Dreaming Of You

Chapter 1: After The War

I stepped out of my room after having a long nap. Everybody was in Figaro celebrating the defeat of Kefka. I looked down, from the balcony I was leaning over, and around the dance floor. Relm was attempting to teach Gau how to waltz. I looked over to the punch table. Setzer was talking with Edgar. Probably trying to get tips on how to 'woo' Celes. Of course, Edgar's tips, in my opinion, are not too reliable. He hasn't even been able to get a wife yet, let alone a girlfriend. I have nothing against him or anything, but I think he needs a new technique, and everybody else agrees with me as a matter of fact.

I looked over to the desert table. Of course, as usual, Sabin was 'chowing down' as what he calls it. And well, I found something strange. I had just noticed that Sabin was alone at that table. Locke was usually with him. So was Gau, but he was a little busy trying not to step on Relm's toes. I looked to the couch. Locke was sitting with Celes. He always did have a, well, 'thing' for her. If you know what I mean. But, I will not judge. These sorts of things had always confused me. I know what love for children is. But not that kind. It bewilders me to see Locke romancing over her like that. Not that I will judge or anything. I just can't see myself or anybody else instead of him, Edgar, and Setzer romancing over anybody like that. Locke and Setzer both have a 'thing' for Celes. So I wonder who Edgar has a 'thing' for? Of course, it's none of my bussiness. And, again, I will not judge.

Though I didn't try, I could hear everything Locke and Celes were talking about. I also was sort of spying on them without trying. I tried to shut my ears, or concentrate on something else. But it didn't work. I seemed to be drawn to what they were talking about. It seemed that Celes didn't want to talk, since it didn't seem like she was actually listening. It was as if I was jealous or upset that he was with Celes, when I knew I really wasn't. Or I think that's what I wanted to believe.

"So, how are you feeling?"

"What?" She turned around and faced him since she didn't hear what he said.

"I asked you how you were feeling."

"Oh. Fine, I guess." She turned away from him again.

"So, are you happy about it?"

"About what?"

"About finally being free of the empire. That Kefka's finally DEAD!"

"Well, yeah, I guess."

"You just guess?!"

"Look, I just don't feel like talking ok?!"

That really surprised me. She snapped at him and just left. Like he was a thief that stole a million dollars from her or something. Though Locke would probably try to kill me if he heard me say that. He was bewildered. It wasn't like Celes to do something like that. And everybody knew it.

"Geez, she could have just said she didn't want to talk in the first place."

Locke started looking around for god knows what. Then he looked up towards the balcony and noticed me watching him. It sort of took me by surprise. I wasn't expecting it. My heart was racing. He would probably accuse me of spying. That was the last thing I needed at this point.

He got up off the couch and ran up the stairs while still staring at me. I just pretended not to notice. Though it was hard. Someone staring at me makes me paranoid. But only when I don't know what they're thinking. He ran up to me and put his arms around my waist. I was a little bewildered, since I didn't know why he done it, until he started tickling me. I started laughing hysterically and begged for mercy.

He was always like that. Acting so care free and fun loving. That's what everyone loved about him. But I knew things about him that no one else knew. Except for maybe Rachel. Who had died from one of Kefka's attacks in Kohlingen. She still meant a lot to him. But he was willing to move on. He acts so care free. But he really isn't. I know more about him than what he thinks. For some reason, I can see right through him. I can always see what he's really thinking. When it comes to his true feelings anyway. But, I will not judge.

"What are you doing up here? Shouldn't you be down there enjoying the party like everybody else? Well, except for one very grumpy lady." He said in his happy little voice. He was so relaxed. And for some reason, I found that he acted differently around me. Not like he did around everybody else. So cool and really smooth.

"I just came out of my room and seen Celes leave you in a huff," I said trying to sound and seem confused. As if I already didn't know what happened.

"Yeah," He said combing his fingers through his gorgeous blond head of hair. I always thought his hair was perfect on him. "I don't know what got into her."

