"You are my homecoming. When I'm with you and we're well together, there is nothing more I want. You make me like who I am, who I become when you're with me...If there is any truth in the world, it lies when I'm with you, and if I find the courage to speak my truth to you one day, remind me to light a candle in thanksgiving at every altar in Rome." call me by your name by Andre Aciman

"Dear Die-ary: Today I learned that on the inside, I'm pretty fuckin' ugly." Nny XD Johnny the Homicidal Maniac (basically alll the quotes on here are JtHM stuff. :P)

Bio:

So...you wanna know about me...uhm...I like english muffins?

I mostly write Slash/Shounen-Ai. Just a warning. It's always written in the summary if it does include it but I do NOT write graphic scenes. In fact, I only allude to sex. I don't write it, so I don't think my stories will not offend you unless you happen to be a bigoted homophobic asshole. :) There is my warning. Thank you.

"Not a monster, not a bogeyman. Understand that it's just a person - not worth devoting any nightmares to." Johnny the Homicidal Maniac.

My Stories:

Two First Kisses - Complete/Shounen-Ai/Loveless (KioxYayoi)

We're Not Lovers - Complete/Threesome/Ouran High School Host Club (KyouyaxHaruhixTamaki)

Lost - Complete/Het/Ouran High School Host Club (MorixHaruhi)

Mori Knows - Unfinished/Shounen-Ai and Het/Ouran High School Host Club (MorixHunny, TamakixHaruhi, KaoruxHikaru)

Deflowered? - Complete/Het/Oneshot/Princess Tutu (FakirxAhiru) Comic of Inspiration 8D

A Familiar Duck - Complete/Het/Oneshot/Princess Tutu (FakirxAhiru)

My Stream of Consciousness - Unfinished/Slash/Scrubs (JDCox) HIATUS

Hikaru's Smile - Unfinished/Het/Ouran High School Host Club (HikaxHaru)

You've Got Me - Complete/No Pairing/One shot/Bare: A Pop Opera (Matt and Ivy)

I Will Follow You Into the Dark - Unfinished/Shounen-Ai/Death Note (MattxMello)

The Next Ten Minutes - Complete/Shounen-Ai/One shot/Kyou Kara Maoh! (Yuuram)

Fire and Ice - Complete/Shounen-Ai/One shot/DNAngel (SatoxDai)

I'd Rather Die Terrified Than Live Forever - Complete/Shounen-Ai/One shot/Death Note (MelloxNear)

Love So Still, Can You Hear It? - Unfinished/Shounen-Ai/DNAngel (SatoxDai, KradxDark)

Left Behind - Complete/Slash/One Shot/Harry Potter (HarryxDraco)

Inarticulation - Complete/Slash/One Shot/Newsies (SpRace)

Roses Are Red, Violets Are Too - Complete/Slash/100 Word Drabble/Newsies (Sputchy)

A Heart Full of Love - Complete/Het/One Shot/Les Miserables (onesidedEppie/Maruis)

Goldilocks? - Complete/No Pairing/One Shot/Newsies (Dutchy and Co. just a crack!fic :D)

Dreamland - Unfinished/Slash/A Series of Unfortunate Events (Klaus/Duncan) DISCONTINUED

In the works, bold means it is currently being worked on

Tamaki's Folly: Ouran HSHC, post series. Tamaki has been placed in another arranged marriage but he tells his grandmother about his clandestine relationship with Kyouya and she is not pleased. Five years after graduation. Not a fan of the title. Suggestions would be appreciated.

