so i'm named samantha after a skank from dynasty. right now i'm the oldest i've ever been, which is somewhere between seventeen and eighteen (not that you could tell from looking at me). i sometimes think people don't like me because i'm not gorgeous. it's a weakness of mine. i start uni in '09 and the course occupying preference number one is science (majoring in psychology and philosophy) at UNSW.

'08 has been the worst year of my life in more ways than one, and yet i think i may have found myself in this year more than ever. i know what i want and how i think i'm going to get there. and i've realised who i want to be standing next to me when i do, not that it means they want to be there too. this year has taught me a number of things about life. nothing and no one lasts forever is one of them. feeling the horrible stuff and knowing that you’re not gonna die from the feelings? i believe that’s the goal. to be willing to stand in your truth, stand in your vulnerability, stand in your fear, stand at your breaking point and hold on to yourself – that’s what matters.

i think it's funny that a person would wear sunscreen, but not stop smoking. in fact the point of smoking at all goes right over my head, especially smokers of my generation. let's just say non-smoking is a passion of mine? i love romance novels (not the harlequin type), the type that are beautiful and reflect some kind of reality in their emotions, lame huh? i tend to be the awkward one in social situations, the reason isn't that i dislike people or specifically don't get along, its that i feel like everything i say has to be perfect, like i'm giving a presidential speech everytime i open my mouth. my harry potter obsession is unhealthy, and i refuse to believe hermione and draco weren't meant for each other. final random fact; i got my jetski license before i got my drivers.