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I am an immature, whiny writer wanna-be. Moody to the extreme, petulant like a child... Welcome.

Hmmm... After being so long into Anime-Manga, I became immune to most of the things. I am a Yaoi fangirl, who doesn't read Het pairings although silently ships a few. I have a huge collection of Anime Series, more than 50 series actually, and those are the ones that I like and deemed fit to keep. The others? Well, I watch and then forget about them.

My all times favourites are Vampire Knight, Kuroshitsuji, Fullmetal Alchemist, Ghost Hunt, Bleach, Ayakashi/Mononoke, Rurouni Kenshin, X/99, xxxHolic, Saiyuki, Kyou Kara Maou, Death Note, Reborn!, and Ouran High School Host Club. But my ultimate Favourite is Code Geass and Lelouch is the Emperor of this world and I pledge my loyality to him! XD

I can write-read most of the genres if it is well written. Non-Con, Violence, Torture, S&M don't scare me in fanfictions though I avoid reading horribly written, shallow, too-much-detailed fics on those subjects. I use them in my fics, too... But they aren't something you can treat lightly and they don't give you the permission of making your characters all happy and dandy after these kind of traumas... Yuck!

Actually, I am more of a reader than a writer myself. Maybe because I am generally lazy and spoil sport to sit down and write fics when there are good fics to read. What makes me write are the bad fics that I encounter here. Silly, isn't it?

What I abhor in fanfiction is, OCs... I hate Mary Sues and Gary Stues... Of course, if an OC is needed as a plot device or which is there to fill a necessity in the plot it is understandable. But OCs as protagonists in a Fanfiction? Hell no! In the early stages of writing , learning how to develop an idea into a plot and expand it into a fic, one can start with OCs. But continuing your road as a fanfic writer as a Mary sue writer when you can do better than that is unforgivable. I never read them. One must create a really Original OC for me to be persuaded to sacrifice my time on reading an OC story that doesn't make me wanna stab the character to death with Suzaku's pink sword...many times.

There are useful things as Punctuation, Paragraphing, italicising, bolding... Please use them in your writing. You'll see that your readers will appreciate your efford. There are also spellling-checkers. Nearly all good programs have them inbuilt like Open Office or WinWord. I am not the best one in this subject and I am still learning while making mistakes. But at least I am learning. Dumping your work onto a Beta is not something that will help you in becoming a good writer. -Though I don't know who would do beta on some of the hellish stories I encounter here.- I did some beta work in the past and I hated it. Read, read, read... Especially if you are not a native speaker of English. But when I check some of the writer's profile -whose fics I couldn't even read because of spelling, grammatical, and punctuational mistakes- and see that they live in an English speaking country, I feel sad as a teacher...

Well, too much nonsense above...

Notes on My Stories:

Desecrate You: Alright... I have been getting numerous PMs telling me that I should continue this. Well, I don't feel like complying to that request now. This fic -while I wrote it- completely sucked my soul... Its theme is domestic violence and rape. This was written as a Kink Meme request and suddenly it spiralled out of control when people demanded to read more. I obliged, but after posting the sixth chapter of it, I felt drained emotionally.

The fic is terribly OOC, and I hate it for it. I am now feeling remorseful for continuing it at that time because now I feel sad to not being able to gather the guts to write more even though the plot line is ready and sitting on my laptop. I simply can't bring myself to write the rest of it. Becuase I am writing about lovers who are drifted apart because of domestic violence.

This is a very touchy subject and I love both of the characters and feel unable to continue this fic without making the offender seem like a total jerk or a forgivable fool of his own shortcomings. I don't want it seem as if I am treating rape lightly by making the victim forgive him, but my heart doesn't want to leave the offender in misery and desperation, too. I don't know if I made myself clear even for a bit. But right now, I don't want to look at that fic's face until I feel more comfortable with what I plan to write and with what my readers' possible reactions would be.

I will finish this fic someday, I promise... And I know that some readers hate me for making them wait this long... But this fic is on hiatus and I don't plan to look at it for a while. Yet, know that I WILL COMPLETE IT!!

