A/N: Hello there, and welcome to the fold! I'd like to give a shout out to Acidic Lover (Aubree) who has taken time in her schedule to be my Beta (Which I seriously needed.)

I hope you're ready to get weirder, sadder and angsty! Because that's what you can expect from Men Of Mayhem!

Stephanie Meyer owns Twilight and their characters. But she wishes she had this story line.

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"There's something you said. A whirlwind, a voice. "Together," you said, but I have no choice. Oh please, stay a while. God, I love your smile"

Angels & Airwaves-"Moon As My Witness."

The snow had kept up for the entire week so far. It was Friday; I had the weekend ahead of me. But as I sat down on Jacob's bed, waiting for him to show, I felt nostalgic almost. The memories of Jacob's room played back. I didn't have that many but the only one that stood out was the evening after the fight where I found Jacob a broken mess of what he once was. That was the fight that had ended everything, it lead to the sacrifice that was made in exchange for my life.

Edward Cullen and his family all risked their lives for mine. Battling an army of newborn vampires and fighting alongside their natural born enemies. The Quileute's fought bravely as did the Cullen's. Victoria, the vampire that had originally set out to kill me in exchange for her mate had found me. There was a fight at the top of the cliff face where I hung for my life.

The wind started to pick up a bit outside, it sounded as if I was there again, adding more elements to the memory.

Alice, Edward's sister and the perky family member of the Cullen's had carried me up the cliff face. Victoria took care of Alice with ease but was unprepared for Edward, who had been scaling the cliff face. With Jacob and Seth's assistance, Edward took care of Victoria, ending the months of panic and fear that had nestled deep into my chest.

I was set free. Both families had risked their lives for mine. They both had sacrificed so much.

Jacob had saved one of his pack brothers from certain demise and in turn had all his bones broken. He made a full recovery. Being a wolf had its perks, but I never left his side and I never will.

I stood up from the bed and walked the short distance to his desk. It was dusty and had old school papers sprawled across it. A detective series that I recognized and a GED test. My eyebrow rose as I lifted the paper. Skimming over it, it seemed Jacob had been a little busy.

I smiled. The fact that he was actually focusing on school had me bursting with joy. School was one of the things we would talk about, and by talk about I meant I would ask him about it, and he'd kiss me to change the subject. I was beginning to worry that he was just going to have the pack be the rest of his life. But as soon as I lifted that paper I felt warmth in my cheeks.

"Aw, I wanted to surprise you."

His voice startled me as I dropped the paper, knocking over the books.

"Oh!" I squeaked.

Jacob laughed as he walked his way over to me, cupping my face, his hand warm and rough. I turned my face against his hand, pressing a kiss inside his palm. My arms wrapped around his waist, pulling myself closer to him.

"Sorry, I was getting restless." I blushed, of course, as I hid my face against his chest. I could smell the pine trees and the ocean breeze through his shirt.

"Well, forgive me for making you become your nosy self." He laughed. "You know, it's not every day you come home and find a beautiful, petite, brunette standing in your room.

I blushed even brighter, if that were possible.

"Shut up, Jake!" I said; my voice muffled in his chest.

Jacob let out his trademark laugh. The silence that followed passed slowly but it wasn't awkward, it wasn't weird or strange. It was perfect.

"So, what's on the agenda?" I finally asked, looking up at him, my chin resting on his chest.

Jake inhaled deeply. He only took in a big lung full of air around me because of my scent. Apparently I smelled really good to him.

I couldn't help but smile at how he got when we first began testing our boundaries.

It wasn't scary, not at first. Jacob showed me how much I could trust him. He wasn't pushy nor was he rough. He was so gentle that it made my body heat up and my breath catch. I remember his lips over my throat, his nose grazing along my chin and into the crook of my neck.

"Bells?"

I remember whispering his name….

"Bells?" Jacob's voice was a little louder with a hint of a laugh.

I blinked owlishly, looking up into his eyes.

"Yes?" My voice was quiet and unsteady.

Jacob just laughed. I didn't even notice he was talking.

"Come on, they're waiting for us down at Emily's." Jacob leaned forward and pressed a kiss to my lips. His lips were soft and warm and it sucked out all the air I had in my lungs. I clung to him.

What was going on with me?

Jacob slowly pulled away, his forehead resting against mine. He licked his lips, as did I. Tasting Jacob only got better and better.