Princess Tutu: So far untitled, but after writing A Familiar Duck I decided that I wanted to do a sort of AU type fic revolving around the plot of Pride and Predjudice, which if you read the A/N for A Familiar Duck you will see is my absolute favorite Jane Austen Novel. Obviously, Fakir will be Mr. Darcy. XD

It's Like a Memory From a Dream: Afterschool Nightmare, post series. SouxMashiro. SPOILERS AHEADSummary: It was like a memory. A memory from a dream she couldn’t remember. When she had looked into that boy’s eyes in the train station she had experienced the most overwhelming sense of déja vú she had ever experienced that she was positive it was nothing of the sort.SPOILERS ENDED

Dear Friend: Ouran HSHC, Every day Haruhi turns on her computer eagerly awaiting three special words. Tamaki stares at his computer as it boots up with baited breath. And finally, "You've got mail!" And two people on either side of town speak. "I have mail. From you." Loosely based on You've Got Mail, i.e. Parfumerie, i.e. She Loves Me. TamakixHaruhi

Aftershocks: Bare futurefic. A grieving Peter, unable to forget has turned to hallucinations and delusions of his deceased boyfriend.

Hey: Ouran HSHC, AU. Post-anime, Tamaki runs off with Eclair in the hopes of seeing his Mother again and Haruhi is left alone and distraught. She leaves the Host Club as soon as her debt is repaid, and separates herself from all of her old friends. Years later in University, She runs into an old friend, but she has changed. Drastically. Eventual MorixHaruhi. Based on the song "Hey #2" from Next to Normal.

WHAT WOULD YOU LIKE TO SEE FIRST? I'd like to finish I Will Follow You Into the Dark first, but I'll be puttering around on these as I do it. SO. What do you think?

Name: Rose (Rosel)

Age: 17

IM me: utterSKULLDUGERY

Email me: grasping.at.pearls@rock.com

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LiveJournal: http://euphoria_anger.livejournal.com

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Current Music: "Pinball Wizard" The Who's Tommy

"He stands like a statue, becomes part of the machine. Feeling all the bumpers, always playing clean. He plays by intuition, the digit counters fall. That deaf, dumb and blind kid sure plays a mean pinball!"

Updates:

10/20/09 - I just uploaded a KioxYayoi loveless fic for Becca and Mikky. :)

09/30/09 - Yesterday I posted a MorixHaruhi fic for Midnight Leopard's birthday, and today I posted a KyouyaxHaruhixTamaki fic. blush That's the closest thing I've ever written to smut and I'm still a little embarrassed about writing it, let alone posting it, even though it's not graphic at all.

08/20/09 - I updated I Will Follow You Into the Dark!! :D woohoo!

08/15/09 - I uploaded a new Ouran oneshot called Mori Knows. It's not showing up on my profile though. So heres a link to it. Mori Knows

08/14/09 - I uploaded a new oneshot for Princess Tutu - Deflowered? I am also basically finished with the latest chapter of IWFYITD and will me sending it to SekushiAi to be beta'd later today!

07/10/09 - I uploaded a new oneshot for Princess Tutu - A Familiar Duck. I got my compy back so I'll be working on IWFYITD :)

07/04/09 - So yesterday I updated drabble two. And just now I updated drabble three! :D WOOHOO ME! I plan to update this story everyday until I get bored with it. My computer is currently in the shop to fix up some glitches so I don't know when I'll be able to update anything but this since this is what I have saved on this computer but don't worry. I don't think it will be there long! :) Please review the drabbles! I think they're okay but it's hard to fit a whole plot into a 100 word story so some reassurance would be awesome.

07/02/09 - New story. Scrubs. Series of drabbles to break my writer's block! Please R&R! :D To readers of IWFYITD and Hikaru's Smile: Hopefully there will be updates soon. I just moved and my dad hasn't set up my computer yet and those stories are saved on that computer so I'm currently using my parent's computer so I'm sorry! Once my computer is set up I'll try and finish the next chapter and a few more!

06/18/09 - WoOT! I update I Will Follow You Into the Dark!! :D YAY ME! Please read and I hope you drop a line to let me know what you think!

06/11/09 - Yeah. So. The last update was a total lie. But it wasn't at the time if that makes up for it! Sorry! But for all you Ouran people, I wrote a HikaHaru fic based one Episode 21 (the Halloween episode) and it's relatively good. So yeah. Anime Boston was AWESOME. And I really am trying with I Will Follow You Into the Dark.

