Living a painful Life

Day by day I wake

From my dream and shake

For not once have I had

Such a good dream in hand

But then when I wake

The true nightmare awaits

Because I have to live the day

I wish I could go away

In the mirror I stare

as the pain I couldn't bare

makes my eyes cry

and makes the tears flow by

as darkness rules my sight

I pull myself in might

and then said to myself

i shouldn't be weak and fell

As im ready for the day

I march myself away

I put my mask in place

and makes a happy face

but still I couldn't dare

to see their hated glare

throwing at me

ripping each part of me

As I steadily walk

I hear them talk

how I wish I'm innocent

for me not to know what they meant

for each word that came

gives me terrible pain

for each shout I hear

I wish I wasn't here

As I turn and run

Wanting to hide from everyone

I run, nothing to know

Which way I can go

For I have nobody

Not even a family

Cause from the start I’m alone

Having no one to come home

As I came to a clearing

I set myself crying

Cause I know I have nothing

Not a single being

Someone that I can unfold

The true sadness that I hold

Someone that I could tell

That I live in such a hell

And after my tears have gone dry

I stand myself and try

To face the world and find

The people that would love me behind

The truth that a demon lay

With me till I die

The people tat would see

A child inside of me

As I see some friends

I hope that they will lend

Some smile that would heal

The sadness that I feel

But then they turn their back

Leaving my heart with such a crack

That it turns to bleeding

With this emptiness feeling

As I see birds fly

I stood myself and ask why

Why give such cruelty

In such a child like me

But as the sun starts setting

I realize that everything has its meaning

Like every beginning

Has its own ending

And now as darkness come

I let myself to be gone

For now I said goodbye

To this miserable lie

Cause no more can I take

This feeling of being hate

For no reason why

I’m living such a painful life