"We should go…"

"Yeah…"

"The guys have been waiting for a while; they just got the fire pit going."

"Yeah…" I breathed. His eyes on mine, they were dark, they looked hungry, like a predator that had cornered its prey. I felt that familiar heat rise in the pit of my stomach.

What was going on with me?

"Jake, we need more skewers; I'm here to take all yours. Where'd you go-"

Embry popped his head in. His eyebrows raised as his eyes darted in every direction but Jake and I's.

"I wish I could say that this is the most awkward situation I've ever been in, but I'd be lying." Embry mumbled as he peeled away at the chipped paint along Jacob's door frame.

My face was on fire, my eyes were shut tight and I hid my face as deep as I could against Jacob's chest.

"Embry…" Jacob growled

"Got it, skewers are in the kitchen!" Embry left before Jacob could fully turn around.

He sighed and turned back to me. The sun shined on his face.

"You ready, honey?" He asked in his Jake voice.

I bit my lip to keep from smiling like a goof and gave a nod 'yes'. His hand wrapped around mine, entwining our fingers as we walked down the hallway. Embry passed across from us as we neared the front door. A twenty four pack of Mountain Dew, three bags of Doritos and the skewers placed in his mouth strategically.

"'M 'akin' these 'oo." Embry mumbled with the skewers in his mouth, leaving through the front door.

Jacob sighed and shook his head.

"It wouldn't be a day at La Push without Embry Call."

I laughed and snuggled closer to Jacob as we walked down the road to Emily's.

Emily's house was well decorated. Christmas lights lined up and down on the forest trees that surrounded the small house. From inside, I could hear loud commotions and I could see the large shadows of the pack members walking around. Billy and Charlie where on the front porch with beers in their hands, they were laughing about something. Perhaps a joke only they would understand.

Sue walked out with a tray of her oatmeal raisin cookies. I could smell them from where Jacob and I were standing.

"This place looks so different. I never took the whole pack for the holiday type." I laughed a bit at seeing Paul walk out with a Santa hat on his head.

"I don't know what it is. I guess it was the whole fight. I mean, with Victoria and the Cullen's both gone, we've got nothing to worry about. For the first time ever, we can relax and enjoy our lives." Jacob smiled. "Come on, we're going to miss out on the food."

If Thanksgiving wasn't enough, for Christmas we made another feast fit for a small army. There were massive helpings of ham, turkey, mashed potatoes and gravy. The smell hit me as I walked up the steps and I heard my stomach growl. It had been a little while since I last ate.

Jacob slowly turned to me with his eyebrow raised, amusement clear on his face.

"That's a first." He laughed.

"Shut. Up, Jake!" I mumbled. I was blushing as the door swung out and nearly took me out.

Leah stared back at me.

"Oh, it's you." She spat at me curtly.

"Hi, Leah." I said softly. There was no surprise that Leah Clearwater intimidated me.

Her eyes looked away from me to Jacob.

"Leah." He said simply.

Leah scoffed and shook her head. Her face twitched as her eyes narrowed.

"Still?" She said dryly.

"Leah, just stop…" Jacob took in a sharp breath before letting it out. I felt him tense; his hand let go of mine. I saw his shoulders shake ever so slightly. It had been months since I had seen him do that.

I watched the exchange intently. I had no idea what was going on between the two of them but one thing was for sure, it was bad. Jacob didn't want to press the issue and I felt that bad feeling. The bad feeling I hadn't felt in so long began to rise up in the pit of my stomach.

Leah scoffed again and shook her head. Charlie had noticed the situation between the three of us and gave us his attention. Leah had noticed it as well. She put on a smile but anyone who saw her could tell it was forced and fake.

"Happy holidays you two!" Her voice was strained with fake enthusiasm. So thick, Charlie raised an eyebrow while tilting his head back.

"Mistletoe, Jake." Leah spat before she walked off into the woods.

I looked up and found the mistletoe. Jacob smiled and looked away shyly. My cheeks turned that bright pink as my eyes found the floor.

"Come on, son! Give her a little kiss!" Billy's voice bellowed.

Jacob and I shot our shocked faces towards Billy who was raising his beer in cheers. Charlie turned to Billy. Charlie's face was a certain shade of red and Billy just shrugged.

"It's a holiday tradition, Charlie! Come on!"