4/30/09 - HI GUYS. Sorry. I know. I've been gone forever. You all hate me for not updating. But I'm going to try and update by this time next week. I've just been really super busy. I LOVE YOU. Oh, and who is going to Anime Boston? Because I am going and me and my friends (including chibipandachan if any of you are fans of her) are going to have a table at Artists Alley and I will (hopefully) be selling shirts.

2/25/09 - I've uploaded up to chapter 9!

1/21/09 - Chapter 6 is up!

1/18/09 - Chapter 5 is up. I also wrote a oneshot about Matt and Ivy for Bare. :D It's actually pretty good, if short. I wrote it for my writing example for NH Young Writers Conference, and they just wanted a page long example of my writing.

1/16/09 - HAI! Chapter 4 is up! I have been updating regularly for once! 8D Go read it!

1/9/09 - HAPPY NEW YEAR! I UPDATED! Sorry for the wait. I was avoiding writing dear Matty's death scene. TT-TT Enjoy, review, and criticize! :D (I used the word 'wazoo' in the story. Just so you know. I'm pretty excited about it. I love that word.)

12/13/08 - Just uploaded chapter one of I Will Follow You Into the Dark. :D I've been waiting to upload that all week xD. Read and I hope you liked it!

12/4/08 - I just uploaded a Kyou Kara Maoh! fic. It's just something i started last night and finished today. It's un-beta'd and just some shounen ai. :D So go read it.

PAUL NOWELL=LOSER

Likes: L, Matt (Death Note), Mello, Near, Musicals, Meat Loaf, WATCHMEEENNNN!!, Death Note, The Beatles, Kyo Kara Maoh!, DNAngel, Billy Joel, Spring Awakening, Bare, Dark (he's hawt), Sato (same as dark), Kamelot, Johnny the Homicidal Maniac, Tamaki, the Host Club in general, Squee!, Invader Zim, Full Metal Alchemist, REVIEWS/CRITISISM!!, Bat Boy, Fanfic :3, title of show, making shirts, Ouran, Korean clothes :D, Caught in the Act, Red Dragon, Silence of the Lambs, Hannibal, and Hannibal Rising (yeah. I love Hannibal. ALOT), facebook (it's so much better than myspace), Dum Dums and Tootsie Roll pops, WERTHERS. OMG FAVORITE CANDY EVER, Chocolate (obvi), Anastasia (that movie rocks), Across the Universe, Hikaru No Go, The Last 5 Years

Dislikes: Rap, Scary Movie (All of them. They're stupid and not funny), High School Musical, Bishop Brady High School, New Hampshire, High School in General, the MOVIE of Rent, Zac Efron, Vanessa Anne Hudgens, Time Travel Fics - they are so cheesy and are usually horribly written and filled with Mary-Sues (yes i used to like them...when I was eleven...and had horrible fanfic taste), PAUL NOWELL...LOLZ

Current Location: Stalkerville, US, North America, Planet Earth, Milky Way Galaxy, The Universe.

Top 5 Fav. FanFic Authors:

5. Banisters

4. Sita-chan

3. LeftyHiggins

2. SekushiAi

1. studentnumber24601

Top 5 Fav. FanFic Stories/Series:

5. Failing Jesus (Sita-chan)

4. How I Spent My Summer Vacation (studentnumber24601)

3. Kiss Me, I'm Irish/Paperclips are Useless and Should Burn in Hell/The Kind of Vending Machine That Eats Your Dollar (Banisters)

2. Broken/Stolen (Sekushi Ai)

1. Take Care of the Poor Boy/Everything You've Done Wrong (Cowritten by Funkiechick and studentnumber24601)

Fandoms I enjoy and ship in said famdoms:

DEATH NOTE (hawt. -geekdom-)

LxLight - but only when done right

MattxMello - omg. they is hawt. RAWR. Yay for Death Note OTP!

MelloxNear - idk...sometimes i like it sometimes i dont. just depends on the quality of the writing

Dislikes:

LxMatt, LxMello, LxNear - ewwwwwww pedophilia! MY HERO IS NOT A PEDOPHILE OKAY?!

LightxMisa or LightxTakada - fucking ew. Misa is a stupid slut and Takada is and annoying whore.

