A week passed and I had been turned down by 11 agencies- I only had a tiny part in a TV show as a guy in a crowd, which paid 50 bucks. Actually, some of the modeling jobs were interested, but they were in foreign countries like the Netherlands.

"Gosh- this is horrible." I groaned at Carlos's apartment, as we all sat in his living room eating a pizza one afternoon. "I just want Bella back!"

"Don't worry! There's still one more place to call and they'll do it today." Logan reassured.

"I really hope you're right." I sighed.

"Don't worry- Logan's ALWAYS right." Carlos shrugged. "Why don't we go to the beach or something?"

"How could I go to the beach when I've got a daughter to get home?" I groaned.

"Ya- besides, I've gotta date." Kendall piped up. "I couldn't go anyway."

"OOOH- a DATE?" Logan teased.

"With who?" Carlos asked.

"Jett." Kendall said casually, excitedly.

"It's about damn time." Carlos scoffed. Wait- what? Kendall's going on a date with JETT? But Jett's a-

"But Jett's a GUY." I said, puzzled. The guys looked at me, then Logan started laughing, then Carlos and Kendall joined. I just stared at them, confused.

"I guess I never said anything about it, did I?" Kendall finally said. "James, I'm GAY." I looked blankly at him, not entirely sure what to say.

"Oh." was all I could think to say.

That night, I sat alone in my apartment eating a sub from Subway. I left the guys alone at Carlos's after Kendall's big news, because I could tell my silence was making things awkward. I had never really been associated with a gay person before- I had no idea how to react.

Finally, my phone rang. It was an unknown number- must be the final recording studio.

"Hello?" I answered, nervous.

"Hi, is this James Diamond?" the woman asked.

"Yes."

"We'd just like to let you know that although we were VERY interested in your singing talents, we chose someone else. It was a very close competition, really." the woman said, and my heart officially broke.

"Thank you." I grumbled and hung up. I slowly laid my head on the table and decided to sulk. My phone rang yet again. It was Bella.

"Hey, Belly." I answered sadly.

"Hi, Daddy!" she said, almost equally as sad.

"What's wrong, baby?" I asked.

"Nothin'- I just miss you a lot." she said.

"I miss you, too."

"Can I come home soon?"

"I'm sorry, Punkin, I'm working as fast as I can, but it's hard. You're gonna have to hang in there for me, okay?"

"Okay." she sulked. This killed my soul.

"Hey- come down to Logan's!" Carlos said the next afternoon when he called.

"I dunno- I'm kinda down today..." I said- I was still moping.

"Even more of a reason!" Carlos chimed. "So c'mon or we'll come down there and crash your little sulk parade."

I sighed and agreed, slipping on some jeans, running my fingers through my hair and walking through the door.

"So why's everyone so mopey today?" Logan asked, confused, as I entered. Kendall was face-down on the couch, an arm over the edge. Carlos and Logan were at the table, where I joined, putting my head on the table.

"Jett hates me." Kendall said into the cushion. "And I'm a useless piece of shit."

"What? But how could ANYONE hate you? You're Kendall Knight!" Carlos said. Kendall slowly sat up, facing us, hugging his knees.

"So we went out, right?" Kendall began. "It was all cool and I thought I was going somewhere with him. I paid for dinner and brought him back to his apartment. WELL, I tried to kiss him, cause it went so well. He turned his face away and told me I was a 'nice guy, but he wasn't into me'. I asked him out again and he said he wasn't interested, then just left me there alone in the hallway. Do you KNOW how long I've had a crush on that boy? Christ! He hates me!"

"Look- I didn't wanna say anything, but he's totally not your type." Logan said. "You need a nice beanie-wearing, guitar playing guy."

"Ya- totally." Carlos said. "I wouldn't worry about it. So what about you, James?"

"I'm never getting my daughter back." I groaned.

"What? Why?" Carlos asked, alarmed.

"Cause the last place called last night. Said it was close, but I didn't get it."

"That's dumb. You're an awesome singer!" Logan said.

"Apparently not awesome enough." I sighed. "And Bella called me, about to CRY because she wanted to come home. I dunno what to do."

"You try again." Logan said.

"I'm not good enough!"

"I've got an idea. Kendall, you gotta listen, too." Carlos said. Kendall snapped out of his trance to look at us.

"We form a singing GROUP. The four of us."

"What? That's crazy." Logan said.

"C'mon- everyone thought we were good that night at the pool! And we HAVE to get Bella back!" Carlos argued. "We should try!"

"I dunno..." I said doubtfully.

"I think it's a good idea." Kendall piped up. "We're good."

"We could audition with Some Nights- we already know we're good at that." Carlos said.

"No- we're gonna have to find a song that we can break down into individual parts- so that the judges can see our individual talents." Logan said.

"Worldwide." I said absently. They all looked at me. "It's the song I wrote for Alex that I've been auditioning for. It's perfect for breaking down."

"You want us to sing the song you wrote for your dead girlfriend?" Carlos asked, but Logan threw an empty bottle at him.

"It'll be okay. I need paper- got any notebooks or anything?" I asked. Once I was given a notebook and pen, I wrote down the verses- one for each line.

"Okay. So Logan's got kind of a higher voice, right?" I asked. Logan shrugged and nodded. I thought about all the verses and which could be transposed to a higher pitch, then wrote an L next to them.

"And Kendall?" I asked.

"I can do it all." he shrugged.

"I'm best at mid-parts- not so good at low." Carlos said.

"Okay..." I noted and was silent for a while as I assigned each verse to someone. It took about half an hour, and the guys chatted as I did it. Finally, I was finished and looked a the finished product. Then, I realized they didn't know how this song went. This was gonna take some work.

We were at Logan's til 1 am that night, getting the basics of the song. Sure- it woulda been easier to choose a song that all of us knew, but the originalness would make us stand out more. Logan said that he'd book us auditions for the day after the next, so we only had one more day to perfect it. I was excited- once we started singing, I realized that we were really good and might actually have a chance at getting a record label.

And thus Big Time Rush was born. :D

So is anyone even still reading this? Cause I haven't gotten any reviews for a while and I feel like the plot has fallen flat and everyone just stopped reading. (0.0) If nobody's reading, I have a bunch of ideas for a new series...