Charlie sighed and looked away from Jake and I. No need to go into how awkward this was.

But Jacob smiled and brought me closer to him. He was such a gentlemen, it wasn't as intimate as we had been. He held me in his arms and leaned in as I stepped up onto my tiptoes. He pressed his lips to mine softly and gingerly.

I still felt my head spin and the butterflies act up in my stomach.

The sun shined at that moment in the evening and I felt my world rotate completely. It was complete. As I leaned back on my heels, Jacob nuzzled his nose against mine. I giggled, placing my hand on his chest.

"We're talking about that later." I said softly. Leah had meant something in that little act and I wanted to know. I kept my smile bright but my eyes were wide with a stern stare. My eyebrows rose after the few seconds passed with no response from Jacob.

Eventually he gave a slow nod.

"Alright, let's just have some fun first, huh?" Jacob smiled his sun filled smile. It gave me a little relief. If he wasn't worried about it, then it probably wasn't something to worry about.

I noticed Charlie's face had calmed from that bright red to a more natural color; he was smiling. It was no secret that Charlie favored Jacob. He knew him, he trusted him. But in the end, I was still his daughter and that complicated any kind of relationship, no matter how old it may be. He had at least told me he was glad I had ended up with Jacob rather than Edward.

Edward….

I was bombarded by a fury of giants. They had on their holiday best: worn but fancy dress shoes, button up shirts with ties and dress slacks.

"Hey, Bella!"

"Bella! Come help me clear this plate of bean dip!"

"Jacob, you're hogging her! Let her breathe!"

I heard Jacob growl and I gave him a gentle nudge in his ribs. The rambling continued.

"Quill, will you stop pacing-YOU'RE FREAKING MY SHIT OUT!"

"The casserole will be finished soon and I want first dibs!"

"Jake, come show Embry exactly how to shotgun a beer."

"Who said you boys could drink?!" Emily's voice came in from the kitchen.

"Not like it matters, we sweat out any buzz we would get."

This place was utter chaos. I loved my family. I turned to Jacob who had the same expression on as I did, bewildered and adoring.

"This is the family you're stuck with. Especially Embry, there's no returning him. We've tried."

"I like it just the way it is, thank you; my handsome boyfriend." It felt strange once I first said it. The idea of us, Jake and me officially in a couple, a relationship, boyfriend and girlfriend, was such a shocking reality at first but it became a routine pattern. We rarely called each other by the title but we hadn't really said the L word since the night I laid down with him after the fight.

We didn't want to jinx anything. So, instead of saying that four-lettered word, we simply called each other by those titles. Sure, it was a little cheesy and very junior high of us. But that's what Jake and I were, cheesy and just ourselves with everything.

"We'll good, because you're stuck with me to; my beautiful girlfriend." He leaned down and pressed a chaste kiss to my lips. I almost giggled loud enough for everyone to hear. With their super wolf hearing, I wouldn't be surprised if they did.

Blushing and looking at the floor, I made my way towards Emily and Sue. Jake had wandered off to the back with Embry and Quil.

After dinner we all made our way to the backyard where the bonfire had rose quite extremely. Quill and Embry were on the other side of the pit closest to the tree line debating on which log to throw into the growing flame. I snuggled further into Jacob's side. Jacob was laughing at his two best friends.

Charlie walked passed us as he pushed Billy around in his wheelchair.

"Alright, the old folks are heading home. It's past our bed time." Charlie said with a grunt while he lifted Billy onto the back patio.

"Charlie, it's only nine thirty." Quill said as he tossed a log into the fire, backing away rather quickly.

"Oh, wow, its way past our bed time." Billy said with a nod. "Good night, party animals. Don't stay up too late and don't you dare burn down the forest! I'm talking to you Embry Call and Quill Atera!" Billy turned in his chair as he stared back at the boys who backed away slowly.

We all laughed and said our good nights to Billy and Charlie.

"Jake, have her home by one, huh?" Charlie gave a nod with his smile slightly crooked. He must really trust Jake.

"Yeah, Charlie, you got it." Jacob smiled and gave a nod. Men and their male bonding methods, I don't think I'll ever understand the head nod.

Jacob laid back in the lawn chair and I scrambled onto his lap. His arms wrapped around me. He felt so warm and with the snow still slightly falling, it made the cold more than bearable. I rested my head along his broad shoulder and took in the woodsy scent as my I nuzzled my face into the crook of his neck.