All of a sudden a slow love song came on. Relm and Gau left the dance floor, since they've been dancing all night and were tired. It was a beautiful song. One of my favorites. Since I didn't have a partner, I couldn't dance to it like I always loved to. And just then, Locke started a conversation about the song.

"I like this song. It used to be played all the time in Kohlingen. I would dance with Rachel, to it all night. She loved to dance. She taught me how to do a few. Like the waltz and slow dancing."

"I've heard it before too. It's one of my favorites." I blirted it out like I was hopeful that he would ask me to dance. I really wasn't though. I wasn't even thinking about it.

He looked at me and smiled that smile. He never smiled like that at anybody else, but me. It was starting to make me wonder if he was a player or not. And I could have sworn I felt my heart melt right there and then. And something made me want to kiss him at that moment. I never felt like that before. It was the first time I actually noticed he was smiling at me in that sort of, well, 'sexy' way. Not that I'm 'turned on' by it or anything. And I think I blushed.

Then he held out his hand and was still smiling at me. "Ya wanna dance?"

I was a little surprised. Why would he want to dance with me? But I went along with it anyway. I took his hand and he led me down stairs. We started dancing with Edgar glaring at us for some reason. I tried not to pay attention. It wasn't that hard. I got lost into Locke's eyes. Then I started to sing the song. It caught me by surprise and then I didn't want to stop so I just kept singing.

"Every night in my dreams
I see you
I feel you

That is how I know you go on
Far across the distance and spaces between us
You have come to show you go on

Near far wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

Love can touch us one time
And last for a lifetime
And never let go til we're gone

Love was when I loved you
One true time I hold you
In my life we'll always go on

Near far wherever you are
I believe that the heart does go on
Once more you open the door
And you're here in my heart
And my heart will go on and on

You're here there's nothing I fear
And I know that my heart will go on
We'll stay forever this way
You are safe in my heart
And my heart will go on and on"

While I sang the song, I felt him pulling me closer to him. Soon, he had his arms wrapped around me, and mine around him. I felt like he was kissing my neck. I remember having this feeling from it. Like it felt nice, but I wasn't quite sure that he was doing it. It could have been my mind playing tricks on me. But why would I think of him doing something like that? It's not like I actually had a 'thing' for him. Did I? I remember closing my eyes and imagining him kissing me for some reason.

When we looked up at each other, we were close enough to kiss and the song was just going over. For some reason, we kept dancing like we were caught in a moment or something. I felt a great desire to kiss him again for some reason. But I held back. Of course, he took me by surprise and kissed me.

We kissed for the longest time. It felt warm. I felt warm for the first time I can remember. It was like something was melting all over again. I finally managed to pull away from him. I knew it was wrong of me to lead him on like that. I muttered to myself about how upset Celes would be if she seen that, since I was pretty sure she had a 'thing' for him too. Then I realized that we were still dancing, and Locke was smiling that 'sexy' smile again.

"Locke," I murmured, I was still under the affect of the kiss. "The song is over."

"Oh, right." He said it in a soft whisper, with that smile still tugging at his soft lips. I determined that they were soft while we kissed. He kissed me softly on the lips again.

My heart was pounding. And for some reason, I wanted to kiss him again. And for some strange reason, I did. I have not a clue what got into me that night. I'll probably never know. I knew I didn't have a 'thing' for Locke. So why did I have this urge to kiss him tonight? And why am I kissing him? I didn't get why I was acting so crazy. It's like my heart was controlling me now. And I don't even know why my heart wanted me to do this. My heart never controlled me before. My mind always did. So why the hell did it have to start now?

I don't know how, but somehow, we ended up lying on the couch, kissing. He was on top of me. I couldn't control myself. My mind was telling my heart to stop, but my heart just kept saying shut up. By the time he pulled away, I was panting. He started kissing my neck after giving me that smile. It felt the same way it did on the dance floor. It was a feeling of delight. The last thing I remember, is closing my eyes.

AN: Song used in this fic is "My Heart Will Go On" sung by Celine Dion. Just to let you know that I DO NOT own this song or claim to.