felt like she was in some sort of love triangle and she couldn't take it anymore! Once her best friend found out that Jade was not in love with him.

Cat had accused her best friend of being a 'woman-stealer' and asking her how she could do such a thing. Tori was constantly telling Cat that she didn't see Jade as more than a friend but Tori knew she wasn't only deceiving her best friend but herself.

That is why she was leaving, leaving this place to attend to a college away from California. Away from her friends, her family. If she stayed here she knew Jade would never get over her. She was leaving after today.

"But Tori I told you that I love you, not her." Jade said feeling her heart grow numb. Jade grasped her hand, eyes begging, searching for hers.

"But she loves you! And sh-she belongs with you, I-I don't! You have to understand!" she didn't want to do this, her heart begged her not to, but if her friendship with Cat was going to survive she knew she had to. She looked up into Jade's eyes and what she saw made her want to just break down, but she was strong enough to hold it in atleast until she was out of Jade's sight.

Tori had to tell Jade to let go of her because she knew that Cat was better for her then she would ever be anyways. She had to do this even if it killed her.

"No Tori, you have to understand that I'm not letting you go! I told you multiple times and I'll tell you again I love you!" Jade practically shouted desperately over the pouring rain that felt as if it was getting heavier and windier by each passing minute they stayed in this pained state.

Jade tightens her hold on her hand, her eyes glowing with such passion she herself didn't know she consumed.

Tori closed her eyes shut, breathing in a deep breath and letting it out slowly as she bit her on her lip so hard that she could almost taste her own blood. She wished it didn't have to be so damn hard. Why did she have to fall for Jade? WHY? This would've been so much easier!

She finally opened her eyes slowly meeting Jade's strong gaze and felt herself grow weak. She couldn't do this! She wished she could just run away with her, and forget about everything and let it be only Jade and her in their own world.

But this wasn't any fairytale, oh how she desperately wished it was! But this was reality and most things in life weren't so easy that you could just run away from it. You can't escape from reality!

"I know! I know you love me! And I-I l-love you too!" she shouted back with just as much passion as she finally released fresh tears, staining her porcelain skin freely.

Jade's face instantly changed to a confused one but her eyes still shining with passion. "Then w-why?" she whispers. The rain was too strong so she was unable to hear Jade but she read her lips. She knew Jade was confused and more heartbroken then ever, Jade's face gave it away.

"Because, because! Jade, I-I," Tori sighed, shutting her eyelids tightly for a moment taking another deep breath before continuing. "You'll understand." Was what she could let out. Her tongue not letting her say anything more. She looked into Jade's beautiful Blue-Green eyes with regret filling her own.

This might be the last time she would get a chance like this a moment with Jade so close to her where she could feel her breath tickled her cheek despite the heavy rain hitting them.

With that thought in mind she stood up on the tips of her toes and planted a soft, delicate kiss on Jade's warm lips. Jade wasted no time in wrapping her arms tightly around Tori's back bringing Tori close to her body, kissing her back. Jade knew that this was probably the only chance she was going to get.

Tori didn't plan on this to happen, she wanted to tell Jade this and leave but something brought her to this state. She knew she couldn't last any longer in this embrace so she slowly pushed Jade away from her breathing heavily.

They both stared at each other in silence. Neither wanting to ruined the moment so soon but she knew she had to go. "I promise you'll understand. I love you." Troi pressed her lips onto Jade for probably the last time ever and walked away.

Walked away from her life here in California, walking away from what she was secretly sure was the love of her life.

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