Author: rlassie PM
Lindsey Ludlow finds the love of a lifetime only to have it all taken away. When an opportunity for her to get it back presents itself, she jumps at the chance. Unfortunately not everyone can get what they want. Will it turn out the way she hopes? Or will the fates turn around and screw her over once again? AU Chris/OC T for slight swearing and life's twists and turns.Rated: Fiction T - English - Romance/Angst - Chris H. - Chapters: 28 - Words: 114,406 - Reviews: 115 - Favs: 26 - Follows: 32 - Updated: 05-10-13 - Published: 02-16-13 - Status: Complete - id: 9016461
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Disclaimer: Don't own anything apart from the plot and Lindsey
Chapter One – Wearing your heart on your sleeve.
Lindsey Ludlow stood in front of the blank wall in the attic of the Halliwell Manor, impatiently tapping her foot as the youngest Charmed One drew a triquetra on it in the slowest manner possible. In her head, she knew Paige really wasn't moving incredibly slowly just to annoy her. But to a 20 year old girl who was very anxious to get to the man she loved, it certainly felt like she was. Her gaze bored into the older woman's back as she continued to move at a snails pace, trying with everything she had to get her to hurry up. She wanted out of there now. She wanted to step through the portal and into his arms and she really wanted to never leave them again. Lindsay sighed and ran a hand through her waist length riot of thick coffee and cream coloured curls. She wasn't even sure if that was going to happen. She had no idea if he was going to remember her or not. She just really had to cling onto the fact that he'd promised he would. That he'd said he'd never forget her. And now she had even more reason to take that chance. She had to believe him. Her hand unconsciously drifted down and settled protectively over her flat stomach. She really didn't have any other choice. Not that she'd had one before this turn of events anyway… She sighed and shook her head and since the tapping and staring weren't working, she gave up on them and began to pace instead. She stopped suddenly when she felt someone touch her shoulder.
"Lindsey, sweetie, calm down. She's almost done. We'll get you there in no time, don't worry" Phoebe said in a soothing voice and Lindsey turned towards her and grimaced.
"Sorry I just really want to see him you know" she said quietly and Phoebe gave her a sympathetic, understanding smile.
"We know honey. But wearing a hole in the floor isn't going to make it happen any faster."
Lindsey sighed and was about to answer her when Paige stepped back and dusted off her hands.
"Done. Now let's get this show on the road shall we?" she said and Lindsey turned toward the Book of Shadows, watching eagerly as all three of the Charmed Ones lined up behind it. Her impatience quadrupled as they flicked through the pages to find the right spell. Why hadn't they done that before? She ran a hand through her hair again and had Piper looking up in amusement. She stared at the girl for a second and then frowned.
"Hey are you feeling okay?" she asked her and as the other two sister's heads came up, Lindsey looked at her in confusion.
"What do you mean? I feel fine" she said. Piper continued to frown.
"You keep clutching your stomach. You're not feeling sick are you?" she asked and Lindsey's gaze flew downward. She was indeed still holding her stomach. Lindsey quickly removed her hand and threw Piper an innocent smile.
"I'm fine just a little nervous I guess" she said in an overly bright voice. Piper narrowed her eyes at her. Lindsey gulped and dropped her gaze.
"I really am fine Piper" she said in a shifty voice. She hated lying. But there should only be one person she should be telling this to at the moment. And he wasn't here anymore. He was twenty years in the future or there abouts. Her head came up and she began tapping again.
"The spell?" she asked impatiently and the three Halliwell sisters turned back to the Book again. They flipped a few more pages and then stopped.
"Ah here it is. And I was right; you do need the Power of Three. That's why it didn't work when Chris tried it by himself. Told you so" Paige said smugly to Piper. Piper glared at her and Lindsey rolled her eyes.
"Guys please?" she said, her voice bordering on pleading. The Charmed Ones looked at her again and their gazes softened at the desperation in her face.
"Okay Lindsey, go stand in front of the wall" Piper said. Lindsey did as she was told. "You ready?" she asked her. Lindsey nodded uncertainly. Just as the sister were about to recite the spell, she suddenly spun back around.
"Wait" she said and the Charmed Ones stopped and looked at her. She smiled at them shyly.
"I just want to thank you for everything you guys have done for me. You've always been there for me. Ever since I was little girl and my dad and I moved in across the street, you guys have always given up your own time to help me deal with my problems. And then when my dad died and I came into my powers… well I can't even imagine where I'd be now if Prue hadn't convinced Grams to take me in. You guys didn't even know the full extent of what I was going through until Phoebe released your own powers. But you still stuck by me. You've never once let me down and I love you all so much for it" she said earnestly.
The sisters all stared back at her until Phoebe moved first. Tears filled her eyes and she rushed around from the behind the Book and threw her arms around Lindsey.
"Oh sweetie we love you too and I will miss you sooo much" she said while squeezing the younger woman as tight as she could. Lindsey sniffed and hugged her back.
"I'll miss you too Phoebe. Thanks for helping me through my early teens. It would've been so much harder without you there explaining everything" she said with a smile. Phoebe grinned back at her.