LightxAnyone but L - i just can't do this. no way no how. i've tried but it just doesnt work.

Especially Mikami. Mikami is a crazy stalker.

AFTER SCHOOL NIGHTMARE (omgomgomg.mangagasm)

Sou/Mashiro - omfgsofuckingcuuuutteee though it's awkwardly hetyaoi After School Nightmare OTP

Kureha/Shinbashi - awww he's like a puppy dog. his dream form made me love him even more (whoahwhoahwhoah...HET?!)

Dislikes:

Mashiro/Kureha - nonononononononononononoooooooooooooo

Sou/Kureha - FUCK YOU KUREHA. BACK OFF. SOU IS MASHIRO'S!

NEWSIES (they hawt.) -

Jack/Davey - It works so well. And it's...canon...especially in Hard Promises (the original script before it became a musical)

Race/Spot - The two hottest things to come out of Newsies. Yes. Yes. Yes. Newsies OTP

Blink/Mush - Canon much? um, yesyesyes! They share a drink. THEY SHARE A DRINK!

Skittery/Snitch - MEWL.

Itey/Snitch - the bed scene. Hee hee.

Specs/Dutchy - Rawr. It makes me happy inside XDD

Bumlets/Dutchy - i just like it :)

Race/Blink - dont ask...

Dislikes:

Jack/Sarah - It's there. It's true. I know I'm in denial but it's gross.

Davey/Mush - I cannot do this. No way no how. So sorreh.

SPRING AWAKENING (love.love.love. -is theatre kid-)

Wendla/Melchi - one of the three canon het. pairings i enjoy out of everything. SO CUTE! SA OTP

Ernst/Hanschen - RAWR "Me, I'm like a pussycat. I just skim off the cream." "...Just...s-s-skim off the cream?"

Ilse/Moritz - although not specifically stated totally canon and so cute. it makes my heart happy.

Dislikes:

Melchi/Moritz - everytime someone ships this a Wendla baby dies

OURAN HIGH SCHOOL HOST CLUB (boy love and bishounen!! squee)

Haruhi/Tamaki - ...just...awwwwwwwwww =3 Tamaki is devilishly handsome. : Ouran OTP (but...whoah...HET?!)

Hikaru/Kaoru - twincest. lol. not into incest at all unless its these two. Or Shelley and Edgar from Bat Boy.

Mori/Haruhi - too. freaking. cute. nuff said.

Mori/Honey - AIKAFLDAJKHDAFKNFDANAFDKNSOFRICKENCUUUUUUTE :D

Hikaru/Haruhi - idfk. sometimes i like it...ish. it kind of goes against my two fav pairings though...

Kyouya/Haruhi - a new love. :D it just works. :)

Kyouya/Tamaki - idk. i like it. :P

Dislikes:

Kaoru/anyone but Hikaru - lololol just doesnt work at all.

Honey/Mori - Honey can NOT be the seme. NO. NONONONONONONO. it does NOT work that way.

HARRY POTTER (because who can deny the beauty of this fandom, who? -is geek- ) -

Harry/Draco - my Harry Potter OTP,

Ron/Hermione - Simple, obvious and adorable.

Harry/Cedric - the only other person i pair Harry with. =D

Seamus/Dean - OMFGsocute.

Percy/Oliver - AMAZING. How is it not canon?

Bill/Fleur - the best het. pairing in HBP besides R/Hr, I mean come on, think about it.

Remus/Sirius - Yeeesssh. Puppy love.

Dislikes:

Harry/Ginny - my least favorite HP pairing ever. It's just so, so wrong. In so many ways. She is the spawn of satan and such a Mary Sue. Oh, how you've turned on me J.K.

Neville/Percy - I'm sorry. This scares me.

Draco/Anyone but Harry - I cannot do this. Nuh uh.

Lucius/James - Um, what? Lucius's hair is too long.

Peter/Anyone - Fucking ew.

Snape/Anyone - I love Snape...but NO

BARE: A POP OPERA (SO. SAD. ILOVEITTEHYAYZ. =D) -

Peter/Jason - OBVI. Bare OTP.