"Comfy?" He laughed.

"Yeah, a pillow and a book wouldn't hurt though." I joked.

Everyone around us had simply disappeared. Quill and Embry had probably gone off to find more wood. Paul, Jared and Seth were in the kitchen. I could hear the clinking of plates. Next to us were Emily and Sam. Sitting next to each other, Emily's head on Sam's shoulder and his lips press a soft kiss to her cheek. Even in the light of the fire I could see her blush.

Emily's eyes caught mine. She smiled like I did, except her smile faded as she turned to Sam who looked away from Emily towards Jacob. Their exchange was a little tense. I felt Jacob stiffen under me and I heard his breath catch. I moved my head from his shoulders and peered into his eyes.

"Are you OK?" My voice was quiet. My eyes narrowed and I felt light as a feather. I felt that horrible feeling again.

Sam and Emily stood up. Emily's eyes, they scared me. They weren't the kind and loving eyes I was used too; they were filled with guilt and worry.

"We'll just be inside. We have to start cleaning up." Emily smiled but it was so weak that it only made me worry even more.

Soon enough it was just Jacob and me. The fire had simmered to a smaller flame and the snow had stopped. It was quiet; we could hear the wind and the waves crash down at First Beach. The sound of Jacob's silence was becoming louder and all it did was made me bite harder on my bottom lip.

"Jake-"

"I need to tell you something…" Jacob said as he took in a deep breath.

I felt that horrible feeling crawl up my stomach and into my chest.

Jacob shifted so that he was facing me. I kept my eyes on him, trying my hardest not to cry. I saw the pain in his eyes and for the first time in the months since the fight, I was scared.

"What is it, Jake?" My voice was barely audible.

"It's a wolf thing, there's really no way around it." Jacob's voice was shaky. Maybe there was something to worry about.

"It's called imprinting…and it's nothing to worry about!" There was just something in his voice that I had trouble believing.

"It's where our wolves choose our… soul mates. The wolf picks them and we have no other option but to go with it, it's like we're forced into loving someone we just met. It could be someone visiting from out of state and once one us lays eyes on her, boom, soul mates."

Jacob was frustrated. He always furrowed his eyebrows leaving on slight up and his lip tucked to the side. It was actually pretty adorable. But now, I felt everything hit me all at once.

Soul mates. Love.

"Is it like a big boom or… do you know if you've imprinted on someone?" I managed to speak which surprised the heck out of me.

Jacob's face turned into stone and I felt my heart sink when I saw his eyes. Pain and sadness and anger and all I wanted to do was kiss him and tell him it would be Ok, but I didn't even know if I was going to make it out of this one.

"You haven't imprinted on me, have you?" I asked shakily.

Jacob's head turned in a slow 'No.'.

My heart hit the bottom of my stomach and stayed there. I felt ill, like I was going to throw up right here and now. I needed to find my bearings and I needed to focus. But the harder I tried the more the world seemed to spin.

"I've only seen it through Sam's eyes really-"

"He's imprinted on Emily?" I asked, Jacob gave a nod 'Yes.' I started to fidget with the buttons on my pea coat. "Jacob, who else… who else has imprinted?" I didn't dare to look into his eyes; I already felt warm tears falling down my cheek.

Jacob let out a big breath. Time seemed to move slowly at this moment which made my nerves ache.

"Sam, Jared, and Quill." Jacob's voice was rough. It was hesitant and nervous.

A breath escaped me, shooting out between my lips. I did the math in my head. Three out of seven wolves have found their soul mates and I'm dating, no, in love with one of the remaining four.

"How often does this happen, I mean, does everyone go through imprinting?" This time I looked Jacob in his eyes. My own eyes filled with tears and falling down my cheeks as I hiccupped, a lump stuck in my throat. The fear of losing Jacob had become so real in a matter of minutes.

Jacob's eyes left mine, his eyes on the dying fire. His face was twisted in pain and questioning. He looked so angry that I wanted to hold him and just take this all away. But I couldn't lie to myself; this was going to be an issue. I was up so high, I should have known there would be no other way to go but down.

"Not really, not all that often." Jacob whispered.

There was something in his voice that made my nerves ache even worse.

"There are seven of us and only three have imprinted. The time it took for them to imprint were months in between each other. And the odds of me imprinting are really slim."