"Hey what can I say, I've always loved guiding people" she said and Lindsey laughed. "You give that nephew of mine a hard hug from me when you see him okay?" she said and Lindsey grinned and nodded. Phoebe stepped back to let her younger sister through.
"Aw, here comes the hugging part" Paige said, making Lindsey laugh again as she pulled her into her arms. Lindsey hugged her in return and then pulled back.
"You really are a good friend Paige. Thanks for helping me sort everything out at the beginning of the year. I wouldn't be standing here hopefully stepping towards my future if it wasn't for you." Paige scoffed.
"Aw come on now dude, course you would. You two are meant for each other. Anyone can see that" she said and Lindsey smiled sadly. Not everyone she thought with a glance at the person who hopefully one day would be her mother-in-law. Piper hadn't moved which caused Lindsey to frown.
"Piper?" she asked a little hesitantly. Piper sighed and stepped towards her. She reached up and brushed the hair out of Lindsey's eyes.
"Prue and Grams would be proud of you, you know. So would your dad. No not would be. They are proud of you" she said quietly and Lindsey smiled. She took a step forward and tentatively put her arms around her. She took a deep breath and closed her eyes.
"I'm sorry for not being the type of person you wanted your son to fall for" she whispered and felt Piper freeze in her arms. She suddenly felt herself being jerked backwards.
"What are you talking about; you're not the person I wanted him to be with? Whatever gave you that idea?" she demanded urgently. Lindsey bit her lip and looked at the ground.
"You didn't really approve when we first started seeing each other. I know that. And you never really said anything different" she whispered again. Piper sighed, reached over and drew Lindsey's chin up so that she was looking into her eyes.
"Lindsey, you are everything I could ever possibly want for my son. Everything about you is right for him. And I know I didn't approve at first, but I soon changed my mind. You know why? Because you made him happy. Anyone who does that is good in my books because he really needed some happiness in his life. But it being you just makes it even better. I know you and I know you would never hurt him. I'm sorry I gave you the impression that you weren't good enough for him. If anything, he's probably not good enough for you. And if Leo was able to be here, he would be agreeing with me wholeheartingly" she said simply.
Lindsey blinked at her, sighed in relief and then threw her arms around her again.
"Thank you" she breathed and Piper brushed her hand down her hair.
"No thank you" she whispered back. "For that happiness I mentioned. Oh, and make sure you take care of that grandchild of mine you're carrying okay?" Lindsey froze and Piper chuckled.
"What? You thought I wouldn't notice? I've had two babies myself Lindsey. I know the signs. I know when someone is expecting. Especially if it's someone I've known most of their life." Lindsey cringed slightly then pulled back and looked at her.
"Ah… so you're okay with it?" she asked in a quiet voice so the other two wouldn't hear. Piper lifted her scared eyebrow in amusement.
"Too late now if I'm not isn't it? It would have been nice if you'd gotten married first but beggars can't be choosers. Please say you'll tie the knot before the birth though?" she asked just as quietly. Lindsey smiled shyly and nodded.
"If he remembers me it'll be one of the first things on the list" she said. She frowned and drew in a shaky breath. "God I hope he remembers me."
Hearing this, Phoebe came over and put her arm around Lindsey's shoulder.
"Hey, think positive thoughts remember. And he said he would didn't he? He promised to never forget you" she said. Lindsey sighed.
"It's not something he has any control over though" she said softly and Phoebe squeezed her shoulder.
"Well you'll just have to make him remember then won't you? I'm sure you know exactly how to do that" she said suggestively.
As Paige laughed and Piper swotted her sisters' shoulder, Lindsey blushed. She then stood up straight and squared her shoulders. Yes she would make him remember. Though not in the way Phoebe suggested. If he didn't remember her she would just have to make him fall in love with her all over again. She'd done it once, though she had no idea how. She'd just have to somehow do it again. She nodded her head decisively and as the sister moved back behind the Book, she turned her gaze back to the triquetra-covered wall.
"Are you ready?" Piper asked her for the second time and this time Lindsey's nod was determined instead of uncertain. She took a deep breath. It was now or never. The sisters looked down at the Book and in time, recited the spell.
In this place and in this hour,
We call upon the ancient power,
Open the door through time and space,
Create a path to another place.
Lindsey watched the wall closely as they finished the spell. Even though she knew in her heart that it was going to work, she still felt a very small trickle of doubt. She shouldn't have though. She'd seen the sisters do a lot of things that she would have thought impossible over the years and this was no exception. Her heart started to beat hard and fast as the triquetra on the wall suddenly glowed blue and a powerful swirling vortex appeared. She took another deep breath and then turned towards the sisters.
"Wish me luck" she said, her voice shaking slightly.
"Good luck sweetie. See you in the future" Phoebe said with a smile.
"Yeah good luck dude. Go give em hell!" Paige rallied with a grin. Piper was silent for a couple of second and then she smiled softly.
"Good luck and Goddess bless sister" she said. Lindsey's eyes widened before a joyful smile rocketed across her face. She turned back to the vortex, quickly wiped away the tears on her cheeks and took a final bracing breath. She took one step, two steps and a final one and then she was gone.