Matt/Ivy - just...=)

Dislikes:

Basically anything else. XD

LES MISERABLES (friggin sweeeeet!) -

onesidedEppie/Marius - I love Eponine, and hate Cosette but Eppie/Marius is just wrong

Eponine/Enjolras - YAY. Les Mis OTP

Combeferre/Courfeyrac - i think it's amazing

Enjolras/Grantaire - only other person i pair Enjy with

Dislikes:

Marius/Cosette - It's there and I'm in denial but it's just bad. I hate Cosette. And Marius is annoying.

Marius/Anyone - as previously stated: Marius is annoying

D.N.ANGEL (KAWAII!! =3)

SatoxDai - AWWWW! yayy. i love it. they hawt. DNAngel OTP

Riku/Dai - wow. I actually like another het pairing. o.O creeeepy

DarkxKrad - LOOOOVVEEEE IIIITTT!! lolz. something about mortal enemies just isnt computing in my brain i guess...lawlz

DarkxDai - sometimes I like it. it's cute when its done right.

Dislikes:

KradxAnyone but Dark - NO! I will read it occasionally but only when theres nothing else to read. KradxSato is just...eeeww!

RisaxDark - no. Risa is annoying. she can go die for all I care. Dark is too amazing for her.

Kyou Kara Maoh! (how can you not love something where someone gets sucked into a toilet?! xD)

Yuuri/Wolfram - accidental fiancees! xD They're so adorable. Kyou Kara Maoh! OTP

Shori/Murata - ahhh so cute! I love it. there is a serious shortage of fics about these two though. D:

Gwendal/Gunter - cuuuuuuuuuuuuuute :D

Conrart/Yozak - lololololol. this is just silly and awesome.

Dislikes:

Yuuri/anyone but Wolfram - nonononononononononono. especially Conrart. That's like pairing Sirius and Harry. fucking ew.

Wolfram/anyone but Yuuri - nonononononononononono.

Gunter/Yuri - ew. thats like LightxMikami. Gunter is okay. he's just kind of a stalker.

Princess Tutu (SO. FUCKING. BEAUTIFUL. AND SAD. TT_TT) -

Fakir/Ahiru - asd.gjadkgj;a sobeautifulandwondrousand...and...CANON. =D lol. het. Princess Tutu OTP

Mythos/Rue - aw. but only after the end. When Rue's all GRR I'M KRAEHE AND YOU'RE MINE I'm all STFU. But I kind of like the ones where Mythos is in the Raven prince form and all like...psychologically abusing Kraehe. But then again. FLUFF = YAY so mostly just post finale. Omg. This fandom is filled with het pairings I LIKE. D8 THE HORROR.

Fakir/Mythos - okay. okay. there you go Rose. There's your token yaoi for this fandom. Though I certainly don't like it NEARLY as much as Fakir/Ahiru.

Dislikes:

Fakir/Rue - nonononononoNO. Fakir is AHIRU'S! BACK OFF BITCH.

Mythos/Ahiru - NOOOOOOO. AHIRU. YOU'RE IN LOVE WITH FAKIR. FUCKING ADMIT IT.

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"Sometimes you can cry until there is nothing wet in you. You can scream and curse until your throat rebels and ruptures. You can pray all you want, to whatever god you think will listen. And, still, it makes no difference. It goes on with no sign as to when it might release you. And you never know that if it ever did relent...it would not be because it cared." - Nny, Johnny the Homicidal Maniac

"Dear Die-ary: There's nothing terribly wrong with feeling lost, so long as that feeling preceeds some plan on your part to actually do something about it. Too often, a person grows complacent with their disillusionment, perpetually wearing their 'discomfort' like a favorite shirt. I can't say I'm very pleased with where my life is just now...but I can't help but look forward to where it is going." Nny, Johnny the Homicidal Maniac (he's so deep. :3)

"I've been talking to dead rabbits and feeding bloody walls. I've done horrifying things with salad tongs! It's really eaten into my social life..." more Nny. xD he makes my day better.

I love you all, Rosel XOXO

"Call me by your name and I'll call you by mine."