I tilted my head in question. I sniffled and wiped my nose on my sleeve.

"What do you mean?" I asked with my voice thick from crying.

Jacob leaned forward and gently pressed his head against mine, peering into my eyes. He cupped the side of my face with his hand. I turned slightly and kissed the inside of his palm weakly.

"Tell me, Jake…" I whispered.

"The Alpha's bloodline shows no indication of an imprint." Jacob bit his bottom lip before he continued. "My bloodline, there's never been an imprint. So there's a chance I'll never imprint on anyone." Jacob's eyes were now filled with hope, hope that slowly started to fill my heart.

I slowly started to feel my smile return. It was weak at first, but as Jacob started to smile, the easier it was for me.

"So there's more of a chance of you not imprinting than the chance of you actually imprinting?" I smiled this time.

"Yeah…." His smile wasn't exactly as bright as I had hoped, but it must have been the nerves slowly leaving him.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled him closer to me. My lips crashed into his, hungry to taste him again, he allowed it all. His hands slid up, under my jacket and then under my shirt against my bear skin. I shivered at his touch, I clung closer to him. He kissed me back just as hungrily. I never wanted to let go of Jacob Black. I had the biggest scare of it all happen and all I wanted was him; all of him.

I just wish he had told me sooner rather than now….

I slowed the pace down and pulled away, out of breath.

"Jacob? How long have you know about the imprinting?" I asked, searching his eyes that wouldn't look into mine.

"How long have you know, Jacob?" I asked again, more demanding.

Jacob looked down and huffed.

"It doesn't matter, Bella. It's not going to happen-"

"You've known all along and now you decide to tell me? We've been together for five months, going on six and you now decide to tell me about a risk in our relationship where I could lose you forever?!" I exclaimed, jumping off Jacob's lap.

He stood and ran his hand through his hair, frustrated again. He bit down on the corner of his bottom lip.

"Bella, it doesn't matter. I told you the chances of it happening-"

"But there's still a chance of it happening!" I cried, my voice high enough to get his full attention.

Jacob Black, I never wanted to see him in such pain like this ever again.

"Bella…" Jacob spoke softly.

"Take me home, Jacob." I wanted to go home. I could lose him, there was still a chance, and I needed time to think about this.

Jacob sighed and took a step forward towards me. I took a step back.

"Bells…"

"Now, Jacob, Take me home now!" I cried again. I couldn't handle all of this. He couldn't tell me this any sooner, he decided to wait till our sixth month of dating to surprise me with 'Hey! Just thought I'd let you know I might leave you suddenly just like the other guy!'

His face fell as if he had heard my thoughts, my heart hurt. The fire had died out at this point and the snow began to fall again. I slowly shuffled behind him towards the Rabbit and got in once he opened the door for me.

The drive home was quiet; he ran the heater like he always did, knowing how cold it was and how easy it was for me to get cold. I would notice him looking over towards me out of the corner of my eye but I didn't dare look back at him. I had to keep the tears away from him.

He was keeping secrets from me and that was never what we did. If something happened, if it was important, we would tell each other. Not like this, not wait it out and make it even worse. Even if the odds were greater that he wouldn't imprint on anyone, the sinking feeling came back with the realization that there were still odds that he could very well find that someone and leave me forever.

We got to my house and Jacob parked out front. There was silence as he cut the engine.

"Bella, please-" Jacob tried to talk to me but I was out the Rabbit door and slamming it shut in almost inhuman time. I didn't even stop to look back.

"Bells, wait!" Jacob raised his voice to try to get my attention. But I had the house door open and closed before he could close his door to the Rabbit.

I shot up the stairs and went straight to my room, kicking off my shoes and looking out the window.

The rabbit was gone.

I fell onto my bed and gripped the blankets, holding the pillow to my face.

I didn't want my cries to wake up Charlie.

A/N: So, there it is. REVIEWS! REVIEWS! REVIEWS! I love those, they're awesome. Specially when they're nice and make me feel cool!

Poor Bella, right? There's some fucked up shit going on with Jacob. He's for sure in the dog house (ZING!) I wonder what will happen next!

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And, like usual. Here's some music:

Vampire Weekend-"Holiday"
(Walking up to the house, Christmas and good times.)

The Killers-"Be Still"
(The imprint talk, not so good times.)