It wasn't a terribly rough ride. Lindsey had expected to be incredibly dizzy and disorientated when she stepped out again, but fortunately she wasn't. She didn't feel a thing. One moment she was stepping in and almost instantaneously the next, she was stepping out. No, she didn't feel anything from the vortex, but she definitely felt something the minute she crossed the threshold on the other side. It was hard not to feel yourself being flung backwards into the air. As soon as Lindsey realised what was going on, she twisted onto her back in mid-air and curled herself around her stomach, praying she wouldn't hit anything too hard. Unfortunately her prayers weren't answered, as she crashed into something very solid and slid down onto the floor. Lindsey groaned and shook her head, trying her best to ignore the pain that was spreading down from her shoulders. At least I know I'm in the right place she thought. No one else TK's like a Halliwell does. She stayed were she was for a moment or two and when no other attack seemed imminent, she cautiously lifted her head and looked around the room. Standing over by the Book with his hand still raised was a tall blond man and a dark haired teenage girl. They were both staring at her suspiciously.
"Okay who are you and what are you doing here?" the blond demanded. Lindsey blinked a couple of times and then with a few winces, slowly got to her feet.
"Is that always your policy? Shoot first and ask questions later?" she groaned again. "No don't answer that. I'm guessing you're Wyatt Halliwell? So of course it is. That's what Halliwells do" she muttered. Her eyes suddenly widened and her hands flew to her stomach. She closed her eyes and quickly assessed the situation. Everything seemed okay. No blood, that was good. And no pain from her womb either. She breathed a small sigh of relief.
"How do you know me?" the blond man – Wyatt, he'd just confirmed it – asked. "And how do you know my family? I've never seen you before." Lindsey snorted.
"Don't be so sure about that" she said and Wyatt frowned.
"Answer my questions or you'll fly again" he growled. Lindsey raised her hands in surrender.
"Okay, okay, I'm not here to hurt anyone! Jeez, not very trusting are you? Never mind the fact that I just used a spell to get here that could only come from the Book of Shadows. My name is Lindsey and-"
"Wyatt? Melinda? Are you guys okay?" a very familiar panicked voice called from down the stairs and Lindsey spun around to watch a twenty-years-older Piper Halliwell rush into the room, her sisters following her. When her eyes fell on Lindsey, she stopped dead. Lindsey gave her a small smile.
"Ah, hi Piper" she said softly and a squeal sounded from behind the still stunned matriarch.
"Lindsey! Oh my god it's you!" Phoebe cried and the next thing Lindsey knew, she was buried in the middle sisters arms. Lindsey laughed softly at her exuberance.
"Yeah it's me Phoebe. It's good to see you, though for me it was only five minutes ago that I left you" she said wryly.
"Well for us dude it was twenty two years ago!" and Lindsey laughed again as the youngest Charmed One hugged her enthusiastically. Paige hadn't changed a bit. Lindsey turned towards Piper who still hadn't moved.
"Kit got your tongue?" she asked teasingly and Piper finally woke up. She stepped forward and pulled the younger woman into a hard hug.
"I'm glad you finally made it" she said softly before stepping back and placing her hand gently on Lindsey's stomach. "And this I take it…?" Lindsey nodded.
"I think it's okay. Though your son did throw me rather hard when I got here so we might want to get it checked out" she whispered. Piper gasped and pulled away to glare at her son and the girl who Lindsey assumed was her daughter, both of whom were watching the scene with a large amount of confusion. She was about to begin berating them when a tinkling sound rang through the room and a swirl of blue and while orbs appeared out of nowhere. Lindsey went completely and utterly still when the orb cloud cleared to reveal a man with dark chocolate brown hair and a pair of startling, very intense green eyes. He gazed around the room and raised his eyebrow in question.
"Hey guys, what's going on?" he asked in a deep throaty voice and the sound of it swam through Lindsey's head and flowed down into her bloodstream, waking up nerve endings that had been dead for the past month. Her heart began pounding in her ears and she took two slow steps towards him. She didn't even notice the look of horror that flashed across Phoebe's face.
"Oh damn! Lindsey, stop, you can't… I have to tell you something-"
Lindsey ignored Piper as she tugged urgently on her arm. Staring at the man in front of her intensely, she took another step, and then another and then suddenly she was running. She slammed straight into the man, knocking him back a step or two. Her arms viced around his neck and her heart filled with joy. He was here! He was alive! She buried her face into his throat.
"Chis…" she breathed as her body began to tremble. She was so caught up in her reaction that she didn't notice him freeze in surprise until he grabbed her arms and pulled her away from him.
"Umm… Hi. Who are you?" he asked and Lindsey suddenly went very cold. Her eyes locked on his, ignoring the way he went still as he saw the unusual violet colour of her own. And all she saw in them was confusion. None of the pride. None of the desire. None of the love he'd looked at her with just over a month ago. Ice filled Lindsey's veins and her face went utterly blank.
"You don't know who I am" she whispered in a hollow voice. Chris frowned.
"No. I'm really sorry but I have no idea who you are" he said gently and Lindsey's world crashed down around her.