Staircase to Heaven: My earlier plans about this fic left me. I changed my mind. This fic seems like a stand alone for now, with two chapters that complament each other... I am thinking of re-writing it and making a genderbender fic with FEM!Lelouch. Then again, I might just leave it be and continue it as a collection of stories on the characters' childhood memories. I haven't decided yet. So, This fic is on Hiatus.

Tainted Love: I won't turn back to this fic. In fact, I have written two more chapters for it, but the lack of reader response made me fed up with the stupidity of the Death Note fandom, which left the road of witty plots and indulged itself to unadultered porn... Porn is good, I love it... But forgetting the fact the characters are geniuses and treating them like sex-depraved whores are not my cup of tea. And when I realized how sex sells and the more smutty your fic the more applauded author you are, something snapped in me... So, when you write good buttsmex, you become the "excellent author", huh? Thanks, Do.Not.Want.

My Oneshots: I won't continue them! No, absolutely not! Some readers asked for a continuation of my CG oneshots, especially Can't Refrain... But no... Those fics are perfect the way they are and I learned my lesson from Desecrate You... I won't do the same mistake again.

Incarnadine: I consider this fic as my masterpiece. Though it has only five chapters now, when it is finished I believe it will be the BEST AU VK fic out there. Yes, I am biased. The time and effort I pour for it are immense and I expected it to be received well... But the first rule of Fanfiction caught it, too... Sex sells and plot sucks... This fic has a plot... a steady going, slow developing plot... The boys aren't fucking each other like stupid bunnies whenever they see each other and thus, the reader response sucks majorly. Most of the readers don't see past the relationship and give me those "OMFG!! AWESESOME!! MOAST CoNTINYUUU!!" kind of response and I feel disappointed. I have only a few people commenting on my use of plot devices, vocabulary and flow of the story. Not that I am looking down on the others but those kind of reviews aren't what I want... I want to see someone actually criticising it like a literary critic would do, telling me what lacks, what is good, what they didn't like and what they loved... Well... I am biased when it comes to this fic.

Currently, this fic is on hiatus. But I am still writing it, not posting it. I will wait for a while. I will SURELY FINISH IT EVEN IF DOING SO WOULD KILL ME! But if you'd like to share your mature and constructive ideas on it, fell free to do so.

Moon Drop: A fic written on a whim for a friend... I do not have any claim that this fic is wondeful/fabulous/godsend. In fact, I write it just for the kicks and for my Msn Buddy who loves crack fics and KaZe... As long as you readers and my buddy have a nice time reading it, I don't care at all. Mass kaze-gasm is the best!

I am currently writing the next chapters, even though I have a bit slowed down for some reasons. Thanks for all the reviews... They surely made it possible, even though this fic is not my best... I am working on it...

I have one project for Bleach (HichigoxRenjixIchigo), two for Vampire Knight (KanamexZero), and a few oneshot ideas for Code Geass(SuzakuxLelouch)... I won't post the plot ideas here. I don't want someone to steal them and turn them into crappy excuses of fanfiction. When I feel ready, I will write and post them here.

I can accept challenges. Nearly all my Code Geass ones are challenge stories anyway... If you think that I write well and want to see your plot bunny come to life by my hands with proper credit given to you, PM me with your ideas... I might consider them.

I don't write SEME!Zero (if it is with Kaname). I can do FEM!Zero, though XD KanamexZero, IchiruxZero, ZeroXIchiru or KanamexZeroXIchiru are all wonderful!

I can write LelouchxSuzaku or SuzakuxLelouch. In fact, Lelouch tops everyone, even the world! He is that awesome!! I plan to do a Code Geass & Vampire Knight Crossover just for the kicks... Maybe LelouchxZeroxLelouch as switchables... Wouldn't they be fantastic?

I can try my hand in HichigoxRenji, RenjixIchigo, RenjixRukiaxIchigo... Yes, I can do het if it is for Rukia... Don't ask for Death Note.

If you have anything in your mind, PM me. Actually, you can PM me, add me to MSN, visit my LJ blogs... Feel free... I am not that cold as I seem and I don't mind if an unknown person comes and talks to me about how much life sucks, because I already know it.

Well, take care guys!

PS: Orda hiç Türk var mı? Türkseniz bi mesaj sallayın, bu salak yerde tek deli Türk'ün ben olmadığını bileyim XD Isırmam:D